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18. Zhou Ruxin never believed in fate when she was young. At that time, her education was always "I want to hold fate by the throat".

The first time she felt the power of fate and her own powerlessness was in the autumn when she was 12 years old, her father and neighbors worked hard to dig a well in front of the house.In the afternoon, the project was almost completed. It seemed that a hard stone was encountered at the bottom of the well, which was difficult to solve for a while.

So the neighbor suggested to my father to drill with an electric drill.Everything went well at first, and the stone was crushed and moved out, but when my father came out of the well, the electric drill in his hand leaked electricity.

Zhou Ruxin watched helplessly as her father nearly fell into the well after a fit of convulsions. At the moment of falling, his father stuck himself in the mouth of the well with his arms and shouted: "Turn off the power".

At this time, the stunned neighbor woke up and quickly turned off the power.Zhou Ruxin, who was watching from the side, looked at all this stupidly. At that time, her face turned pale with fright, and she was speechless for a long, long time.At a very young age, she knew for the first time what is called life and death.

Afterwards, her father took a long time to comfort her, and said to her very earnestly: "Ru Xin, don't worry, as long as you are not an adult, Dad will not die no matter what, even if the King of the Underworld comes, Dad won't go with him either."

Father, so, when I am of age, can you leave?Zhou Ruxin was a little dazed for a moment.

Lin Suqing looked at the woman in front of her who was obviously lost in memory, and suddenly didn't want to know anything more.There are so many pains in the past, why bother to uncover them again.

"Ruxin Ruxin, let's not talk about that. Well, how is your school's exam performance today?" Lin Suqing wanted to change the topic.

Zhou Ruxin smiled, and followed her words: "Suqing is really a layman, we correct the paper, and one person is only responsible for one question, how can we know the overall score? Besides, I am not the person in charge, let alone read it. The grades at school."

When Lin Suqing heard this, she also felt that she had asked a layman's question, um, the desire to know more about Zhou Ruxin still prevailed: "Okay. By the way, just now Ruxin said that you met someone, is it Who is it?"

Zhou Ruxin hesitated for a moment, looked at Suqing, and suddenly felt that she could completely trust this person, so she said everything.

"Suqing, I was married, but I got divorced soon. The marriage was a temporary idea. I originally thought that if the marriage could last for a long time, I would find a suitable opportunity to invite my classmates to dinner. They got divorced before that day. Therefore, even Jieying and the others didn't know about it."

Lin Suqing sat there upright, stopped drinking the juice, just looked at Zhou Ruxin quietly with her eyes, and listened to her carefully.

"At the time, my father's sudden departure hit me far harder than everyone imagined. On the surface, I am no different from the past. Only I know that everything is different."

Zhou Ruxin looked at Lin Suqing and felt that she had never analyzed her past so seriously: "Suqing, the me you met back then should make you feel very positive and full of hope for the future."

Lin Suqing nodded solemnly: "Well, although she is a bit old-fashioned, Ru Xin back then was indeed like my guide who guided me forward."

"Yeah, back then, I was full of expectations for the future. I was thinking about how hard I would try to get into the Normal University, so that everyone would know that my father didn't send me to high school for nothing; after graduating from university, I wanted to become an outstanding student in the county. My teacher, everyone will praise my father for raising a good daughter when they talk about me; I want to earn a lot of money, buy a house in the suburbs of the county, and decorate the house so that it is airy and bright. The old rheumatism can torture him less; I also want to buy dad a handsome suit, authentic leather shoes, and take him out for various activities; it is best to help him find a caring wife, so that when I am not by his side At that time, he would not be too deserted. Back then, I had so many wonderful expectations..."

"What about you? Ru Xin? Did you never think about your future back then?" Lin Suqing asked distressedly.

Zhou Ruxin thought about it carefully: "Is there a future for me? My future is to be filial to my father. Su Qing, maybe it's the character formed by the education I received since I was a child. What future? If there is no father in my future, I don’t know what is the meaning of such a future. In fact, I could go to Beijing Normal University at the beginning, but I knew that my father’s health was not very good when I was in the third year of high school, so I I dare not and don’t want to be too far away from him, so I gave up Beijing Normal University and chose Provincial Normal University in my first choice. At that time, some classmates thought I was too stupid, but Su Qing, life is just a word of choice, I would rather choose Stay closer to your father."

