Half life, for Jue

As soon as a person is born naked, a burst of crying releases the courage to be fearless.But often the older you get, the more you realize that things in this world are never what you want.

Nothing can be done.

Had to compromise, had to let go.Reluctantly, I still smiled and said goodbye.

The higher you stand, the more things you can't do. The more you think you get, the more you give up.

They have all lost their right to be willful.

The white wall on the tall city tower was wrapped in thick fox fur, and half of his face was buried in the soft fur of the fox fur in the arrogant wind.

Xiao Jingyan was standing in the wind in the prince's court clothes, his clothes were "hunting", and that man was like a gun, straight and tall.All the soldiers standing guard around him were driven to the two sides by him, and he seemed to be the only one left in that world.

Bai Bi stepped forward and patted him on the shoulder with a smile, "I don't know how to laugh at first, so if you blow it down, be careful that you will become a coffin board."

Xiao Jingyan took Bai Bi's hand down and put it into his sleeve calmly, without saying a word.

Bai Bi twitched, but didn't pull it out.Xiao Jingyan seemed to know what he was worried about, and said, "No one will read it."

Bai Bi: "...you're thick-skinned, you'll choke people."

"You teach well." Xiao Jingyan said.

Bai Bi laughed, and stretched out his other hand to pick Xiao Jingyan's chin like an apprentice, "Come, call Master to come and listen."

"..." Xiao Jingyan put that hand in and covered it.

He stared at Bai Bi for a long time.He suddenly laughed, reached out his hand and took off the hairpin on Bai Bi's head without thinking, and the hair that was neatly tied fell off in an instant.Bai Bi's hair covered her face in the "huhu" wind.He brushed his hair with his "liberated" hand, and said, "His Royal Highness, you are a hooligan."

Xiao Jingyan obviously didn't expect such a situation to happen, he paused for a while before arriving: "I didn't expect you to wear it."

The last time I saw Bai Bi wearing this jade hairpin was in the prison cell of the Ministry of Punishment, when Xia Jiang was in a while.Looking back now, it seems like a lifetime away.

Bai Bi simply ignored his long hair if he couldn't straighten it out, letting his silky long hair blow in the wind, he smiled faintly, "It's ready to use."

Xiao Jingyan tightened his hands and immediately let them go, he was speechless for a long while.Bai Bi looked down at the outside of the city tower, the cold moonlight illuminated the vast official road, the weeds were withered and yellow, the mountains stretched, and the vast and endless world was bleak.But wait until spring, everything will be very different.At that time, the green hills are lush and green, the weeds are growing vigorously, and the world will be a new atmosphere full of business.

Few people in this world know the true origin of this jade hairpin.

At the beginning, Bai Ningzui collected countless medicinal materials to save a person, and spent three years making ten drops of potion.They said it was a continuation of life, as the name suggests, a continuation of the name.But in the end, the person couldn't stay until the medicine was used up.Bai Ningzui gave all the last medicine to Bai Bi.Xiao Jingyan didn't know exactly how, but he knew that once Bai Bi used this, it meant that he really couldn't hold on anymore.

For a long time, when Bai Bi thought that Xiao Jingyan might stand here and become a stone statue for people to admire, Xiao Jingyan moved.

He broke off the jade hairpin with both hands, and when he raised his head, two drops of liquid from the jade hairpin fell into his forehead.Bai Bi's eyes widened slightly in surprise, and the next moment his world spun.When Bai Bi came to his senses, the liquid that should have been cold but turned warm had already slipped down his throat.

Xiao Jingyan broke open Bai Bi's loose teeth effortlessly, and sent the medicine in.The moment the tip of the tongue touches the tip of the tongue, it is as if the years and time go infinitely far and long.At that time, Xiao Jingyan gave Bai Bi's life to him through himself.

Just a touching kiss.

In fact, Bai Bi is not short in stature, and he can be said to be tall when standing up.It's just that he is too thin to stand in front of Xiao Jingyan, so he looks unattractive.At this time, Xiao Jingyan spun around and pressed the whole person against the city wall. After being blocked by Xiao Jingyan's wide sleeves, the white shadow seemed to be invisible.

