Fork in the road

When Bai Xiaoyuan opened his eyes the next day, he saw Yu Xian lying beside him, fiddling with his mobile phone.Bai Xiaoyuan leaned over sleepily, stuck behind Yu Xian's back to check the time, and said sleepily, "Xianyu, you woke up so early..."

"Today is New Year's Eve." Saying that, Yu Xian brought the open calendar on his phone closer to show Bai Xiaoyuan.

"Oh, New Year's Eve...wait a minute?! Thirty?! Have I passed out the day, I didn't realize it at all..." Bai Xiaoyuan stared at the date dumbfounded, all sleepiness was overwhelmed. Flying in shock, he didn't come back to his senses for a long time.

Because he didn't feel the atmosphere of the New Year here at all, Bai Xiaoyuan didn't realize that tomorrow is the New Year at all.When I was in school, I was able to figure out the day of the week at least, but when I was not in school, I couldn't remember the day and date at all.

As a result, apart from eating two special dumplings today, there was nothing special about it.The two of them should still do their homework and do their homework, and they should fish when they want to fish.

After taking a bath at night, the two of them sat on the bed covered with quilts, shoulder to shoulder, using their laptops to wait to watch the live broadcast of the Spring Festival Gala.

Around eleven o'clock, Yu Xian yawned and rubbed the corners of his eyes.

Bai Xiaoyuan Xinsi has long been absent from the show, after all, the quality of this year is the same as last year.Seeing Yu Xian showing sleepiness, he immediately asked concerned: "Sleepy? Let's go to bed early if we are sleepy."

"It's okay, I can still persist." Yu Xian glanced at him, "Aren't you pursuing a sense of ritual?"

"I can pursue whatever I want when I'm alone, but now it's two of us. If you're sleepy, let's go to sleep. The show isn't interesting anyway."

"Let's just wait until twelve o'clock, and we'll go to sleep as soon as the countdown passes."

It was agreed to go to bed after twelve o'clock, and the two of them watched the countdown of the hosts end, turned off the computer and fell asleep.

This time before was when everyone set off firecrackers, and they were so noisy that they couldn't sleep at all, but now it was quiet outside the house, not even a louder sound.

Bai Xiaoyuan thought that this kind of place is also good, and when he gets old, he will come to this kind of place to enjoy his old age-oh, it would be nice if he can connect the network cable.

After turning off the lights, the only source of light in the room is moonlight. Because the curtains are not too thick, Bai Xiaoyuan can still see clearly the back of Yu Xian's head.The sleeping positions of the two are basically fixed, Yu Xian is outside, sleeping facing the outside of the bed, and Bai Xiaoyuan is inside, with his back facing the wall.In order to keep Yu Xian from falling out of bed in the middle of the night, Bai Xiaoyuan still reached out and hugged Yu Xian.

After closing his eyes, Bai Xiaoyuan said "Happy New Year" to Yu Xian. Before he fell asleep, Yu Xian quickly replied "Happy New Year". After a pause, he added: " Hope it all works out this year.”

"Yeah." Bai Xiaoyuan nodded, "We have to work hard this year." After all, the college entrance examination is getting closer and closer.

It was clearly tender before going to bed, but when he woke up, he was in dire straits.

Bai Xiaoyuan clutched his lower body, his back was already close to the wall, he broke down and said, "What are you obsessing about, Xianyu?!"

Yu Xian pressed his hand against his, and said calmly: "I said it before, I want to prove myself."

Bai Xiaoyuan clamped his legs tightly and never let go of his hands, defending his chastity fiercely.He frowned and stared at Yu Xian, while Yu Xian looked back at him very calmly. In the end, Bai Xiaoyuan surrendered, and he had no choice but to say, "Prove yourself, once is enough, right?"

"Arguably enough."

"There's nothing unreasonable, just this time." Bai Xiaoyuan insisted, "If you can guarantee that it's only this time...then..." He gritted his teeth, "It's up to you!"

Yu Xian didn't hesitate at all, and Bai Xiaoyuan's voice immediately said: "Okay."

Bai Xiaoyuan looked at him suspiciously for a while, and finally let go of his hand very reluctantly.

Although Yu Xian's attitude had always been aggressive before, but this time he didn't rush to hold him after getting permission, as Bai Xiaoyuan thought.

Bai Xiaoyuan tightly closed his eyes, showing a bit of unyielding in his tense expression.Looking at Bai Xiaoyuan's expression, Yu Xian felt a little helpless, stopped his hands and said, "You can relax a bit, I'm not going to break it off."

Bai Xiaoyuan swallowed, and seemed to be a little more nervous.

Yu Xian sighed helplessly, and continued to move his hands—anyway, Bai Xiaoyuan couldn't pay attention and became nervous after a while.

The previous time Bai Xiaoyuan was behind Yu Xian and couldn't see the other person's expression, but this time Yu Xian was facing Bai Xiaoyuan.In addition, Bai Xiaoyuan closed his eyes a little bit to avoid reality, so Yu Xian was able to see all of Bai Xiaoyuan's reactions clearly and aboveboard and unscrupulously.

It's just a little embarrassed, and there doesn't seem to be much resistance.

Then... continue to the next step?

In fact, Yu Xian himself was a little flustered. After all, he had never helped others before, and he would still be a little awkward when he suddenly reached out to hold someone else's hand—it wasn't that he couldn't accept it, but he was just a little embarrassed.

