miss you

I seem to have forgotten what I look like. When I stood in front of the mirror and just pressed it, to be honest, I was still scared by myself. The scar under the head curtain was lying on the forehead like a centipede, and the scar on the jaw was also clearly visible. , the skin on the face is no longer smooth and delicate, and the faint traces left prove the danger that the owner of this face has experienced.

After the eyes were closed, they were quickly opened, once or twice...ten times...twenty times. In the end, Ruobing couldn't bear to watch me torture myself and stand in front of the mirror. Pretty as ever."

I said: "I saw it myself, you don't need to comfort me, I can do it, I can face it."

After I recovered and was discharged from the hospital, many topics became my taboo, including my face and the dance I was looking for. Careful Ruobing will find that I am very urgent to find one in a period of time. Express the dancers I want to pass on to everyone, but until now I still haven't found the most suitable candidate.

Among my many students, Zhigang is undoubtedly the best, but he is still a little short according to my standards. I can’t describe what he is short of. His dancing posture is perfect and the degree of difficulty is high. Still not right, not feeling right.

Ruobing has indulged me so much in the past few years because she knows that I have lost my looks and the possibility of continuing to dance, so I desperately want to expand my dance troupe and open a dance training center to prove that I can do it in another way. give her happiness.

"Worriless, it's okay, you see your videos are everywhere on TV now, no one thinks you are ugly, they all think you are beautiful, really."

"Worriless, didn't you say before that you don't like dancing, and you want to do what you like when you grow up. Now that you have fulfilled your wish, I'm going to fulfill mine too."

"Wuyou, from now on Ruobing dances for my good Wuyou, okay? If Wuyou wants, Ruobing will finish it for you, okay?"

Ruo Bing's words were touching, but her every word made my scalp ache. I put my hands on my head, grabbed my hair and bent down, then yelled out in pain.

Pain, I don't know why, all the past, but now mentioning it makes me tremble with pain.

"Worriless, it's over, it's over, I'm here, don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

Ruobing hugged me tightly and leaned against the white wall, she said: "Wuyou, forget it, forget those painful memories, smile more and bask in the sun, okay?"

"Ah..., hum..., woo..."

From the time when I returned to the country to the time when Ruo Bing appeared in front of me and took me home, I kept my emotions under control. Even if I cried, I didn’t burst into tears like this now. I held on tightly. My heart felt that it was difficult to breathe, and there was an illusion of suffocation.Ruobing's palm lightly patted on my back, and she choked up and said to me: "This is the Wuyou I know who would be lost and helpless and cry in my arms when encountering difficulties. I know Wuyou who doesn’t hide her emotions, Wuyou, it’s Ruobing’s fault, Ruobing made you feel wronged, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

That day I huddled in Ruo Bing's warm arms and cried until my voice was completely hoarse, my eyes were swollen and I couldn't open them, I started to feel tinnitus from crying, and finally passed out from exhaustion.That crying was the most intense, tiring, and indulgent cry in my lifetime memory. My beloved Ruo Bing hugged me tightly like that and told me that she was here, she was in my arms By my side, always in and never far away.

My eyes hurt and my head hurts too. I moved my eyes and when I slowly opened my eyes, Mom, Dad and Ruo Bing were by my side. Ruo Bing asked me if I felt unwell, should I go to the hospital? My head was then tucked in the quilt for me, and my father stood at the window with his son in his arms and looked at me worriedly.

My mother said: "You are already a mother, can you save me some trouble?"

My dad said: "Don't talk about her all the time, let her do whatever the child wants, otherwise she will feel unhappy."

I said, "You all go out, I will sleep alone."

Mom moved her lips and finally didn't speak, but sighed before leaving the bedroom, and covered her face with the quilt. The darkness enveloped me again, and the silence fell again.

When Huiwen came to my house, I stood on the balcony with disheveled hair, "Your house was robbed, this..."

"Talk to her, I'll clean up right away, be careful not to pierce you, just go in without taking off your shoes."

"Oh, she smashed it."

"Well, I'm in a bad mood these days."

"This guy is going to die, don't pick it up, just throw it away, lest she throw it away after you pack it up."

"It's okay, you go."

"Ahh"

Even if my personality is not as gentle as Ruobing, it is not as irritable as it is now. I used to seldom get angry, and even if I was unhappy, I would fight back in a more rational way.

When I was a teenager, I liked to laugh and make jokes with my classmates. When I was not in my twenties, I often laughed to my heart’s content, but I still liked to stand in the sunshine and hope to bring happiness to those around me. Now, in my thirties, my face There is no smile on my face, and I no longer like to face the sun. I ask everyone to follow my wishes. As long as something goes wrong, the world will collapse and the century will perish.

"What's the matter with you, why don't you smash the house too."

"Go and hire me a forklift and I'll tear down this crappy house right now"

"No, what's wrong with this house? What's going on with you now? It's cloudy and sunny. Didn't you be fine a few days ago? What are you crazy about?"

"You're the one going crazy, I'm fine."

"You, you..., if I don't give you two mouths if Ruobing."

"Okay, you can beat her for her, come here, fan this one, if you don't fan you are a puppy, come and fight." I grabbed Hui Wen's wrist and patted my face, which scared Hui Wen back After going out for several steps, he stabilized his figure, "It's over, it's really abnormal, it needs to be treated."

"It scared you, it's okay, it will be fine later."

