when you stare into the abyss

Xiao Bei told a very long story, which she listened to eight years ago when she was at her mother's bedside.

At the end of the 80s, the recuperative city slowly recovered. Binnan, where the three rivers converge, has superior geographical conditions and has become the second largest economic center in Jiangzhou Province.Therefore, the number of migrant workers gradually increased, and as the population increased, the crime rate increased day by day. It was at that time that Gu Zhen was transferred from his hometown of Chuyang County to Binnan.

Gu Zhen once promised that after completing the entry procedures and being allocated a house, he would find a way to find a relationship to transfer her mother from Chu Yang.But after a few days passed, there was no news.As everyone knows, Gu Zhen made several phone calls to Xiao Bei's mother's unit before carrying out the mission, but no one answered.

Xiao Bei's mother was on the verge of despair, so she went to the Binnan City Public Security Bureau alone to search for someone, but was told that there was no police officer named Gu Mingzhen.

When she was completely desperate, the leader of the unit introduced the object. Xiao Bei's mother knew the adoptive father who taught in the middle school next door.Broken jars, a group wedding at the school, they got married within a month of meeting, and then found out they were pregnant.

An elementary school teacher, a middle school teacher, and a working-class family.Although he is not very rich, he does not have to worry about food and clothing, and there are occasional surprises, so Xiao Bei's childhood was fairly happy.

However, this happiness was torn apart during Xiao Bei's primary school graduation summer vacation.A minor operation, a routine blood type check, Xiao Bei's adoptive father saw the word "B" on the test sheet.Both he and Xiao Bei's mother had type A blood, and it was impossible for them to give birth to a child with type B blood, so there was only one possibility, being cuckolded.

From then on, he, who was always kind, became moody. Xiao Bei's mother naturally knew who the child's biological father was, and felt sorry for the adoptive father, so she filed for divorce.But in the mid-90s, divorce was like a joke, and it would become a topic of conversation among colleagues.After procrastination, he began to drink heavily, and when he was drunk, he went home and went crazy. Neither Xiao Bei nor her mother could escape his fists, and they lived in dire straits for twelve months, even in a trance.Xiao Bei's mother proposed divorce many times, but was rejected. Maybe God couldn't see it. In the first semester of Xiao Bei's second year of junior high school, his adoptive father was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer and passed away within a month.

Xiao Bei's mother is also in poor health, because of high blood pressure and needs to take medicine all the year round. Fortunately, Xiao Bei studied hard and was admitted to the Department of Political Science and Law of Binnan University with the top score in the Chuyang County College Entrance Examination.But she still didn't know the reason of her father's domestic violence. It wasn't until Qingming Festival in 2009, when Xiao Bei's mother went to Binnan North District in the third year of college, and she fell seriously ill after returning, that she didn't tell her the whole truth of the matter.

Asked if she hated her biological father?As a political and legal person, I can't hate it.It's just a pity that the father didn't know that he had a daughter until his death.

After graduating from graduate school, the mother and daughter stayed in Binnan. The mother died of illness two years ago, and she has been alone since then.The optimistic and extroverted personality benefits from the life before the age of 12, and also benefits from the inherited mother's temper, thinking of the good in everything.

"Aunt Xiao..." Wan Tong felt sorry for her, and spoke in a low voice.

"In the end, I couldn't escape. I fell ill. She is another me. I should be responsible." Xiao Bei knelt down and wiped the tombstone with a tissue, with tears in the corners of his eyes.

"As long as you are identified through legal procedures and confirm that you were under the control of the second personality at that time and could not control your own behavior, you can not bear criminal responsibility."

She shook her hand holding the tissue: "I will blame myself. I used to stand under the badge and swear to be like a drop of water, moistening every inch of land; like a ray of sunshine, illuminating every darkness, but now, I have become darkness." .”

Wan Tong also squatted down, very close to Xiao Bei, and comforted him: "Don't think so much, treat the illness first, Aunt Lan and we will accompany you." Seeing the other party biting his lip, the words he spoke began to tremble, "Rabbit is such an upright person, I don't deserve to stand by her side anymore."

