I secretly liked you for the past ten years

Tang Ying rushed to Mao Xiaoyu's house in a hurry. Although she was not sure what happened, Mao Xiaoyu's tone was too scary, so he couldn't help but worry.Tang Ying always thought that Mao Xiaoyu was very stupid, but now she only felt sorry for him. He just couldn't figure out, how could a person be so unlucky?

In fact, when Tang Ying approached Mao Xiaoyu the first time, she instinctively felt that this guy might be the same kind of person. After getting in touch, she became more and more sure, but occasionally she was puzzled: Mao Xiaoyu had a very good temperament when she was quiet, so good that she couldn't tell the difference between male and female. It's not that he looks feminine, Mao Xiaoyu just has the gentle appearance of the little brother next door. What's strange is that his temperament, which can't be described, has attracted many little girls, but it has also attracted many big men who like little girls.

At the beginning, Tang Ying could only sigh inwardly that he had good genes, and that sitting quietly could make a group of straight men want to move, but later found that Mao Xiaoyu himself was very afraid of being touched by men, especially those big men who were particularly charming in Tang Ying's eyes. A tall, lean, muscular, handsome man.Which little Ling doesn't like this kind of aggressive and high-quality handsome guy, but Mao Xiaoyu stays away from it, and likes to play with gay little shou like himself.This guy Mao Xiaoyu is completely suppressed from his body to his appearance, and he tries his best to avoid those strong attackers who are good at suppressing people at first sight, isn't this a crime of death?Hanging around with little girls and little shouhou every day has no future.

So Tang Ying paid special attention to Mao Xiaoyu, and then gradually turned from paying attention to appreciating him. Although Mao Xiaoyu was not very courageous, he was really gentle and considerate. There are not many men who are so considerate, but they are very kind. Self-motivated, the academic performance has always been among the best, and he never hides his secrets. He takes out all his notes and exam tips to share with everyone.Such a good-looking, good-natured, kind-hearted little guy, Tang Ying took the initiative to pull him into her circle of girlfriends. I know, it's because of his grandma's death this time.

Back then when they went to Beijing to go to school together, Tang Ying knew that Mao Xiaoyu was worried about her grandma who was alone at home, so she asked her parents to visit her when she was free. It was because of this entrustment that Tang Ying's parents found out that grandma had died of a cerebral thrombosis At home, otherwise, when Mao Xiaoyu comes back from vacation, maybe the corpses are all decomposed and no one will know.

When Tang Ying was about to tell Mao Xiaoyu the bad news, she didn't know where he was. It was the first time he heard him answering the phone in such a happy tone, and the indescribable happiness of "Hello" made him unable to bear to say so. The cruel news told him.

Afterwards, he went to the train station to meet Mao Xiaoyu, and silently accompanied the man who had lost his soul to the hospital, the mortuary, and the funeral parlor. Mao Xiaoyu never thanked him, but Tang Ying knew that this person might even be thinking of her for herself. To die without frowning.

But he still didn't expect that the man he thought was the same kind was actually completely different from himself.

Did he know that Mao Xiaoyu was intersex, or was it because of the woman's constant insults on the phone? He listened to those vicious words in surprise, and was at a loss for a long time. Mao Xiaoyu, who was in grief, suddenly collapsed.He huddled in a corner of the wall and yelled hysterically. Tang Ying was startled and hugged him to comfort her. Through his intermittent screams, she finally understood the reason why he was so afraid of being touched by men. Years are people who can't ask for it, and can't give it up.He felt pain in his heart when he heard it, he held Mao Xiaoyu and cried all night, but he was the only one who cried, and Mao Xiaoyu didn't shed a single tear, he just shouted nervously for a while, then stayed there for a while, and just sent out all night like that Crazy.

Tang Ying didn't dare to provoke him anymore, so she just accompanied him carefully. He wanted to take out Mao Xiaoyu's mobile phone card and throw it away, but the other party snatched it back fiercely.He was also very shocked at that time. In his impression, Mao Xiaoyu was extremely timid. At that time, he didn't know what he was obsessed with. Even if he was scolded by that woman, he still insisted on calling every day, begging her to let him and Wang Ziwen have a word. , but he begged for so long, but in the end he only waited for the last sentence mechanically: "The number you dialed is empty."

Tang Ying didn't go anywhere that day, just stayed with Mao Xiaoyu in a daze, Mao Xiaoyu stayed open from dawn to dark, and finally asked him in a whisper, "Tang Ying, is it wrong for me to live?"

