I secretly liked you for the past ten years

From that day on, Mao Xiaoyu suddenly became sober.It turned out that Wang Ziwen didn't play tricks on him, and Wang Ziwen didn't take him seriously, it turned out that they just missed it.

Mao Xiaoyu held the radio in a daze all night, and when the sun rose again, there was finally light in his eyes.He propped himself up and got up, took out the scarf from the closet, which was packed into pieces, put it around his neck, and began to tidy up the room slowly.

Grandma was taken aback when she came in. The room suddenly became tidy, and even Mao Xiaoyu was sitting on the chair cleanly. She was really disturbed, and it took her a long time to ask cautiously, "Xiaoyu, what's the matter? Have you tidied up your room?"

Mao Xiaoyu was fiddling with a small basketball pendant, wearing a scarf around her neck, turned around and said seriously, "Grandma, I'm cured."

Grandma's eyes widened in shock, she walked over hesitantly, and asked softly, "Is it uncomfortable again? Tell grandma, okay?"

Mao Xiaoyu shook her head, put her thin hand on Grandma's hand, and suddenly burst into tears.

When he was chaotic, he also knew that he was sick, and he also knew that he was too bastard to hurt grandma, but he couldn't control it, he just couldn't think about anything, he just didn't want to eat, he just wanted to go to the rooftop, he just wanted to jump down.

He was not stupid, he was always sober, but this day he suddenly wanted to open up, and he was no longer so desperate.

Grandma heard him speak his heart intermittently, and knew that he was really getting better, so she also hugged him and wept with joy.It took a long time for the two to calm down. Grandma asked him, "Does Xiaoyu still want to study? If so, we can move to another city and continue studying, okay?"

Mao Xiaoyu suddenly felt very sorry for her. He had been walking around for so long, and he was surrounded by so many rumors. How much staring would grandma usually suffer, and how hard would it be?She supported the two of them by selling breakfast carts. Was it because her business was also affected that she looked so thin?

Mao Xiaoyu felt that she was not filial, so she lowered her head and said, "I'll listen to you, I can do whatever you want me to do..."

Grandma reached out to hug him and patted him on the shoulder, "Then listen to grandma and continue studying. Let's move to another city, far away from here, and never come back, okay?"

Mao Xiaoyu gritted her teeth and nodded, said hoarsely, "I'm sorry..."

Grandma patted him on the shoulder while coaxing him softly, "Don't apologize, Xiaoyu is not wrong, there is nothing wrong with it."

"..."

"It's not your fault that you have such a body. They insult you and bully you. It's because they are too bad. It's their problem. Xiaoyu don't care about them, let's study hard, get into a good university, and go to a big city Live a decent life and leave them far away, so that they can't hurt you anymore, okay?"

Mao Xiaoyu wanted to cry again, so she nestled in her arms and tried her best to hold back her tears.Grandma smiled and rubbed his hair, and said, "I will work harder and save money for you earlier. We will definitely have the operation before we graduate from college, and we will not be unable to hold our heads up again in the future, and we can live a normal life." It's time."

Mao Xiaoyu lay on her chest and said after a long time, "Grandma, I will study hard."

Just like when he was very young, grandma held him in her arms and kissed him with a smile.

After that, they moved to the provincial capital, almost spent all their savings, and started from scratch.

When I went to school again, because I grew taller and lost a lot of weight, the soft contours of my facial features stood out, and I became popular instead.But in his bones, he was even more afraid of strangers than before, especially when tall and big boys approached, he instinctively shrank, wishing to hide under the desk so that no one could see him.

But when he hit the right button, he developed a quiet and melancholy temperament. Both boys and girls treated him very well. In addition, he worked hard and got excellent grades. The teachers also liked him very much.His life seemed to be reborn suddenly, and the cowardly and useless appearance in the past faded a lot. Although he was still timid in his bones, no one bullied him for no reason anymore.

It turns out that if you are good-looking and have good grades, you will have a completely different life.Mao Xiaoyu understood this truth. Sometimes when he looked at the male students playing basketball downstairs, he couldn't help but think, even if that person can no longer play basketball, he must still be the same as in high school. Many people like him and many people pursue him. Bar.

He knew that Wang Ziwen had treated him sincerely, and he gradually felt satisfied.He feels that time is a very powerful thing, it can wash away the dirt all over his body, and it can make him climb up inch by inch from despair, it must have the same power to make that person forget himself Withdrew himself completely from his life.But even so, he will not blame him or be sad anymore. On the contrary, he will only miss him more and more, thinking that that person has never disliked his worst appearance, thinking that he at least remembers his birthday, Thinking of the hearty smile he always had on his lips, and thinking about it, he felt a softness in his heart. Standing silently, he couldn't help but smile.

