miss you

Wuyou is getting more and more busy, so busy that even if she is not on a business trip, it is rare for me to see her. Many times I am conflicted. I don’t want to give up the great opportunity and future for Wuyou, but at the same time, I am afraid that she will continue to reduce the pressure at home because of her busy schedule. Time, and at the same time her body, the doctor said that she must rest, otherwise the root of the disease will be burned if the body is not well maintained.I was worried that she would exhaust her body due to overwork day and night, but every time I saw the shining light in Wuyou's eyes, I pressed back the words that came to my lips and changed them to exhortations over and over again.

The success at the Spring Festival Gala made her the focus of the spotlight again, and I felt a little strange when I saw the indifferent smiles of the people on the TV screen.

"Ruo Bing, come here and have a look. These are the two elementary schools that Wuyou chose. Which one is better? I just saw that the tuition fee is more than 2 yuan a year. Why do you go to it so expensive? It's just a road away from home. There is an elementary school that she insists on, and there are children who are so young, can they keep up if they go to school early." Mom murmured while holding the school profile that Wuyou dropped for her, put down the remote control in her hand and took it from her mother "Mom, I think this is good, it's all good for foreign language teaching."

"Okay, learn a foreign language before you understand Chinese."

"Mom, aren't all children like this now? To save money, we are using money to make up lessons for our children."

"Oh, yes." Mother sighed and then said, "You said that when Wuyou was young, there were so many supplementary classes, early education classes and so on. Now it is not easy to raise children, and the children themselves are quite tired."

"Mom, then I'll go through the formalities tomorrow."

"Well, you go." Mom put down the list in her hand and got up to go back to the room. It's almost August now, and Wuyou just spent an hour with her son on Children's Day before being picked up by car.

After dinner, I brought my son home from my mother, and saw a shepherd pigeon holding a fiery red rose at the door of my house again. I wanted to deal with the shepherd pigeon indifferently, but in the end I couldn’t bear to say hurtful words to her. I am not a cruel and decisive person. I think this is the fatal weakness of my character, and it is also because of this lack of decisiveness that Wuyou gets hurt again and again when facing Jing Linyu and Tong Muge.

"Sister" the son shouted after seeing the shepherd pigeon, "Jun Bo is so good, come and take in the flowers that sister gave to mother."

"Well" my son picked up the bouquet and ran into the house when I opened the door. At the gate, I said to her: "Shepherd Pigeon, don't use my flowers in the future, and don't come home. It's impossible for us, so don't come here." Waste of money and time on me."

"Ruobing, please don't push me away. I have nothing. My mother is gone. My family threw me out of the house. I can't live without you. I can't live without you."

"Pigeon..."

About the family situation of Shepherd Pigeon, after I mentioned the word family to her for the first time, she told me one after another after she left angrily. She said that she was despised by her family as a daughter since she was a child. She said At home, only her mother was protecting her. She said that after her mother passed away, she had thoughts of suicide. Finally, she said, Ruobing, don’t push me away, don’t let me lose the last bit of desire for a fresh life, don’t let me Desperate to choose to die.

Her confession was not so much a begging as a coercion, because refusing her and letting her go to death, what a sin it is, I can't do it, I really can't do it.

After the shepherd pigeons left, I entered the house. The flowers were put into the vase on the coffee table in the living room by my son. I sat down and stared at the bouquet of fiery red roses for a long time, pressing the string of numbers in my heart.

"Ruobing, Wuyou is busy now, what do you need?" Hui Wen answered the phone, the other end was very quiet, and Hui Wen's voice was very soft.

"Oh, it's okay, you are busy."

Okay, I'll ask her to get back to you when she's done. "

"it is good"

Putting down the phone and then getting up upstairs, I closed my eyes tightly under the shower in the bathroom and let the water hit my face and shoulders, worry-free, tell me how you survived that long wait, tell me, I'm really about to I can't help it, the night alone is so hard.

Early the next morning, I drove my son to the international school. In the principal's office, Principal Guo received me warmly. He smiled and said, "Teacher Wen's lover, right? Please come in quickly. Have you filled out the registration form?"

