born of love

"Are you a family member of the patient?" The doctor rubbed his wife's legs with disposable gloves on, and didn't have time to look up at him, and kept counting, "How can you leave the patient alone? It's so irresponsible! Fortunately, the nurse discovered this spasm in time, otherwise the consequences would be disastrous!"

What does convulsion mean? Lin Feng didn't have time to think, and saw Bai Yuan biting his lip with a pained expression on his face. His legs were still tightly clamped under the doctor's massage, and it took him a while to relax. Looking at it now, he was already in pain. I broke out in a cold sweat.

"Attention the family members. The nurses should pay attention to learning when they come to massage and passively exercise the patients." The doctor took off his gloves and mask, wiped his forehead, and gave Lin Feng a dissatisfied look. Don't worry, it's the patient who suffers."

Lin Feng answered yes again and again, wishing he could slap himself.

The people in the ward had almost left, and Bai Yuan was half lying on the bedside, waving at him: "Husband, I'm fine."

With a sore nose, Lin Feng felt that he was about to cry again. He held that hand and forced a smile: "I'm sorry, Xiao Yuan, I—"

"—If you want to blame it, I blame myself, I drove you away," Bai Yuan panted heavily, holding Lin Feng's callused middle finger and shaking it, changing the subject, "What did you buy? It smells so good, It makes me hungry."

"There is a porridge shop opposite the hospital. I bought two servings because of the smell. Do you want some?" Lin Feng knew that Bai Yuan's injury level was not low, and he would not feel hungry at all. Don't be immersed in the emotion of self-blame anymore, so I also took a deep breath and continued following his words.

"Okay!" Bai Yuan licked his chapped lips.

Lin Feng fed carefully, and Bai Yuan ate absent-mindedly. He couldn't swallow a bowl of porridge after eating half of it.

Lin Feng didn't force him either, and put down the spoon to rub his stomach to prevent him from indigestion. The two of them sat facing each other, chatting casually.

Binhai City in winter is not as cold as in the north. Although it is the twelfth lunar month, the branches and leaves outside the window are still yellow, yellow and green, but it is not monotonous. The setting sun is slanting westward, shining on Bai Yuan’s pale face through the lonely window, Lin Feng leaned over and gently pecked at Bai Yuan’s face. He took a sip: "I promise I won't in the future."

"What?" Bai Yuan didn't know what he was talking about.

"It's nothing." Lin Feng shook his head, not going to tell him.

I promise, I won't leave you alone to suffer the boundless pain, I promise.

After being anesthetized for more than half a month, the convulsions were really not faked by Bai Yuan himself, they were really the natural physiological result of a movement.

After Lin Feng left, he was lying on the bed alone and bored. He had slept enough these days, but now he couldn't fall asleep. , the leg suddenly twitched.

It really hurts!At that time, Bai Yuan had only this thought in his mind.

The nurse came in to change the IV, just in time to see his ferocious expression and his trembling legs under the quilt, so he did emergency treatment and called the doctor, and Lin Feng came back at this time.

The pain gradually subsided to the point where he could bear it, and he had the energy to look at his lover. The helpless look and the guilt on his face made Bai Yuan feel bad. He forced an ugly smile and waved at the man: "I fine."

If Lin Feng believed him, he would be a ghost.

At that time, Bai Yuan saw the cherishment in his eyes, saw the self-blame in his eyes, and suddenly for a moment, he wished that he would just lie on the hospital bed like this, so that he would not get better, and he was very satisfied.

"Husband, stop rubbing it." He pressed Lin Feng's hand and smiled weakly, "It's so boring, you can go and ask me when I will be discharged from the hospital, okay?"

"Okay." Lin Feng kissed his forehead, turned around and went out to find the attending physician.

But Bai Yuan's "condition" has just stabilized, so how could he be discharged from the hospital? Dr. Liu politely rejected Bai Yuan's unreasonable request, saying that he still needs to observe for a period of time. At the very least, he will not be discharged until around the Spring Festival.

"Spring Festival? That's still ten days away..." Bai Yuan pursed his lips in grievance, his eyes turned red and he was about to cry, but he looked at the doctor and held back.

Lin Feng rubbed his little head amusedly: "I brought your computer and the book you read before, if you are bored, just read it?"

Bai Yuan's eyes were bright, and before he could say "yes", Dr. Liu coughed lightly: "Mr. Bai, now that his condition has stabilized, I think we can do some recovery exercises from tomorrow, from sitting up alone It takes time to get the bladder reflex, and you probably won't be bored."

This is a disguised prohibition, Bai Yuan stared in disbelief, wait?sit up?Bladder reflex?He felt as if he had fallen into a huge pit.

Before he was hospitalized, no one told him that paralyzed patients can't even control their bowel movements!

"What do you think?" Zhang Ningchen sat on the edge of his bed and massaged his legs through the quilt.

Lin Feng was paid to pay the hospitalization fee and take the test papers, so Bai Yuan asked Fa Xiao who he hadn't seen for a long time to ask clearly.