He has gradually let go of the past, but he still retains the energy left by that person, the way he treats life enthusiastically and takes his dreams seriously, which always inspires him to strive to become a better person.For him, even though Wang Ziwen was never around, he was the only salvation that he relied on in his heart from beginning to end.

During the whole year of re-reading, Mao Xiaoyu studied desperately. There was a god in his heart that he was willing to worship. He used his own struggle to repay the sunshine brought to him by that person, longing to be able to live again one day. Become the one he admires.

So on his second birthday, he routinely turned on the radio to study, and his heart was already at peace, but he didn't expect that God would play a big joke on him again.

"Ah, I remember you. You ordered a song on this day last year, and it was also a birthday greeting." The announcer was quite surprised, and joked with a smile, "If I didn't know that the person you mentioned was a boy, I would have doubted it." It's the person you have a crush on."

The male voice laughed and replied, "He is so kind to me. Even now, I have never met anyone who treats me better than him. So every time I am particularly tired, I always think of his kindness." , I will never forget it.”

The announcer laughed, "According to what you said, he should be in his third year of high school this year, and the college entrance examination is about to happen. You should give him some encouragement at the end."

The male voice smiled, and said softly in the background music, "Hey, little Maomao, the college entrance examination is still a few months away, you should be too busy now, right? But pay attention to your health, don't work too hard, after I was discharged from the hospital that year I almost broke my waist in the self-examination 'Zhongchuan'. Don't abuse yourself like me. Then... I wish you a happy birthday, and I also wish you the title of the gold list, you can go to a good university and fulfill your dream. .”

Mao Xiaoyu listened blankly, this time she didn't cry, but stared at the five-year simulated three-year college entrance examination in front of her, her hand holding the pen gradually trembled.

Three months later, on the day of the college entrance examination, Mao Xiaoyu only filled in one school: Communication University of China, and on the back of the professional English, ticked: accept any transfer.

It's no surprise that he passed the exam. He studied hard this year, especially in the last three months.On the day when he got out of the rankings, the classmates who passed the exam celebrated together, and he was also invited. That night, when he saw the crazy and noisy classmates, he let go of his courage for the first time and had a carnival with them all night.

It may be that he is usually too quiet and reserved, and some students are not used to it, so they come to his side to make fun of him. For the first time, Mao Xiaoyu was not afraid of them. After talking and laughing with them for a while, he felt his whole heart warm up. There are more smiles too.

He never expected that there would be a girl confessing to him that day. He was completely fooled. Although he subconsciously refused, he secretly became happy after he realized it.He thought, so someone will like me, so I am so much better than before, if I meet that person again in two months, can I have the courage to approach him, and I can get back to him What about friends?

He was just thinking about it in a daze, not noticing that someone had been watching him all night, until the party was over, he tentatively approached him.

The man came over and the two brothers seemed to hug his shoulders, startled him, tried their best to resist the instinct to push away, and carefully asked him, "Is there something wrong?"

Opposite him is also a good-looking boy, his classmate named Tang Ying, who always takes good care of him.Tang Ying chuckled, leaned over and said, "Xiaoyu, we've all gone to Beijing for the exam, let's go together when school starts."

Mao Xiaoyu scratched her head embarrassingly, and said, "I'm sorry... I didn't pay much attention to other people's grades, where did you go in the exam?"

Tang Ying knew his temperament long ago, so she didn't blame him, and replied, "I'm going to the medical university, it's so far away from your school."

Mao Xiaoyu had always been passive in school. Tang Ying often took the initiative to talk to him, and she was more familiar than ordinary people. She said, "It doesn't matter. We are all in Beijing anyway. Can we contact him more often in the future?"

Tang Ying glanced at him and said with a smile, "That's what you said."

Mao Xiaoyu blinked and nodded obediently, "Yeah."

So they agreed on a time, and two months later, the two embarked on the train to Beijing together.Grandma also came to see him off that day, Mao Xiaoyu watched the old man's hunched figure gradually submerged in the sea of ​​people, his eyes gradually became wet, and he couldn't help crying after the train started.After finishing packing her luggage, Tang Ying turned her head and saw him crying silently, so she hurried over to comfort her, "It's okay, I'm going on vacation in four months, let's come back to see her together, don't be sad."

Mao Xiaoyu sniffled and murmured, thanking her in a low voice.Knowing that he was worried about grandma, Tang Ying asked his parents to write down Grandma Mao Xiaoyu's contact information two days ago. After all, the old man was at home alone, so he was afraid of any accidents.Mao Xiaoyu was very moved when she knew his heart, so she decided to open up her heart and make this friend.

