born of love

Lin Feng didn't want to cry, but as he spoke, the tears fell unconsciously, which was quite embarrassing. He touched the plain ring that the man still wore on his left ring finger: "Anyway, let me With you, please."

Crying like a fool, how did Bai Yuan say "no"?But he couldn't say "yes", so he just kept silent, not wanting to give up resistance and not wanting to immediately lose the warmth that he had missed for a year.

"You go," he still sighed, "Just treat the Bai Yuan you love as dead, and now I'm just lingering on my last breath to make it easier for my parents to accept, I'm not the one you love."

This kind of strength cannot be overcome for a while, Lin Feng did not continue to insist, reached out to touch the coldness on his waist, frowned and said: "How long have you been sitting? Let me help you go back and lie down."

He was still attached to him in his heart, so Bai Yuan didn't say no to him, thinking in his heart, if tomorrow is about to embark on the journey of death, then let him indulge in the arms of his lover!

The temperature in New York in summer is not very high, and it is not as humid as Binhai City, which is the most suitable for a patient like Bai Yuan, so he was only allowed to stay outside for a little longer recently.Lin Feng proficiently pushed his electric wheelchair to the room, and under the guidance of the considerate Charles, he took the elevator to Bai Yuan's room on the second floor.

As soon as he entered the door, the emotions that had just been sorted out instantly gushed out. Tears silently ran across his cheeks. In the blurred eyes, Lin Feng saw the complete medical equipment in the hospital, and understood how weak his lover's body is now.

It was not that he was not mentally prepared before coming here, but he was so distressed that he couldn't make it worse. Lin Feng took a deep breath and used a lot of perseverance to control himself so that he would not choke up.

Untying the restraint belt on Bai Yuan's body, he used the familiar method to put one hand under Bai Yuan's armpit and the other to support his leg. Lin Feng hugged his lover horizontally, but he staggered two steps back due to excessive force .

The person in his arms was too thin, so skinny that he was not too skinny.

The elevated body position made Bai Yuan close his eyes in discomfort, his head and neck rested weakly on Lin Feng's shoulders, and the tip of his nose broke out in sweat instantly.

"Xiao Yuan?" Seeing his pale and distressed face, Lin Feng immediately became nervous, and stood still, not daring to move, "Is it difficult?"

It sounded like someone was hitting his ear with a heavy hammer. Bai Yuan couldn't hear what Lin Feng was saying, but he could tell with his toes that he was asking how he was feeling. He slowed down, opened his mouth with effort, and replied in a mosquito-like voice: "It's okay. .”

Almost moved to the advanced nursing bed at a slow speed, Lin Feng controlled the speed and put the person down slowly, even so, when Bai Yuan touched the pillow, he still groaned in pain.

Because he had learned about Bai Yuan's condition before coming here, Lin Feng knew that Bai Yuan had a headache, so he slowly supported his waist, passed his legs and helped him to lie on his side, and then pulled the thin quilt over his chest Front: "Let's go to sleep."

After sitting outside for a while, Bai Yuan's eyesight has deteriorated and he can't see the time clearly. He vaguely feels that it has been an hour, and now his physical condition has declined sharply. He really feels a little tired, and his temples are throbbing. It hurts, he replied in a daze, and closed his eyes.

Lin Feng stood by his bed, greedily looking at the person who had been separated for a year, and then turned his scorching gaze out of the window, waiting for the sunset.

With a chill in his palm, Lin Feng suddenly lowered his head, and saw his lover's slender fingers in his palm.

That finger was pale and bluish, cold, and quietly placed in his palm, as if he had never left, Lin Feng's heart that was hesitant about whether he should come just now became firm in an instant.

Don't go, he thought, life or death, he won't let go this time.

"Have you made up your mind?"

In the living room, Zhou Ying and Bai Han faced Lin Feng and only asked this question.

"Think it over." Lin Feng didn't look embarrassed, he was more mature now than when he first met Bai Yuan's parents, six years had transformed him from a fledgling kid back then into a calm and resolute mature man .After not seeing each other for a year, he just looked at the two people who were already slightly frosted. They were his lover's relatives and his future relatives: "I will love and cherish him, and grow old with him forever."

As a parent, no one does not want their child to find a caring lover. Zhou Ying covered her face with her hands and cried bitterly.Bai Han patted her on the shoulder: "Okay..."

The teenager fell in love with Bai Han, even if they got married quickly, she would not hesitate. Zhou Ying gave up her good life in exchange for being separated from her son, and then her lover divorced her. During those difficult years, she never cried.Because she was a strong woman at heart, she had long been used to knocking out her teeth and swallowing them in her stomach, but now because of Lin Feng's words, she cried so much that she had no image.

Taking two steps forward slowly, Lin Feng knelt down in front of the elder: "I will persuade him to have an operation, I will register for marriage with him, and I will accompany him for the rest of my life..."

