Carved Bones of Rebirth

People often cherish more after they lose, and lose more pain and sadness after they have hope.

Yan Leng missed Cen Ge like that in his previous life, but will he miss him again in this life?He is not reconciled, since God can't see people like him and let him and Cen Ge start over, why do they still miss it? Is this the real punishment God gave him?In his last life, he lost Cen Ge only to know what it means to be heartbroken. Every night is hard. He thought that they could be so good. He thought that if he could do it all over again, he would give Cen Ge everything he owed, everything he What I had, I found out in the end that it turned out to be so cruel that I didn't even give it a chance.

Yan Leng seemed to have lost all his strength all of a sudden, just sitting there in the courtyard, all the exhaustion and disappointment these days had left him powerless, he didn't want to leave, he didn't want to talk, without Cen Ge, what else would there be in life significance?In his previous life, he had a lot of enemies, both at home and outside. He spent so long defeating them and getting rid of those who wanted to harm him, but later he was like this now, and he didn't want to think about it anymore. , One more step, earned so much money, established such a big power, and a bunch of brothers to lay down a piece of land, and finally?The only person who truly loved him was tortured into a blind man, Yan Leng suddenly wanted to laugh, did he fail?God, I don't want anything in this life, please return Cen Ge to me.God, did you hear that?Cen Ge, where are you?

"Buzz-hum-"

"Hey--"

"Yan Leng, where are you?" Song Renliang's tone was urgent, and he also knew that Yan Leng's state was very wrong.

"In—" Yan Leng's whole body is a little dull now, and he hasn't completely escaped from that state.

"Cen Ge found it—"

"Where?!" Yan Leng suddenly stood up from the ground.

"Ding County, I just found out that Cen Ge's hometown is Ding County, the news should be accurate..."

Yan Leng couldn't tell what mood he was in. He thought he would never find Cen Ge again, but he didn't expect them to be so close.

"Hello!!!" Yan Leng didn't speak for a long time, Song Renliang over there was about to explode.

"Well, I'm in Ding County now, at Cen Ge's house, thank you." After Yan Leng finished speaking, he hung up the phone. Song Renliang on the other side of the phone couldn't figure out the situation. As soon as he finished speaking, Yan Leng rushed over At home, at this speed, did he fly?Forget it, since Yan Leng has found someone, the rest is up to him. Anyway, the young couple quarrels with him and an outsider can't help him. He still likes the beauties of "Lie Yan", hehe, beauties, Grandpa is here.

As long as Cen Ge is still around, Yan Leng will still be Yan Leng.

Hearing Cen Ge's news, Yan Leng thought about it, looked at the sky, and decided to find a hotel, sleep well, take a shower, and clean himself from head to toe. He will visit tomorrow morning.At that time, he just needs to wait for Cen Ge's trial, whether to forgive or not, whether to beat or punish, he will follow them all, as long as Cen Ge can take a look at him, as long as he can take a look at Cen Ge, he can accept any result , he just wanted to protect him and make him happy.

Yan Leng drove a long distance before finding a hotel with lights on. Also, in a small county town in 98, where there were so many all-night shops, he was able to find one, thanks to the fact that Ding County is adjacent to the river. city.

Knocking on the counter, the little girl who was dozing off was startled. In the eyes of the little girl who had seen a ghost in the middle of the night, Yan Leng paid the money, pressed the ID, took the key and opened the door.

In fact, Yan Leng is very handsome, far from being a ghost, but no matter how handsome he is, he can't resist Yan Leng not sleeping for a few days, plus he smokes heavily and hasn't shaved for half a month.Yan Leng himself knew it well, that's why he wanted to wash himself clean before going to see Cen Ge.

That night, Yan Leng lay on the bed and didn't fall into a deep sleep as he thought, but still tossed and turned all night, having trouble falling asleep.He still couldn't let it go, he thought, he was still afraid to watch Cen Ge leave, not because he couldn't bear the pain, but because he didn't dare to do it again after knowing how painful it was.Yan Leng curled the corners of his mouth. He didn't know until now that he was also afraid of pain.

Like this, Yan Leng lay down from late at night until dawn, closed his eyes, and all he saw and heard were the stories of him and Cen Ge, over and over again.He opened and closed his eyes, and all the past happened one after another. He was like a fish thrown ashore. He couldn't breathe and could only struggle in vain. With Ge's blank eyes and the beautiful smile in his arms at the end, Cen Ge's intermittent voice rang over and over again, "Yan Leng...how could I hate you...how could..." "Yan Leng... I'm just...a bit wronged..." "Yan Leng...I never lied to you..." "Yan Leng...let me go..." "Yan Leng...Yan Leng..." In the end, Cen Ge just He chanted his name over and over again, but it was so desperate and sad.

Every night of Yan Leng is very dark, because every night of his is regret.

