pen pal

21. After hanging up the phone, Lin Suqing suddenly felt very lonely.

Over the years, Lin Suqing has never felt lonely, maybe because she has always had a firm direction, as long as she keeps walking in that direction, she is willing to believe that she will meet that person one day.

Lin Suqing was proud when she was in junior high school. Although she may not be a good student in the traditional sense, for example, she would be late, occasionally miss homework, and secretly slander a certain teacher behind her back. However, her grades have been consistent. They were all at the top of their grades. At the beginning, she had only one goal: to be admitted to No. [-] Middle School.

Parents' patriarchal thought has always been vague, and she is not really ignorant, but she is sure that if she really gets admitted to No. [-] Middle School, her parents will be proud of it and will definitely let herself go to No. [-] Middle School of.

Therefore, no matter how indifferent she seems on the surface, she is very hardworking in private.

However, the world is impermanent. When the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, a boy in the class who had a crush on her for a long time might be afraid that after the high school entrance examination, he would never have anything to do with her again in this life. .

At that time, when encountering such a thing, people would not blame the boy, but felt that the girl was not self-respecting and self-loving. The so-called "flies don't bite seamless eggs", or "no wind, no waves", in short, when this kind of thing happened , People habitually think that it is the girl's fault, and Lin Suqing's class teacher is no exception.

So Lin Suqing, who was frightened by this inexplicable confession and restless at the time, was reprimanded by the class teacher for "girls are not self-loving enough to cause such trouble", and she did not have any learning status for several days.

Fortunately, the Chinese teacher at the time supported her and believed that she was innocent. Everything was just the boy's wishful thinking, but in the end, it affected Su Qing's performance in the senior high school entrance examination.

In the end, she failed to be admitted to No. [-] Middle School by one point. At that time, Su Qing suffered the biggest blow in her life in more than ten years. She was indeed very depressed, and even had some thoughts of self-destruction in her heart at that time.

Didn’t you all say that I don’t respect myself and love myself, so I will try to show you that I don’t respect myself and love myself, so I took the opportunity of making pen pals to talk about love with a boy far away, seemingly real or fake.

But Suqing is smart after all, she didn't even disclose her real name to the other party, and only used the pseudonym Qingqing to communicate with the other party.

In fact, Lin Suqing regretted it not long after, but at that time she was a little bit hard to get off, and she didn't mean to care about her eccentric parents.If her parents value her as much as her elder brother, they would definitely rather borrow money than send her to No. [-] Middle School.

But, after all, I still blame myself in the end, who made me not up-to-date, if I was admitted to No. [-] Middle School smoothly, all the rumors would automatically dissipate.It's still not good enough for me. Lin Suqing, who was so entangled in this way, lost the self-confidence she had in junior high school, and instead had more silent frustration and low self-esteem.

Therefore, when she received Zhou Ruxin's letter, Lin Suqing, who felt that even her biological parents could not rely on her, was deeply touched.

One is that she never thought that there would be such a pure and kind person in the world, who would pay out of his own pocket for nothing (although the cost is really very little) to help a stranger forward a wrong letter; Coming from No. [-] Middle School, Suqing once again ignited his yearning for that middle school, and also became very interested in Zhou Ruxin from No. [-] Middle School. Zhou Ruxin, what kind of peer is she?

What a breakup letter really brings to Lin Suqing is complete comfort. She doesn't have to be the villain who said "breakup" herself, and can end a so-called love that was rooted in "rebellious psychology". Her heart is simply joyful of.

Even Zhou Ruxin was grateful to Zhou Ruxin who brought her this joy, and because of curiosity about it, she wrote the true and false letter, laughing and complaining that she received a merciless blow from the breakup letter Zhou Ruxin should not have mailed such a letter.

Zhou Ruxin didn't reply, Suqing was not stupid, guessed that the other party was probably a nerd who only read textbooks, and would definitely dismiss such love disputes, such a person is the best Lin Suqing now. She needs a good teacher and helpful friend, so she has become more and more willing to make friends.

It's just that my first letter probably failed to leave a good impression on the other party.However, with the communication method of the other party, Lin Suqing is not in a hurry, there is always a chance.

Lin Suqing is very good at liberal arts, especially Chinese. She writes well and does well, mainly due to her extensive reading.

Although the family has no money to buy extra-curricular books, the school has a library. Lin Suqing was a frequent visitor to the school library in junior high school, and went to the school library every day in high school.

The school library has ordered several newspapers at the same time, including various evening papers and some periodicals. Lin Suqing's favorite is the city's evening papers and miscellaneous papers. The miscellaneous newspapers pointed out the disadvantages of the current situation, and the words were sharp. Lin Suqing felt like a fighter for a while while reading it, and felt tenderness for a while, and felt that life was so happy.

