Skimming the fire

What kind of life should look like can be counted as "engraving".

There is pain, there is joy, and then enlightenment.

But I was wandering in the "mistake" all the time, unable to find the exit, and if I found it, I could only stand in the maze, looking at his ignorant appearance, and couldn't take a single step through this barrier.

He was outside the pass, in March in Yangchun, the grass grows and the warblers fly.

I'm in this level, corpses are strewn all over the field, blood-stained and frozen.

His seemingly indifferent appearance is like the sun in my eyes.

Only ten days after he left, the action began, and I never had time to think about how I would deal with him.

"The world is helpless", it's just these four words, when you really experience it, only you can understand the taste.

The banner was lowered at Li Mu Temple, and I became a living target. I had no peace day and night, and there would always be surprise attacks at night. As soon as the sun turned white, I had to march again.

For the first two months we've been going round and round.

There were few casualties, the opponent's momentum was gradually exhausted, and our morale was not necessarily any better. I could always hear some impatient brothers throwing knives and cursing, and I couldn't stand this useless air.

I asked Brother Lin to take someone to appease him, and he didn't punish anyone. He wrote to Qu Shuai day and night to review the next day's route.

Brother Lin's brother rushed over from Tiance's western garrison and quietly served as our reinforcements, but he directly joined the branch that Brother Lin led out to form a surprise attack army.

I've met that buddy a few times, he has an aloof personality, but he has the vigor of Tiance's older generation when he judges the situation.

Later, I heard from brother Lin that this general's surname was Lin, his first name was Huaiyi, and his style name was Suge.His family has several generations of Zhongliang, and since the beginning of Tang Dynasty, his family has been eating government soldiers' food in Tiance Mansion, and those who have not entered the big camp in the family are farming in the south of the mansion.

I once wanted Brother Lin to lead the army of the Xuanjia Battalion. He has been my adjutant for more than ten years, and he taught me the art of war a lot when I was young.

It's a pity that he didn't appreciate it. It was probably because of me and Xianying that he was overshadowed. He felt that it was enough to lead the troops to the lieutenant general.

This person is Ah Quan.

Aquan followed Qu Shuai to his surname Yan. He was originally the second son of a wealthy family in Chang'an City. He had read poetry and books since he was a child, but his thinking was out of the ordinary. He had his own opinions on military affairs and state affairs.

However, the elders of his family were officials in the court and did not care about state affairs, so they took refuge in Anlu Mountain. Aquan left home resolutely, and after exhausting all the money on the way, he ate hundreds of meals to find Yanmenguan.

It was more than ten years ago when he came. At that time, he was still young and had not yet reached the crown. He was dressed in plain sackcloth, with a dirty little face, but when he opened his mouth, he spoke authentic Chang'an dialect, and his words were correct and decent.

After hearing the reason, Qu Shuai took him in and named him Yan Ze. We called him Aquan because of the word Quan in his real name. Later, when we asked him his real name, he refused to say it.

During the Laba Festival, the snow fell reluctantly for a while, and the snow fell a little quietly. It took a long time to hear the slight sound of the thick snow falling from the roof of the tent and smashing to the ground.

Ah Quan frowned at the book of war in the tent, General Xuanyuan sat upright and stared at him like a strict master.

I didn't see it for half a stick of incense, and my eyes were sore, and I closed my eyes with my hands in my hands.

Last year in Laba, Xianying and I even grabbed the peanuts in the bowl while eating porridge.

I nestled in the felt blanket, thinking again of the day he left, there was no snow, no wind, the sky was low and dark, and the bottom of the clouds seemed to be stained with ink.

I saw the way he gritted his teeth and the hatred in his eyes.

I took a step forward, and he took a step back.

He said: Xue Xixi, I never thought that you are so terrifying.

His voice was light and hoarse, and his voice suddenly trembled. He looked at me blankly, as if repeating a sentence unconsciously.

He said: You are terrible...

He took another step back, almost fell down, his face was pale, and he stared at me in panic, as if I was afraid that I would get close to him.

He just stood there.

I know what it feels like when Qu Shuai finds me and tells me what my father has done behind his back, or when she tells me that I am not my father's biological child.

I know the feeling.

But until that day, when I saw his pale face, I was surprised that I never thought about how he felt when he knew everything.

I have clearly experienced it.

But has been lucky.

Yeah, I'm horrible, I don't know when I became such a horrible person.

Even I am disappointed in myself.

He gritted his teeth and looked at me, before the tears fell, he fled in a hurry.

This is the final outcome of my 12-year relationship, which I have been walking on thin ice all day long.

When he left, the first snow in early winter had not yet fallen.

No. In Laba in 12 years, I didn't drink porridge either. I nestled in the big tent and reviewed his appearance with my eyes closed.

I have done this homework many times.

The 12 years of being in love with each other was finally destroyed in my own hands. No one knows whether this relationship has a future.

Fine snow was blown in through the gaps in the thick felt curtains, and it melted quickly.

I suddenly feel a little happy.

Probably because it suddenly occurred to him that he seemed to really like peanuts.