"But……"

"Xiao Tong, can you promise me, don't tell the rabbit, at least don't let her know now, I want to accompany her out of the hospital, and allow two more days."

Wan Tong nodded in agreement, and suddenly understood Xiao Bei's second personality's motive for the murder. The recording found in Lin Yueyue's home allowed her to hear her father's body being swallowed by a yellow dog, and the dog meat was shared among several people.

Ye Yuntian was the only one of those people alive, eager to take revenge, so...

But when will it be possible to repay the grievances?

She guessed that Xiao Bei's No.1 cell didn't know the content of the recording, so she didn't plan to say it, so she helped "Xiao Nan" hide this secret from the bottom of her heart.

On the way back, the first snow of 2018 floated in the sky, and there were many.The road is slippery, Wan Tong is no longer like a newcomer, now she drives proficiently and meticulously.

Her eyes were red, and she was silent.

Seeing this, Xiao Bei took a deep breath, turned on the music in the car, and smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled: "What are you doing, am I okay now? What are you doing dejected?"

"Aunt Xiao, what's your next plan?"

Xiao Bei closed his eyes, turned his head and looked out the window: "Don't make any defenses, just let fate."

Wan Tong actually probably guessed what she said: "If it is determined that you don't have to bear legal responsibility according to the law, what are your plans?"

Xiao Bei didn't turn his head back: "Leave the rabbit, I don't want to drag her down, maybe I'll hide somewhere for treatment."

"Aunt Xiao, you can't make a decision alone. It's unfair to her. Aunt Lan should make her own choice."

"If it were you, would you stay?" She paused for a few seconds, not wanting to argue, and changed the subject, "Xiaotong, I'll sleep for a while, I'm very sleepy."

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Walking into the ward, Nie Zhilan had already woken up. Nie Zhiyan was sitting on the side of the bed peeling apples. She looked up and saw them, and asked casually, "It's snowing outside, where does it take so long to do something?"

Wan Tong replied: "It's related to the case." Her eye circles were red, and she had obviously shed tears. Although Nie Zhiyan had noticed it, she didn't ask the reason immediately, but only thought of going home and having a long talk.

The four of them sat around and settled the meals brought by the woman from home, and chatted with them until nine o'clock before Nie Zhiyan and Wan Tong left.

The snow fell very quickly tonight, which is rare in Binnan, which is located in the south.Wan Tong held up the umbrella, and stepped on the already white road, rustling.

Nie Zhiyan let out a sigh of relief, and said in a calm tone, "Tongtong, you have something on your mind recently, right?"

"Yanyan..." Wan Tong opened her mouth, but she hesitated to speak. She didn't know what to say, and she didn't know whether to say it. The words were stuck in her heart, and she was anxious for Xiao Bei and Nie Zhilan, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

"If you haven't thought about it, don't talk about it, but no matter what happens, you have to believe that I am by your side." When two people are together, the most important thing is to communicate with each other, and they should try to communicate. This is what Nie Zhiyan always upholds.

After taking a shower, they huddled on the bed, Nie Zhiyan read a book, Wan Tong received the inspection report from Lu Dongdong, and the blood on the car belonged to Ye Yuntian.

All dust settled...

She suddenly wanted to cry, and she spent several months with Xiao Bei day and night, with a deep relationship, even if the other party made a terrible mistake, it would not hinder their friendship.

Enduring and enduring, seeing Nie Zhiyan's puzzled eyes that had just raised her head, she finally couldn't help it, and threw herself into her arms and cried loudly.

"Yanyan, I feel so sad, Yanyan, why did she do this, why did I find out? Yanyan..."

"What's wrong? What's going on?" Nie Zhiyan showed worry, and gently hugged Wan Tong, patted her on the back and asked softly.She has rarely seen Wan Tong feel so uncomfortable, her sixth sense must be that the situation is more serious,

"Yanyan, if I killed someone, what would you do?"

Nie Zhiyan held her face gently, wiped away the burning tears with her fingertips, frowned and said softly, "Why?"

Wan Tong gradually recovered, sniffled, and continued to ask: "If Aunt Xiao kills someone, what will Aunt Lan do?"

Nie Zhiyan covered her mouth with his hand, and said angrily, "Don't talk nonsense."

