Half life, for Jue

Bai Bi leaned on the bed, looking at a book in his hand.

Rong Wenyuan came in with the medicine, took a look, and couldn't help twitching the corners of her mouth, who could tell what happened to her brother.Are you sick?

"Brother, what are you thinking?" Rong Wenyuan pushed Bai Bi.

"Ah?" Bai Bi was a little dazed when she first saw Rong Wenyuan appearing in front of her eyes.

"...Brother, your book is turned upside down..." Rong Wenyuan was speechless for a while, and then said out in a tangled state.

This is her brother?This is her talented elder brother Bai Bi?Just kidding me!

Bai Bi silently glanced at the book, shaking her hand.Damn Xiao Jingyan!Halfway through talking, he is now... ashamed in front of his sister!

Bai Bi herself was also depressed.After Xiao Jingyan suddenly opened his eyes last night, he said to him that he understood, and then asked him to sleep quickly.King Jing's stove was back on, so he couldn't resist for a moment, and fell asleep in a daze.When he woke up this morning and there was no one there, he felt a little, suddenly a little uncomfortable.

Thinking back and forth in his mind, he chewed over and over again what he said last night, while making sure that he understood correctly, but also wondered if it was just a big dream he had because he fell asleep last night.But the warmth in the night is so real.

But if you believe that.Bai Bi felt again...it was wrong.He didn't know what kind of result he could have with Xiao Jingyan.There will be no results for them at all. The deeper the two are involved now, the deeper the injury will be in the future.Really!Xiao Jingyan!You don’t get enlightened sooner or later, but at this moment, you suddenly think about what to do!

"Damn it, Bai Bi, your brain has been eaten by a dog, what are you thinking about and writing about!" Bai Bi cursed in a low voice, and the complexity in his heart was nothing more than worrying about gains and losses, with mixed feelings of sadness and joy.Worrying about gains and losses is afraid that everything will explain your fantasies, just because you have waited too long and want to let go, and when you are caught off guard, you will feel unreal and afraid of losing.What is mixed with sorrow and joy is that I have been corresponding with that person for many years, but I am worried that that person will get hurt because of it.

Rong Wenyuan stood by and watched her brother stare at the upside-down words in a daze for a long time, and then suddenly muttered something, with a slightly ferocious expression...

The little girl couldn't help touching Bai Bi's forehead, and in Bai Bi's strange eyes, said: "It's not hot. Brother, are you okay? What are you thinking? Can we drink the medicine first. "

Bai Bi held down the throbbing veins, and smiled, "It's nothing." Then he picked up the bowl and took a sip.However, his heart was still filled with the three characters of Xiao Jingyan.

At this time, Xiao Jingyan was paying his respects to the imperial concubine.

Coincidentally, Emperor Liang has tightened and loosened since those bloody three days.I often have night dreams, cough and wheeze, can't sleep well at night, but can't wake up during the day.Concubine Jing had just finished serving him to sleep peacefully with medicine.Sitting in his wing room picking flowers, he was very happy to see Prince Jing coming.

"Why did you come in again? You don't have to come over and over to say hello because you have a lot of business outside." Concubine Jing took her son's hand.Seeing his hesitation, he asked, "What's the matter?"

Xiao Jingyan was inexplicably embarrassed, but he had to explain to his mother and Bai Bi.

"Mother." Xiao Jingyan's resolute figure slowly saluted Concubine Jing.

"What are you doing?" Concubine Jing hurriedly bent down to help Xiao Jingyan up, "If you have anything to say, just say it. How can you do such a big ceremony?"

Xiao Jingyan's wide sleeves slipped a little while standing up, revealing the jade gourd dangling slightly against the wrist bone.

Concubine Jing's gaze shrank suddenly, she pulled away Xiao Jingyan's sleeves and stared at the little jade gourd.He asked, "Jingyan, where did you get this gourd?"

This is the second time that Xiao Jingyan has seen his mother, who has always been indifferent, quiet, stable and steady, change his face drastically.The last time was when my mother saw Mei Changsu.

Xiao Jingyan restrained his thoughts, and immediately replied: "Bai Bi gave it to me."

"Bai Bi? Bai..." Concubine Jing pondered for a long time, Bai Bi had followed Xiao Jingyan for a long time, and Xiao Jingyan would often mention it when he entered the palace to pay her respects.Concubine Jing recalled the scholar who had been standing silently by the side when the rebels killed him in the Hunting Palace. He was cold and quiet, with handsome eyebrows. She didn't look carefully at that time, and she didn't see it.

"Then do you know what his mother's name is?" Concubine Jing asked again.

Xiao Jingyan thought for a moment, could it be that Bai Bi's mother was old with his mother?But it is very possible, "Mother, Bai Bi's identity, he is the son of a criminal minister. Do you know?"

As soon as these words came out, Concubine Jing's body shook. "Jingyan, do you really know his identity?"

"It's just that I don't know if it's the same as what my mother thinks?" Xiao Jingyan supported Concubine Jing and said in a low voice.

Concubine Jing restrained her emotions, and said: "There is only one pair of jade gourds in the whole world, and the lines of each piece of jade are different, but these two gourds are very similar, and you can't find the difference if you don't look carefully. .Bai Bi, Bai Zhiyun, I didn’t expect to meet my old friend today in a situation I thought was inevitable. Jingyan, how is he now? I want to go and see him.”

Xiao Jingyan nodded, "Mother can go if she wants to. It's just that he was a little sick just now." Xiao Jingyan was afraid that Concubine Jing would be worried, and said again, "But he has his junior sister to take care of him, and his condition is stable. Mother don't have to worry."