Tang Ying was making him happy along the way. Tang Ying's personality was bright and humorous, and she vaguely resembled Wang Ziwen.

Tang Ying looked at him and said with a smile, "Xiao Yu, you look so pretty when you smile, especially your eyes are curved, like a little girl."

Mao Xiaoyu was taken aback for a moment, vaguely thinking that he had never heard this before, and then remembered that when he was still fat, Wang Ziwen once said with a smile, you must be handsome if you lose weight, look at the eyes , like a little girl.

Mao Xiaoyu became happy in a trance, thinking to herself, would the prince feel the same when he heard it?He will also think that I look good, will he like the way I am now?

After thinking about it, he laughed, hugged the clean scarf on his bunk, lowered his head and kissed it, and fell asleep contentedly.

Arriving at the station the next day, the two parted ways, agreed to contact each other after changing their mobile numbers, and then reluctantly left, waving goodbye.

There were many seniors at the train station who came to welcome the freshmen. Before Mao Xiaoyu came, he checked the guide, knowing that the seniors from our school would definitely come, so he went out of the station and began to search for them.

Then in the vast crowd, amidst so many noisy and chaotic crowds, he saw him at a glance.

He thought that his face must have been very ugly at that time, but he couldn't control his expression, he just stared at that person almost madly without blinking, and before he had time to shout out, he began to cry for nothing come out.

He didn't want to cry either, but he couldn't control it, and the tears rolled down his eyes, crying like a fool in the crowd.

Then he saw the same person staring at him suddenly, saw him crying with tears all over his face, blinked his eyes suspiciously, and suddenly walked towards him.

Mao Xiaoyu was so frightened that he turned around in a hurry, and hastily wiped away his tears. Before he could calm down, he heard the voice that missed him softly, "This classmate."

Mao Xiaoyu used the greatest willpower in her life to force herself to turn around slowly, controlling the still sour impulse in her eyes.

The person in front of him has faded from his youthful appearance, his outline is deeper, but he is also more handsome and suave. He seems to have grown taller, a head taller than himself, but he looks down at him with such a gentle smile, but there is nothing wrong with him. Change.

He was still so hopeless that his heart would be moved at a glance, almost drowning in this man's eyes as deep as a pool of water.

Mao Xiaoyu greedily traced his outline inch by inch, not knowing what to say, she just stood there dumbfounded, staring at him without blinking.

Wang Ziwen was baffled by him, but he still asked him kindly, "Student, are you okay? Can't you find your way? Why are you still crying?"

Mao Xiaoyu was still nervous, and his hands were shaking. Wang Ziwen thought he was afraid of strangers, so he smiled and coaxed him, "We are all here to pick up people, are you a freshman? Which school? I'll help you find someone, they I'll take you there, don't be afraid."

Mao Xiaoyu opened his mouth, unable to speak, half of it was too excited, the other half was too nervous, he bit his lip and struggled for a while, finally he could only choke out a sentence, "I, I'm from Zhongchuan..."

Wang Ziwen's eyes lit up, and he said pleasantly, "Coincidentally, I'm from Zhongchuan, and I'm here to pick up your senior." As he spoke, he reached out to carry his luggage for him, and said with a smile, "Come on, I'll take you there, the school A car has been sent, you sit in it and rest first. Is it hot? There are cold drinks in the car, drink whatever you want."

Mao Xiaoyu followed him step by step and got into the car, looking at the man's tall and strong body, the inferiority complex that had been baked into his bones suddenly emerged again.

He used to be terribly fat, and his head was not bright, and this person misunderstood a lot. In fact, there was nothing worth nostalgic about.

But this year is different, he lost weight, looks good again, and his grades are also among the best, girls are starting to like him, so the current appearance is actually more likable.

Since Wang Ziwen was willing to be friends with that stupid self back then, now that he is much better and prettier, he will definitely not refuse, right?

What's more... the days he used to look like were the most painful memories in his heart, and he didn't want to touch them the most. He really wanted to dig those days out of his life.

Wang Ziwen packed his luggage for him, and when he turned his head and saw this handsome young man staring at him blankly, he couldn't help but smiled, bent down to get closer, and said, "Are you tired? Let's take a rest and pick up a few more people later, everyone." Let’s go back together,” he said, stretching out his hand with a polite smile on his face, “Let’s introduce myself, it’s the first time we meet, my name is Wang Ziwen, I’m your senior in junior year, I majored in editing and directing. What about you? What’s your major? What's your name?"

Mao Xiaoyu looked at the hand he stretched out for a long time, but didn't dare to shake it. She only raised her head after being silent for a while, suppressed her trembling voice, and answered with a smile, "I'm an English major, I, I It's called Mao Xiaoyu..."