when you stare into the abyss

At the end of the event, Nie Zhilan stared at the person's back without blinking. As soon as she stood up, she was stopped by the director of the Publicity Office of the Women's Federation: "Director Nie, thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to come here."

"It should be. I didn't help much. The opening speech forced you to change people because of being late. I'm really sorry." Nie Zhilan looked at her with a smile and responded politely.

"The case is important, and we are not in the way."

The two exchanged some pleasantries, and finally separated. Nie Zhilan immediately looked up, and the first row was empty.She walked quickly on her long legs, almost trotting to the parking lot.I didn't know which one belonged to her, so I looked for it row by row, and looked at each one.

Suddenly, a beam of light came from the right, followed by the sound of a car starting.Nie Zhilan subconsciously tilted her head, and met the eyes in the cab that were haunted by countless sleepless nights.

My steps froze, my heart swelled, and the pain spread out.

The person in the opposite cab also trembled slightly with his hands resting on the steering wheel. He was nervous and looked at her in front of the car, taking a deep breath and approaching step by step.

The woman was wearing a light-colored suit with a pinched waist, a casual shirt, dark trousers, and leather shoes that have never changed during meetings and work over the years.She was still in a daze in the car, when the door next to her was opened, and a person sat in the empty co-pilot.

"You..." The lawyer was supposed to be eloquent, but at this moment his mind was blank and he couldn't speak.

"Take me home, the 27th floor of Ziyuan Apartment, No. 17 Jianyuan Road." Nie Zhilan suddenly reacted to send off the body. She didn't believe it was Xiao Bei's strong feeling, but she was too sad at the time to think about it.

She was convinced that it was her, she had been thinking about it day and night, and she was attached to it day and night, but she said this sentence abruptly with a thousand words stuck in her throat.

The car started and slowly drove out of the parking lot. The warm spring breeze was blowing on Nie Zhilan's temples. She couldn't hold back anymore, she turned her head to look to the other side, bit her lip, and let the tears slide down her cheeks silently.

After five years of separation, during the five years when there was no news, she didn't know if the other party was doing well or what hardships she was enduring. At least she herself had a bad life in the past few years...

After parking the car, the interior of the car was unusually quiet, and they could clearly feel each other's unsteady heartbeats.What followed was an embarrassing and flustered silence.The two people who are in pain always need to have an opening: "Go up and sit down?" She stretched out her hand without any explanation, took out the key, and got out of the car on the right side first, not sure whether the other party would follow.However, more than ten seconds later, when he heard footsteps tapping the ground behind him, hesitation, and finally getting closer, his nose became sour again.The elevator goes up, and the key is opened to open the door, as if Nie Zhilan is the owner of this house, and she is the guest behind her.

The two put on slippers, and Nie Zhilan went to the kitchen to fetch hot water. The person standing in the living room glanced at everything in the house with tears in his eyes. It was almost the same as the arrangement five years ago. There were two more pots of green plants on the balcony, which looked well-groomed. Good.

Next to the second floor of the bookshelf on the right side of the TV cabinet, the woman glanced out of the corner of her eye at the rare group photo of them. Nie Zhilan had it printed and put it in a frame, and beside her was a single photo of her, all in color, smiling like a flower.She didn't know how many late nights, Nie Zhilan lay on the sofa, staring at those photos, crying...

Finally, her eyes stopped on a transparent box, which contained the platinum bracelet with the fox pendant.Then I remembered the moment when I handed the bracelet to Zhao Yingying that afternoon, I finally couldn't restrain myself, lowered my head, covered my mouth, hot tears streaming down uncontrollably.

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It all started when Xiao Bei and Zhao Guoying met on January 2018, 1.

"Zhao Ju, I know what I'm about to face. The court will order the family members or guardians to take strict supervision and medical treatment. Zhilan's future is good, and I know she will not give up on me, but you can't imagine the time and energy it took. I don't want to Hurt her again."

"When Xiaolan was in a car accident, you were with her. If you didn't wake up, you wouldn't give up, right?"

"Zhao Bureau..."

"Xiao Bei, you can call me sister after Xiaolan and the others."

"Sister, I can't pass my own level."

Xiao Bei told Zhao Yingying about his illness and personality disorder. It seems that they can coexist peacefully now, but most of the time, some behaviors and thoughts are out of control. If it is more serious, it is likely to produce more personality.Self-harm, even hurting others...

Zhao Guoying followed suit and proposed to make "Xiao Bei" disappear, because Sun Yatong had already learned her identity and might spread the news.There are endless drug dealers, and there are many black-faced people like Sun Yatong who are blinded by greed, and Xiao Bei's identity can no longer be used.

It was originally planned to just disappear, and he could be declared dead in four years.But at [-] o'clock in the evening, on the way to arrest Sun Yatong, the police were told that he had committed suicide in fear of crime, so he was instructed by his superiors to cause a car accident.

The only ones who participated in or knew the whole process were Zhao Guoying, the old senior of the provincial department, and Section Chief Hu of the forensic department who was in charge of the autopsy.The recording Wan Tong heard was deliberately made to make the whole story more convincing.

As for the past few years, Xiao Bei was forced to treat illnesses in Jiangcheng. In the most serious two years, he was accompanied by anxiety attacks, which led to sleep disturbances, and often had difficulty breathing, sweating and trembling.

For many nights, she clutched her heart and huddled in a corner of this strange city, wanting to rush out of the street and die.But she opened the phone photo album with trembling hands, saw Nie Zhilan's valiant and charming smile, she calmed down a little, stumbled back to the place of accommodation, took a handful of medicine, and fell into a dark sleep.

Zhao Yingying would visit her every time she was on a business trip to Jiangcheng, and she still couldn't bear to mention Nie Zhilan, because her longing quietly went deep into her bones...

In 2021, Xiao Bei's condition improved slightly. After the diagnosis and advice of the attending doctor, she provided legal services free of charge for some people with financial difficulties or special cases within the scope of her ability.

In 2022, after hypnosis and multiple tests, the feedback was good, and her condition was under control. At the end of the year, she was hired by an Amman law firm and volunteered to provide legal aid in her spare time.

At the beginning of 2023, the branch of Amman Law Firm was established in Binnan, so Xiao Bei embarked on the road back to Binnan, a place full of countless memories.

I didn't expect to meet again, but when I saw her from a distance during the two court hearings, my heart beat like a drum.

Facing the person with the bookcase, he wiped away the tears that fell, feeling heart-piercing pain.Suddenly, a pair of arms that were not as powerful as before, from behind, wrapped her whole body into the embrace that she dreamed of.Slowly, tighter and tighter, the same cheek with warm tears pressed against her shoulder, did not ask her why she made such a choice, just said softly: "Bei, don't leave, okay?"

The author has something to say: This chapter is exclusive to the sub-cp, and there are only two chapters left, so I suddenly feel a little bit reluctant.

感谢在2020-07-1423:49:42~2020-07-1614:03:36期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

感谢投出火箭炮的小天使：忘了6个；活森5个；兰盐3个；_小跟班,2个；木子、小仓鼠小伙伴1个；

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Zhizhi Taotao is so cute, and Qing Pinellia is 1;

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Yixin 6; Mu Chenyan, He Guangtongchen, Deng Kongkong, Uncle in Underpants, Chang'an., Yuchi, Feng Zhinuo, Jian Jian, Yingza 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：忘了10瓶；和光同尘7瓶；烁迦罗心不动转、邓空虚、路人李甲5瓶；日月竹马isrio3瓶；疯子、穿裤衩的大叔1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!