Bai Yueguang he bent suddenly

"Hey hey... is it that funny? It's almost done. Laughing will hurt your self-esteem!" Lu Weiming took out a pack of tissues from his pocket, took out a piece of tissue and pressed it directly on the corner of Sha Ou's eyes, and wiped it with his hands. He wiped away the tears from his laughter.

"Okay, I'll try my best to control myself..." Sha Ou said while laughing, took the tissue that was pressed in the corner of his eye by himself, and it took him a long time to stop, patted his chest, and slowly calmed down breath.

I have to say, with such a smirk for no reason, the depression and depression suppressed in my heart did dissipate a lot.

Lu Weiming is a good prescription, which has a miraculous effect on curing bad mood.

Lu Weiming saw that his whole body relaxed slowly, and the tight string in his heart also loosened accordingly. He leaned back in boredom, leaned against Sha Ou's shoulder, and leaned against the same tree, like As if unintentionally, he said casually: "By the way, the place where you work...won't you consider changing it?"

Sha Ou restrained his smile a little, and replied: "Not going to."

"Why?" Lu Weiming frowned, a little puzzled: "Even if you want to make money, you don't have to have a bar. You are a high school student and you still work in night shows. Do you know how big a safety hazard it is?"

"I know." Sha Ou said in a clear tone, "But, with my current ability and identity, this is the most cost-effective job I can find so far."

"You...are you in such a hurry to make money?"

Sha Ou unscrewed the soda water bottle in his hand and took a sip of water. There was a faint lemon scent lingering between his teeth. It seemed that the words he spoke were not so bitter.

"Worried, of course anxious." Sha Ou couldn't see any superfluous emotions on his face, and said flatly: "My brother is in the third year of junior high school this year, and in the first year of high school next year. After the nine-year compulsory education semester is over, the tuition and miscellaneous fees for the three years of high school cannot be saved. Well, in another year, I'm going to go to university. After a few years of studying, it will be a lot of money. Besides, if there is no accident, when I was in my junior year, Sha Yan was still a freshman. Do you know how much it will cost two college students to complete their studies at the same time?"

"Furthermore, I still have my grandfather. Don't look at the old man's health now. Older people are different every day. Daily health care is not counted. The later it is, the more common it is to go to the hospital for minor illnesses. The old man does not have employee medical insurance, only urban resident medical insurance, and he has to pay two commercial insurances every year, how much will it cost in the long run?"

Sha Ou's tone was not in a hurry, as if he was narrating something that had nothing to do with him, but every word, like a small steel needle, stabbed firmly at the tip of Lu Weiming's heart superior.

Sha Ou sighed, turned to look at him, and finally got to the point: "Two students and an old man, in an ordinary family, can be regarded as a lot of pressure, and you should have discovered that my family is not an ordinary family. , I—" He paused, bit his lower lip with the tip of his teeth, and finally said, "I don't have parents in my family."

"You..." Lu Weiming was at a loss for words for a moment, looking at the pale face in front of him, he couldn't say a word.

He couldn't comfort him, he couldn't persuade him, he even started to regret it, he didn't understand what kind of evil wind he had smoked, why he insisted on listening to Sha Ou to talk about these dusty past events, as if he was forcing him to spend all these years The hidden, well-healed wound was opened again, and I re-witnessed the dripping blood with myself.

He didn't want him to hold his hardships in his heart and hurt himself, but he didn't want to let him look back on it again and feel truly sad again.

But after Sha Ou said this, he suddenly seemed to have unloaded some heavy burden, as if he had found the long-lost key that could open the rusty shackles in his heart. In the past year, these words, which have never been spoken to outsiders, as soon as they were spoken, I suddenly felt a clear and bright feeling in my chest. The feeling was indescribably relaxed and refreshing.

Sha Ou changed to a more lazy and comfortable sitting position, and slowly recalled: "My dad used to be an instructor in the driving school, and my mother was a full-time housewife. Later, when the logistics distribution industry just emerged, my dad changed careers. Yes, driving a truck for a transportation company, the salary is much higher than in the driving school. There is no way, the pressure of a family with two sons is greater. He simply earns more, and he is not tired of running long distances day and night. .”

