Your Majesty, please do not

Glancing at the scattered papers, the statement knew it was the letter.He lowered his gaze, "You have seen it all, there is nothing to explain."

This is an admission.Liang Huan was silent for a long while, waves of unnameable emotions collided in his mind.He still didn't look up, and when he spoke, his voice was vague: "If you go there tomorrow, don't come back. You don't owe me anything, don't let me hold you back."

After he finished speaking, there was another silence.He raised his eyes a little, saw that Chen Zhi was still kneeling there motionless, and couldn't help sneering.At this time, he is still so respectful.

"Stop kneeling, go and get your things." He said lightly.

When Chen Zhi got up, he didn't know whether it was intentional or not, he took a quick look at his face, but it happened to meet his eyes.At that moment, his whole body shook, and he hurriedly turned around to hide his emotions.

When he packed his things, he actually went to the dressing table to get a comb and a hair tie, and went to the bookcase to get some notebooks and papers.When Liang Huan saw it, he turned his head away and said, "Don't throw it away. If you don't want it, just leave it to me. I still want to see it."

"I don't want to throw it away. I have left you a lot of things. Please let me take some away." The voice was begging.

Liang Huan's voice was not disturbed: "What do you do with these things, there is always a past. It's not good for others to see."

"Or, there is nothing in your eyes. Then what are you doing with these things?"

Hearing these words, the statement couldn't bear it any longer, tears rolled down his cheeks, and his shoulders twitched violently.He felt that he couldn't stay here any longer, took two steps back, faced him with his head down and said, "I have nothing else to do, let's go first."

"Wait!" Liang Huan called out to him loudly.

"Didn't you just leave tomorrow? Then today this place will still be your home, and I will still be your family!"

He did not dare to retreat any longer, so he could only stand still.He didn't want to experience the feeling of being here with him for the last time, he really just wanted to take a look, and if he saw too much, he couldn't hide it.

Seeing Liang Huan waving at him, he went up to him, but unexpectedly, he was immediately pressed into his arms.

He is too familiar with this embrace. After staying in his arms for a long time, after getting used to it, sometimes he even feels that this place should be his own.But today, the aura on his body was so strange that he reminded himself that he was not qualified to possess it from the very beginning, and it was far from being comparable to many things about him.

Liang Huan lay on his shoulder and sobbed softly. He was also uncomfortable being brought up, but he didn't know what response he could give, so he could only clenched his fists to resist tears.

"Why... Xingli, why is this... Is it because I made a mistake that will never be erased? I have worked very hard. I thought that as long as I always treat you well, you will forgive me sooner or later. I didn't expect to struggle. After such a long time, in the end, I still can't compare with others..."

Such a question statement is simply unanswerable.It can be seen that he was silent, but Liang Huan patted him on the back, "Tell me, please, if you understand, I will have no regrets."

He had no choice but to say, "It's not what you think. It's my fault that I failed you."

Liang Huan wanted to say something more, but he heard Lu Yin pass on the dinner.

Watching the little eunuch bring a plate of dishes to the table, Liang Huan finally let go of Chen Zhizhi's hand and pulled him to the table.His voice was pretending to be brisk, but he couldn't hide his choked sobs: "You haven't eaten, right? You won't be able to eat food from the Central Plains over there. You delivered the medicine, you have to love yourself..."

"Okay." He wanted to express his thanks, but only said one word.

Liang Huan still put the two stools together, pulled him to sit down, picked a plate of delicate white jade tofu from the table as usual, picked a piece and fed it to his mouth.

Chen Zhi looked at the piece of tofu in a daze, and felt that it was inappropriate to eat it or not.

"the last time."

Hearing this, he hesitated for a moment, then opened his mouth and bit the tofu, swallowing it with the tears in his throat.

Seeing that he was obedient, Liang Huan stopped eating, and took every dish on the table for him bite by bite.

Just like before, Liang Huan didn't know how hungry the other party was when he was feeding, so he always wanted him to eat more.But the statement didn't call to stop this time, he didn't want to say what to feed, even when he was full.

In the future, no one will do such a stupid thing, and they will be fed to their mouths every meal.

After the meal, Chen Zhicai got up and was pushed on the chair by Liang Huan.Liang Huan let go of his hair, and used the comb he wanted to take away to tidy it up.

A dimly lit lamp was lit on the table, and against the background of the rain, it seemed that the room was quiet and stable.

"I still remember that at that time, you took this comb and praised how beautiful it was, so I wanted to buy it for you. I was so stupid at the time, thinking that you accepted my things and believed my nonsense, and finally hurt you Heart……"

After combing his hair, he tied it with the hair tie.

"I really don't know good from bad, and I'm angry with you because of this thing. In fact, I can understand why you refused to accept it. I just want you to think like me. Now it seems that I really shouldn't care about those trivial things. It shouldn't make you sad..."

He was obviously very careful, but his hair was messed up.

Going to the table again, he got the notebook and paper.

"Xingli, please write me some more words. Your handwriting is beautiful." He took out his pen and ink.

Such a request statement was really irresistible, he held a pen and asked, "What word do you want?"

"Anything is fine."

