[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

The pain in the stomach became more and more clear. Xu Haoran pressed his hand on the stomach and gradually bent down. Although the air conditioner was on, the cold sweat on his forehead kept coming out, dripping on the pages he was reading.

Since the end of the new year, his stomach pain has become more and more serious. In order to help Nie Mi win the position of dean of the Faculty of Arts, Xu Haoran has no time to look at it. In addition, he doesn't pay much attention to his eating habits. It hurts almost every day.Every time Xu Haoran had a stomachache, he would think that if Zhou Jisheng saw him like this, he would definitely tell him to see a doctor again, but Xu Haoran laughed at himself again, and in the end Xu Haoran would still refuse him with various excuses.

There was more and more sweat on his forehead, and beads of sweat fell on the pages of the book drop by drop. Xu Haoran didn't even have the strength to close the pages. He could only rest his forehead on his arm lying flat on the table, and gasped for air. .At this moment, he had no time to think about anything, only Zhou Jisheng's anxious face appeared in his mind.

"Jisheng...I miss you."

"Haoran!" Before Xu Haoran fainted, he seemed to hear that long-lost voice dimly.Xu Haoran wanted to struggle to raise his head, but just now he raised his head with a little strength, as if he lost his strength for an instant, and then slammed his forehead heavily on the table.

"Xu Haoran!" Zhou Jisheng managed to find the office where Xu Haoran was, and the moment he opened the door, he saw Xu Haoran lying on the table and holding his stomach with one hand.Xu Haoran's stomach disease was a chronic illness for many years, Zhou Jisheng knew Xu Haoran's stomach disease was probably happening again when he saw Xu Haoran's appearance like this.

Zhou Jisheng ran to Xu Haoran's side and helped the unconscious person up. Seeing that Xu Haoran's face was pale without a trace of blood, Zhou Jisheng hurriedly carried him on his back and dialed the emergency number.

At the end of June, it was the summer vacation for the students, but the Jingnan University campus, which was supposed to be quiet, became noisy at the end of this month.No matter on the forum or off the Internet, the students of Jingnan University exclaimed that they would never forget such a scene in their life.

Under the scorching sun, Zhou Jisheng carried Xu Haoran on his back across the huge campus. Zhou Jisheng was covered in sweat, and his steps were steady without hesitation. The students walking on the road consciously gave way to Zhou Jisheng. Some people He even anxiously followed Zhou Jisheng for a while, and several boys helped Zhou Jisheng hold Xu Haoran on him, for fear that Zhou Jisheng would lose his strength and Xu Haoran would fall off.Facts have proved that even if Zhou Jisheng fell himself, Xu Haoran would not suffer the slightest injury.The ambulance arrived at the gate of Jingnan University 5 minutes later. The gatekeeper, Old He, wanted to ask why the ambulance driver appeared here, but as soon as he opened the door of the guard room, he saw Zhou Jisheng walking towards the ambulance with Xu Haoran on his back. The car came running.

"Ouch! It's Teacher Xu!" Lao He pressed the button on the railing of the school gate without saying a word, making way for Zhou Jisheng and the doctors.

The nurses took Xu Haoran from Zhou Jisheng's hands and let Xu Haoran lie on the medical cart. Zhou Jisheng thanked Old He and followed him into the ambulance.

Xu Haoran's consciousness is half floating and half sinking. He always feels that someone is calling his name incessantly by his ear, but he doesn't seem to want to open his eyes to see the person calling his name. Xu Haoran is afraid of seeing him again, afraid of being entangled with him , because he was sorry for him.

"Jisheng, I have something to tell you." Dean Chen looked serious, standing behind Zhou Jisheng, he hesitated for a long time before calling Zhou Jisheng.

From yesterday to now, Zhou Jisheng has guarded Xu Haoran for a day and a night. He held Xu Haoran's hands tightly, and he was not willing to let go for a moment.

Hearing Dean Chen's voice, Zhou Jisheng turned his head slowly, saw Dean Chen looked at him worriedly and nodded again, Zhou Jisheng reluctantly let go of Xu Haoran's hand, and followed Dean Chen out ward.

Dean Chen walked towards his consulting room silently with his hands behind his back. Seeing that this was the direction to the dean's consulting room, Zhou Jisheng guessed that Xu Haoran's situation might not be optimistic.

After Zhou Jisheng followed him into the consulting room, Dean Chen locked the door and stretched out his hand for Zhou Jisheng to sit down.Zhou Jisheng sat upright on the chair, quietly waiting for Dean Chen to speak.

Dean Chen handed Zhou Jisheng a CT scan, and Zhou Jisheng took a look with a shocked expression.Dean Chen is the Chief Physician of Digestive Surgery, and it was Dean Chen who operated on Xu Haoran last night.Dean Chen tried to comfort Zhou Jisheng, but Zhou Jisheng was also a doctor himself, and he immediately understood Xu Haoran's CT scan.

"It's late stage, at most two months." Zhou Jisheng made a judgment based on the CT scan.

Dean Chen nodded. Zhou Jisheng's medical level had almost caught up with him, and Zhou Jisheng's judgment was not wrong.

"Last night, I opened his stomach for him to check the situation..." Dean Chen hesitated. Although Zhou Jisheng diagnosed Xu Haoran's current condition based on the CT film, the CT film can only roughly reflect Xu Haoran's condition. It is the most intuitive way to see Xu Haoran's stomach lesions, even using chemotherapy drugs will not help.

