your name is so tricky

The plan failed to keep up with the changes, and Hao Fang originally planned to leave school for an internship in the second semester of his junior year.But when he saw the car carrying Lin Haiguang and his party leave that day, he thought of going with him.Of course, it wasn't Lin Haiguang's words that moved him, it's just that only he, the person involved, could know the reason for this.

Hao Fang didn't know much about teaching support before.All I know is that the place where I go down is very poor, the traffic is very blocked, and of course life is very difficult.He was assigned to a mountainous area in Gansu, where he took a train and then a car.The car ride was not over yet, and then I sat on a Jiefang brand agricultural vehicle bumping for half a day.He doesn't get motion sickness, but his bones are so painful from the jolt.I finally got out of the car, rubbed my sore arms and legs, and looked around all the mountains, but I didn't see any houses.The person who sent him said that the car can only drive here. There is a mountain road in front of him, so he just walked.

I wanted to stop and take a rest and eat something by the way.But the leader immediately urged him to go on the road in the local dialect, saying that he would not be able to arrive after dark, so Hao Fang could only eat while walking.He hadn't walked the mountain road, so naturally he couldn't keep up with the uncle who led the way.The people in the mountains are enthusiastic and down-to-earth, the uncle snatched the package from She Fang, and then carried it on his back without any discussion.Hao Fang could only thank him non-stop. The burden on his body was gone, and his walking was naturally much more stable.

Fortunately, he arrived before dark, and as soon as he entered the village, Hao Fang was surrounded by the villagers.The leader is the village head, followed by a dozen children, wearing dirty and old clothes.On the whole face, the cleanest parts are the eyes and lips. I don't know if it's because I haven't washed my face or the skin color is just like that.Some villagers also came out, and most of them had smiles on their faces.

Of course the village head can speak Mandarin, but half of his Mandarin is dialect.Older children can also say it, and they are more standard than the village head.He was taken to a villager's house and told that this was where he would live in the future.There lived an old woman and a seven or eight-year-old boy.I heard that the child's parents are working out of town, and it is rare to come back once a year.

The village is located in the embrace of mountains, and the houses far and near show a depression that is incompatible with the 21st century. It seems that this scene can only be seen in black and white photos.Hao Fang also lived in the countryside, but most of the houses were built with red bricks and black tiles, and some buildings were built in good condition.As far as I can see, most of the houses are built of adobe, which is a brick made by mixing clay and hay. It has not been fired, but it is much stronger than mud.Later, I heard from the locals that the house is not only strong, but also warm in winter and cool in summer.

The school is also an adobe building, but the shape is better than other houses, and there are only three rooms at the front and back.Before, there were two teachers in the school, one was a girl from the village, and she stayed in the village to teach after graduating from high school.The other, like Hao Fang, was also a support teacher sent by the university, and when the time came, he went back, and Hao Fang came to take over his duties.And the room he lives in now is also the one he lived in before, and the bedding is also ready-made, but it is a little dirty.

Gansu is short of water, regardless of the season.Someone had told him about this before he came, so he was mentally prepared in advance.Brushing your teeth and washing your face is not a problem, but taking a shower and washing clothes is a problem.After staying in the local area for a week, Hao Fang also successfully integrated into the environment, and he was as disgraced as the people around him.And his head, which needs to be shaved every half a month, was left to grow because there was no barbershop in the area.

In order to buy a tube of toothpaste, Hao Fang walked back and forth for a whole day, climbed several mountains, and sweated a lot.The living conditions are difficult, and you can get used to them after a long time.When many things are imposed on oneself, I don't feel much. It is nothing more than patience and getting used to it.It's just that some local children, even in winter, still wear a pair of sandals on their feet, and their clothes are very thin.Faced with all this, Hao Fang can respond with a sense of powerlessness.

The poverty here is desperate, and few local people have seen the world beyond the mountains.Without comparison, of course there would be no complaints about the current environment.Like the people outside the mountain, they live an ordinary life, living quietly in a world without mobile phones and computers, and without colorful lights.But Hao Fang came from outside the mountains, and he grew up in that environment, so he couldn't live like these people without knowing the size of the world.He felt desperate for these people, he sympathized with them, felt sorry for them, but there was nothing he could do.