The sleeves of the two-colored clothes are tangled, and the black hair dyed and white and red clothes cannot be separated.It would be great if the two of them hit a tight button.

After hearing the wind, Bai Bi smiled softly, "You are so bold, Your Royal Highness, aren't you afraid that you won't be able to marry the Crown Princess?"

Xiao Jingyan's voice was low, like a whisper, and he said, "I never wanted to marry."

His eyes were focused, staring at the delicate and handsome man, his ink-like long hair fluttered in the wind like layers of black veils, and would brush Bai Bi's face from time to time, Xiao Jingyan said: "Maybe you want to marry me. "

Bai Bi was scalded by Xiao Jingyan's scorching gaze. This person used to be more of a block of wood than a dull one, and it's only been a while since he has learned to be slick and dexterous.

Mr. Bai's ears were turning red, but he was still able to bear it. He raised his hand and patted the face of His Highness the Crown Prince, and said casually: "There are three things that are unfilial and have no descendants, Your Highness. If you can be born, I don't mind at all." Get married."

Xiao Jingyan: "...Do you know what a prince is?" Why did the topic suddenly change like this?What the hell went wrong!

Bai Bi chuckled twice, and pushed Xiao Jingyan's chest, and Xiao Jingyan let him stand still.

Bai Bi stared at the person in front of him, "Hoohoo" came the words that only two people could hear in the whistling wind, "I really didn't pay attention to what the prince is. I just know that I recognize you. You are, Xiao Jingyan."

"So, Xiao Jingyan, wait for me to come back. When I come back, I want to ask you a question, and you must answer me." Bai Bi raised his chin and said so.

This time it was Xiao Jingyan who said, "Okay."

The hard-bodied child who came out of the battlefield, Jian managed to part with life and death, and became calmer at the last moment.

Bai Bi rewarded Xiao Jingyan with a punch to the shoulder, as if he was very satisfied with this farewell.He turned around and was about to leave. After two steps, he turned his head and said, "Xiao Jingyan, don't think about it. If you think that Bai Bi is only for you, then you will despise him too much."

Xiao Jingyan was taken aback for a moment, looking at the relentless figure going away, then, with a smile, he murmured: "I know."

You don't want to spend half your life in gold and steel, only to end up weak and useless and dying on your bed!

But how much of it do you think for me?

This war is inevitable, and besides you, only Xiaoshu can go.You force me to make a choice, but you hope to tell me early when you are all still there, so that this scar can be made lighter and lighter.After all, you are still here at this time.

Fortunately, my buffalo, who has been confused for half of my life, is finally lucky enough to understand one or two things when I should understand, so that we can have less regrets and regrets in the end.Baibi......

As soon as Bai Bi walked down the tower, he saw Qi Meng standing beside the carriage, and Mei Changsu standing beside the carriage, smiling slightly with lowered brows, presumably waiting for him.Bai Bi strode over, saluted, and said, "Mr. Su is here looking for me, or His Highness?"

"Su Mou came to find Mr. to drink a cup of tea."

Surrounded by soldiers standing guard, as well as Qi Meng, an idiot, Bai Bi and Mei Changsu kept their conversations to themselves.

After Bai Bi got into Mei Changsu's carriage, he let go, drank a cup of hot tea, nestled in the cushion, his face was warm and somewhat lazy, "Brother Su still has something to say, just listen to me carefully." .”

Mei Changsu smiled, "Is there anything to explain, I'm not here to discuss business with you. It's just a private matter, I want to ask you."

Bai Bi looked at him, "A private matter?"

"Yes, it's a personal matter. I want to know how you and Jingyan got to this point. Is there still room for you?" Mei Changsu made another cup of tea and put it in Bai Bi's hand.The carriage was dimly lit, and Bai Bi couldn't see the real purpose behind the unicorn genius's smile.

