[Now] I want to hold your hand tightly

However, Xu Haoran didn't want to experience this feeling again.

Zhou Jisheng embraced Xu Haoran, he almost pushed this person away from his side, he really felt Xu Haoran's temperature, at the end of December, he and Xu Haoran stood together again.

Time seemed to stand still. The two stood quietly at the door until the sound of the elevator sounded. Zhou Jisheng felt the shoulders of the person in his arms tremble slightly. He pulled Xu Haoran back to the house quickly, and closed the door tightly. .

The sound of breathing echoed in the ears of the two of them, knocking on the hearts of the two of them one by one.I don't know who kissed who first, maybe the two put their lips together to each other, and they felt each other's existence in the entanglement.I don't know how long it took before the two parted reluctantly, Xu Haoran's face was flushed, his chest heaved, and Zhou Jisheng was not much better.Looking at Xu Haoran like this, Zhou Jisheng felt that the other party was too attractive, he was not willing to embarrass Xu Haoran, if Xu Haoran was unwilling, he would not continue.

How could Xu Haoran be unwilling? During the days when Zhou Jisheng left, he had already thought it through thoroughly. He kept avoiding and refusing again and again, and in the end he could only push the person he loved away.

"I'm going to continue..." Zhou Jisheng asked Xu Haoran in a questioning tone, but Xu Haoran felt very sad.They were obviously lovers, they were obviously in love with each other more than anyone else, and in the end they couldn't even have a normal conversation.

Xu Haoran raised his head, with firmness and affirmation in Zhou Jisheng's burning eyes. He looked forward to Zhou Jisheng's continuation, but...

Xu Haoran's face turned even redder when there was a low sound in the quiet room.

"Are you hungry?" Zhou Jisheng asked this question after almost holding back his laughter.

Xu Haoran was embarrassed, and wanted to get out of Zhou Jisheng's arms, but Zhou Jisheng hugged him tightly, and his struggle was futile.Xu Haoran buried his head in his arms and nodded sullenly. He only ate a little at ten o'clock in the morning, and he hadn't eaten at noon or night, so he would naturally be hungry.

"Exactly, I didn't eat either." Zhou Jisheng encircled Xu Haoran's hand and patted Xu Haoran's back lightly. He asked Xu Haoran, "Is there anything else to eat at home?"

Xu Haoran remembered that he bought a bunch of hot pot ingredients yesterday to prepare for eating, but he gave up because of a stomachache: "I bought some hot pot ingredients yesterday and didn't cook them." Xu Haoran didn't mention his stomach pain to Zhou Jisheng. Sheng said, he thought Zhou Jisheng would brave the heavy snow to take him to the hospital for an examination.He could imagine how Zhou Jisheng came back from Washington in such a hurry, the black and blue eyes of Zhou Jisheng made Xu Haoran feel distressed.The time he received Xu Haoran's email was around 03:30 this morning, Xu Haoran knew that Zhou Jisheng must have not slept that day.

Zhou Jisheng brought Xu Haoran a pair of cotton slippers to change into, and then walked into the kitchen, Xu Haoran followed Zhou Jisheng into the kitchen as well.The originally unpopular kitchen was filled with a warm atmosphere. Zhou Jisheng washed and cut vegetables, while Xu Haoran was in charge of cooking. Naturally, Xu Haoran was better at cooking, so Zhou Jisheng could only help Xu Haoran.

Soon, a pot of hot pot was ready, and the two of them did not move the hot pot to the dining table, but sat on both sides of the tea table, so that the distance between the two could be closer and each other could be warmer.

A pot of hot pot, two people pick each other's food, there is not much words between them, just a look and a smile to know what the other wants to say.

After eating and drinking enough, people also warmed up, Zhou Jisheng cleaned up the dishes by himself, without asking Xu Haoran to help.Wrapped in the blanket that Zhou Jisheng brought from the bed, Xu Haoran curled up on the sofa, reading a novel with his ipad in his arms.However, from time to time, he would take a look at Zhou Jisheng who was busy in the kitchen. The feeling of getting along with the two of them came back again. The corners of Xu Haoran's mouth curled up slightly unconsciously. There is a person who can treat him like this, and he will never push him away again. Zhou Jisheng will never say no to Zhou Jisheng again.

After washing the dishes, Zhou Jisheng came out of the kitchen. Seeing that the person lying on the sofa was holding an ipad in one hand, his eyes were darting back and forth on him. Zhou Jisheng threw himself on Xu Haoran, and took the ipad out of Xu Haoran's hand. Taking it away, sticking it to Xu Haoran's face, with an ambiguous breath on Xu Haoran's face, Zhou Jisheng asked Xu Haoran gently: "Do you want to continue?"

Xu Haoran blinked, relaxed on the sofa, and nodded to Zhou Jisheng.

It snowed almost all night, but the next day, the sun hidden in the thick clouds leaked a ray of sunlight through the gaps in the clouds.

Xu Haoran turned over and accidentally pulled on the sore spot. Before Xu Haoran raised his brows, a pair of hands came towards him from behind, encircling Xu Haoran, as if afraid that he would run away.

"Are you awake?" The voice of the person behind Xu Haoran was gentle and laziness.With only these three simple words, Xu Haoran felt that his chest was filled with happiness in an instant.

"En." Xu Haoran nodded, and responded softly.