"I'm serious, if you don't believe me, take a look." Wan Tong handed her the report sent by Lu Dongdong, "This is Aunt Xiao's friend's car, and the analysis of blood samples from residual blood in the trunk."

Nie Zhiyan read every word and every sentence seriously, and the hand holding the phone became tighter and tighter almost imperceptibly.

"Xiao Jian's second personality or did she do it herself?"

"It should be the second personality."

Nie Zhiyan asked, "The motive for committing the crime?"

"Aunt Xiao's father was the undercover agent who died that year. She heard the recording of how the murderer handled the corpse, and Aunt Lan's car accident should also be related to Ye Yuntian."

"Is there any evidence?"

At the meeting the day before yesterday, Nie Zhiyan had already joined in, so Wan Tong told her everything he knew: "The evidence of Ye Yuntian's participation in drug trafficking and illegal income are slowly being consolidated. The police originally planned to persuade him to turn himself in and confess the big shot behind our side."

The woman closed her eyes and sighed: "Where is Xiao Jian? What are you going to do?"

"After Aunt Lan is discharged from the hospital, she will voluntarily surrender. Now I am still hesitating, should I tell Aunt Lan? Aunt Xiao begged me to keep it secret for now."

"Let me think about it..." Nie Zhiyan looked up at the ceiling, and gradually fell into deep thought. Wan Tong leaned on her shoulder, and she also had some considerations in her heart, hoping to help them in some way.

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The snow all night, the broken branches on the ground, maybe I know how thick the snow was last night.Nie Zhiyan was wrapped like a rice dumpling by Wan Tong, but the young one only went out in a brown trench coat.One went to the hospital to deliver meals, and the other went back to the appraisal center to do another test on the blood stains on the rear of the car.

Nie Zhilan is in a good mood today and has a good appetite. She ate two bowls full of rice. The last rehab session in the morning can come and go freely. fat man.

In the afternoon, I was discharged from the hospital for examination, and the process went smoothly. I can be discharged after waiting for the signature of the doctor in charge of the bed on Monday.Xiao Bei was genuinely happy, but Wan Tong could see a slight bitterness from the corners of his lips.

"Aunt Xiao, do you really plan to tell Aunt Lan?" the girl asked in a low voice.

Xiao Bei shook his head, looking at Nie Zhilan who was calling Liu Wangyang, his eyes were full of love and nostalgia.

Wan Tong watched them get along with each other, unwilling to see badending, after thinking about it, he made an appointment with Zhao Yingying, who is "everyday busy".

"Seven o'clock in the evening, I have an appointment at eight o'clock."

"Can't it be more even? Who is it? I'm asking you out at night, and it's a meeting again?"

"your wife."

……

"Mom, when did you become so vulgar? You are so old."

"Sooner or later, I will get married. If I don't get a certificate, I will have a drink at home. I see that it is written like this on the Internet. I will get a baby in the future. I will have things to do when I retire."

"Okay, okay, okay, do as you like. What is Yanyan asking you to do? Can you tell me?"

"Secret."

Wan Tong and Zhao Guoying brought up Xiao Bei's case, saying that the orphans of martyrs should get help from the government, and Xiao Bei's situation is very special.If you don't make a defense and don't apply for a psychiatric appraisal in accordance with the law, then the outcome may be difficult to achieve.

After Zhao Guoying heard it, she immediately recorded it on the record, and checked the authenticity first. Gu Gu still has a younger sister alive, so she can do a blood test with Xiao Bei.

After Wan Tong explained and left, Nie Zhiyan arrived at Zhao Yingying's office on time, closed the door, and frowned.

"Xiaoyan wants to talk about Xiao Jian, right?" Zhao Guoying waited for her to sit down, and asked first.

"How does Sister Ying know? Did Tongtong say it?"

"I care about them, I will definitely mention it, and looking for me is the most correct choice." Zhao Yingying walked to the sofa and sat down with the cup, which was placed on the coffee table, and continued, "You guys have a good understanding, Xiao Jian and Brother Gu Whether there is any immediate family relationship, I have sent someone to check."

