subtle trapping

Like countless dreams, I ran around in a big circle, but I couldn't find anything in the end.

Li Xia is going crazy, there are tourists everywhere, no matter what, I can't find him, he was still here just now, and he clearly heard him singing "God bless my love..."

A familiar voice, a familiar profile, but when he ran out, there was nothing left.

Like a puff of cloud and smoke, it dissipated quickly, like a shattered dream, dreaming back in the middle of the night, leaving only gasping and panic.

Brittany ran out following Lixia, and saw Lixia looking around in the crowd, her face pale as if she was about to fall down in the next second, she grabbed Lixia's arm and shouted: "Xia, Xia! What are you looking for?"

Li Xia was silent, searched round and round, searched all the crowds, but still couldn't find him, supported the big tree by the street, wiped his face, and said in a hoarse voice: "I can't find him, I put him He lost..."

Brittany was taken aback and said, "Who? Your lover?"

Li Xia nodded, lost all his strength, and slid down the tree trunk to the ground, his face was bloodless and pale, and cold sweat broke out on his forehead.

"What's wrong with you? Are you okay?" Brittany was a little worried.

"It's okay, it will be fine in a while." Li Xia said.

Li Xia doesn't know if this is a sequelae of stress, as long as he thinks of Lu Jinchu, as long as he is anxious, his voice will become hoarse, and the physiological retching still exists, like irony and cruel ridicule, look, you quit He couldn't get rid of him, but he hurt himself all over.

Brittany said, "The one who just sang?"

Li Xia nodded.

Brittany looked at Lixia and said, "You wait for me here." Then she ran out.

After a while, Lixia's physical reaction gradually subsided, and Brittany ran over, holding a postcard and saying, "They said it was left by the singer, and I asked them for it, saying it was very important. Just give it."

Li Xia took the postcard tremblingly, it was a landscape painting of Suzhou gardens, a postcard with the atmosphere of southern China, it also wrote bestwishes, written in Chinese, Li Xia stared at the words on it, tears burst out of his eyes.

"God bless my love, give him eternal laughter and be partial to him."

Familiar handwriting, familiar brushwork.

Tears blurred his vision, Li Xia wanted to shout at the top of his lungs, but his voice was so hoarse that he couldn't say anything, holding this thin postcard tightly, he searched like crazy in the crowd.

Next to the romantic Windsor Castle, a thin young man's eyes were red, tears rolled down, and he was looking for someone he couldn't find.

The sun was setting, and it was stained with a halo of sadness.

The romance turned into a sting.

Li Xia failed to find Lu Jinchu, but that postcard became his salvation and sustenance for a long time afterwards.

Turning the clouds to see the sun, as if the sky was destined, he pulled him when he kept sinking, and under the sinking of the stagnant water, a ray of light came in.

Even if you will still be awakened when you sleep, even if the weather in London is still foggy, even if the academic tasks are so heavy that you will collapse, even if your knees will still be aching because of dampness, but all these seem to be less difficult.

Lixia still runs in the early morning to welcome every sunrise. When passing by the riverside, he will stop and have a look at the black swans rubbing their ears together. On a rainy day, he suddenly wants to go to the Black Forest and listen to the sound of rain falling on the leaves. There was a swishing sound.

When drawing pictures until the sky is dark, when reading a book and feeling dizzy, when my stomach hurts so much that my whole body trembles, when I wake up in a dream... I will secretly think of Lu Jinchu, and then I will no longer shy away from taking it. Get out the drawing paper and start drawing Lu Jinchu, drawing all the secrets engraved in the bottom of my heart on the paper.

The weather is getting warmer and time flies.

The thick picture book is full of thoughts, and the title page is "God bless my lover."

Lixia began to participate in school activities, began to learn to communicate, and got out of his stubborn shell during meetings. Brittany took him to play, to party, to dance together, to barbecue together, to dance together, to go crazy together, to watch the Thames River At night, look at the ancient and beautiful street scene in London.

……

The two-year exchange student ended soon. The professor liked Lixia very much and wanted Lixia to continue her postgraduate study here. Lixia said that she had to think about it and then went back. Brittany cried and said that she must come again. He introduced a boyfriend well, Li Xia smiled.

When we went back, Ren Shaoxuan, Teng Fei and Xiaopang went to the airport to pick up the plane together. The moment he saw Li Xia coming out, Ren Shaoxuan almost cried, his eyes were red, Li Xia smiled and patted him on the shoulder, "I'm back gone."

After drinking for three rounds, the atmosphere is slightly drunk, there is no barrier, no distance, and everything seems to be the same as before.

"Li Xia, although I don't know what happened to you, you have become so skinny, and my buddies don't ask any more questions," Teng Fei said, "but as long as we are buddies for a day, buddies will have to take care of you." Insert a knife, as long as you need it, and a mountain of knives, as long as you squeak..."

Li Xia drank a glass, drank it down, patted Teng Fei's shoulder, "I know."