When she saw the article signed by "Zhou Ruxin" in the supplement of the Evening News that day, at first she thought it was just the same name and surname, but after reading the whole article, for some reason, she was convinced that it must be written by the Zhou Ruxin she knew. of.

If you are so grateful to those who care about you, and remember the kindness bestowed by others so deeply, who else is there except Zhou Ruxin who foolishly forwarded letters to you?

Therefore, Lin Suqing wrote the second letter without hesitation, unknowingly exhausting all the gentleness she could give at the beginning.

This time she really received Zhou Ruxin's reply, she was really a good boy, she answered every question as if answering a teacher's question, Lin Suqing could imagine what kind of serious bookworm was at the other end of the letter paper.

Looking at the words of encouragement at the end of the letter, Lin Suqing remembered her first and only pursuit: to be admitted to No. [-] Middle School and an ideal university.

Well, why not keep chasing?What about people in Sanzhong?Are there students who are admitted to college every year in the third year of middle school?As long as I can become the best of the three.

Lin Suqing has never doubted her ability to learn, what's more, as long as she thinks that she can work hard with Zhou Ruxin, she feels inexplicably full of energy.

Then let's make an appointment, she said to herself: "Ru Xin, then we have made an agreement, let's work hard together."

In the following two years, in the continuous correspondence, she was often the one who asked Zhou Ruxin for advice, and occasionally she would give Zhou Ruxin some pointers on Chinese reading. Seeing her grades rising steadily, she clearly felt that she was getting closer and closer to Zhou Ruxin. closer.

She has always felt that Zhou Ruxin exists like a benchmark, with a firm mind, clear goals, and never disturbed by others.

Occasionally, Lin Suqing would also express her troubles in the letter. After all, most of the students in No. [-] Middle School will not take the university entrance examination, so the situation of being tired of studying and abandoning school is quite serious.

Those children were more or less ridiculed towards Lin Suqing, a hard-working student like Lin Suqing, and sometimes they deliberately provoked them. It was common for them to say a few harsh words and ridicule a few words.In particular, Lin Suqing was originally a member of the lower middle school students, but now she concentrates on her studies and doesn't gossip with them, so she naturally received the most criticism.

At this time, Zhou Ruxin would say to Lin Suqing: "Qingqing, natural selection, survival of the fittest. Your life is your own and has nothing to do with others."

So Lin Suqing can learn to ignore those criticisms and continue to work hard on the exercises. (It's just that many years later, Lin Suqing wanted to say to Zhou Ruxin, "Ru Xin, your life is your own.")

In the third year of high school, the partiality of her parents really made Lin Suqing very frightened. For a while, she really felt that the sky was about to fall, and all her efforts seemed so ridiculous when her parents chose her brother favorably. Is it no longer possible?

However, Zhou Ruxin's letter reassured her all of a sudden. She completely believed in Zhou Ruxin. Since Ruxin said that there is such a way for her to go to university smoothly, then the issue of expenses that her parents were entangled with was not a problem at all.

Later, the teacher talked with her, which made Lin Suqing's heart completely settled down. It turned out that she could take a break from school to earn money before going to university. She was not worried at all. The only regret was that she couldn't go to university in the same year as Ruxin. .

It's just a year late to go to college, so such a long life, don't be afraid.Thinking of this, Lin Suqing was no longer worried.Well, in fact, it’s good to go to university a year later. You can also see which university Ruxin went to. If you work harder, you may be able to go to the same university as Ruxin. (However, it is estimated that this is difficult.)

Back then, Lin Suqing thought about many things in the future, but she never thought that she would accidentally "lose" Zhou Ruxin.

Although due to the sudden decision to go out to work at that time, she couldn't tell Zhou Ruxin her real name and surname, and she couldn't contact Zhou Ruxin for more than a year, but Lin Suqing still didn't worry.Because Zhou Ruxin told her that after graduating from university, she would definitely return to the small town to spend time with her father.

How big can a small county be?

What's more, Lin Suqing is very sure that Zhou Ruxin will be a very good teacher in the future, so even if she loses contact temporarily (in fact, Lin Suqing didn't really expect Zhou Ruxin to know her embarrassing situation at that time), when she is going well After graduating from university, he would naturally be able to find Zhou Ruxin when he came back.

What Lin Suqing didn't expect was that when she successfully completed her university studies relying entirely on her own efforts and successfully found a job in the provincial capital because of her excellent academic performance in college, she could never find Zhou Ruxin again.

The author has something to say:

Lin Suqing's psychology, perhaps only people who have experienced the same experience will understand.