pen pal

22. Over the years, Lin Suqing has been working very hard.

From the beginning, she has been working hard with Zhou Ruxin as the benchmark of life, and has been catching up with her footsteps.She never doubted that Zhou Ruxin would be excellent, so she could only keep urging herself to work harder and harder. No matter what, when they were both adults, at the moment they met, she hoped that she would be the one who was good enough. A friend who can rival Zhou Ruxin, not someone who is taken care of or pointed out.

After graduating from university, Lin Suqing knew that what she learned in school was only theory, and her real ability had to be accumulated in actual work, so she didn't think too much about salary and treatment, but focused on whether the employing unit could give her more benefits. Many practice opportunities.

It is impossible for a big company to give a newcomer who has just left school many opportunities, so Lin Suqing stayed in a small company at first, but this also gave her a lot of learning opportunities, learning step by step to study customer psychology and make Attractive promotional copy to come.

She felt that she was growing gradually, however, the closer she got to the height in her mind, the more inexplicably irritable she became, because she couldn't find Zhou Ruxin.

In daily interactions, it's not that she didn't know friends from No. [-] Middle School, but the only information that everyone could give her was that Zhou Ruxin was admitted to the Normal University in the provincial capital.

Occasionally, I learned that Zhou Ruxin spent almost all of her time in various tutoring in addition to her studies in college. Lin Suqing thought this was normal, and Zhou Ruxin was also reluctant to let her father work hard for her college expenses.

It's just that these busy schedules naturally made Zhou Ruxin miss a lot of opportunities to get together with classmates from her hometown. Gradually, everyone stopped asking her if she participated in the party, so Zhou Ruxin gradually faded out of everyone's sight.

When graduation is approaching, everyone is on their own way to find a job. Who can pay more attention to others?

When Lin Suqing began to be able to independently take on some copywriting and planning, she insisted on searching for news about Zhou Ruxin in her spare time.

The small county town in my childhood memory has also begun to develop, but the personnel network does not necessarily become so large all of a sudden.Some of Lin Suqing's middle school classmates also returned to various positions in the county seat. After gradually getting in touch with each other, it was naturally convenient for her to inquire about some news.However, everyone said that they had never heard of Zhou Ruxin in the county education system.

Fortunately, at this time the Internet began to develop initially, and she began to look for Zhou Ruxin's footprints on the Internet.

However, not to mention the education system of the county seat, even the education system of the provincial capital has not read Zhou Ruxin's name.

Of course, Lin Suqing did find a person named Zhou Ruxin on Baidu, but that "Zhou Ruxin" won the second prize in the Huacheng Young Teachers Problem-Solving Competition. Huacheng is such a distant southern city.There are many people with the same name and surname in the world. Zhou Ruxin, whom Lin Suqing knew, would never choose to work far away from her father.

As the days passed, Lin Suqing, apart from working hard to improve her abilities, was still unremittingly looking for news about Zhou Ruxin through various channels.

It is said that in the era of advanced information, the earth is getting smaller and smaller. However, in such an era of development, Lin Suqing has never been able to find her "Zhou Ruxin".

until later.

She grew older day by day, and after her elder brother got married, her parents began to stare at Lin Suqing.Every time I go home, what my parents say the most is "Look whose daughter is married again, whose daughter has given birth to a big fat boy again", Lin Suqing can't bear it.Looking at my elder brother's marriage again, it was just because my family's financial conditions were not as good as others, so I have always been in a disadvantaged position in family relations.Lin Suqing deeply felt the importance of the evil money.

So she moved to a company specializing in stationery with a higher salary to be in charge of advertising planning. There, Lin Suqing met a little girl who was doing an internship there.During the usual rest and chatting, I found that everyone came from the same county, and the little girl suddenly became more friendly to Lin Suqing, and the topics became more and more intimate.

So, occasionally when we work overtime together, we will go out for a quick meal together.The little girl is very talkative, and because of her trust in Lin Suqing, she also casually talked about family affairs.

During the few conversations, Lin Suqing knew that the little girl's brother also graduated from No. [-] Middle School, and that he and Zhou Ruxin were in the same class.

Then Lin Suqing finally got to know a very important piece of information. Zhou Ruxin must have had some troubles at home when she was in university, so she chose to stay away from her hometown after graduating from university and went to Huacheng instead.

The moment she heard the news, Lin Suqing had no doubt that the Zhou Ruxin she found on Baidu was the person she had been looking for all these years. She firmly believed that Zhou Ruxin was excellent no matter where she was.

God knows, at that moment, she really wished she could go to Huacheng right away.