He played with the small teacup and was silent for a moment, as if he was thinking.

"Room. Are you saying that Xiao Jingyan can still marry his concubine after I die? I can tell you this for sure. He will. Because he is Xiao Jingyan, and he carries the country and everything he cares about. People. He will marry the most suitable wife, and then give birth to Daliang's future prince."

Bai Bi's voice did not reveal joy or sorrow, it was hoarse and gentle as usual.

He unconsciously twirled the teacup at his fingertips, his tone suddenly became distant, and he talked about the heavy rain a long time ago with uncertainty.

"Maybe it's because Bai Bi walked with Xiao Jingyan through the most frustrating, desperate and painful days in his life.

Lin Shu, you must have never seen such a crazy and helpless Xiao Jingyan.

We had just returned from the East China Sea that year when we heard the news that King Qi Lin's family had rebelled.

It's nothing more than a reversal of heaven and earth.Familiar places are strange overnight, and the place that should be called home is fused overnight. Looking around, it is empty, the belief collapses instantly, and there is no one left.

I was seventeen that year and he was nineteen.

It rained heavily that day, and he lost his mind and yelled like a madman, rushing into the heavy rain.It was the biggest rain we've ever tried in our lives..."

rebel?Treason?Brother Huang?Lin Shuai?Oh, what a joke!What a big joke!Fake!It's all fake!He doesn't believe it!He will never believe it!

"Xiao Jingyan! Stop!" Bai Bi watched helplessly as the man rushed into the rumbling thunder and rain, as if a hole had been broken in the sky, pouring out endless tears.

Lie Zhanying and the others tried their best to hold Xiao Jingyan, but that man ran out like a lion on the verge of collapse.Where is he going?The palace, in front of the emperor.do what?To avenge, to avenge his friend and his brother!

Isn't there enough blood flow?

I believe that Lin Shuai believes that His Highness King Qi will have fewer people!a lot!There are many!So, they all died.All dead!

Xiao Jingyan!Is it useful for you to go!What is the use other than sending an extra life!

Bai Bi stood under the corridor, looking palely at Xiao Jingyan who was struggling almost arbitrarily, and Lie Zhanying, Qi Meng and others who were at a loss and were pulling and persuading, the messy world, and the endless thunder.But Bai Bi felt that the world was still and vast.

The prince was still struggling, and he was about to reach the door. Lie Zhanying moved his lips anxiously, as if he was shouting again and again: "Your Highness, Your Highness, calm down."

Useless.

At that moment, Bai Bi looked at Xiao Jingyan's red eyes with grief and anger like a desperate beast, sprinting left and right to break through the invisible cage.

Bai Bi felt that she was also crazy.

He stepped into the heavy rain one step at a time, and a soldier saw him and shouted, "Sir!" and wanted to pull him back.

Everyone knows that Mr. Bai is afraid of the cold and is in poor health.

Bai Bi shook off the soldier's hand with little strength but was very determined.

He stepped into the heavy rain step by step. The rain wet his hair and clothes, ran down his forehead, fell into his eyes, and finally fell from the corners of his eyes and splashed on the ground.

"Xiao Jingyan, why are you crazy!" Bai Bi stood in front of Xiao Jingyan, but even though Xiao Jingyan was being dragged to the left and right by the people below, Bai Bi couldn't stop him.

Xiao Jingyan's eyes were red, he didn't even look at Bai Bi, his hoarse voice was like a roar: "Let go, you all let me go!"

"Boom" lightning pierced the sky.

Bai Bi pressed her bloodless lips tightly.

Lie Zhanying shouted: "Sir, go in quickly, you can't get caught in the rain. Your Highness, Your Highness, please listen to my advice..."

Bai Bi sneered, and pulled out Lie Zhanying's saber, and he took a step back, and the point of the sword reached Xiao Jingyan's heart.

This action frightened the soldiers around him, but before anyone persuaded him, Bai Bi's hoarse voice sounded out amidst the wind and rain.

"Don't die, right! Don't die, just say it, but this sword is so simple, you are going to die, no one is stopping you, but don't implicate other people here!

