From the abyss

No one knows why the two people who were once inseparable slowly drift away. This is a slow and delicate process. When the two people are facing each other and are alone in the two crowds, they realize that they are already alone.

Many times, Lin He has tried to carefully look at that person among the crowd far away. Her hair is neatly trimmed, like a cute mushroom, or she is talking to others, or jumping, or running.

When the mushroom turned its head, the inexplicable timidity made Lin He look away.

The furthest away is nothing more than peeping at each other across the sea of ​​people without knowing it.

Three or two years passed in a blink of an eye, Lin He thought she was used to Ye Yibei's back, but when a boy confessed to her, she couldn't help but turn her head to look for a petite figure.

The surrounding crowd surrounded them, they applauded, they booed, they cheered, the boy who confessed his heart was flushed and his eyes were full of expectation.

She was in the center of everyone's focus, but her gaze was always wandering, lingering in the corners of the classroom, looking for familiar figures from behind.

The person sat upright in her seat, and the sunlight outside the window fell on her hair like a piece of melted gold.

The cheers of the people next to me were harsh and noisy.

Turn back.

She yelled silently in her heart.Looking forward to getting a heartbreaking look back, maybe it will make me start again.

The boy held out a box of roses, each of which was carefully folded with paper and placed in the shape of a heart.There was a commotion among the crowd, and the atmosphere was pushed to the climax.

Lin He withdrew his gaze and re-examined the red-faced boy in front of him.Tall, handsome, full of youthful vigor, he is a cheerful and sunny boy on weekdays.

It's not the same as Ye Yibei at all.

If a change is made, it may be able to change the current situation that makes her unable to breathe.

She thought vaguely.

She couldn't even remember what she had said.The answer to this vigorous confession can only be found from the boy's suddenly bright eyes and the burst of cheers from the crowd.

Everyone fell into ecstasy.They laughed, they shouted, they hugged, and it was all theirs, nothing to do with the guy in the corner.

When Lin He walked into the classroom, he bumped into a pair of dark eyes unsuspectingly.

Calm, like a beautiful lake.Gentle and beautiful.It reminds me of the first time I saw this person.

Lin He looked away

At the time, she thought, maybe doing this would make it all over.

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There were crowds of people in the noisy box, and several people held the microphone, cheek to cheek, screaming heart-piercingly into the microphone.

The deafening music made Lin He's ears numb.

Everyone was in a state of carnival.

And her solitary image was a separated molecule, shaking the glass, which still contained a small half cup of light yellow liquid, reflecting a blurred light under the flickering dim light.

She lowered her head and took a sip, and looked at the revelers indifferently with her slightly drunk eyes, as if all this had nothing to do with her.

That boy is fine.

But he also has the shortcomings that most boys have: domineering, naive, childish, possessive, and loses his temper at the slightest dispute.

Maybe these should have unique and cute flaws in the eyes of lovers.

But amidst the increasing conflicts, Lin He felt that he was getting tired of coping with the day-to-day quarrels.Or maybe she just didn't bother arguing with the boy about pointless questions like whether to add sugar or milk to his coffee.It takes a lot of effort.She didn't want to rack her brains about how to cheer up a sulking older boy.

It's strange, he is not the same as Ye Yibei at all.

Whenever this time, Lin He misses Ye Yibei very much.She never thought that getting along with people could be so difficult.

Is it because Ye Yibei doesn't lose his temper or willful?

negative.

She always has infinite patience and gentleness to soothe that person's restlessness.

Maybe it's just because that person is Ye Yibei.

miss you.

The roar around him made Lin He feel restless, and his nerves paralyzed by alcohol began to ache.The irritability and uneasiness made her miss the peace of mind and peace by Ye Yibei's side.

miss you.

She took out her mobile phone, the name on it was Ye Yibei.The chat history stays at last year's "goodbye".

miss you.

Lin He hadn't drunk much before, she didn't expect that she could be so strong.Her movements became sluggish, her body floated as if she was in a cloud, she felt that she should be extremely awake, at least she knew what she was doing now.

【miss you. 】

Type, send.Without any hesitation.