Tang Ying was terrified, she kept talking to him, she couldn't remember what she said, but she acted both shocked and flustered, which seemed to bring Mao Xiaoyu back to her senses, he looked at him for a long time, then suddenly said something with a smile , "You still don't want me to die, do you?"

Tang Ying nodded desperately, Mao Xiaoyu leaned her head on his shoulder, closed her eyes, and smiled again, "If you don't want it, then I'll live."

Tang Ying didn't dare to leave him for several days, and she went home hesitantly after hearing his promise not to do anything stupid.

It turned out to be a different day when I came back.

The one who opened the door was a strange man, Tang Ying was classified as the type of strong attack in high school, Mao Xiaoyu was most afraid of this type of person, and for some reason he dared to open the door.Subconsciously, Tang Ying raised her eyebrows, dragged the man out of the door like a child, and shouted, "Who are you! Who let you in!"

The man was very strong, and broke free from him in a few strokes. He frowned and stared at him uncomfortably, as if he was hesitating to do something.It was Mao Xiaoyu who rushed over when he heard the noise, and was startled when he saw that the two were about to fight, so he quickly shouted to the man, "Liang Shuang, don't hit him, he is my friend!"

Tang Ying had heard Mao Xiaoyu complain a few times about Liang Shuang, saying that he had been pestering him for two years in college, which gave him a headache, but he was very surprised when he saw the real person, so handsome, with such a good figure, what is the headache? !It's worth a shot!

But thinking about it, he felt that Mao Xiaoyu was terribly afraid of every good quality man, so it's no wonder he avoided him like a snake.

Tang Ying liked Liang Shuang quite a lot. This man had a hot temper by the looks of him, but he was very patient with Mao Xiaoyu, and he seemed to know his secret long ago, and he was so sincere to him. He really hoped that this The two can be together.

Seeing that Mao Xiaoyu's spirit was getting better, Tang Ying was also happy, and occasionally jokingly asked him if he was attracted to Liang Shuang, but Mao Xiaoyu was just in a daze, her neck stiffened, and she didn't know whether to nod or shake her head.In fact, Tang Ying felt that Mao Xiaoyu was more grateful to Liang Shuang, just like she was to herself. He wanted to give back the same "goodness" to the person who helped him in despair, but Liang Shuang liked him. It's different.

If Tang Ying was rewarded with more sincere friendship and even life, then what else would Liang Shuang be rewarded with?

Tang Ying felt that Mao Xiaoyu must be struggling with this, but he felt that it didn't matter. Liang Shuang was a very good man no matter what. He couldn't believe that after a long time, Mao Xiaoyu could really not be moved by him at all.

It just takes time.

But the word time is the most luxurious and tortured thing in this world.

"Liang Shuang...has he left?" Tang Ying finally arrived at Mao Xiaoyu's house, seeing his pale face, she asked cautiously.

Mao Xiaoyu hummed in a daze, then suddenly grabbed Tang Ying's hand, and placed it on her stomach tremblingly, "Tang, Tang Ying...you think I...will I be pregnant?"

Tang Ying was startled and said in disbelief, "Liang Shuang can make you pregnant in a week?"

Mao Xiaoyu coughed, lowered her head and said, "It's not him...he has been taking care of me, and he hasn't done anything to me."

Tang Ying was even more startled, her mouth opened wide, and she stuttered, "Then, who's that?"

Mao Xiaoyu frowned, didn't speak, and repeated after a while, "Will I really be pregnant?"

Tang Ying closed her mouth, analyzed it with scientific and rigorous thinking, and finally nodded very cautiously, "Theoretically... definitely possible."

Mao Xiaoyu's whole face turned paler, but her eyes didn't fluster, but were just dull.

Tang Ying didn't dare to talk nonsense, and waited for him to figure it out. After a long time, Mao Xiaoyu said in a trembling voice, "Is there anything... can I test? I think I, I seem to be pregnant..."

Tang Ying hurriedly said a few words of comfort, then stood up and said, "Wait for me, I'll go buy some pregnancy test sticks and try it out, don't panic, I'll be right back."

Mao Xiaoyu didn't say anything, she leaned against the head of the bed and stared at her eyes. Tang Ying didn't dare to say anything, so she hurried out and came back after shopping.The two of them frowned and studied the sticks for a long time, barely understood, Mao Xiaoyu took the things into the bathroom, and came out again after finishing, both of them stared at the square without blinking.