In Zhou Jisheng's eyes, this small gesture seemed like Xu Haoran was shy.Zhou Jisheng propped himself up and looked at the expression of the person whose back was facing him. Xu Haoran raised his head and happened to meet Zhou Jisheng's eyes. Xu Haoran lowered his head abruptly. Although the two of them were already intimate last night, when he thought of last night, Xu Haoran I don't know how to face Zhou Jisheng.He screamed too much last night... Xu Haoran rolled his eyes at the wall in front of him. If he had known that he would not be able to restrain his screams, he would not have allowed Zhou Jisheng to try those weird postures.

Seeing that Xu Haoran was silent, Zhou Jisheng stopped teasing Xu Haoran, he asked Xu Haoran to cover the quilt, turned over and got out of bed.

"Are you going to the hospital?" Xu Haoran asked.

Zhou Jisheng walked up to Xu Haoran, knelt down and shook his head at Xu Haoran: "I haven't figured out how to explain it to Dean Chen, but I can't delay too long. I'll go back to the hospital tomorrow."

"Well, I have to explain it well, Dean Chen values ​​you so much." Xu Haoran said in a low voice, he was the one who sent an email to Zhou Jisheng, making Zhou Jisheng fly back to China immediately and give up giving a report at the Washington Medical Association It was him, his willfulness almost pushed the man he loved the most away from him, and made the man he loved the most give up his good future just to come back to accompany him.Xu Haoran felt ashamed, and he wanted to apologize to Zhou Jisheng. "Sorry, it's me..."

Zhou Jisheng stretched out his index finger and pressed Xu Haoran's lips, stopping Xu Haoran's words: "It's not you. Compared with you, everything is insignificant."

Xu Haoran wanted to say something more, but in the next second, Zhou Jisheng blocked what he wanted to say with his lips. All Xu Haoran wanted to say had to be blocked back into his stomach by Zhou Jisheng.

The long kiss ended, Zhou Jisheng left Xu Haoran, and he lightly kissed Xu Haoran's cheek again, telling Xu Haoran to sleep for a while.

Xu Haoran closed his eyes obediently, but the fragments of last night kept appearing in his mind. In the end, Xu Haoran covered his head under the quilt, trying to cover all the expressions on his face.

Zhou Jisheng found a new pajamas for Xu Haoran, and brought the prepared breakfast to the room.The quilt covered half of Xu Haoran's head, Zhou Jisheng walked lightly to Xu Haoran's bed and sat down.

The sun shines on Xu Haoran's face, and the warm winter light falls on Xu Haoran's face through the gaps between Xu Haoran's thick eyelashes.Zhou Jisheng just sat beside Xu Haoran, looking at his sleeping lover.

Both he and Xu Haoran are not young anymore. In a few days, when the new year enters, both Zhou Jisheng and Xu Haoran will be 35 years old.They have known each other for more than 20 years. He has been chasing Xu Haoran for seven or eight years, and they have been together for more than two years.However, the relationship between the two of them is still as pure as young people, or, like young people, they don't know how to love each other.Zhou Jisheng thought that all the love for Xu Haoran was the love between couples, and Xu Haoran thought that getting Zhou Jisheng to accept his idea was also to love each other, but they all forgot that love is not compensation or compromise, love is love, pure and simple , which doesn't even make sense.

What a complicated proposition.Zhou Jisheng smiled, the clock on the bedside table pointed to ten o'clock, he patted Xu Haoran lightly, waking him up from his dream.

Xu Haoran opened his hazy eyes and looked at Zhou Jisheng. Zhou Jisheng handed Xu Haoran a glass of warm milk: "Eat something before going to sleep, or your stomach will hurt."

"Yeah." Xu Haoran took the milk that Zhou Jisheng handed over with a guilty conscience, he didn't dare to tell Zhou Jisheng that he passed out due to a stomachache two days ago.

"Are you going to school today?" Zhou Jisheng doesn't need to go to the hospital, which doesn't mean Xu Haoran doesn't need to go to school, and it's the end of the year, and there are only a few months before the professor of the Faculty of Arts is re-elected. Xu Haoran doesn't know if he will be in school. what's the matter.

Xu Haoran drank the milk and shook his head: "No, I helped the teacher finish reading all the papers for this semester yesterday, so I should have nothing to do today."

Zhou Jisheng was speechless: "Is the situation not very good?"

Xu Haoran didn't want to involve Zhou Jisheng in this smokeless war, not to mention that he had already made Zhou Jisheng give up his future once, and he couldn't destroy Zhou Jisheng's life again.

"Aren't you supposed to be concerned about how to convince Dean Chen?" Xu Haoran forced a smile and changed the subject by the way.

Seeing that Xu Haoran didn't want to talk about the school anymore, Zhou Jisheng also felt that he was taking too much control.If Xu Haoran hadn't been working at Jingnan University, Zhou Jisheng would not have wanted to hear Jingnan University's name at all.

"Please, please don't mention it. I'm not ready to go back to the hospital and be scolded by Dean Chen." Zhou Jisheng pretended to be sad, and said to Xu Haoran.

Xu Haoran laughed out loud, he moved his body, and suddenly felt a sense of discomfort, Xu Haoran's loosened brows were drawn together, he glanced at the man who was sitting on the side and looked at him with his head tilted, finally he was helpless Sighed.

"what happened?"

"You yesterday..." Xu Haoran thought for a while, and finally said, "You did a good job."

"Ah?" Zhou Jisheng looked blank, what did he do?

"I'm going to take a shower!" Xu Haoran growled sullenly.