He was very careful with his pen, but his hand was shaking all the time, and every stroke was crooked.He barely finished writing it, and felt that it was too ugly, so he just wanted to tear it up.

"What are you doing?" Liang Huan stopped him, "If you're not satisfied, write another one. Give this to me."

He took the piece of paper, and there was a poem written on it. When the light jumped, he felt that the poem was very familiar.

He recalled for a moment, and found that this was the poem he gave himself on New Year's Day that year, and the one he replied to him.

So, did he memorize it?

Even so, it must have been memorized at the time.Time has passed, he just remembers it.

Statement Zhi did not write the second one, but just sat there in a daze.Liang Huan put away his writing, and said slowly: "I will keep it well, together with all the things you left for me. After a few decades, when I am old, I will take it out and have a look, think of me When I was young, I was willing to give up everything for one person... I don't know if I will have such an obsession when the time comes."

After he finished speaking, he saw Chen Chenzhi's shoulders rising and falling, and the paper on the table was wet with dripping tears.

He suddenly pressed his hands on his shoulders, "Xingli, you are crying, and you are reluctant to part with me, right?"

"No."

The tears continued to fall, and his first reaction was to say "no", but he couldn't tell what it should be.

After thinking for a long time, I managed to come up with a sentence: "I feel sorry for you and feel guilty."

Liang Huan smiled miserably, and slowly dropped his hand from his shoulder.reluctant?His reluctance is only because he still has unfulfilled obligations to himself, and it's not really that he is reluctant to bear himself.

This night, Liang Huan didn't do anything else, but he was watching him wherever Chen Zhi stayed.Looking at his face with the subtle sound of rain, many memories that were about to fade resurfaced between his brows and eyes.

When it was time to rest, Liang Huan washed his face, then stood motionless beside the bed.

After the statement was clear, he changed his clothes as usual, made his bed, helped him onto the bed, and covered him with the quilt.After finishing this, he blew on the lamp and turned to leave.

"Where are you going?" Liang Huan stopped him again, "You have been sleeping with me all this time."

He had no choice but to listen to his words and come back, changed his clothes and went to bed, lay down close to the edge of the bed, far away from him.

Liang Huan knew that he would be like this, and pulled him to him, staring at him intently with a pair of black eyes.

Seeing him like this, Xu Zhi remembered that he said everything tonight as the last time, so this matter will also have the last time.So he took the initiative to lean over, put his hands on his chest, and raised his head to kiss him.

However, Liang Huan turned his head to avoid his kiss, and gently pushed him away, "No more. I'll just look at you."

Seeing his reaction, Chen Zhi smiled self-deprecatingly, that's right, now he thought he was dirty.

Liang Huan slowly hugged him into his arms, his whole body was close to him, but he didn't have the slightest desire. He only felt that the person in front of him was as warm as the sun in early spring.He squeezed him tightly with his hands, as if he wanted to become one with him.

"Xingli... I beg you, please, please? I need you so much, you have pity on me, I will do whatever you want, I promise..."

His voice was very careful. He hesitated all night. He wanted to say this since he first met him, but he didn't dare to say it.He had no better way than these few words, and he was afraid that if he couldn't finish it, then there was really no hope.

Chen Zhi was squeezed a little bored by him, hearing these words in his ears, he felt that Liang Huan was really pitiful.Thinking about it carefully is also true, from the very beginning when I met him, he liked to chase after himself to please and behave.The current appearance is nothing special, it is just the same as his past thousands of tricks, it just looks pitiful.

"Your Majesty cannot say such things to me, you should have your majesty."

"I don't want dignity, I don't want anything..."

Hearing his words, the statement really couldn't be indifferent, and could only comfort with restraint: "It's just that it's been a long time, and I'm not used to it for a while. Wait a few months, and think about today..."

However, Liang Huan was not comforted by him, and murmured: "I also thought before that if you want to leave, I will force you to stay. But when it comes to this time, I feel that I can't be so selfish...... Others treat you badly, you miss me, come back here, okay?"

After saying this, Liang Huan felt that he was really cheap.He has already made it so clear that he still haunts him lingeringly, even refusing to let him go in the future.

It's just trying to find a little hope in the helpless despair.

After the statement, he moved back, walked away from him, and lowered his head, "I can't promise you this, otherwise, I'm afraid you will really...will wait."

"Whether you agree or not, I will wait."

Chen Zhi was frightened by these words, he suddenly felt that maybe when Liang Huan said these words, he really believed them.But that was also because he tasted the taste of love for the first time, was shocked by the strong pleasure, was distracted for a while, and mistakenly thought that it was a lifetime.As long as you take it out and use it for a year or so, everything will be fine, and then you will feel how naive and stupid you are now.

He sat up, got out of bed and said, "I'd better go."

"Don't go..." Liang Huan firmly grabbed his wrist to prevent him from leaving, "You come back, I don't say anything, just don't say anything."

After he said that, Chen Zhi had no choice but to go back and lie down beside him again.As soon as he lay down, he was caught in his arms again.

The sound of rain falling on the ground is the most lulling person to sleep, but this night, Liang Huan did not close his eyes until dawn.

He thought that Chen Zhi would sleep soundly in his arms, but he didn't know that although he closed his eyes, he had listened to his heartbeat all night.

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