Until seeing the second red line gradually and clearly displayed, both Mao Xiaoyu and Tang Ying were stunned.

"How about... try another one? Maybe this one is broken or something is wrong..."

Before he could finish speaking, Mao Xiaoyu opened the other one, and hurried into the bathroom again.

But that damned red thread still appeared little by little, until it was very clear and lined up on it.

Mao Xiaoyu disassembled all three that Tang Ying bought and tried them all, but the result was the same, so she finally stopped tossing and sitting on the bed in a daze.

Tang Ying didn't dare to ask who the child belonged to, but thinking of Liang Shuang's temper, she said cautiously, "It's okay. My uncle has a private hospital in Beijing. I'll accompany you. We'll beat you up. It's just that Liang Shuang Shuang is not there, we killed him before he came back, and he didn't know..."

Mao Xiaoyu was stunned for a long time before saying, "I can't... I can't lie to him, I don't want to lie to him..."

Tang Ying also knew that this was not good, but he was really afraid that Mao Xiaoyu would be provoked again, so he hesitated and said, "Then... then you can tell him, he doesn't care that you are intersex anymore, he still cares that you shed one Children? Don’t tell me he used to be playful. If a man can conceive, he might have several children. Why should he ask you..."

Mao Xiaoyu was still in a daze for a while, then suddenly said, "Tang Ying, this is what the prince heard."

Tang Ying paused, and stared at him in shock, "...whose?"

"Prince heard... the senior's, the senior's..." Mao Xiaoyu muttered for a while, her dull face suddenly melted away, and a little softness appeared in the corners of her eyes, "I... I have his child..."

Before Tang Ying could recover from the shock, Mao Xiaoyu grasped his hand tightly, her pupils were trembling, but the corners of her mouth were raised little by little, "I have his child, I have his child..."

Tang Ying didn't know what kind of mood she was feeling at that moment. She felt sorry for him and felt pain for him. Obviously this person was smiling, but it made him feel like crying.

Tang Ying let him be happy for a while, then held his hand behind her back, and asked in a low voice, "Xiao Yu, calm down, don't be stupid."

Mao Xiaoyu was still smiling, but her pupils stopped trembling, and her eyes seemed to be much deeper, with a superficial smile.

"Wang Ziwen doesn't even know who you are, and you can't contact him at all. He is such a famous person, it is impossible... impossible to be with you, do you want to raise a child by yourself? You... ...You really only have yourself left, I am so worried about you, you have to raise another child...it's too hard..."

"Look, Liang Shuang treats you very well, right? Didn't you say that you two have made an agreement? He will go to the United States first to develop, and after you graduate, you will go to the United States to find him. Didn't you say...you just like to watch Wang Ziwen play basketball? Isn't it? Liang Shuang also plays basketball, and he is going to the NBA. Isn't he just fulfilling your expectations at that time? Can't you change someone? Liang Shuang is not bad, so don't... don't hang up Die on a tree!"

Tang Ying kept talking, persuading him very carefully. He talked for a long time, but Mao Xiaoyu just listened with a smile. When Tang Ying couldn't utter the last word and fell silent, he finally raised his head, and slowly touched Stomach, murmured, "Liang Shuang is fine, I know."

"Then you still..."

"He is very good, good at everything, but... I just like Wang Ziwen..."

"I just like him, do you understand?" Mao Xiaoyu leaned her head against the wall, slowly closed her eyes, her smile gradually faded away, and the trembling eyelashes were gradually stained with a layer of water.

"I also feel very uncomfortable. Why do you just like him? Such an unattainable person, who will never remember me, why... just like him?"

"But you know what? He is really a very good person, but...he flies too fast and too high, and I can't touch him anymore. But at that time...he was not that good When we were together, the year we were together was really happy. You always said that I liked him so painfully, why bother? But... when I fell in love with him, I was really happy. Very good, he also has me in his heart, he is willing to be friends with me who is so bad and ugly, he is willing to accept me like that..."

"It's because I'm too useless to get close to him. He's growing too fast, and I can't keep up with him."

"Tang Ying... Tell me, if I work harder and can enter his circle and catch up with him, will I be able to stand by his side? If I work harder, will I be able to let him see you again? I'm..."

Tang Ying couldn't help but said, "Obviously you don't have to work so hard. You are obsessed too much. If you look at someone else, you might like it too!"