You have to do your best for your friend and your brother, you have to question and guarantee.But Xiao Jingyan!Didn't you see how many people died!Do you still want to risk the lives of people in this mansion for nothing! "

"What do you know!" Xiao Jingyan clasped his hands tightly, "creaking and creaking" is the cock of the bone.He roared, and what fell in his eyes was not rain.

"Heh." Bai Bi sneered, seeing him stop and throw away the sword, he took two steps forward, the rain dripped down his chin in a line.

"Then what do you know! What can you do if you rush into the palace recklessly! Pointless questioning, pointless sacrifice. In the end, whether it is Commander Lin or His Royal Highness Qi Wang, they are still plotters and traitors in the eyes of everyone." !Since you believe in your elder brother, your friends and the [-] Red Flame Army, then what you have to do is not to sacrifice your life for nothing in this turmoil!

Those people, those who believed in your eldest brother Huang and believed in Lin Shuai, were either loyal to the imperial city or changed their minds.Xiao Jingyan, you are the only hope that can reverse the case and stigmatize them.Are you going to let this hope be ruined like this! "

Everyone was speechless, Xiao Jingyan stared at Bai Bi in a daze, the two of them were drenched in the rain, their bodies were covered in embarrassment and bruises.

Bai Bi trembled her eyelashes, and suddenly raised her arms to hug Xiao Jingyan.

"Jingyan, I will be with you. Let's settle our innocence together. So now, calm down first. Listen to me, okay?"

......

Bai Bi put the cold tea on the table, looking at the dark green tea color, reflecting the overly fair face. "That year, he was 19 years old and I was 17 years old."

"and after?"

Bai Bi put his hands on his knees, as if he was smiling. "Later, of course I hurried into the house to take a shower and change clothes. Is it possible that I continued to be a drowned chicken? They can't afford me. But, that day, it was the first time I saw him cry..."

......

Bai Bi soaked in the hot water, felt that his body was already warmed up, so he got on the bed and went to see the idiot next door.

As soon as I pushed the door, there were a lot of figures behind the screen, presumably still in a bubble.

Xiao Jingyan must have been immersed in his own thoughts, he didn't even know that someone came in, and he didn't realize it until Bai Bi was behind him, but obviously he couldn't hide in time.

"you......"

"Me?" Bai Bi's eyes were sharp and his hands were quick once, and he pressed Xiao Jingyan's shoulder to prevent him from avoiding it. "Do you think that everyone is just like you."

When did he grind!

Pressing the cold hand on the hot skin, both of them were in shock.

Bai Bi smiled, and covered Xiao Jingyan's eyes before Xiao Jingyan chased him away.If he read correctly, this person is crying.

Xiao Jingyan raised his hand and was about to pull it away, but he heard the man say, "A man should not show his tears to others easily. My master said, cover your eyes, and in the darkness, act as if you are the only one who knows. After crying , so you can stand up. If you feel ashamed, just pretend I don’t exist.”

Xiao Jingyan put his hand on the back of Bai Bi's, forgetting to move.For a long, long time, he slowly clenched the hand in front of him.

The palm of the hand is moist and hot, bit by bit into the heart.

I don't know how long it took until Bai Bi's hands started to go numb, and then he heard the man say in a hoarse voice: "I'm still thinking about you and just came in like this."

Bai Bi laughed, and said: "I just remembered now, they are all men, you are still shy."

"...No, you are not in good health...Did you drink the ginger soup..."

......

On the high city wall, Xiao Jingyan raised his hand to cover his eyes. The wilderness was endless and the wind was loud. He seemed to hear the man say: "A man should not shed tears lightly. If you feel ashamed, cover your eyes as a Nobody knows."

The author has something to say:

Said that when I went home, I did all kinds of work and saw two relatives. It was late~ But it's thick and long~

I forgot to ask for leave, I only need to take the exam next week [cover my face] I can’t update on time on Sunday, and I will update it after the holiday on Monday~