learning to be human every day

His parents happened in the winter of his third year of high school, just before his birthday.

Fatigue driving, crashed into the entrance of the tunnel on the highway, the vehicle rolled over and caught fire, his parents died on the spot, and what he buried later was only charred bones.

"The police said that they didn't suffer much when they hit it at that speed, and they went away in an instant." Lu Yuanfei hugged him tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder, his voice was flat and bitter, "Maybe it's because of my age. Little one, comfort me."

He was busy preparing for the college entrance examination at that time, wishing he could spend 48 hours a day, when he received a phone call from his parents excitedly saying that he would rush back to prepare a birthday surprise for him, the rebellious teenager Lu Yuanfei scoffed, saying don’t be so nasty, I don’t have that much time.

However, the birthday surprise did not arrive, but the sad news of the death of his parents.

After many years, Lu Yuanfei still can't describe his feelings at that time in retrospect.

It was as if God had played a nasty joke on him. The people who had been bickering on the phone before had turned into two unrecognizable corpses after only a few self-study sessions.

He was young and inexperienced at the time, and his whole body was in a daze, like a piece of rotten wood surrounded by sea water, floating up and down with the waves, upside down, letting the turbulent waves pour into his mouth, nose and ears, and all the sounds of others were heard. Isolated above the water, he was left alone to suffocate in the freezing water.

He still remembered that the teacher in charge called him to the office, poured him a cup of hot water, and fell to pieces of glass. Filled with intense sadness and deep worry.

The teacher in charge was afraid that he would break like that cup in an instant, and even called the five-year-old physical education teacher to guard the door, lest he be too sad and do irreparable stupid things.

"At that time, the third-year office was on the sixth floor, and there were no guardrails on the corridor windows." Lu Yuanfei said calmly, as if he was stating other people's affairs, "There are still a few doors that are not closed tightly, and it is very cold in winter when the wind blows. "

It was so cold that he felt like falling into an ice cave in his down jacket.

The ignorant boy who has been going smoothly and has never experienced wind and rain, lost the two people he loved most in his life on the tail of 17 years old, the day before he was about to enter adulthood.

Caught off guard, grief is unbearable.

A part of his soul remained forever in the winter that belonged to teenagers, at the entrance of the tunnel with a speed limit of 60.

Lu Yuanfei grew up overnight. He remained rational and responsible like an adult. He handled his parents' funeral affairs calmly. He showed no signs of collapse from the beginning to the end, which made people feel relieved and distressed.

But he needs to take medicine at night to be able to fall asleep, and he relies on the supervision of his tablemate for three meals a day so that he will not forget to swallow during the mechanical chewing, and fall into a sluggish state of empty consciousness.

His grades have also plummeted, and it is rare to maintain his attendance rate, and he really has nowhere to go except school.

He inherited the real estate left by his parents, but every corner of the house lingered in the atmosphere of returning home after leaving. The flowers on the balcony were waiting for his mother to come back to water them, and they hadn’t had time to clean up the clothes that were dried before they left.

Lu Yuanfei didn't dare to go back, for fear that he would be immersed in the magic barrier that seemed real and not real, and hoped to wake up from the nightmare in despair, waiting for the next second when his parents pushed the door open, carrying big bags and small bags, calling him loudly Come over and pick up the driver.

This family has always been neither big nor small, and Lu Yuanfei and my mother still hook up with each other from time to time.

Even in the last phone call, they didn't forget to ridicule each other.

"If I had known..." Lu Yuanfei shook his head, his breath was a little choked, "I should talk properly and say a few more words."

Many old things can be regretted, but none of them can be redeemed.

The head teacher was very anxious, afraid that he would jump off the train leading to the university, so he tried every means to release him, and mobilized his buddies and friends to drag him hard, and he must be dragged to pass the college entrance examination and be dragged into the university.

The teacher probably thinks that there are still three nails in the rotten ship, even if the mentality affects the performance, with Lu Yuanfei's foundation, it is not a big problem to test the key points of the province.

No matter how many setbacks you encounter, life must go on.

Unexpectedly, he finally calmed down and devoted himself to the intense review, and his relatives jumped out to act as demons again.

"My family used to open a pectin factory. At that time, we got on the line of 'Hope Sheng Dairy' and initially negotiated a cooperation intention." Lu Yuanfei looked at him with a confused face, and patiently explained, "Hope Sheng Dairy is a leading domestic dairy company that produces yogurt. Use pectin."

Later, he vaguely guessed that the birthday surprise mentioned by his parents was probably because his factory, with its advanced formula and excellent products, was about to fly into the sky with golden thighs.

It's a pity that extreme joy begets sorrow, the husband and wife died unexpectedly, and they didn't even see their son for the last time.

Xia Yun thought of his mother-in-law Concubine Xian, and left without hearing him cry a few times. Eunuch Huang wiped his tears every time he recalled it, making the Zhilan Palace full of gloom.

He tensed up and pretended to be the princess to save his life, and he didn't dare to miss his mother blatantly. He only learned about one or two old concubines from other people's gossip.

