Half life, for Jue

"Miss Rong, what's the matter?"

As soon as Rong Wenyuan came out of the room, Xiao Jingyan went up to meet him. He had already cooled down, but he still had uncontrollable fear in his heart.

Rong Wenyuan's complexion was also not very good. She was in a hurry for a long time, and then she was startled by Baibi again. She was dizzy and only saw Xiao Jingyan and felt angry.

Rong Wenyuan said: "Still in a coma. His Royal Highness Prince Jing has many things to do, so there is no need to wait here."

"I'll go and see him." Xiao Jingyan knew that Rong Wenyuan was blaming him, even he himself felt that he deserved to be blamed, and now he just took it for granted and didn't feel offended.It's just that he just wanted to see what happened to Bai Bi first, and it was too late to say sorry to Rong Wenyuan.

Rong Wenyuan stopped Xiao Jingyan who walked in, "My brother has a lot of things in his heart. You don't understand his thoughts. No matter how nice you are to him, it will only make him feel more uncomfortable. He agreed. I said that as long as his work is done, he will take me away from Jinling. Your Highness Prince Jing, Xiao Jingyan, do you know why he wants to leave you. He is obviously so worried about you."

Xiao Jingyan stood outside the door in a daze, the screen blocked his gaze from looking in.

Everything in the Hunting Palace at night has been taken care of in an orderly manner, so Xiao Jingyan didn't even take a look at Bai Bi.He was thinking about the bits and pieces of the past ten years.Bai Bi still has something that he hasn't told him, so what exactly is it?What kind of thing makes Bai Bihui want to leave.

Xiao Jingyan walked step by step alone.Feeling lonely for no reason.At this moment, he was puzzled and a little uneasy, like a duckweed with nowhere to go.When he looked up, there was not even a single person who could talk about what was in his heart.He can't go over to his mother's side at will, and his elder brother and the friends who grew up together have already left him.Finally, he walked and came to Bai Bi's door.

Standing alone outside the door for a long time, Bai Bi's image of spitting blood is in his mind, and Rong Wenyuan's words full of accusation are in his mind.

"Cough, cough cough." The depressive cough came into Xiao Jingyan's ears, his voice was very soft, if it wasn't for Xiao Jingyan standing at the door of the room with clear eyes and ears, he couldn't hear clearly at all.

Xiao Jingyan was a little at a loss, he couldn't move forward or retreat, and walked in while the coughing became more and more intense.

Going around the screen, I saw Bai Bi lying on the bedside, holding a white handkerchief covering his mouth and coughing non-stop.

Xiao Jingyan hurried over to help him up, but his shoulders were thin and cold.

When Bai Bi raised his eyes to see Xiao Jingyan, he coughed for a while, and then became more anxious the next moment, as if he wanted to cough out his lungs.

Xiao Jingyan sat down by the bed so that Bai Bi could lean against him, and he slowly patted Bai Bi's back to comfort him, and it took a while for Bai Bi to gradually recover.

The room suddenly fell silent, neither of them spoke, only the sound of their own breathing in their ears.

Xiao Jingyan hugged Bai Bi, he had already changed out of his armor, and now he was wearing a prince's costume, with loose clothes and big sleeves.At this time, he hugged Bai Bi in his arms, and all the wide sleeves fell on Bai Bi's body, and the two people seemed to live as one.

There is no light in Bai Bi's room, only sporadic moonlight shines in through the window, so that the room will not be completely dark.

"How's the injury on your hand?" In the end, Bai Bi spoke out first, and his hoarse and broken voice echoed in Xiao Jingyan's ears.

How could it be like this?A person who was standing well one moment suddenly fell down the next moment.The very familiar person in his arms also became strange, and when he looked at him, it was as if he was separated by layers of fog and confused.

"It's not a big deal." Xiao Jingyan replied after a while.Then he suddenly asked, "Do you know how long you can live?"

"..." Bai Bi coughed twice, but did not answer.

"Are you breaking your promise, Bai Bi?" Xiao Jingyan still patted Bai Bi's back lightly, his deep and melodious voice was imperceptibly lonely, "You once promised me that you would see me take that seat, Supervise my governance and help me maintain my heart in the desire for power and darkness. We will create a prosperous world together. With our efforts, we can see that the common people live and work in peace and contentment, the national defense is stable, and the military is strong. Do you remember? You have also Promise me, when the time comes, you will tell me everything about you, and I will know everything about you. Then the time has come, so now is not the time, so when will your time be ripe? "

Bai Bi felt sore in his heart, but he couldn't say a word, he just coughed twice from time to time.Xiao Jingyan hugged him tighter again, with a heavy voice and a deep sense of powerlessness, "Bai Bi, I still remember you asking me what would happen if you were all for my own good but hurt me in the end. Actually To this day I still don't know, but if you... you leave without me knowing, if you suddenly... leave and I don't know , my life must have unspeakable regrets and remorse. Bai Bi......"