"Oh, is this right?"

"What's your name"

"My surname is Ji"

"Ms. Ji, don't worry about handing over your child to our school. You can just bring your child to report on August 30th, your own child, your own child."

The principal was very polite. After a few words of politeness, the enrollment process came to an end. When I was walking to the principal's office, I saw many parents driving luxury cars and bringing their children to sign up for interviews.

"Baby, what did the teacher ask just now?"

"Oh, baby is so smart."

I walked outside the school with the parents who had finished the interview, "Hello, are you..." The lady closest to me suddenly said, I didn't realize at the time that she was talking to me, so I ignored her. She touched me at the door and then handed me the business card in her hand, "Hi, this is my business card, sorry to bother you."

"Sorry, I don't have a business card for you."

"It's okay, it's okay, we may meet often in the future, and my son will also come here for an interview."

"Oh, yes."

"Your children are growing up"

"almost five years old"

"Did I say it looks small"

"Um"

"See you at the beginning of school"

"it is good"

I don't like and am not good at the intersection of upper-class people, which is why I repeatedly rejected Wuyou and asked me to follow her. I'm having a hard time fitting in.

Not long after leaving school, Wuyou called, "The school is not bad, the foreign teachers from Qing Yishui, and the campus environment is also good."

"Well, it's good. I just received a few business cards from my parents."

"Oh, it's so awesome, you have to put it away and use it later."

"Hehe, yes, with you, you can still use others."

"Yo, you've made progress, not bad."

"what are you doing"

"Oh, I'm at the filming scene, come and show me."

"If you are hot, don't face the electric fan and air conditioner and go to a cool place and close your eyes for a while"

"You want to heat me to death"

"Whether you like to listen or not, whoever suffers will know."

"Hmph, I see, give the phone to my son and I will have a few words with him."

Within a few minutes of handing the phone back, my son was amused by Wuyou and laughed out loud. Wuyou has always been loved by children and sought after by young men and women.After the son put down the phone, he played there by himself, hung up and entered the door, and my mother stood there with a cloth bag in front of the door.

"Mom, why didn't you call me when you came? I took my child to school to sign up today. Come in and see how sweaty you are." He took the bag from my mother and pushed open the door for the old lady to hurry up. It was cool and cool in the house. After entering the house, my mother hugged the baby and kissed for a while, then went into the kitchen and put the food she brought into the refrigerator with me.

"You haven't been home since the end of the Chinese New Year. If you don't come to see us, it's okay if I come to see my grandson."

"Mom... I..."

"Okay, okay, I know Wuyou is busy, you have to take care of the child and go to her parents to take care of her. Mom doesn't blame you. Mom just misses you and came to see you."

"Um"

"You and Wuyou are alright. This place is really hard to find. It took me more than an hour to find this place. How many square meters is this house? It's really big. One day, I'll bring your dad over to have a look and let the old man Open your eyes, our girl is also living in a mansion."

"Okay, you can bring Dad to live here."

"Why, Wuyou doesn't come home often." If a mother knows her child's mind best, my words made my mother aware of my little emotions.

"She is busy, so she hardly comes back and stays in a hotel."

"How can I do that? After a long time, the two of you should be strangers to each other."

"Then what do you say? You can't let her rush back in the middle of the night. My children and the elderly can't push them away. Our family is in a situation right now, so there is nothing we can do."

"Busy, busy and the president of the country is busy."

"Mom, look at you, let's go upstairs to drink tea, the scenery is so beautiful, I sit there in the middle of the night and watch the stars every day." I was afraid that my son would hear my mother's words and push her up to the platform on the third floor, Sitting on a chair on a large platform, I washed the tea set and started to brew the tea leaves. After a while, the fragrance of the tea leaves wafted into my nostrils.

"Mom, try this, it's the best tea, Wuyou specially brought it back."

"Tell the truth to Mom, do you often sit here alone until dawn without realizing it?"

"It's okay, not often, occasionally."

