love, unspeakable

"You don't understand..." Chen Junping slowly told Shiliang about the things between him and Qiao Xizhi, every little bit of it, and almost shed tears at the end.

Shiliang just listened quietly, occasionally interjecting a few words.After the story was told, he said: "Actually, he likes you, but he doesn't know it himself, so he couldn't accept this kind of thing for a while. I think he needs you more at this time. The so-called untie the bell has to be tied. His heart is with you."

"He likes me?!" Chen Junping repeated this sentence, he never thought about this question.

"Otherwise, he would not take the initiative. If he is not interested in you, he will not seduce you no matter how drunk he is. It is because you are too unconfident in yourself to ignore this."

Chen Junping hugged Shiliang happily and kissed him on the face, and said with a smile, "Thank you, I understand, I will go to him now." After speaking, he hurried away.

I stayed at Shiliang's place for a while, and as soon as I came out, I saw the Qiao family brothers get into a taxi and drive out of the community.He hadn't seen Xizhi for two days, but with such a hasty look at him from such a distance, Chen Junping could see that his spirit was not good, his face was not bright, and he was pushed into the car by his brother with his head down.He hurried back and drove his car out.

……

"Mom, I'm here to see you." Qiao Jinzhi placed the white chrysanthemum in front of the tomb, and arranged the offerings one by one.

Qiao Xizhi stood quietly on the side. He had a lot to say to his mother, but he didn't know how to say it when he came up to him. His mother would definitely be angry because he had sex with a man.

Qiao Jinzhi reported the events of the past two years to his mother one by one, and when he talked about Qiao Xizhi, he glanced at his younger brother again: "I came back this time to take Xiaoxi to the United States. He is not in a good spirit now, I think The environment over there can make him happy. The children are not filial, so they won't be able to visit you often in the future."

Stand up and pull Qiao Xizhi: "Xiaoxi, talk to mom. I'll go over there and have a look."

Qiao Xi stayed alone and just quietly looked at her mother's portrait.

On the other side, Qiao Jinzhi stopped Chen Junping who was coming, and he found out when Chen Junping appeared.He didn't want Xiaoxi to be stimulated again, although he hinted that he could be with his younger brother in the morning, but seeing Xiaoxi's reaction after returning home, he really didn't want to take the risk.

"Brother, let me see my aunt." Chen Junping didn't expect Qiao Jinzhi to come out to stop him, which was different from his reaction in the morning.

"Sorry, Junping, I can't let you see Xiaoxi."

"But that's not what my elder brother told me this morning. Didn't you encourage me to go and find him? I know Xizhi is ill, and I think he needs me now." Chen Junping looked behind him again and again, but was caught by Qiao Jin. It is strictly blocked.

"What he needs now is quietness. I am very grateful for your care for Xiaoxi these years. I also know your heart for Xiaoxi, but he said that he doesn't want to see you. It's the elder brother who is sorry for you." Qiao Jinzhi felt quite You bastard, crossing rivers and tearing down bridges, but for Xiaoxi he's willing to do anything.

"No, big brother, I... Let me have a word with him, please?" Of course, Chen Junping understood Qiao Jinzhi's feelings of protecting his younger brother, and it would be the same for him.

"You go back, just pretend that the big brother didn't say anything in the morning, forget about Xiao Xi."

"I..." How could I forget it!

Chen Junping still wanted to say that Qiao Xizhi had already come, so he glanced at Chen Junping and said to his eldest brother, "Brother, you can wait for me over there."

"Xiaoxi." Qiao Jinzhi was not at ease, but finally went downstairs and waited.

Looking at Qiao Xizhi's dark circles under his eyes, Chen Junping knew that he was suffering from insomnia. Thinking of his previous illness, he suffered from insomnia all night long, his heart ached as if it had been drilled by an electric drill.

"Unfortunately, we..."

"Junping, I'm going to the United States, and I won't be coming back. I shouldn't have lost my temper with you that day. It was my fault. Thank you for taking care of me over the years." Qiao Xizhi cut off Chen Junping as soon as he opened his mouth. After finishing the conversation, Qiao Xizhi spoke clearly. Like his brother, he just apologized and thanked him, but that's not what he wanted to hear.

"Can you not leave?" Chen Junping looked at him, his eyes that should have been filled with stars were now dimmed, and he only looked down at the ground.Chen Junping's tone was almost pleading, if Qiao Xizhi was willing to stay, he would do anything, and it would be good to go back to the original place and be friends.

Qiao Xizhi didn't speak. After a while, he lifted his feet and walked down the bluestone steps.Missing Chen Junping, Chen Junping just wanted to make the last effort to keep him, and he grabbed his hand when he passed by.