Nie Zhiyan took the paper cup handed over by Zhao Guoying, took a sip of the hot water lightly, and said with embarrassment, "I don't know if I should tell my sister." She weighed it over and over again, and she didn't know which would be better for them.After Nie Zhilan figured out the truth of the matter, she would definitely stay with Xiao Bei without hesitation. What if Xiao Bei hid further?This can backfire.

"I'll talk to Xiao Jian first, Xiao Lan will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, so don't rush to talk about it."

The two discussed for a while, trying to be as thoughtful as possible.

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On Monday, Nie Zhilan No. 20 was finally discharged from the hospital after four days in the hospital. Nie Zhiyan and Wan Tong went to work and did not go there in person.Xiao Bei packed up his things, drove home, the elevator went up, and in the confined space, both of them could clearly feel what was surging silently.

Get out of the elevator, turn into the corridor, touch the key to open the door, just as the two entered the entrance, Xiao Bei closed the anti-theft door behind his back.Immediately afterwards, she leaned her back against the wall, put her arms around Nie Zhilan's waist, and brought her to her side.

"kiss Me."

It's been too long, these 20 days seem to have been a century, days of torture and fear, exhaustion and fear, and an invisible future.Longing for the person in front of him, thinking that she can temporarily comfort himself.

Say again: "Kiss me."

Before she finished speaking, Nie Zhilan leaned forward, encircled her with her left hand, propped her on the wall with her right hand, lowered her head slightly, and kissed her passionately.Xiao Bei quickly stuck out the tip of his tongue, dancing with her and chasing after her.

Lips and teeth intertwined, Nie Zhilan's chest was overflowing with sweetness, but Xiao Bei felt his heart was bleeding.She raised her drooping hands lightly, peeled off the other's coat, and stretched her cool fingers into the bottoming shirt. While catering to Nie Zhilan's movements, she went up and lingered on the three-breasted buttons on the back.

The exhaled breath gradually became heavier.

"Bei, you haven't taken a shower yet." After staying in the hospital for nearly a month, no matter if it was bad luck or something, he wanted to take a comfortable bath first.

"Together."

"it is good."

A few clothes were scattered outside the bathroom door, and there was a sound of water inside, with occasional groaning/humming.

Xiao Bei opened his blurred eyes, and the room was filled with mist: "Rabbit, not enough..." She supported the wall brick with one hand, and Nie Zhilan approached behind her.

"Bei, I don't recognize you and her. Is it you? You rarely take the initiative like this." Nie Zhilan suddenly fell in love with single-word titles, and felt very kind.

"Can't tell? She's actually me too." Xiao Bei turned his back and snuggled up to her side neck which was covered with water.

"Well, I can usually tell the difference, so let me ask you, what was my worst score in the math test?" This is a secret that only Xiao Bei No. 1 knows.

The two agreed.

"25 points, because you have a fever, you only did multiple-choice questions and fill-in-the-blank questions, uh..." She clearly felt the other party's movements suddenly speed up.

After drying her hair and coming out of the bathroom, it was almost noon, and Nie Zhilan's bedroom curtains were tightly drawn.The two of them in the blanket entangled again and again, and Xiao Bei was pushed up to the clouds again and again.

But she said tirelessly: "Rabbit, continue..."

"Bei, why not me." Nie Zhilan took her hand down, and Xiao Bei moved away tremblingly, almost biting his back teeth, and then said softly, "You owe me today, your , stay in the future, the future will be long."

Will there be another day?

The last wave came, Xiao Bei had tears in his eyes, climbed over the opponent's shoulder, and bit it hard.

"Hiss..." Nie Zhilan hissed lightly, Xiao Bei gently pushed her away, turned sideways, and did not look at her.

If you can, rabbit, can you remember me for a while, so that I will be satisfied, okay?

Nie Zhilan hugged her from behind: "Aren't you going to wash?"

"I'm sleepy, I want to sleep, let's talk when I wake up."

"Okay, good afternoon."

"good afternoon."

Xiao Bei listened to Nie Zhilan's slow and steady breathing, and felt her strong heartbeat on his back. He didn't hold back anymore, and a line of hot tears slipped quietly across his reddish cheeks and fell into the temple hair on the pillow...

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