not regret

Chapter 44

Pan Wenqing called over the aunt who cooks and cleans in his house, since he doesn't know how to cook after all.

The aunt I brought from home was surnamed Chen. Pan Wenqing usually called her Aunt Chen. Aunt Chen came to clean up the house. It snowed two days ago and the air was very cold. When Aunt Chen opened the window to breathe, the cold wind hit her face. , It hurts like cutting a piece of meat.

Shui Yifan was sitting in the car, and it happened to be Christmas Eve when he was discharged from the hospital. A young girl on the street was holding an apple, followed by another young guy.

One year on Christmas Eve, Shen Pan was busy on the construction site until very late. Shui Yifan had nothing to do, so he waited for Shen Pan to come back in the rental house. I paid the wages in advance, so that I can spend a good New Year's Day, and it will be too cold to start work in two days.

When Shen Pan came back, Shui Yifan was nestling on the bed wrapped in a quilt and baking the little sun, forcibly wrapping himself into a rice dumpling.

"Is it so cold?" Shen Juan came back and saw Shui Yifan, who was wrapped in rice dumplings, was wrapped in his arms with a quilt. Only when you hold an apple in your hands do you know that today is Christmas Eve.”

"What's so good about a foreigner's holiday? Is it cold? You'll get half of the quilt." Shui Yifan moved his body and passed half of the warm quilt over to Shen Pan.

Shen Juan saw that there were still yesterday's bananas on the table, took them over, peeled them, and handed them to Shui Yifan, "If you don't have apples, just eat a banana, my little Shui will be safe and healthy in the future, waiting for you brother Make you a lot of money."

Shui Yifan took the banana and looked at Shen Pan helplessly, "You are obviously younger than me, but you have to pretend to be big brother, are you happy?"

"No, I'm your man, so I have to be big. What's more, don't you know if I'm old or not?" Shen Pan snatched Shui Yifan's banana and took a bite. Yifan has his hands in his clothes.

Shui Yifan was very itchy to be touched by Shen Pan, and he put the banana aside without taking a few bites, "You are big, you are big in everything, haha...don't touch my belly like this..."

Memories tore Shui Yifan ruthlessly. I thought that I was not too young, and I could have let go of the relationship between myself and Shen Pan. A song was played very fittingly, and Shui Yifan remembered that the song was called "Remember".

"Who still remembers, who first said love me forever..."

Lowering his head, Shui Yifan closed his eyes, the double torture of body and spirit made him exhausted.

Pan Wenqing stopped the car and wanted to carry Shui Yifan upstairs, but Shui Yifan refused. He could not accept Pan Wenqing's feelings, so he could only become more and more alienated, but Pan Wenqing did not refuse because of Shui Yifan's indifference. As for the alienation, he still stayed by Shui Yifan's side as always, turned off all his work, and stayed with Shui Yifan wholeheartedly.

Aunt Chen had already cleaned the room very clean, and the smell of rice just entering the door filled her nostrils, Shui Yifan seemed to see Shen Pan wearing an apron, standing at the kitchen door, holding a spoon and saying with a smile, " Xiao Shui, wash your hands and eat."

Desperately, he walked to the lazy sofa and nestled in, Shui Yifan didn't make any movements anymore.

Aunt Chen's abalone porridge was very delicious. She knew that Shui Yifan had a bad stomach, so she could only raise it slowly.

Pan Wenqing was holding the porridge, half kneeling in front of Shui Yifan, gently blowing on the porridge in the spoon, "Xiaofan, would you like to have a sip?"

Shui Yifan was so dull that he didn't even look at Pan Wenqing.

Pan Wenqing had no choice but to take a sip by himself, put the bowl on the ground, pinch the back of Shui Yifan's head, and let Shui Yifan cross with his mouth.

"Hmm..." Shui Yifan opened his eyes wide, full of disbelief, stretched out his hand and pushed Pan Wenqing away, and wiped off the residue on his mouth with the back of his hand, "You..."

"I can't help it. If you don't eat in the future, I will use this method. With your current situation, how many times do you think you can push me away?" Pan Wenqing took out a piece of paper and wiped himself Mouth residue.

He took the bowl again, and fed Shui Yifan again, this time Shui Yifan was quite obedient, after drinking half a bowl, he was no longer stubborn or awkward.

After finishing the porridge, Pan Wenqing put an apple in Shui Yifan's hand, "I don't know why there is such a saying that you have to eat apples on Christmas Eve. Although I don't really believe it, I'll give you one, Xiaofan , you must be safe and sound."

Shui Yifan looked down at the apple in his hand, lost his mind.

In this way, Pan Wenqing lived in Shui Yifan's house in a grand manner. He didn't dare to stay in Shui Yifan's room. He just built a bed in the study, a single bed. When the workers moved the bed into the house, Shui Yifan There was no reaction at all, as if Pan Wenqing didn't care about moving the house now.

Every day after Shui Yifan wakes up, he will nest in the beanbag sofa for a whole day, watching the cars and pedestrians outside through the glass window.

Pan Wenqing would feed food to Shui Yifan every day. If Pan Wenqing did not feed him, Shui Yifan would not take the initiative to ask for food or drink water, and Pan Wenqing could only feed him little by little.

Day after day, the dull life continued unchanged. On this day, Pan Wenqing brought a pot of lavender from nowhere. Light.

The lavender is placed not far from the water, and you can see it when you turn your head a little.

The Chinese New Year is coming in a blink of an eye. This year's Spring Festival is in February, and the weather has not gotten warmer, and it is still as cold as ever.

After several months of maintenance, Xu Zhiqiao was ready to go out. The weather was fine that day, and Cui Can recommended Xu Zhiqiao to visit Shui Yifan.

Shui Yifan was still the same as before, nestled on the sofa, not responding to the outside world at all, like a breathing corpse whose soul has been sucked out.

"How long has he been like this?" Cui Can sat on the sofa and looked at Shui Yifan worriedly.

He didn't expect that Shui Yifan would become what he is now. The young man who could laugh at every joke at the beginning no longer existed, and now there was only a shell left.The Shui Yifan who always gave himself advice and protected himself behind everything was gone.

Pan Wenqing, who was feeding Shui Yifan, stopped his movements, with helplessness and pity in his expression, "It's just like this when I came back from the hospital. I also found a psychiatrist. He said he was in the middle of depression, so don't let him be stimulated again. He has no suicidal tendencies yet, and he should be cured. The doctor prescribed some medicine, but it didn't have much effect on Xiaofan, and eating is not as difficult as before." Pan Wenqing didn't say why Shui Yifan would The reason to eat obediently.

Cui Can walked up to Shui Yifan, squatted down, looked at the man with dull eyes and dull expression, tears rolled down his eyes and finally fell without any nostalgia for them, "Why is this happening, Fanfan, look Me, do you still know me? Do you know who I am? Fanfan..."