"You still lied to me. You are my girl. I know your mother best. Take a look at your face, and see how thin you are. She is Wen Wuyou, but she has guaranteed me and your father." , will make you live a good life, will be good to you. No, I have to call her and ask her, this is her promise to you, is this the promise she gave us. "

"Mom, what are you doing? Wuyou is very kind to me. Didn't you just say that this house is good and you want to show my dad? Why are you still angry now? The house I live in now is opened The car, your house, your brother's house and car, and the key primary school your child attends are all provided by Wuyou, Mom."

"Hey, yes, yes, but Ruobing, mom sees you feel so distressed, tell me what kind of life you are living, everyone is a family together, you said you are alone with a half-grown My child, there is no one around me who can talk, what kind of life is this?"

"It's okay, I take it to the dance troupe during the day, Lifan can talk with me, and at night, I go to Wuyou's mother's to have dinner and come back to put the child to bed, so I don't feel that the time is passing slowly."

"Just be brave. You know what your life is like. Mom told you a long time ago. Your dad and I hope that you can find someone to live peacefully and peacefully. Look, since Since Wuyou appeared for so many years, you have not lived a decent life with her. When she was young, she was not satisfied with the status quo and had to make troubles, which made you worry and feel uncomfortable with her. Now that you are old, you still don’t care about pursuing her. Freedom, I have read her interview, dream, how old is she, and she is still talking about some illusory things, has she ever thought about you?"

"Mom, you don't understand her, and you don't understand what she wants."

"What else does she want? You even gave birth to a child for her, so you still can't hold her heart."

"Mom, well, stop talking and drink tea."

I interrupted my mother's words. My mother said that even the child couldn't hold Wuyou's longing for beauty. You, the beauty you dreamed of was an illusion that could never be realized at that time, and the freedom you expected was a system that could not exist in this country.

When sending the old lady away, my mother took my hand and said, "If you can't do it, you can go home. Mom can talk to you anyway."

The shepherd pigeon came again. She was standing at the door with a bouquet in her arms. When I went to open the door for her, I found that it was raining outside. "You don't know how to avoid it when it's raining." I let the shepherd dove in sideways. This is the first time I let her in the house for many times.

"Your skirt is all soaked, change into mine. Come on, I'll get you a change and you can go back quickly. It's getting late." While talking, I turned around and took the pigeon upstairs, and took it out of the closet. A dress was passed to the person behind her, she didn't accept it but looked straight at me.

She said: "How long do you have to lie to yourself, whether you don't see the news on TV or you really never watch TV."

Without saying a word, I put the clothes in my hand on the bed and prepared to walk out of the room. The moment I was about to open the bedroom door, Shepherd Ge held my wrist and continued: "She Wen Wuyou is outside, chic and happy, Is it possible that you still have to wait for her to come home alone in the empty house? Ruo Bing, leave her, she will not stay by your side to accompany you, I can, I can live a stable home life with you, accompany you You go shopping and take care of the children."

"Shepherd Pigeon, I think I've made it very clear to you, we can't, I believe in worry-free."

Shepherd Pigeon, what kind of person Wuyou is, I know her temperament better than you. She will not do things that make me sad, so please don't slander her character and reputation.

She shook off the palm of the shepherd pigeon and went downstairs. The shepherd pigeon came down quickly and she didn't change into my clothes. Before she left, she said: "Ruobing, she can't give you the ordinary you want, and you can't pursue the freedom she wants. Come on, don’t you really feel tired, why should you be demanding on yourself and make yourself suffer day and night.”

That night, I sat on the platform on the roof alone until dawn again. Wuyou said, Ruo Bing, look at how dazzling the stars are, and you will become brighter in the future, so that I can recognize where you are at a glance. position, running towards you.Ruobing, I love you, as long as you say a word, I am willing to give up everything, including the freedom I long for.

Seeing the sun rising slowly, closing dry and tired eyelids, a worry-free smiling face came to my mind, under the sun, she smiled at me brightly against the sun, and there was the sentence, Ruo Bing, wait for me It will be fine soon, echoing between the pinnae.