Early the next morning, when Yan Leng came out of the hotel, he saw that his car was surrounded by three floors inside and outside, and there were several people holding a big tea bowl in each hand, commenting on it, and what they said really sounded like that It's like a thing.

Yan Leng is not worried about this, this small scene is not eye-catching, but he doesn't want to attract too much attention, country people are easy to chew their tongues, and they are afraid of bringing trouble to Cen Ge's family, Yan Leng doesn't want to make Cen Ge feel dissatisfied He was even more afraid that Cen Ge would blame him, so he left a good BMW on the side of the road.

Fortunately, people in Ding County get up relatively early, and there are sporadic taxis passing by so early.After thinking about it, Yan Leng raised his hand to hail a taxi, squeezed into the crowd, took out the prepared things from the car, and then quickly left in the car.

After Yan Leng left, the little girl at the front desk who had been watching the excitement outside the shop opened her mouth wide and didn't close it for a long time.She had just checked out Yan Leng, and she was still surprised that the ghost was so handsome last night, but she didn't expect that the dazzling car at the door was also his, even if she was handsome, she didn't expect to be so If you have money, you only hate yourself for not seeing it last night.

As soon as Yan Leng got into the car, the driver wanted to chat with him all over the world, but he didn't expect that the man in the car was a boring gourd, and he didn't look outside the car. After giving a place name, he kept staring at his hand, saying a word Not to mention.The driver master took a few glances at Yan Leng, he was not a local, and he felt a head shorter than others, he felt a little embarrassed, so he shut his mouth and didn't speak.

In fact, Yan Leng's face was always livid and his thinking was a little numb because he was too nervous and he didn't have a good rest.But even if Yan Leng heard it, he probably just hummed.Yan Leng changed, he became willing to bow his head and bend over in front of Cen Ge, but in front of others, he became colder and sharper.

Yan Leng is such a person, you can't tell that he is nervous or afraid, and you don't expect him to have these emotions that normal people would have, because they all think that Yan Leng is aloof, standing on the clouds Sometimes, they even ignore that Yan Leng is also a person of flesh and blood, and he is also an ordinary person in front of those who care about him.And everyone ignored this fact, and Yan Leng himself didn't remember it, so he thought for 20 years before he figured out what love is, only to find out that he was attracted by Cen Ge before, and faced with Cen Ge always I lost my temper loudly because I cared about the person in front of me, because I fell in love with this person at all, but the more I cared and loved, the more I couldn’t figure it out, as if I saw my own weakness and wanted to Get rid of it, and finally realize that Cen Ge is gone, and the weakness is still there, but the heart is empty.

After more than 20 minutes, Yan Leng was already standing at the door of Cen Ge's house. Opposite was still the hairdressing stand, and the courtyard in front of him was still yesterday, but it was not closed like when he came at night, but Yan Leng didn't dare to go in. .He obviously decided to wait for Cen Ge's decision, and he decided to accept it no matter what, but when he got to the door, he didn't dare to go in.

Yan Leng thought, I have nothing in my life that I can't lose. If Cen Ge really chooses to leave, it's just me suffering alone. I can still watch Cen Ge and guard him for the rest of my life. Yan Leng, you should be content up.

Yan Leng told himself over and over again, if he loves himself, if he is willing to forgive himself, if he is willing to live with himself for the rest of his life, as long as he doesn't let go, he will never let go first, and support him until the end of his life.If he doesn't want to, then loving him is my business alone.However, Yan Leng's breathing was already messed up. After 20 years of waiting to hold the treasure in his hands, he was still reluctant to part with it!

"Young man, let's shave your head! Shaving your head will make you more energetic~" This shout instantly brought back Yan Leng's spirit, and Yan Leng just glanced back casually, but the world seemed to be frozen in an instant, so clear, So familiar, so close, but seems so far away.

The person on the opposite side raised his head inadvertently, and Yan Liang felt that time had stopped.

The two people are at such a close distance, but they seem to be looking at each other from a distance, with a glance of ten thousand years.

All the sweet soup and pancakes in Singer Cen's mouth were knocked to the ground. His eyes were full of bewilderment, surprise, and fleeting joy. He never thought that Yan Leng would find him. He had already made them all. He was ready to never see him again, he had clearly made up his mind to bury all the brilliance and gratitude, and he had already made up his mind to bury the only light in this life, when Yan Leng appeared in front of him at this time, for a moment, Cen Ge felt mixed feelings , I don't know what it's like, sour, bitter, and sweet are mixed together, but he can't say a word.

Yan Leng suddenly stepped forward and hugged Cen Ge in his arms. He thought so much, afraid that he would refuse, afraid that he would be afraid, afraid that he would leave, but at this moment he just wanted never to let go, he wanted to be like this forever Hold him, smell his body, until the end of time.

I don't know how long it has passed, Yan Leng is still holding Cen Ge like this, motionless, just whispering in Cen Ge's ear, Cen Ge, I had a dream, but I want to keep dreaming, I only hope that this Dream, never wake up.