Although he has taken advantage of his mouth these two days and has been trying to take advantage of his body, but when the meat is actually delivered to his mouth, he still has a feeling that he dare not bite down.Although he believes that he will become an omnivore in the future and will like the piece of meat in front of him, he has never eaten meat before, and he has indeed been a vegetarian for many years.

You have to do a psychological construction before you can really start.

When Yu Xian held the opponent with his hand without hindrance, he felt that the opponent and himself trembled at the same time.

Fortunately, Bai Xiaoyuan closed his eyes.Yu Xian felt the heat on his face, but the movements of his hands were still orderly.

To a certain extent, Yu Xian still has a bit more integrity than Bai Xiaoyuan.At least Bai Xiaoyuan wasn't very shy when he helped Yu Xian get it out last time. This time...although she was a little bit shy, she was more calm and resisted.

He didn't dislike Yu Xian, nor did he have any dislike for this behavior, but Bai Xiaoyuan's acceptance of Yu Xian's helping him was indeed not very high.

Yu Xian would do this kind of thing because he classified both of them as straight men, so even with this level of physical contact, he wouldn't feel disgusted - no one would like each other, nor would they Troubled.

But I am bisexual. Although I think I can find cute girls to spend the rest of my life with in the future, there is no guarantee that I won't fall in love with boys halfway.How would Yu Xian think about this at that time?It will be disgusting.

But... Bai Xiaoyuan didn't want to tell Yu Xian "Actually, I'm bisexual", because he felt that his orientation would never have anything to do with Yu Xian, and he wasn't just confused because he couldn't find his way Boy, it would only seem strange to say this on purpose.

Bai Xiaoyuan thinks this is not a question of being honest or not, but a question of whether it is necessary.Even best friends can't have some secrets, right?This secret will not cause harm to the other party, it's nothing.

But in the end Bai Xiaoyuan compromised.Yu Xian is a stubborn person, and he is not good at rejecting Yu Xian.Early promises and late promises are the same, so why bother to find trouble with each other?

But just this time, Yu Xian was just acting angry anyway.

It is an indisputable fact that being held and caressed by someone gives physical pleasure, but Bai Xiaoyuan feels heavy in his heart, as if something is pressing on his chest, making it difficult for him to even breathe.

Unable to tell Yu Xian the true self.

All the reasons he found before were just excuses, and he was just afraid that Yu Xian would alienate him if he found out.If it was anyone else, Bai Xiaoyuan could express coolly, "If you think sexual orientation is a problem, then I don't think we can be friends", but he didn't want to do that to Yu Xian.

He knows that Yu Xian is very good, and he has absolutely no prejudice against gays and bisexuals, but if Yu Xian knows that his friend likes boys, he will probably pay more or less attention to the scale of his behavior, and the intimacy before should be carefully considered. Go ahead.

Including the current behavior is the same.If he revealed his sexual orientation, Yu Xian would never continue.

However, Bai Xiaoyuan really hoped that Yu Xian would not continue, because during this process, Bai Xiaoyuan could always clearly realize what he was hiding from Yu Xian, no, it could even be called a deception.

However, he cheated Yu Xian not for gaining anything, but because he didn't dare.Even Bai Xiaoyuan, who was able to come out to Bai Xinhong without hesitation, dared not be honest with Yu Xian.Because he knew that Bai Xinhong would definitely be able to accept it, and would not be alienated from him—he couldn't come back several times throughout the year, how could he be alienated?But Yu Xian and Bai Xiaoyuan didn't have the confidence anymore.

It's not that Bai Xiaoyuan doesn't trust Yu Xian, but that he doesn't want to take the risk.

Anyway, I would definitely not have Yu Xian's idea, so let's not let the other party know about these things for the time being, maybe it will be like this for a lifetime.As long as the current state can be maintained.

Bai Xiaoyuan closed his eyes tightly, grabbed the pillow with both hands, and released it in Yu Xian's hands trembling slightly.

After a while, he opened his eyes, and looked at Yu Xian in a dazed and dazed manner, and it took him a while to regain the focus of his sight.

Yu Xian pursed his lips into a straight line, and the moment he met Bai Xiaoyuan's eyes, he turned over and got out of bed to get a tissue by the bedside.

Bai Xiaoyuan looked at Yu Xian's flustered back, and thought: What's the use of regretting now, can we realize earlier that this behavior was unnecessary? !

Bai Xiaoyuan put on his clothes, recovered his strength, sat on the bedside and smiled and said, "Did you question your behavior in an instant just now? It's okay, this black history is known to everyone, you know it, I know it, I know it." I definitely won’t talk nonsense~”

"Black history?" Yu Xian, who was about to go out to throw garbage, stopped at the door in an instant, and turned around, "I don't think my performance just now can be considered."

"Yes, yes, you have the best skills. You rushed out of Asia and went to the world. No one dares to be the number one in the universe." Bai Xiaoyuan said seriously.

Yu Xian also said seriously: "Why don't we try again tomorrow?"

"No no no no no!" Bai Xiaoyuan waved his hands as if twitching, "I was just joking, really."

"I was joking too."

Bai Xiaoyuan was silent for a long time, and gave a thumbs up: "I like your sense of humor."

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