Hao Fang's culture class is not particularly good, but the mathematics is passable, so another teacher is teaching Chinese, and he teaches mathematics, and of course painting.The girl who teaches Chinese is also the girl in this village, who is also 23 or [-] years old.

It is natural that there is no signal in the mountains. If you make a phone call, you will go to the village, where there are public phones.Of course, it takes a whole day to go back and forth, and the quality of the release is not good, and it is always intermittent.When you leave home, the first thing that comes to mind is naturally home.He called his mother twice, and then wrote letters to He Yu, Ge Ying, and Lin Haiguang, who was also a supporting teacher.The letters to He Yu and Geying are shorter, and the letters to Lin Haiguang are longer. Only Lin Haiguang who is in the same environment can understand the emotions in his heart. Woolen cloth?

Hao Fang only went to the village once a month, usually on Sundays.He would take a bath in the village bathhouse, and then go to the barber shop to shave his head.He Yu would send something every month, but never replied.Later, he didn't bother to write much, and the content of the letter was a list of needed items.He Yu finally wrote back a letter to scold him, saying that when he went back, he would have to return the money with interest. Of course, nothing was left behind.

What he asked He Yu to send was rarely for his own use, but some school supplies and watercolors for painting.Hao Fang gives a painting class to the children every two days. The older ones are in their teens, and the younger ones are five or six years old. Anyone who wants to learn can come, and they will be given pencils, erasers and watercolors when they come.The children study very seriously and love to draw. When they are finished, they will post them on the walls of the classroom.As a teacher, it is of course proud to see that the paintings all over the wall are completed under my own guidance.

The walls of the classroom are also made of adobe, so it only takes a small iron nail to hang the painting.On the pure white drawing paper, a childish but brightly colored world is outlined.What the children draw are their little dreams. Perhaps these dreams are as messy and shapeless as the lines in the painting, and what is carried inside is the call that everyone should bow their heads and feel powerless in the face of reality. .

The children shouted from the heart arbitrarily, and each sound knocked the sober people into guilt.

School holidays are the same as outside, and there are even more holidays.In the past six months, Hao Fang certainly had the idea of ​​going home.But he still spent Mid-Autumn Festival, National Day, Double Ninth Festival and New Year's Day there.The Spring Festival was coming soon, and the winter vacation lasted for more than a month, so of course he wanted to go back.

Before leaving, the students asked him if he would come after the Chinese New Year.Hao Fang replied one by one, all smiling and saying: "Come, of course you will come, you just wait for me."

Just like when I went there, I finally returned to my city after bumping on the road for two or three days.When I got downstairs from my house, the tricycle was still parked in the same place, with a thick layer of dust on the roof, but the inside of the car was cleaner, as if there were traces of stray cats and dogs.No one has lived in the house for half a year, and the damp and musty smell comes in as soon as the door is opened.The south is like this. The rainy season is long and the tide will return after that.But fortunately, Hao Fang has escaped this tiresome season in that mountain.

Presumably his mother came here to tidy up not long ago, and there was no dust on the ground or on the table, and the sheets and quilts were put into the cabinet.When it was taken out to cover at night, there was still the smell of sunlight on it.

The mobile phone was also charged and turned on, and then sent messages to some people to inform them that they had returned.After He Yu got the news, he came to his house directly.Just after Hao Fang washed away his travel and dust, before he had time to dry his hair, he opened the door and entered the house with the key.

We haven't seen each other for so long, so we naturally want to get together.So they called Ge Ying and the other two, as well as Lin Haiguang, the senior who had already returned from teaching.Including He Yu, a total of five people are in a hot pot restaurant in the commercial street.It turns out that these people are not the ones who get together, but people will grow, things will change, and the people around them will naturally change.The people who gathered with him were of the same age, and they were also full of confidence in the future while being at a loss for what to do.Therefore, it is not yet the time for them to play games in life, nor is it time for them to mourn the autumn and the spring.