"My dad is responsible for making money to support the family, and my mother is responsible for taking care of me and my brother at home. At that time, life was really not bad."

Looking back on his childhood, Sha Ou unconsciously smiled, and there was no trace of pain in his peaceful expression.

"My dad is good at driving, so the company often lets him travel long distances, and the fare is high, and he readily accepts it. As a result, my first year of junior high school was also a long vacation in October..."

During the October [-]st holiday of that year, Sha Ou had just entered junior high school and was at home with his younger brother on vacation. It happened that Sha Haijun, or his father, had accepted a short-distance job from the company. According to the distance, he could make a round trip in a day.

During the holidays, my parents took my grandfather from their hometown to stay for a short stay. Seeing that the grandparents and grandchildren were sharing a family relationship at home, and considering that the trip was not far away, Mother Shaou decided to go out with her husband in the car and escort him temporarily. Yes, there is also a companion on the way to the big festival.

"As a result, they didn't come back that time."

On the return highway, there was a sudden heavy rain at night, and they drove back with an empty car, but they were lost on the way home forever.

Sand Gull looked up at the sky in all directions cut by the canopy of trees, the golden sunlight fell on his amber pupils, he blinked lightly to push away the moisture in his eyes.

"Slippery roads in rainy days, high-speed accidents, two or three trucks collided with each other, and the other two were fully loaded. Only the one driven by my dad was empty, and was caught in the middle of the front and rear vehicles. In the accident, the impact trauma was the greatest. ,them......"

Lu Weiming put a hand on his shoulder, and his voice began to tremble uncontrollably: "Stop talking..."

Sha Ou shook his head, as if he had fallen into an old nightmare, unable to wake up: "The scene of the accident was finally dealt with, and people could no longer see it. When encoffining, we asked the forensic doctor and the mortuary surgeon to sew up the residual limbs first, before we could see it." , before the cremation was carried out."

"Shaoou, stop talking, stop talking..."

Even with the utmost patience and restraint, this past is still painful and unforgettable. The so-called unbearable pain in life is probably nothing more than that.

Lu Weiming clearly saw a large drop of tears hanging on the slender eyelashes of Shagull's eyes, precariously falling, and finally fell down when the wind blew.

It happened to land on the back of his hand covering Shagull's shoulder.

Lu Weiming was completely stunned.

He had never heard Xiao Gu talk so much.

I've never seen him cry.

The temperature of that tear was scorching hot, Lu Weiming's heart seemed to be clenched by an invisible hand, and a convulsive suffocation suddenly rushed up, even as a spectator reviewing this past with Sha Ou, Lu Weiming Mingdu felt that his emotions were about to reach a critical point, but as the protagonist of this suffering, Sha Ou's expression was always calm, and even the sadness that should have been heavy and unresolved was all sealed in his indifferent eyes. In the middle, quietly, like a lake with no wind, no waves, and no ripples.

Sha Ou let out a breath slowly, pulled away from the memory, and said: "Today is their memorial day, I took Xiao Huan to see them in the morning, and in the photos, their appearance has not changed at all—and will never change again. "

Speaking of this, it is considered that the pain that has been suppressed in the heart is poured out, and in a trance, Shaou feels relaxed like never before.

But the people around me are a little bit wrong——

"You..." Sha Ou turned his head, looked at Lu Weiming, was stunned for a while, and asked blankly, "You, why are you crying?"

Lu Weiming leaned against the tree trunk, one hand was still grabbing his shoulder vigorously, tears were already pouring down on his handsome face.

Sha Ou suddenly panicked: "It's not...you, don't..." He hastily spread out the paper towel in his hand, and covered Lu Weiming's face, and suddenly endured it in his sadness. Can't help being funny, "It's my parents, my family, why are you crying!"

It's like walking at night with the statue of Zhong Kui in your arms. The ghost scares the person to death before it scares the person to death—what is this called?

"I rely on you to still talk!" Lu Weiming tore off the tissue paper on his face, wiped it twice, and said with a straight neck: "I told you to stop talking, but you still talk! I have been in elementary school I haven't cried since the beginning, but now I make you cry, are you in charge of coaxing?"