"Can't we go back?" He choked up, didn't he even have a chance to be friends?

Qiao Xizhi was stunned, but before Chen Junping could say another word, he broke away from his hand and left.

Chen Junping just watched them leave like this, he felt powerless, but when he wanted to save them, he found it was too late.He sat slumped on the stone steps, and the sky gradually began to drizzle.

……

"Young man, our cemetery is about to close." The grave guard came up with an umbrella to remind him.

It turned out that I sat in the cemetery all day without knowing it, and my whole body was soaked. Even the white drizzle would make people feel cold.The lenses of the glasses were covered with water, and the road ahead was blurry, even after wiping them, they were still blurred.Fortunately, he took off his glasses and went down the mountain.

15. Betrayal?die?

Chen Junping went to "Pure Love 98" to watch Kay Lina's performance. There was no Weng Shiliang here, only Kay Lina who turned into a coquettish queen.It is also her dream to see her show her charm on the stage and work hard for her life. One day she will stand on a higher and bigger stage, so that more people can see her graceful dance and get more respect.

KayLina saw the dripping Chen Junping coming in on the stage, and greeted him quietly.Chen Junping sat far away on the bar counter, drinking bitter wine, but still took the trouble to take one cup after another.

The wine in her hand was taken away by the glamorous queen, she drank it gracefully, smiled at him, her exaggerated false eyelashes almost flew out in the blink of an eye: "I don't like men who use wine to drown their worries .”

Chen Junping was not drunk, the wet clothes stuck to his body revealed his broad and strong muscles, no one could ignore his perfect muscles.

"Can you ask for a leave?" Chen Junping said, he just wanted to find someone to accompany him, and the only one who could accompany him at this time was this "woman" whom he had known for two days.

"You go to the back and wait for me, I'll talk to the manager." KayLina smoothed his messy hair back with water in one hand.

Chen Junping was at the back door of the bar, and half an hour later, Shiliang, who was clean and fresh, came out, completely different from before.Chen Junping prefers his current appearance, without heavy rouge, without a voluptuous figure, he is just a clean and refreshing man.

"You're all wet, go back and change your clothes first." The rain outside is still falling, and it's still a soothing white drizzle after a day, whether it's with an umbrella or without an umbrella.

Chen Junping did not go home, he went to Shiliang's home.He felt that his house was too empty, and the emptyness frightened him.He just wants to be in this small place so that he can feel himself.

Shiliang took a bath towel to help him wipe his hair, seeing that he didn't move, he sighed.He reached out to undo the buttons of his soaked shirt, and with some difficulty pulled off the wet clothes.

"How did you get hurt? The scar must have been very serious?" Shiliang touched the scar on his right arm. It was five centimeters long and twisted like a thick earthworm.

"It's been many years, and I've forgotten about it." Chen Junping turned his head to look at it. At that time, he was so painful that he almost passed out, and he wanted to bite the last bit of his sanity to appease the flustered and crying Xizhi.

"It's because of him. After all this, he still doesn't trust you?"

"If it weren't for this scar, we still wouldn't be friends." Qiao Xizhi's heart was hard to open. Although he was always by his side, he never looked at him until he was stabbed for him.

Shiliang wanted to say something, but Chen Junping threw him on the bed.Chen Junping kissed him and looked into his eyes, which reminded him of that fragile and sensitive person.

Shiliang closed his eyes and let him kiss.

"Can you open your eyes?" Chen Junping begged.

Shiliang opened his eyes. He knew that Chen Junping was looking for the shadow of that person in him. He knew that Chen Junping was not a random person, so he was willing even if it was a substitute.

The clothes fell off, and the two rolled on the bed.Chen Junping is savage and domineering, while Shiliang bears his "tyranny" silently.

But at the last moment, Shiliang stopped his movements: "Aren't you afraid that I'm sick?"

Chen Junping looked at him from above, he was only confused for a moment and then continued with his movements.

"Don't you think this is a betrayal of him? You touched me, and you have no chance to get him back."

"He's not coming back."

"Have you lived your heart?"

Chen Junping was silent and did not move.

Shiliang smiled wryly, got up silently and put on his clothes.

Chen Junping was lying on the bed, what Shiliang said was right, if he did it, he would never be able to forgive himself in his life.

"Thank you."

"You are tired, take a good rest."

Chen Junping moved his body and let Shiliang lie down. The two didn't talk anymore, they just lay down quietly.

Chen Junping turned sideways and hugged Shiliang into his arms, this time it was just a simple hug.Shiliang likes his embrace very much, it is very warm and strong, years of loneliness makes him want to just rely on it, but he knows that no matter what, he is not his own.

Shiliang's steady breath sprayed on Chen Junping's naked chest, warm.He looked down,