"Don't tell me she's always like this"

"Not often, let's vent once or twice when you have time to rest."

"Why didn't you tell me, if I hadn't come here to find her, how long would you have to hide it? Do her parents know? Oh, the child is not here, don't scare the child."

"The child was sent to my mother the day before yesterday, and she can still restrain herself in front of her parents and children."

"Did you find a doctor to show her? You can't stand her like this. I think she can go crazy herself."

"She doesn't want to watch it, saying that she is not sick, which is quite normal. If she is busy and won't go home for months, I can't help it."

"It's really you. After everything is like this, you still serve her. Don't talk to her. She will recover naturally."

"Hey... sit down and stay for lunch. I bought meat and vegetables in the morning. Is it okay to eat hot pot?"

"Ruobing, take a break and don't be busy, I'll help you." Huiwen and Ruobing chatted while washing vegetables in the kitchen for the rest of the time. Start working on the backlog of documents in front of the computer.

At noon, Huiwen stayed to have dinner with us, "I was so scared by you just now that I forgot about the business, and we have negotiated cooperation with xxx, xxx, and xxx's joint school. They agree that students from our school will apply. You can go directly to the on-site examination for professional courses without going through the preliminary review. All the top [-] students in the professional course examination can be admitted as long as they meet the English standard, and the top five will receive additional scholarships from the school. They will also send teachers to give lectures to students every year. Do academic exchanges."

"And your MBA course has been arranged, and the plane ticket is booked for you the day after tomorrow. Are you... still going?"

"Go, or the money will be wasted."

"You can think about it, and you will go for a year."

"Um"

I left and flew to the United States. At the airport, Ruobing tightened the collar of my coat. She said to me: "Don't be too hard on yourself, and study with peace of mind. My son and I will wait for you to come back."

I said: "My mother's side"

She said: "Let me tell you, don't worry and go, remember to take care of yourself, eat on time and go to bed if you have a headache, buy new clothes and pants if you don't like washing them, don't you always say that we are not short of money now, no Call home more when you are busy, or your son will cry and look for you again. And..., come back early, I will wait for you. "

Before boarding the plane, I hugged Ruobing tightly and said: "I will go to the doctor. I won't be like this forever. It's not that I have to go. I'm really too depressed to bear it. If this continues, I will regain my energy. Split, really."

"I know, okay, okay, let's go, don't miss the plane."

I went back to my former residence in the United States. Since I went to school, I have the illusion that I have returned to my student days, except for the simple mind of studying and going home after school.I often go to Master's place in my free time. The old man still listens to music and sits in front of the window with his eyes closed to enjoy the sunshine leisurely as before.

Master asked me if I was still dancing, I shook my head, and she asked, where is your friend, I shook my head and nodded, Master smiled and pinched my cheek, he said: "Wuyou, what's the matter, you look depressed look."

Master cares for me very much, like a loving elder. Senior brothers, senior sisters and younger brothers treat me well. They will hold my hand, giggle and tell funny jokes. I look up at them from the stage Dancing, spinning and jumping.

Perhaps the relaxed and comfortable life will make people ignore the passage of time. In the blink of an eye, I have been here for half a year. In the video, Ruobing is wearing a pink dress and putting her son on her lap to video with me.

She said: "The baby will go to kindergarten next week, and my mother told me to take the baby to live there, so as to save time and not have to run back and forth."

"Oh"

"What's the matter with you, your nose is grumbling."

"I have a cold and I can't breathe."

"Have you taken your medicine?"

"Well, I forgot, I'll eat later."

"Can you understand what you have learned? Is it difficult?"

"Okay"

"I'm going on stage next month"

"Oh"

"Can you come back, just one day."

"what number"

"number 12"

"Let's see when the time comes, but it's too much, don't have too much hope, son, come and kiss mom, I'm so sleepy, I fell asleep." I turned off the video and fell asleep. It's such a good day, I'm full Sleep, eat when you wake up, and worry-free every day without thinking or doing anything.

Later, Ruobing sent me the video of her performance, and I watched it. Although the posture was a little stiff, it was still great.Ruo Bing's comeback has caused a lot of repercussions in their circles. When I heard Hui Wen and I mentioned it, Ruo Bing has already started accepting large-scale performances, and the troupe is also vigorously creating opportunities for her to perform. and conditions.

"Huiwen, you arrange a few people to go over and help me keep an eye on it. You can help me check the information about Tong Muge as soon as possible."

"What's wrong"

"Don't ask, of course I need it."

"Oh, how are you doing recently, the one who speaks lazily can't be Xixiu."

"What good will it do you if I abolish it?"

"Yes, if you abolish your company, it will be mine."

"Go to hell with you"

"Did you go to see a doctor? Have you seen the psychologist I contacted for you?"

"seen it already"

"What's the result? Is it better?"

"It's okay, she said I have trauma syndrome, undead torture people."

"Ah..., is there a cure for it?"

"There is a cure, she has been counseling me psychologically, but I think it is useless."

"It's useless, you have to treat it for me. If you are safe, it will benefit all mankind."

"what do you mean"

"Destroying harm for the people...hahahaha..."

"Hmph, stop talking nonsense with you, take care of what I'm talking about."

"Understood, don't worry, even a tornado can't blow away your family Ruobing."

I think even if my mood is not stable, it is within the normal reaction state when dealing with such problems, Tong Shege, don't touch her, do you hear me?