Mao Xiaoyu still kept his eyes closed, and he forced back the tears until his pale complexion gradually faded. He finally opened his eyes, and smiled slightly at Tang Ying, "I don't have the feeling of being so desperate to like someone. If you can't give Liang Shuang, don't delay him. He is such a good person, he should be worthy of someone who is also wholeheartedly for him, isn't it?"

Tang Ying didn't know what to say, she wanted to say too much, but facing Mao Xiaoyu's clear and determined eyes, every word seemed to turn pale, and she couldn't say a word.

"Liang Shuang couldn't contact me, so he should be looking for you. You can deliver a letter to him for me." Mao Xiaoyu stood up, and suddenly all the chaotic thoughts disappeared, and his expression was unprecedentedly calm. "Tell him not to look for me, we may... we can't even be friends."

That day Tang Ying watched Mao Xiaoyu write a very long letter earnestly, stroke by stroke. He didn't read the content of the letter, and couldn't bear to read it, so he had to keep it safe. Unpacked some luggage and went out with him.

It was two months after seeing Liang Shuang again, the man looked anxious and his eyes were red, and he yelled at Tang Ying for a long time, but he only gave him the letter without saying anything.Liang Shuang finished reading with trembling hands, tore up the letter in a fit of anger, and only said one harsh word, "Damn friend, fuck it! He thought he could hide! I've been looking for it all my life, but I don't believe I can't find it forever! "

After that, he slammed the door out, and after that, Tang Ying never saw him again.

"Liang Shuang seems to have returned to the United States." Tang Ying brought Mao Xiaoyu a meal, sat next to him and said, "Well...maybe we should give up."

Mao Xiaoyu sat on the hospital bed, touched her swollen stomach, and said after a long silence, "I won't kill this child. Even if he can accept it, I can't wrong him so much. It's been a long time. He will forget me."

Tang Ying also stroked his stomach, forced a smile, "It's been six months, and I'll still kick you, hey, so cute."

Mao Xiaoyu poked at the place where he was just kicked, and then smiled, "I read the news just now, Wang Ziwen is able to direct a movie, and I think he will be the chief director soon."

Tang Ying looked at him and sighed, "Watching the news can make you so happy?"

Mao Xiaoyu smiled and said, "I've always been watching the news, I'm used to it."

Tang Ying was also used to him being like this, although she still didn't understand that this man would rather be a single father and raise his children alone than give up the easier and happier path in his eyes.But maybe the definition of happiness, people who are not in it, can't empathize with it at all.

"By the way, has the child's name been chosen? Didn't it just be detected as a girl?"

Mao Xiaoyu nodded and said with a smile, "Just take my surname and choose a word from Wang Ziwen as my name, would you agree?"

"Okay, which one to choose? Let me think about it, King Mao...cough, Maozi...cough cough, what kind of stupid name does he have..."

Mao Xiaoyu laughed, looked down at her stomach, and said with a smile, "Then let's smell it."

Tang Ying didn't quite agree, "Girl, his smell is too strange and not good-looking. By the way, how about the Wen at the beginning of the rain? It's suitable for a little girl, right?"

Mao Xiaoyu blinked and cheered up, "Okay, Mao Wen... let's repeat the words, the two words sound weird."

Tang Ying read along, "Mao Wenwen... okay, this sounds good."

Mao Xiaoyu felt the child kicked her again, so she couldn't help but poked at that foot, and said with a smile, "Wenwen, Mao Wenwen...you need to grow up quickly, Dad will raise you well..."

The child seemed to have heard his words in his stomach, and kicked his finger again. Mao Xiaoyu and Tang Ying laughed and poked the belly to play, calling Wenwen, Wenwen. Looks like really happy.

The days that followed seemed to pass quickly and slowly. My daughter was born in one go and grew up in another.Tang Ying always felt that Mao Xiaoyu was having a hard time, but Mao Xiaoyu himself didn't feel it. Seeing Mao Wenwen's face more and more like Wang Ziwen, he felt very warm and happy in his heart.He is sincerely thinking that Wang Ziwen is good, that person is like a beacon in his life, whether it is guiding him to such a good university, or finally stepping into the entertainment circle for him, step by step to become a He always let Mao Xiaoyu do his best to become a better and better man, even though they had never been together, the strength that Wang Ziwen brought to him was that no one else could. Comparable.

"So you would rather spend five years alone than come to me, right?"