Ren Shaoxuan couldn't drink, but still refused to put down the glass, and drank a few rounds, his little face was flushed, and he was a little drunk, "Li Xia, you've lost weight."

Li Xia saw that his eyes were a little blurred, and he straightened him up with a smile, and said, "Well, it's okay."

Ren Shaoxuan leaned against Li Xia, muttering, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, there is a time difference when you chat with you over there, and you are often offline..."

Teng Fei's capacity for alcohol is relatively good, and he is still sober at the moment, and said with a smile: "This kid is looking forward to your return every day, and he keeps saying that no one will go to the library with him, no one will run with him... ..."

Ren Shaoxuan was already dizzy, leaning on Li Xia, complaining aggrievedly, "They all have girlfriends one after another, and I'm the only one with no one to accompany them."

Teng Fei slapped his thigh when he heard Zhile, "Hey, that's why you co-authored it? Isn't it hard to be chased by elementary school girls? Don't you always hide?"

"I don't like her!" Ren Shaoxuan shouted.

Xiaopang explained with a smile: "Actually, there are many people chasing Xiao Xuanxuan, both men and women, but Xiao Xuanxuan probably has someone in his heart."

Everyone drank and chatted, full of emotions, the smell of alcohol came up, and everything was poured out.

Li Xia got up, "It's too bloated, I have to go to the bathroom."

It was only when I went out that I felt a little uncomfortable in my stomach. As soon as I walked to the door of the bathroom, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my stomach, and cold sweat broke out on my painful forehead. Li Xia supported the washstand and put his fist against his stomach, slowly waiting for the pain to subside.

"Gu...Lixia?" A familiar voice came from behind.

Li Xia suffered from severe stomach pain, his face was pale, and when he looked up, it was Chen Shen.

By the way, Chen Shen also went out to eat with a few people from the law firm tonight, and he didn't expect to run into an acquaintance by such a coincidence. It took a while to feel something was wrong.

Chen Shen immediately sensed that something was wrong with Li Xia, walked over, saw Li Xia's head covered in cold sweat, and asked, "Your stomach hurts?"

The pain in the stomach became more intense, Li Xia nodded, "Well, it's an old problem, it doesn't matter."

Without further ado, Chen Shen directly supported him and said, "Go to the hospital." There was no room for Li Xia to refute.

Along the way, Li Xia wanted to say a few words to Chen Shen, but was troubled by the huge pain and could not speak at all. Chen Shen seemed to see Li Xia's intentions, and said directly: "Don't think about other things, think about yourself .”

Li Xia opened his mouth and wanted to ask, but spit out a mouthful of blood. Chen Shen frowned, and stepped on the gas pedal without hesitation.

Acute gastric bleeding.

Blood transfusion, infusion, after a whole set, Li Xia only felt that every bone in his body was exhausted, and Chen Shen stayed with Li Xia without saying a word.

"Thank you." Li Xia said.

Chen Shen said: "You can have a good sleep, and if you need any help, you can call me again." He wrote his phone number on the card beside the bed and left after writing.

"Wait a minute." Li Xia said.

Chen Shen turned his head, looked at Li Xia, and Li Xia looked at Chen Shen, clenched his fists, worried and nervous, and whispered, "Is he okay?"

"I don't know," Chen Shen said, "If you want to ask about Lu Jinchu, I'm sorry I can't tell you, because he didn't leave any contact information after he left, and no one knows where he went, including all his friends. people around me."

Li Xia froze, tremblingly said: "He... is gone?"

Chen Shen thought for a while and said, "Maybe you should ask your grandparents."

Li Xia was stunned for a moment, lost his mind, and after a while said in a hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, I don't know."

There was no expression on Chen Shen's face, and he said: "Before he left, he entrusted us to help you. If you need any help in the future, please call me." After speaking, he looked at his watch, "I will help you later." I still have a video conference, so I won't accompany you, you can call or send text messages if you need anything." After finishing speaking, he left.

Li Xia was lying on the bed blankly, the liquid in the infusion tube was flowing drop by drop, but Li Xia felt his heart began to ache again.

Has Lu Jinchu left?No contact information left?Are you planning to let others find him?

I still let him down.

have they gone?Won't you come back?

Li Xia only felt that his heart was going to go numb, obviously it had just entered autumn, why did the cold soak through his whole body all of a sudden, his heart was stuffy, confused, painful, all the exhaustion came out, it was terrible.

The phone kept ringing by the bedside, but Li Xia didn't even want to look at it, lying on the bed numb all over, and didn't know that the needle in his hand was bleeding, as if he had lost consciousness.

When the nurse came in, she saw the blood flowing back into the infusion tube, and complained angrily, "Ah, why didn't you call for someone, where is the person who accompanied you? You can't do it, you call..." While talking, she frantically gave Li Xia Pull out the needle.

Li Xia only felt dizzy from the buzzing in his ears, frowned and said, "Stop talking."

The nurse was taken aback, looked at Li Xia, and fell silent.