Zhou Ying cried harder, as if she was crying all the tears she had never shed in this life. Bai Han put his arms around his ex-wife whom he hadn't hugged in nearly 30 years, and pulled Lin Feng up with the other hand. He still had some sense : "I thank you for your love for Bai Yuan, but you know, Xiao Yuan's current body is really..."

"Uncle, I know all about it." Lin Feng held the old hand that was used to holding a pen but couldn't resist it, and squatted down after he straightened up, looking at him, "No matter what, I can't resist Xiao Yuan. The fact that I love the most, and the only one I love.”

The so-called love is just a feeling, but when love reaches the level where Lin Feng and Bai Yuan can't do without him, this love will probably turn into family affection and obsession, and the rest of the life, the next life, will be him.

The firmness in Lin Feng's eyes touched Bai Han a lot. He hugged the crying woman he loved the most, and suddenly felt that his life was ridiculous. He gave up his true love for the so-called future and chose to be with someone he didn't love woman getting married.

But the past was like smoke, and he could no longer turn back.

When Bai Yuan opened his eyes, the sun was already shining by the window. He remembered that he went to bed very early yesterday, but woke up very late today. He sighed secretly, more and more lethargy meant that he was getting weaker and weaker. Know your physical condition.

Not much time left to live.

In a trance, he felt as if he had a sweet dream. Bai Yuan rang the bell beside the bed with great effort, and three or two nurses came in one after another. He saw a figure in a suit in his blurred vision, and when the nurse helped him get up, During the interval, he gasped and said, "Charles, I seem to have dreamed about Lin Feng."

Bai Yuan has always told Charles about the past when he had nothing to do in the past year. Fortunately, this housekeeper is free enough to gossip. He has become very familiar with Lin Feng in the past year. Yuan's arm: "That's not a dream."

Several people hugged Bai Yuan together and sat in the wheelchair. They were fine at first, but when they heard these words, Bai Yuan's well-massaged legs were suddenly affected by his emotions and bounced violently. Bai Yuan endured the pain and asked: " What did you say?!"

"He said, this is not a dream." Lin Feng walked over a few steps and pushed away the nurse in front of him, squatting at his feet, pressing his convulsions along the tendons.

Although his vision is not clear, Bai Yuan can still see his lover's figure at a glance.

There is no other reason, it is too familiar.

"Afeng..." Bai Yuan managed to get over his breath, hesitated and breathed under the oxygen mask, "You..."

"Slow down." Lin Feng walked along his chest, and comforted him softly when he saw that he had regained his composure, "Wash up first, we can talk about it later if there is anything else."

Even after being separated for a year, Lin Feng still remembered Bai Yuan's obsession with cleanliness, which made the person in the wheelchair feel more bitter and worried about how to get rid of him.

Breakfast was served according to Bai Yuan's appetite and living habits, which was really not enough for Lin Feng. Fortunately, Charles was considerate, and thoughtfully ordered the kitchen to prepare an extra sandwich, which kept him from starving.

Bai Yuan's breakfast was a rice porridge cooked with rice milk, which was mixed with finely minced meat and vegetables. After Lin Feng had two sandwiches, he turned around and found that with the help of the nurse, Bai Yuan didn't even have half a bowl of porridge. After eating, he took the initiative to take the bowl and spoon: "Slow down."

As if startled by his voice, Bai Yuan flinched back, hesitated for a while before opening his mouth to answer.

Bai Yuan couldn't remember the last time he was fed by his lover. He felt that even if he had to say goodbye in the next second, being able to enjoy such treatment now would make him feel that the relationship between the two of them was from beginning to end. If there is no barrier, he will be satisfied.

"Xiaoyuan," Lin Feng pushed him to relax in the courtyard, and after a while he thought about it and said, "I think we need to talk."

Those who should come will always come, Bai Yuan nodded after thinking about these words, and turned to Lin Feng: "Okay."

"Before I suddenly found out that you lied to me, I was shocked and angry," Lin Feng took a deep breath, recalling the darkest years in his life, it was really not a pleasant experience, but if he didn't say it, Maybe Bai Yuan would be stuck in it all his life and couldn't get out, "But what happened later made me understand that I was also part of this lie. It was because I didn't give you enough sense of security that contributed to your later behavior——"

"—Stop talking!" Bai Yuan interrupted him.

This script is not right, it is obviously a lie that I told, why did it become his fault when it came to Lin Feng's mouth?This made Bai Yuan unacceptable: "I lied to you. This is the truth. Don't take the responsibility on yourself."

This scene seemed familiar. When Bai Yuan was hospitalized for the first time many years ago, this conversation had appeared in a different form. Now it was just a different context, but what remained unchanged was the people who loved each other, and the relationship between them. The mood of caring for each other.