Lin Haiguang didn't expect Hao Fang to write him a letter. When he received the letter, he felt a bit like receiving a love letter, a little excited and a little surprised.The letter is very thick, but fortunately, the handwriting is neat and easy to read.It stands to reason that Hao Fang studied painting, and Chinese should be a weak point, but he didn't expect that the letter he wrote was a confession that was so strong on the back of the paper.After reading the letter, Lin Haiguang's heart turned a thousand times, and it exploded at the moment of calming down, and there was nowhere to put it, but it fell to the ground smoothly.He felt that he was probably the Ziqi of that year, and Gao Shan Liushui finally met Boya.

He asked: "Hao Fang, have you ever regretted being a volunteer teacher?"

Hao Fang raised his head, was stunned for a while, but then laughed.He smiled lightly, as if he was laughing at himself. He said: "Regret, how can I not regret it, but even if I regret it, I still want to continue. I don't regret it because of the difficult environment, but because I know this. I regret seeing the other side of the world. The despair I shouldn’t have, the powerlessness I shouldn’t have, all come into contact with that world.” In winter, the drink that goes with the hot pot is also frozen Coke, and water drops hang on the side of the cup Some people gathered together in groups. Hao Fang dipped his finger in the water at the bottom of the glass and drew pictures on the table indiscriminately.

He added: "Sometimes I think, if I lived in such an environment since I was a child, I must be like them. I don't know how beautiful and prosperous the outside world is. Those mountains separated, Poverty and wealth are clearly two completely different worlds." Ge Ying, who usually talks a lot, just quietly listened to the conversation between the two at this time.They have never been there before, so of course they can't feel the same deeply, but the emotion and melancholy revealed in these words have infected them to some extent.

After a while of silence, Lin Haiguang said: "I have a student, maybe eight or nine years old. His father died of hepatitis, and his mother remarried, not far away, and married to the same family in the mountains. She married and left a child, and the child followed his grandmother. The old man is over 70 years old, and his eyesight is not good. When he cooks, half an egg shell can be picked out of the dish. But the child is well-fed. In fact, he is not afraid of the cold in winter, and he goes up and down the mountain barefoot from time to time. When I see his lively appearance, I can't help but think about his future. If grandma is gone, what should he do by himself."

Picking up the cup, took a sip of Coke, paused, and then said: "But I can only ask in my heart, not him, and of course not his grandma. Of all the people in this world, who is It's not like floating, personal sorrows and joys are nothing more than trivial things, after such a realization, there is no extra mood to care about your own gains and losses, to put it nicely, that is self-forgetfulness." After finishing speaking, he also laughed He smiled, just like Hao Fang, he was laughing at himself.

Only the bottom of the soup was boiling in the pot, and the dishes on the table were rarely moved.Hao Fang cooked it little by little, and ate it slowly, as if counting the dishes.Some words are said with a smile, and those who hear them laugh too.Some things were narrated in a tone as indifferent as the bystander, as if it had nothing to do with me, but the listener fell silent after hearing it.

Later, the topic changed, and the atmosphere was much better than before. Several people talked about the school.Ge Zi said that Shadow was in love, and when Hao Fang and Lin Haiguang both recognized each other's names, they must be well-known figures in the school.Either talented or handsome.The people present raised their glasses to congratulate her, which made her blush.

Once this person mentions love, he can't help himself, and no matter how open-minded he is, he will inevitably feel shy.

Halfway through, He Yu called out to Hao Fang, as if he had something to say, but he held back in the end.Hao Fang looked at him and waited for the next sentence. It can be seen that he was hesitant to say something, presumably what he wanted to say would be related to Mr. Ao.Hao Fang didn't ask, but it doesn't mean he didn't want to hear it.

He Yu finally said, not much, about what happened in the six months after he left.What Hao Fang heard most clearly was that Mr. Ao had twin sons.This sentence can fully summarize his current life, which must be very happy.

Hao Fang just nodded slightly, and replied with "Oh".