Loud music drowned out a sigh.It would be great if there was such bold courage in the first place.

[I miss you, come pick me up. 】

Lin He thought she should understand what she was doing, and she also felt that only this time she had incomparable courage, not afraid of flying into the fire, nor afraid of being burned to ashes.

The other party replied.

Lin He's vision was a bit blurry, she squinted her eyes to identify the three words for a while.

【Where are you? 】

She thought about it carefully, and finally remembered where she was.

Now she felt that it was laborious to move her fingers, but she still got up and typed the next line of words and sent it.There was a faint throbbing in her heart, like a child begging for candy from adults on Halloween, her eyes were shining brightly, full of anticipation.

Maybe this time I can summon up the courage again to turn over the page that I couldn't get over.

The boy next to him sat up and wanted to put his arms around her shoulders.She shook her head and pushed the boy away.

Lin He sat in the corner, quietly waiting for someone.

The phone shows that it is 22:13.

Maybe it was the alcohol that swelled the ambition in her mind a lot, and she was absolutely sure that that person was rushing towards her right now.

The ear-piercing music next to it was still roaring, and the dry-mouthed person raised a glass of wine, cheered and toasted, and poured the wine into it.

Their joy infected Lin He.She leaned on the sofa, staring at the dancing crowd in a daze, the figures of those people appeared double, dazzled her eyes a little, a faint sleepiness crawled up, as if she was sleeping in the arms of someone she missed It was so reassuring.

He closed his eyes and opened them for just a moment. One second, the box was noisy like a hot pot, and the next second, the tea was gone.The boy woke up Lin He, his face was still slightly flushed, he didn't know if he had been drinking or something.

"Xiaohe, it's almost midnight, I'll take you home."

He smiled graciously.

That nickname made Lin He's head ache. She looked around in confusion and asked, "Where's Beibei?"

That tone was like that of a pet dog abandoned by its owner, aggrieved and dazed.

The boy said "Ah?", "You mean Ye Yibei? She didn't come?"

He was baffled, but he didn't care much.

"Let's go?"

He reached out to pull Lin He, but was roughly thrown away.

The person who was as docile as a sheep just now suddenly became extremely irritable. She shook her head vigorously, pushed the boy away roughly, and rushed out by herself.

The boy couldn't figure out why Lin He went crazy, he wanted to follow, but the man in front turned around, "Get out!"

He had never heard Lin He speak in such a tone.In his impression, no matter what time this person is, he always has a ruler that he can grasp, indulgent, yet reserved.His eyes were red like never before, like a string of angry flames.

Maybe it was Lin He's "get away" that hurt the boy's heart, or maybe it was her aura that scared the boy away.When Lin He rushed out from the singing bar, the boy did not follow.

Lin He's footsteps were a little weak, and as soon as she walked outside, the cool night made her wake up.

She has never felt so uncomfortable. Her heart is like a dry sponge, tightly huddled together, and it hurts so much that she can hardly help but want to cut open her chest with a knife and dig out the heart. Come out and smash to the ground.

She also wished that there would be some rain at this time, and let the rain wash her mind and make her sober.

She felt like a clown now, funny and ridiculous.But she could only walk towards home step by step, and she shed tears as she walked, but she didn't care, let the tears flow down wantonly, and let countless gloom accumulated day and night pour out of her heart wantonly.

Passers-by cast strange glances at her, covered their mouths with their hands and whispered to each other, and there were distant and vague sirens in the distance, but none of this had anything to do with her.There was a radiance in her vision, the street lights turned into clusters of light clusters under the hazy refraction of tears, like hydrangeas in full bloom, warm and beautiful.

By the time I got home, my tears had dried up.

Ye Yibei was really cruel to her.Lin He thought.

But she still couldn't hate this man.This person will always be so gentle in her heart.

She stood at the door of the house, wiped her face vigorously, sniffed her nose, and pushed the door open as if nothing had happened.

The author has something to say:

At this point in this chapter, the childhood memories from Lin He's perspective are basically over ooo

By the way, let’s do the math again, this article is about to end _(:з」∠)_ I can’t bear to part with my little angels, but I still have to write it down.come on.