However, at that time, she had just started in the new company, and it was the rising period of her career, and the boss of the company also valued her very much.After all, I am no longer my young self, who knows the importance of career and money too much.

If she gave up everything she had now and rashly went to a strange city to start over, how would she face Ru Xin who had nothing left?That was not the reunion she wanted.

So she chose to settle down and do things seriously. She has always worked hard and finally made achievements in this company and won the attention of the industry. Headhunters began to focus on her.

Later, she finally successfully applied for the company where He Jieying worked.

After being in Huacheng, Lin Suqing's heart became more stable than before. She was finally in the same city as Zhou Ruxin.

It's just that she's new here, no matter how eager she is to find Zhou Ruxin earlier, she still has to have more of herself first, she can't just appear in front of Zhou Ruxin with nothing like this.

This kind of psychology is very subtle. Lin Suqing doesn't think she is a person who cares much about worldly evaluation, but she very much hopes that she can be successful in Zhou Ruxin's eyes.

So in the past few years, Lin Suqing has been working very hard, trying her best to do her best every time she takes on a task, even if the client makes things difficult for her, the copywriting has been changed countless times, many times she works overtime late at night, and she rarely has the concept of weekends and holidays. Lin Suqing didn't care.

There is a fire in her heart, and the small torch is burning brightly, illuminating the road, and at the other end of the road is Zhou Ruxin, whom she has always cited as a benchmark.

In the past few years, she has been paying attention to the information of "Zhou Ruxin", knowing that she has won several awards, knowing that she was voted by the students of the school as the school's most popular teacher, and even slipping away like a thief Looking at their school's website, looking at that "Zhou Ruxin", that gentle-eyed woman, Lin Suqing had already decided in her heart that this person was the one she had been looking for all along.

But how should he appear in front of her?Could it be that he just approached her and said, "Hi, Ru Xin, I'm Qingqing." The person who has been thinking about each other all these years has always been herself, does Zhou Ruxin still remember Qingqing back then?

And, what if, what if this person is not the person I have been looking for. (Although Lin Suqing thinks this possibility is very small, who can tell what is going on in the world?) So in the past few years, Lin Suqing has been secretly paying attention to the person she identified as "Zhou Ruxin", even familiar with her motion sickness , knowing that she likes to call her students "baby", but she has never dared to really look for her.

It wasn't until I added He Jieying's WeChat a few years ago and saw some photos of classmate reunions in her circle of friends that Lin Suqing was even more convinced that she didn't admit the wrong person (because He Jieying also graduated from No. [-] Middle School).

It's just that one is busy with work recently, and the other is that there is never a suitable opportunity to find her.Until, seeing that piece of text sent by He Jieying, the handwriting when she was young is naturally not as steady and well-formed as later, but it is the handwriting that Lin Suqing has repeatedly read over the years and is familiar with it.

Finally, she didn't want to wait anymore, even if she was said to be too abrupt, Lin Suqing didn't want to wait any longer, she hurriedly asked He Jieying for Zhou Ruxin's mobile phone number, and after learning that Zhou Ruxin's WeChat account was her mobile phone number , immediately sent a friend request.

Others don't know, but Lin Suqing knows very well that she has been working so hard all these years and seems to be living a very fulfilling life, but ever since she accidentally "lost" Zhou Ruxin, she has always been a little apprehensive in her heart.

Ever since she and Zhou Ruxin became pen pals and corresponded regularly, she always felt at ease, as if no matter what troubles she encountered in life, as long as she told Ruxin, she would be able to give her real help.

Therefore, when that person disappeared from her life, Lin Suqing felt guilty and unsteady for a long time. Every time she made a choice, she thought, ah, if Ruxin was there, she would What advice would you give? If only Ru Xin was still alive.

In fact, these years, in the eyes of the world, Lin Suqing has been so successful that even the parents who were not optimistic about her at first had to admit that this daughter is even better than their son, but Lin Suqing has always been uneasy in her heart.

Until that day in the Forest of Flowers, seeing Zhou Ruxin looking at her in a daze because of her banter, what a familiar nerd Ruxin, Lin Suqing suddenly felt that her panic for so many years dissipated in an instant.

It's just that people's hearts are really greedy.

For so many years, Lin Suqing has been working hard to move forward, just hoping that the moment she really sees Zhou Ruxin, she can say to her dignifiedly: "Look, Ruxin, I haven't let you down."

But, the closer I get to this person, the more I want more.

For many years, Lin Suqing has never known what loneliness is, but at this moment, after hanging up the phone, she thought of Zhou Ruxin's words "here alone here, be well." Lin Suqing felt very lonely.

She doesn't want to be alone!

The author has something to say:

Who would want to be alone?