not regret

Chapter 39

Shui Yifan patted Cui Can's back lightly, at the moment he couldn't help at all, and the unprecedented powerlessness spread back and forth in his body.He closed his eyes, he didn't know what to do at this moment, since he was a child, Shen Pan stood in front of him, this time he asked Shui Yifan to face it alone, Shui Yifan lost his mind for a while.

"Xiaofan, you can't go back first, brother Qiao won't wake up for a while, come back when he is transferred to the general ward, and replace brother Can." Pan Wenqing stood aside, with an indescribable feeling in his heart.He could see Cui Can's fragility, he could also see Cui Can's stubbornness, he felt that Cui Can was quite pitiful, Xu Zhiqiao didn't wake up, the Xu family didn't care how Xu Zhiqiao played outside, but now it's different, Xu It is impossible for the uncle to agree, Cui Can's road is not so easy.

Shui Yifan was also exhausted at the moment, so he had no choice but to agree to Pan Wenqing, "Xiao Can, then I'll go back first and come to replace you in the afternoon."

Cui Can nodded, but did not reply.

After leaving the gate of the hospital, the sun was so harsh that he couldn't open his eyes, he didn't sleep all night, Shui Yifan's eyes were bloodshot, and he drove home in a daze.

There was no trace of life in the cold room, Shui Yifan sat slumped on the sofa, squeezed the space between his brows tightly, sighed heavily, and fell asleep on the sofa.

Xu Zhiqiao was still awake when he was transferred to the general intensive care unit, but he was already out of danger. Cui Can was wiping his face with a towel. Xu's father knew that his son had arrived in the general ward, so he wanted to come over to have a look. When he entered, he saw Cui Can was still there , regardless of the secretary's obstruction, kicked Cui Can to the ground. Cui Can stood up tremblingly with his body braced.

"You still have the face to stay here?" Father Xu's tone was cold.

Cui Can picked up the towel that fell on the floor, "He will be anxious if he wakes up and won't see me." Then he walked to the bathroom.

Xu's father gasped in anger and said to the secretary beside him, "Hurry up and take this man away, I'm afraid I can't help but strangle him to death."

The secretary helped Xu's father to sit on the sofa, and calmed him down, "Calm down, the young master doesn't want you to mess with his lover like this. Why don't you wait for the young master to wake up first, the child looks good, Calm down."

"Lover? If I don't agree, they can't be together, but still love?" Xu's father said.

Shen Pan was recuperating well in the hospital, and his condition was under control these few days, and he didn't have a fever for no reason, so he tidied himself up and called Shui Yifan.

It's been so long since Shen Juan took the initiative to call Shui Yifan, but when Shui Yifan answered the phone, he didn't know what to say. In just ten days, the two of them became so strange.

"Let's talk face to face," Shen said.

"Okay," Shui Yifan replied.

Shen Pan thought that he was mentally prepared to part with Shui Yifan, but after hearing Shui Yifan's voice, he finally knew that no matter how much mental construction he did, it would collapse when facing Shui Yifan. Shen Juan didn't have the courage to go forward, let alone meet again later.

When Shui Yifan arrived, Shen Juan had already arrived, sitting there quietly, with the sun shining on him, Shui Yifan suddenly had the illusion that he would disappear in a second.

Today's wind is also much gentler than in the past, not as harsh as wanting to cut people's flesh and blood, and it blows slightly on Shui Yifan's body in a timely manner, as if pitying him, being abandoned by others, so don't be blown by the cold wind again.

The two sat opposite each other, and they didn't know what to say, who should speak first.

"You... How are you lately?" In the end, Shen Juan couldn't help but ask first.

"Not good" Shui Yifan felt uncomfortable from the moment he saw Shen Juan. He tried his best not to act too pretentious. It's just a breakup. People who are almost thirty should take it lightly. Whoever leaves can't live?But when Shen Pan asked, "How are you lately?" Shui Yifan couldn't hold it anymore, and the grievance in his eyes swirled up little by little, and gradually merged into a river called unwillingness, which was full of water. The embankment burst and rushed out of the eye socket.

Shui Yifan's tears dripped on the table, dripped on the skirt of his clothes, and even dripped into Shen Pan's heart.

Fearing that he couldn't help but want to hug Shui Yifan, Shen Juan bit the flesh in his mouth, thinking that the pain would make him more rational, isn't this the result he wanted?He has been premeditating since the beginning, and finally this day has come. He doesn't want to waste all his efforts, but the person in front of him has been in pain for so long. Hey, what I have to say later is even more heart-wrenching, and every sentence is frustrating, Shen Pan is a little bit unable to hold on.

"You, don't cry," said Shen Juan.

Shui Yifan raised his eyes cloudy with tears, wrinkled his nose and asked, "Do you still love me?"

Shen Juan said "I love you" many times, when he hugged Shui Yifan, and when Shui Yifan surprised him, but at this moment, he felt that these three words were too heavy, so heavy that he could say them How difficult it is, it hurts me so much.

"I..." Shen Juan really wanted to tell him, I love you, I love you, I love you so much, I love you like my life, I miss you addictively, but... I can't say it.

"Are you happier with him? Are you happier than with me?" Shui Yifan asked.

"It's okay." Shen Juan tilted his head and looked elsewhere.

"You promised Huo Bin that you would give up on me?" Shui Yifan asked.

Shen Pan kept his hands in his pockets. Today he was wearing a black windbreaker, and he clenched his hands tightly in his pockets. His nails dug into his flesh and were about to break. Shen Pan's expression was still calm, "Hmm .”

"What are our past ten years? What do you promise me? What am I doing wrong? Should I change my career? Brother Judgment...don't leave me..." Shui Yifan took out a piece of paper and wiped it. Wiping tears like a flood, choking sobs and sobbing.

"Xiao Shui, let's...forget it, I don't want anything, I will give you compensation." Judge Shen said.

Shui Yifan raised his eyes to look at Shen Pan, his eyes full of disbelief, "You love him so much? You don't want anything for him? You don't want me...you don't want the fruits of your hard work for so many years, you...why, I I don't want anything, I just want you."

"Stop talking, let's stop here." Shen Juan bit his lip, the delicate flesh in his mouth had been bitten, and the fishy sweetness spread throughout his mouth.

At this point, Shui Yifan also felt that there was no need to continue, took off the ring on his left hand and put it on the table, and laughed at himself, "I was so stupid when I was young, but I actually believed in love."

He stood up and walked out, saving the last of his self-esteem. Before leaving, he said to Shen Juan, "I wish you nightmares every night, and die in depression."

Shen Juan watched Shui Yifan go out, looking a little sad, like an abrupt wooden stake.

Picking up the ring on the table, Shen Juan put it on his heart, it hurts so much, he wished he could die right now.