He whispered his name, and finally dyed that body with his own body temperature in the cold night.

"Your parents will always be rehabilitated one day. You must see it with your own eyes. The crimes brought about by this treason case should be borne by you and me together. Bai Bi, even if everyone in the world is Blame you, but Xiao Jingyan will definitely not. I will not be emotional or reasonable. If you still refuse to say it today, I will not force you, but I hope you can let yourself go and don’t push me away on purpose .Bai Bi..."

Xiao Jingyan's voice paused, and the flashing thought was firmly grasped in his palm as if it had been enlightened, his lips moved, and he suddenly lowered his head.

Looking at each other, Bai Bi was taken aback by Xiao Jingyan, the sporadic light was enough for Xiao Jingyan to see clearly that Bai Bi's widened eyes were a little stunned and a little dazed, but also a little complicated with sadness and...softness.

In the silence where you could hear the drop of a needle, Xiao Jingyan suddenly heard, "Bai Bi, am I really... stupid?"

Bai Bi was stunned for a moment, then suddenly regained consciousness, avoiding Xiao Jingyan's overly sincere, warm and comprehensible gaze.

"That's what I teased you before. You are very smart. You can fight when you are on a horse, and you can cure when you are off a horse. It is not an exaggeration."

"I'm not... saying this. I'm... Bai... Bai Bi." Xiao Jingyan suddenly stuttered, but felt that it was wrong to say anything.

"Then what are you talking about again? My Highness." Bai Bi couldn't help sighing, Xiao Jingyan's every word and sentence was too touching, he let you know that there is an abyss ahead, and it's because he is there And willingly jumped down.

Bai Bi had no way to ignore the body's longing for warmth, nor could he forget the feelings in his heart. At that moment, all the pretense turned into dust, which was blown away by Xiao Jingyan.

Bai Bi let himself be wrapped by Xiao Jingyan, let his hands hold Xiao Jingyan's stern face, and traced his eyebrows with his fingertips.

Xiao Jingyan wouldn't even move his brows if Bai Bi made such a move before, but now he suddenly feels uncomfortable and embarrassed.

"My Prince Jing, in the future you will be His Royal Highness the Crown Prince and His Majesty the Emperor. You will go farther and farther. I remember your words, but as you go higher and higher, things around you will become more and more Few. Haven’t you ever looked back? In fact, I don’t need to alienate you deliberately, the distance between you and me has already gone farther and farther naturally. There are more and more people around you, and you will start to have more and more love Things have to be done, and your different identities mean that you have to take on more responsibilities from more people. Xiao Jingyan, who belongs to Baibi alone, will become smaller and smaller. Jingyan, I don’t want to let myself fall into such an embarrassing situation. Maybe you If you still don’t understand, then promise me that you will never understand for the rest of your life.”

The two people are so close at this moment, even the distance between their eyes is less than half a foot, but who can guarantee that they will be like this in the future.

Bai Bi thinks that compared to his own selfish desires, he hopes that Xiao Jingyan's life can be fulfilled and happy.

He said: "I really don't live long. If I tell you so plainly, you might let go of it? Life and death are common things, and no one can hide from them. I think my life is already very good, and I have nothing to be dissatisfied with. Wait until When my wish is fulfilled, I will take Yuan'er away and go home to have a look. At that time, I thought my master would not throw me out. Although I will not be by your side in the future, if you remember, I am in your heart, It's not bad. Besides, I don't think you will be too lonely in the future. When you return to Beijing, your status will be settled, and the vacant mistress of Prince Jing's Mansion will also be settled. If she gives birth to a child for you in the future, you But it’s getting lively. Jingyan, no one can’t live without someone, and there’s no one you can stay with you forever, what you need is to find another person who can accompany you after one person leaves. Don’t be afraid.”

Xiao Jingyan felt the pain, as if he had been stabbed in the chest, blood was dripping.

He held Bai Bi's ice-like hand and told Bai Bi solemnly.

"Then what if I understand now, Bai Bi? Tomorrow, tomorrow I will go back and tell my mother that the marriage must be postponed, and at least three years of filial piety must be done for the emperor's grandmother."

Bai Bi: "...you said...what?"

"It's nothing! Just...you go to sleep!...It's getting late." Even under the cover of the night, Xiao Jingyan couldn't help but feel embarrassed.Forcibly pressed Bai Bi who was already dazed.

In the silent night, Xiao Jingyan listened to Bai Bi's gradual and steady breathing, and his heart was suddenly filled, as if he would feel at peace no matter what the situation was as long as he had this person by his side.

Holding Bai Bi, whose body temperature was lower than ordinary people, Xiao Jingyan felt extremely warm.

Fortunately, Bai Bi, I understand now that there is still time, and I can still hug you.

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A different kind of confession~