What does it feel like to be on the brink of collapse?At this moment, Zhou Jisheng seemed to be stepping on the edge of a cliff, just a gust of wind could blow him off the cliff.However, it was Xu Haoran who was about to fall into the river of forgetfulness, not him. He could only look at the people struggling in the river of forgetfulness across the bridge of Naihe, unable to reach out.

"I'm also immune to chemotherapy drugs." Zhou Jisheng asked in a low voice. Dean Chen could hear Zhou Jisheng trying to keep his voice calm, but the undulating tremor still revealed the pain in Zhou Jisheng's heart.

Dean Chen looked at Zhou Jisheng with a complicated expression and lowered his head. In Dean Chen's eyes, Zhou Jisheng would never be depressed. On Zhou Jisheng's shoulder, he comforted him, "Stop with him more."

Zhou Jisheng walked out of Dean Chen's consulting room sadly alone, and when he returned to Xu Haoran's ward, he happened to meet Xu's mother who was holding a package and was anxiously looking around the ward.

"Auntie, you're here." Zhou Jisheng rushed to meet Xu's mother, and hugged the washed white cloth bag in his arms for Xu's mother. The cloth bag was a little heavy, and Zhou Jisheng thought that it should be Xu's mother brought it to Xu Haoran tonic.However, Xu Haoran couldn't even use the chemotherapy drugs, and no amount of supplements could save Xu Haoran's life.But Zhou Jisheng knew, but he couldn't tell Mrs. Xu that a mother had raised the child alone for so many years, and it was almost the end of her expectation, but it turned out that her son had an incurable disease. Zhou Jisheng didn't know how to tell Mrs. Xu.

"Xiao Zhou, how is Haoran now? It's okay. Why did you hear that he had surgery?" Xu's mother anxiously grabbed Zhou Jisheng and asked about Xu Haoran's condition. Zhou Jisheng didn't know when Zhou Jisheng called Xu's mother last night. Xu Haoran's condition was very serious. Zhou Jisheng only told Xu's mother on the phone that Xu Haoran needed an operation at Boren Hospital, and Xu's mother rushed over overnight.Zhou Jisheng smiled wryly in his heart, he didn't know how to answer Xu's mother, he didn't want to deceive Xu's mother.

"Auntie, have you rushed over to eat overnight? I'll accompany you to eat first. Haoran won't wake up until a while later." Zhou Jisheng couldn't answer Xu's mother's question, so he had to avoid it deliberately.

Seeing that Zhou Jisheng avoided her question, Ms. Xu felt a little bit in her heart. Although she only got along with Zhou Jisheng for a few days, Ms. Xu knew that Zhou Jisheng was not a liar. An energetic person, but now Zhou Jisheng has a sad face.Xu's mother shook her head, and asked Zhou Jisheng softly: "Xiao Zhou, although I have never been able to overcome this hurdle, I can see that you really like Haoran and really want to treat him well. So Auntie begged Please, tell auntie the truth, I won't tell Haoran." Mother Xu begged Zhou Jisheng, even if her son was dying, she still wanted to know the real situation of her son.

A mother's concern and expectation for her son cannot be desecrated. Zhou Jisheng was also struggling in his heart. He hesitated whether to tell Mrs. Xu, but when Mrs. Xu said this, Zhou Jisheng knew that he would not deceive Mrs. Xu .

"Auntie, let's talk about it in another place." Even though they are far away from Xu Haoran's ward now, he doesn't want Xu Haoran to know.

The corners of Xu's mother's eyes were filled with tears, she nodded gently, and followed Zhou Jisheng away from Xu Haoran's ward.

"Stomach cancer?!" Xu's mother covered her mouth and wept silently after she finished speaking. She never thought that Xu Haoran, who was healthy and healthy since childhood, would get stomach cancer, and it was already at an advanced stage.

Zhou Jisheng kept comforting Mrs. Xu: "I'm sorry, Auntie. I wish I had checked him earlier. It's my fault."

Xu's mother cried and shook her head, Zhou Jisheng could not be blamed for this, Xu Haoran's temper was very clear to Xu's mother, she was conceited and sometimes refused to listen to persuasion, Zhou Jisheng always followed Xu Haoran's temper.At Xu Haoran's engagement ceremony, Xu's mother kept thinking that if someone else was with Xu Haoran, they would have broken up long ago.Xu Haoran is so proud that he once told his mother Xu that when he becomes famous, he must bring her to the city, and he will become a professor, dean of literature and even the principal of Jingnan University.But now, Xu Haoran is still an associate professor, he has not yet become a professor, and he still has a long way to go.

"I don't blame you. I understand his personality. He has never listened to your advice. It's because I didn't teach him well." Mother Xu said sobbing.

Zhou Jisheng and Xu's mother looked at each other, and then both showed helpless wry smiles: They are going to lose Xu Haoran.

Mrs. Xu said that she was going to buy some toiletries. Zhou Jisheng saw that the old man came from the station on a hot day and was about to go out again before resting. Accompany Xu Haoran.Mother Xu nodded in agreement, but she felt that Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran should be given more space to be alone.

This summer, to Zhou Jisheng, the scorching sun seemed to be radiant.