Xia Yun didn't dare to comfort him with sympathy, after all, in Brother Lu's eyes, his parents are still alive and he still has endless family happiness.

Only he himself knows that there is a part that has been dug out in the chests that are tightly attached to each other, and he doesn't know what to fill it with.

"Brother..." Holding back his shyness, he took the initiative to kiss Lu Yuanfei's eyelids lightly, brushing his trembling eyelashes with his soft lips, with an almost pious expression, and whispered: "I will be your relative from now on, I will not leave you suddenly, I must live a long life and stay with you well."

Accompany you well, love you well, and use the tenderness of my life to heal the pain of your youth.

Lu Yuanfei was moved, he tightened his arms, wrapped his arms around his waist, and strangled him to gasp. Instead of complaining, he went up to him, and the man eagerly swallowed the breath between his lips.

Lu Yuanfei's actions were a bit rough, as if he was trying to prove something, he was rude and could not be rejected, which made his lips red and swollen, and the tip of his tongue hurt, but this kind of roughness did not make people afraid, but aroused pity.

Xia Yun wrapped his arms around the opponent's neck in a dizzy state, discovering for the first time that pain can also be satisfying.

He became a dead leaf falling from the branches, a chick falling out of the nest, a fish swimming with the current, entangled with all his strength to his only support, his lover, his spiritual support, his Moth's fire.

Lu Yuanfei locked him tightly in his arms as he wished, with warm palms, caressed his tight shoulders, and pressed his forehead against his forehead, blending breaths, and shared a shallow kiss that was still full of meaning after the calm.

"How did you go to be a soldier after that?" Xia Yunze calmed down, hooked his short hair with his back finger and gently teased, and asked curiously, "Shouldn't you inherit the family business and become a pectin little prince?"

Lu Yuanfei was amused by this arrogant, stupid and cute look, he kept some distance away so that he would not be tempted to kiss all the time, and replied: "I am not capable enough, so I have to give up."

Things happened suddenly, and his parents didn't leave a last word, so they gave relatives room to manipulate.

At Lu Yuanfei's age and experience, leaving a last word is actually useless. In the face of immediate benefits, no one will consider the wishes of the deceased.

Good and evil are only a matter of thought, and family affection and human nature cannot stand the test.

What happened later was as expected. The pectin factory left by his parents was taken over by his uncle, and the cooperation with Hopson Dairy continued. A family business has been reborn, and the shotgun has changed.

His uncle used dishonorable means to usurp his nephew's family property, and transformed himself into a hard-working and successful entrepreneur.

The remaining relatives were all silenced by his uncle with money, and none of them came out to speak a word of justice.

So before his parents were dead, Lu Yuanfei turned against his relatives. He wanted nothing but the real estate and deposits under his parents' names, and he left the colorful circle of relatives and friends.

That was probably the darkest moment in his life. The originally carefree young man suddenly lost the protection of his parents. Facing the storm alone, he opened his eyes blinded by happiness, and clearly saw the ugliness and greed of human nature.

He was alone, and he sealed his heart so that it could not be soaked. He was full of resentment, full of narrow-mindedness, his temperament became more and more withdrawn, more and more sharp and difficult to get along with, like a little wolf cub with bruises all over his body, he wanted to pounce on anyone he saw. Take two bites.

His teacher knows the cause and effect, so he can't just sit back and watch him be self-destructive, so he can just do his job well, enroll him in the army, and go to the melting pot to temper it.

At that time, Lu Yuanfei was no different from a walking dead. He was negative, world-weary, and rebellious. He couldn't stand the pity or cautious eyes of his classmates, so he accepted the teacher's favor and joined the army after graduating from high school.

He regained his new life in the army, and spent a long time gradually reconciling with himself and the world.

The exhaustion and pain experienced by the body have forged his indestructible will and a magnanimous mind.

How can people who have experienced bullets and life-and-death fights care about the smallest gains and losses?

Sometimes looking back on the past, I only feel how insignificant the anger and unwillingness of adolescence were. People who swore to never communicate with each other back then can calmly chat on the phone.

After all, children are the ones to argue about right and wrong, and adults should behave like adults.

His instructor once drank too much wine and said that his face was as sinking as a lake and his heart was like an ancient well, and that he had a handsome face but was not liked by little girls. He laughed it off and didn't take it to heart.

Life is too short to be alone, why bother to involve irrelevant people, and have a more dispensable bond?

He didn't expect to meet Xia Yunze.

He is obviously a mature age, but he always looks like a child who can't grow up.

Lu Yuanfei sighed, reluctantly admitting that he is an incurable double-standard dog.

He is willing to behave like a smooth and sophisticated adult, but he hopes that his little coach will remain childlike innocence and stubbornness.

He is willing to pamper him and pamper him, so that he does not have to bear the pain of growing up and the hardships of transformation.

What a beautiful luxury it is to live as one wants, and he is willing to do everything to escort him.

It was only because the heart of a child that had been lost long ago found a home in Xia Yunze.

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Memories kill, Brother Lu once had the opportunity to be a pectin little prince) Xia: Brother Lu, I will love you in the future!Lu: You are the one who hurts.Xia: Hey, you are old and unscrupulous.