Concubine Jing agreed, and thought that it was Zhiyun's child. If she was not in good health, she would not go to the doctor herself, and she was always worried.

He heard Xiao Jingyan say in his ear again, "The thing I want to discuss with my mother today is also related to Bai Bi."

"What's the matter? Just tell me."

Xiao Jingyan knelt down in front of Concubine Jing again, and before Concubine Jing could help him up, he had already said, "Mother Concubine, please prevent Emperor Father from returning to Beijing in the future to choose a concubine for his ministers."

"What?" Concubine Jing pulled Xiao Jingyan up. After this battle, Xiao Jingyan's status is already certain. It is reasonable to choose a concubine for Xiao Jingyan. This child has never disobeyed her for such things, but today he said He doesn't want to marry a concubine.

"Jingyan, why don't you want to? The position of concubine in your mansion has been vacant for a long time. You should have married a long time ago. You don't want to, but you have someone in mind?" I understand what this has to do with Bai Bi.

candidate?Xiao Jingyan smiled wryly in his heart, that fox, he might not be able to marry it back. "Mother, it's not that I don't want to marry, it's just postponed. I understand the responsibility on me, and he also understands. I just don't want to embarrass him. He is arrogant, and he refuses to talk to others about everything, and his heart is heavy. , I just want to spend as long as I can with him before he leaves Jinling."

A thought flashed in Concubine Jing's mind, although it was quite absurd and unbelievable, but seeing her son's determined face, she went through everything back and forth.Concubine Jing's heart was pounding.

"Jingyan, tell mother, who is in your heart?"

"Bai Bi." Xiao Jingyan didn't hesitate.He's the kind of guy who won't back down once he's made up his mind.

"what?"

"Mother, I said that the person in my heart is Bai Bi."

Concubine Jing was a little dazed for a moment, her conjecture was only conjecture after all, and now that Xiao Jingyan personally confirmed it, Concubine Jing felt absurd and at the same time felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

She knew the temper of her son herself, he was as stubborn as a cow, and no one could change what he had decided.And Bai Bi, the son of the old man, the old man has passed away, and she couldn't bear to condemn Bai Bi.

But should she just agree like this?Concubine Jing thinks she is the mother she chose out of respect for her son, but it is really against the rules for a man to fall in love, and Jingyan is in this status again now.The royal family will never allow such a scandal to occur.

Seeing Concubine Jing being silent for a long time, Xiao Jingyan whispered as if pleading and helpless, and said: "Mother, I have been with him for many years and have always regarded him as a life and death friend. Every day passes like this. The two of us Getting along is good friends. If we really want us to make some gestures of love, I am afraid that we are the ones who are awkward. We meet and talk to each other. What I hope is that he will explain our feelings for more than ten years in his lifetime. If I still don’t understand Forget it, but now I suddenly understand, then how can I get married and have children with peace of mind. How embarrassing did I make him feel, and how embarrassing I made myself who had lost the opportunity to tell him in the future.

Mother, I was really grateful for my sudden realization last night.And I can't help but think, what if I still don't understand?Bai Bi refused to tell me, he brought this secret that should belong to the two of us into the coffin alone, and what should I do when I get old and think about the past in a trance, but suddenly realize it?At that time, I had already lost the opportunity to speak out, I let him leave alone with regrets, and I made myself hate the dullness of youth.Mother, although I understood it later, I did not miss it anyway. "

"Jingyan." Concubine Jing couldn't help sighing, and stroked Xiao Jingyan's forehead, "Take me to meet Bai Bi while I'm free now."

"Okay." Xiao Jingyan agreed.

At this time, Bai Bi still knew nothing, he was still hugging the stove, listening to the girl who volunteered to study for him to relieve his boredom.

Although Bai Bi could tell at a glance that this little girl was not interested in drinking, but was guarding against Xiao Jingyan, and wanted to get some plausible words out of him.

But right in Bai Bi's arms, he didn't know how to face Xiao Jingyan right now, so the little girl happened to block him out.As for the clichés... I can't lose to this little girl when I'm sick.

And so the following conversation begins...

"Brother, what did Prince Jing tell you?" Rong Wenyuan asked abruptly.

Bai Bi was holding the book without raising his eyelids. "You look so defensive, how did you let him break through your cordon?"

"..." Rong Wenyuan held her breath, and her mouth almost passed her mind, "How is it possible!"

Eh?Wait, how did she get hit by such a low-level provocative method!

Bai Bi smiled like a lazy fox, "Well, yes, then what else do you ask me?"

Bai Bi paused for a moment, then raised his head to look at her, sighed in his heart, and said with some distress: "Your eyes are so dark and blue, you have been exhausted for the past two days, don't keep talking about me, look at her more." Focus on your own body, and go back to rest when you are tired."

Rong Wenyuan shook her head, and said jokingly, "Brother, have you ever looked in the mirror? You have no right to criticize me in this regard. You don't look like a fox anymore, you look like a bamboo bear. Do you know that circle around your eyes? It’s dark, but it’s getting lighter today.”

Bai Bi nodded her chin, and followed Rong Wenyuan's words, "Oh, bamboo bear, then my Yuan'er has seen a slender bamboo bear like your brother?"

"Pfft ha ha ha." Rong Wenyuan let out a mouthful of laughter. "No, no, absolutely not."

As soon as Xiao Jingyan led Concubine Jing to the door outside, he heard a series of laughter until he was out of breath.

Xiao Jingyan: "..."

The author has something to say:

Seeing wood has a sweet feeling~ When I wrote earlier, I always felt that the writing was not smooth, not very good, and I felt like I had encountered a bottleneck, but today I feel a little easier~

Sure enough, but the first grade of junior high school~

Haha, happy new year everyone~

See if you are diligent or not~