"I..." The sad atmosphere that was still lingering just now disappeared in an instant, and Shaou couldn't laugh or cry: "Is it my fault? You didn't want to hear it. I started asking a few days ago. I'm angry if I don't tell you. Said that I don't take you as a friend, and now I'll tell you - what's wrong with being a friend, but it's my fault?"

"I don't know that you are in a bad mood because of, because of such a thing!" Lu Weiming also felt that it was too fucking embarrassing for him to cry all of a sudden. Ranked first on the list of his embarrassing deeds, he couldn't help but choked and said: "If I knew you...don't tell you to tell me, I wouldn't even ask! I really didn't think about it, I ...Damn! I really am mentally handicapped!"

He hurriedly explained, but what he said was confused, and finally he chose suicide attack directly. Sha Ou turned his head to look at him for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back, he burst out laughing!

Lu Weiming was taken aback for a moment, and became even more anxious: "You are fucking insane! I rely on you to still laugh, you..."

"Don't laugh, do you want to cry with you?" At this moment, Sha Ou felt that Lu Weiming was really a living treasure, no matter what kind of terrible bad mood, when it came to him, it would automatically add a layer of funny filter, obviously it was The extremely sad mood caused him to cry and rush all the time, leaving only a little bit of sadness, and——the urge to laugh.

Sha Ou leaned against the tree and smiled, while Lu Weiming looked at him smiling with red rabbit eyes. After a long time, Sha Ou finally had enough of laughing, and then he sighed heavily, turned his head and said suddenly: "Thank you."

Lu Weiming: "...hehe, thank you for crying well?"

Sha Ou shook his head, and said softly and slowly: "Thank you very much, before I met you, it seems that I haven't had the chance to laugh like this for a long time."

"When I was in junior high school, I studied hard and had to take care of my younger brother and grandfather, so I didn't actually have a part-time job in the three years of junior high school. The transportation company and the insurance company gave me a sum of compensation for my father's funeral expenses, but due to The van he drove only paid compulsory insurance, so the compensation was pitifully small, and when I was in high school, the money was almost spent, so I started working to earn money by myself."

"I have worked in fast food restaurants, cold drink shops, restaurants, and everything, but there are too many places where money is used. The little money I made at the beginning was just a drop in the bucket. In the second semester of high school, I went to work in bars and earned a lot of money. With more income, the family has some savings.”

"However, in this way, I have no personal time at all. I have to work in class during the day, after school and during holidays. I have no time to party with my classmates, and I have no time to hang out with my former friends. All my free time is not studying. It's just making money."

Lu Weiming asked subconsciously: "How much money have you saved, isn't it enough?"

Sand Gull said a number.

Although Lu Weiming had no clear and accurate concept of money since he was a child, after thinking about it for a while, he couldn't help but take a deep breath—for a high school student, this number should not be underestimated.

"It's not enough." Sha Ou said with a smile: "Life has never been in a step-by-step manner, and the plan can never keep up with the rapid changes, and the further you go, the more places to spend money, so money can never be earned."

Lu Weiming only felt distressed for no reason, but he could only pat him on the shoulder as if to comfort him, and said softly, "It's been too hard."

"It's not hard work, I asked for it."

Lu Weiming: "???"

Shagull picked up a leaf on the ground, pinched it between his fingers, set his eyes on the distinct veins, and said, "Because, I have never given up, I have never given up on living a good life, and I have never given up on myself."

Lu Weiming understood instantly.

As the saying goes, "People have to bow their heads under low eaves." If forced by life, Shaou has countless reasons to drop out of school, to learn a craft, or to find a stable job, or even to work on a construction site. Odd jobs don’t push myself as tight as they are now, going to school during the day and bars at night, without giving myself any room to relax.

But if this is the case, then his whole life, this whole life, will be fixed at this point.

You will always be bound by the hustle and bustle of life, and drift away from the only prosperous road leading to a bright future.

Sha Ou: "That's why I said, I will not give up. I have to study, I have to go to school, and I can't give up my self-principle because of life. I have to get through it. After this period, I will be fine in the future."

It's the heart that is not obliterated, and it is the youth who is rebellious.

Therefore - I can bear no matter how hard it is.

The author has something to say: Tsk, what do you say...Although the big family with the surname Lu never gives out 0, but Xiao Lu, if you continue to cry like this, I'm afraid I won't be able to control my hand.. ....

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