"I thought it was just sitting in a wheelchair!" Bai Yuan leaned on the bed that was tilted at an angle of thirty degrees, and opened his mouth.

"Master Bai, do you know what this is?" Zhang Ningchen took off his urine bag from the foot of the bed and handed it to him, paying attention to the height with conscience to prevent the urine from flowing backwards, "You are wearing a catheter It's been more than half a month, and I don't know what kind of person I'm pretending to be! I beg you to check Baidu!"

"I've been in the hospital for so long, haven't I been under anesthesia? I don't know!" Bai Yuan looked blank, "Don't tell me what it is, even what you are doing now, if I didn't see it, I wouldn't know anything about it." Feel."

Sighing, Zhang Ningchen hung up the urine bag, stood at the foot of the bed and stretched his ankle for him: "The medicine will be given to you all the time, and after a few days when the real rehabilitation training starts, you will understand that life is for you. How difficult."

Just as he was talking, Lin Feng walked in with a pile of yellow, yellow and white medical examination sheets and an X-ray film, his face was gloomy and his mood was not high.

Bai Yuan had a ghost in his heart. He didn't know how much he had heard the conversation with Zhang Ningchen. After waiting for a while, he said anxiously: "My husband..."

Lin Feng had been standing at the door since his wife said "I don't feel a little bit", but he didn't have time to open the door and come in, but when he heard Zhang Ningchen's "difficult" later, he couldn't bear it anymore.

Throwing down a bunch of things in his hand, he leaned over and hugged his lover: "I'm sorry."

The voice was muffled and slightly choked.

"What, what's the matter?" Lin Feng was very tall, even though he controlled his own weight not to rest entirely on Bai Yuan's body, it still made Bai Yuan feel a little tight in his chest at this time. He put his arms around the person in front of him, and mumbled ask.

Pulling himself out of the arms of the man who had already started to look thin, Lin Feng's eyes were shining brightly, reflecting the sunlight outside: "If I hadn't quarreled with you that day, you wouldn't have caught a cold; if I found out earlier that you always shouted If your waist hurts and your back hurts, you won't..."

"Why do you take everything on yourself!" Bai Yuan frowned and stared at him, "It's not that the disease has been discovered and cured long ago, and it's not that if I wear more clothes, it won't break out. What does it have to do with you?"

The two of them took the cause of the disease to themselves with deep affection, and Zhang Ningchen felt like a huge light bulb, um, at least two thousand watts.She coughed lightly: "I'll go back first?"

Bai Yuan even gave him a stingy look, and waved at her through Lin Feng's body, which meant that he had heard it.

Hey you heartless!Zhang Ningchen was so angry that the roots of his teeth were itching, how can I deal with you when I come next time!

During Bai Yuan's hospitalization, he not only injected anesthesia near the set injury level, but also added a small amount of muscle relaxant to his drip. Bai Yuan's cardiopulmonary function and leg muscle index, so it was a coincidence that the spasm gave Dr. Liu a good excuse to increase the dosage of muscle relaxants.

And he wears an oxygen tube on his nose that will not be removed for 24 hours, and sometimes even needs to be replaced with an oxygen mask at night, which greatly reduces his lung capacity and heart blood supply; Shake the hospital bed to more than [-] degrees, and his hypoglycemia and orthostatic hypotension can't go away.

At this time, relying on his arms to support himself, he sat firmly on the bed that was swaying at a nearly right angle. Bai Yuan's face was pale and he was sweating, his arms were shaking uncontrollably. In his heart, he scolded himself for deciding to pretend to be a paralyzed patient.

But once a lie is told, more lies must be used to cover it up. In Zhang Ningchen's words, there is no turning back after the bow, and he can no longer tell the truth.

"It's time." The nurse pinched the clock and announced that Bai Yuan's training could end today.

Lin Feng pressed the down button of the hospital bed remote control almost at the same second as the nurse opened her mouth.

"Huh..." Bai Yuan closed his eyes exhaustedly and let out a long breath.

There was a warm touch on his forehead, he tried to open his eyes, and saw his husband wiping the sweat from his forehead with a warm towel, and when he saw him open his eyes, he smiled at him: "Go to sleep when you're tired, I'll give it to you." You wipe yourself off."

"No need..." Bai Yuan shook his head slightly, "You haven't had a good rest these days, so don't bother."

Having been together for more than two years, Lin Feng is naturally very aware of his daughter-in-law's slight obsession with cleanliness, making him lie down sweating profusely, he may not be able to sleep well at all.

"Silly Xiaoyuan," he kissed Bai Yuan's lips with a gentle voice, "No trouble."

The temperature of the air conditioner in the ward was raised by a few degrees. Taking advantage of the rising temperature, Lin Feng went to the bathroom and twisted two clean and warm towels. Then he came back and lifted Bai Yuan's quilt, and untied the top of his hospital gown. buttons, wipe them carefully.