Lin Suqing nodded seriously: "Well, Ruxin, you did the right thing. As long as you have the heart, you can study well in any university."

Seeing how she recognized her, Zhou Ruxin felt very warm in her heart for a moment, and had a vague and inexplicable feeling of "I really didn't see the wrong person".

"Ru Xin, would you like something to drink first?" Lin Suqing picked up the juice and called out.

Zhou Ruxin drank a few sips, thought about it, and always felt that some words seemed unnecessary to say, and Su Qing also understood: "In the years of college, I actually lived a splendid life. I usually go to and from classes, go out to be a tutor on weekends, and go out to teach during winter and summer vacations. I was part-time work-study program at school. Others saw me as normal, but I felt that I was just a walking dead. The idea of ​​suicide is definitely not dared to have, but I don’t know how to live well. In my senior year, everyone I'm trying to find a job. I know that if I don't look for a job, the school will assign me back to the school at home, but I really don't want to go back to the place where my father is gone. At that time, in One time, I was invited by the parents of tutoring students, and I was actually taken by the parents’ friends, um, so I followed him here. Later I found out that he was for the house of their unit, and their unit has a house share. But only those who are married can get points, so he asked me to get married. When the house is in hand, we will divorce."

Lin Suqing hesitated for a moment, but still asked: "Does Ruxin like him?"

Zhou Ruxin thought for a while: "Actually, I don't know what it means to like someone, but at the beginning I was willing to agree to marry him, so I shouldn't hate it. I forgot when I read a sentence. Many times, it was just to not hate three people." Words, you can spend your whole life with one person."

"Then, why did Ruxin divorce him again? Does the other party have another love? Ruxin, you didn't suffer, did you?"

Seeing Lin Suqing's nervous appearance, Zhou Ruxin smiled: "Suqing thinks too much. He is a person of good character. In fact, anyone who marries him is lucky. Not only did I not lose anything in this marriage, but I also gave it back. It’s good for me. At the beginning, normal students had to pay compensation when they left the province. I definitely couldn’t get the money. He got it. Then there is the issue of household registration. To be honest, it must be more troublesome for those with household registration from other provinces to find a job here. Many units are not very willing to solve the household registration problem of employees, unless you are good enough, so the local household registration must have certain advantages when looking for a job, and I got the household registration here because of my marriage with him, so Entering the current school to teach was very smooth."

Looking at Lin Suqing's puzzled eyes, Zhou Ruxin simply said what the other party wanted to know the most: "He said he was used to living alone, and I just couldn't accept another person sleeping next to me, so we never We really lived together. We negotiated a lot, and divorced as soon as the house was in hand. Oh, he took the house and paid for my current rent."

"That's it?" Lin Suqing felt unbelievable, "Ru Xin, why do I feel that your marriage is like a child's play? This is so unlike you."

Zhou Ruxin sighed softly: "But Su Qing, I'm already no longer me."

In fact, there were some words that Zhou Ruxin was unwilling to say even to Lin Suqing.For example, even if she was ignorant at the time, after all these years, Zhou Ruxin would eventually know that that man was not used to living alone, but could not accept living with women.

After all, she has grown up for a long time and is used to seeing the joys and sorrows in the world. Zhou Ruxin naturally understands the other party's concealment.

Come to think of it, regardless of the meaningless "divorced woman" reputation, after all, she still made a lot of profits from this transaction. Zhou Ruxin really didn't feel that she had been wronged much, so naturally she would not complain.

Alone in this foreign land, the sun rises and the moon sets, everyone knows everything, Zhou Ruxin feels very good.

The author has something to say:

Many people on the Internet have accused those gays and lesbians of cheating marriages. In fact, who wants to deliberately deceive others?If the world were more tolerant, perhaps there would be fewer tragedies.