Suddenly regaining consciousness from the memories, Mao Xiaoyu raised her head and looked at the man opposite him who was gnashing his teeth but frustrated, "He is so good, it is worth your suffering for him? How can I not compare to him? You just Do you despise me so much?"

Mao Xiaoyu took a breath, and smiled helplessly, "Then why am I so good, and I am worth remembering for seven years?"

Liang Shuang gritted his teeth, put his hands on his forehead and lowered his head, laughing self-deprecatingly.

"Liang Shuang, I am very grateful to you. Really, you and Tang Ying are good friends that I have rarely been able to make in my life, but...but they are just friends. I can't lie to myself, and I don't want to lie to you..."

Liang Shuang raised his head with red eyes, stared at him resentfully, then lowered his head for a long time, and said in a muffled voice, "It's not that you don't like me."

"..."

"It's just that we met too late." Liang Shuang closed his eyes, recalling Mao Xiaoyu's innocent and innocent smile in his memory, and finally said sadly, "If you met me first, maybe everything would be different." It's the same."

Mao Xiaoyu didn't say much, just kept silent.

Liang Shuang was stunned for a long time, then slowly got up, as if wanting to bend down and hug him, but finally gave up.

"If he treats you badly, remember to come to me," Liang Shuang straightened his face again, his expression was very indifferent, but his tone involuntarily slowed down, "I don't ask you to like me anymore, even as a friend, if you have difficulties Don't just remember Tang Ying, you still have me, you know?"

Mao Xiaoyu was stunned for a moment, a little disbelieving, but his eyes suddenly lit up, "Can we...be friends?"

Liang Shuang looked at him for a while, then sneered ignorantly, "I don't like you anymore, are you so happy?"

Mao Xiaoyu pursed her lips, but said nothing.Liang Shuang suddenly reached out and tapped his lips, and said bitterly, "Don't use this mouth to seduce me, it's okay to keep pursing, seducing me to kiss you, right?"

"No, no..."

Liang Shuang snorted, shook off his hands, took a step back, and called him, "...Silly boy."

Mao Xiaoyu stood up awkwardly, as if she didn't know how to move her hands and feet, and was a little at a loss.

Liang Shuang stared at him silently for a while, then finally turned around and said, "Idiot, I wish you happiness."

After saying that, without looking back, he straightened his back and walked slowly.

Mao Xiaoyu looked at his back, as if he saw the man let go of him and left a long time ago, but turned around and said reluctantly, "You must wait for me to come back", but when I came back, it finally became I wish you happiness, seven years of time, after all, I still failed his affection.

But he still doesn't regret it, he has been waiting alone for ten years, no matter how painful it is, he has never regretted it, the person who made him wait for ten years, from the beginning to the end, is in his heart The clearest and purest sunlight.

"Hey, you are indeed here. Nana just told me that someone is looking for you..."

Mao Xiaoyu felt that the tall figure coming against the light in front of him was like a dream, which made him unbelievable. He suddenly couldn't help it, stood up and rushed towards him, hugging the warm body of that person with all his strength.The visitor was startled, but he didn't push him away. Instead, he smiled, stroked his hair gently, and coaxed him with a smile, "What's the matter? Miss me?"

Mao Xiaoyu sniffled her nose and let out a small groan.

Wang Ziwen pinched his ear, leaned close to his ear and said, "This person comes and goes, do you want to be in the headlines?"

Mao Xiaoyu was silent for a while, then whispered, "How did you find this place?"

The prince laughed and said, "It depends on the power of mind."

"……Um?"

Wang Ziwen raised one arm to the sky and said deeply, "I prayed to the sky and asked it loudly, 'Father! Where is my beloved concubine!' Then there was a thunder from the sky, and I found you~ "

Mao Xiaoyu: "..."

The prince laughed when he heard it, lowered his head to his forehead, and coaxed, "What's the matter? Who is looking for you? You look so bad?"

Mao Xiaoyu raised her head, looked at those gentle eyes that she had missed for a whole ten years, and asked seriously, "Senior, will you always like me?"

Prince Wen was stunned for a moment, squinted his eyes and smiled, "Of course."

"……Really?"

Wang Ziwen said solemnly, "You must know that the Son of Heaven always keeps his word and keeps his word."

Mao Xiaoyu: "...you are really sick."

The prince laughed loudly when he heard it, hugged him into his arms, and said, "I fell ill right in front of you, you are the source of my infection."

Mao Xiaoyu took a deep breath, hugged him even harder, nestled in his arms and finally smiled.