Wei Lan

Don't dare to breathe. 1 minute, 2 minutes, 5 minutes, 10 minutes... In addition to hearing Shao Hui's nervous breathing, he seemed to have disappeared.

He didn't move at all, just stood not far from the bed and looked at me.

My breathing also became a little tense, and I regretted taking the posture of lying on my back, which made it impossible to take a look at his current expression.

Unexpectedly, Shao Hui climbed onto the bed again. I felt his direct gaze, and I was a little panicked because I was worried that he would see through my lame trick.Feeling his gaze slowly move from my forehead to my chest, it lasted for 2 minutes.

I felt that the gazes on every part of my body were hot, which made me even more nervous.I don't think I can put it on any longer, and the muscles in my face are starting to show signs of cramp.

When he was struggling to die in his heart, Shao Hui suddenly lifted a corner of the quilt covering his body.

sky!I'm not wearing anything underneath!

Subconsciously, I wanted to reach out to protect it.You know it's daytime now, and I'm not mentally prepared at all.

But how?Wouldn't it be self-inflicted to do so?

But if he stares at it for a few minutes, no, let alone a few minutes, I'm afraid I can't help but react in just a few seconds.

I really can't put it on anymore!

As soon as I gritted my teeth, opened my eyes, and looked up, I saw that Shao Hui was really lowering his head and huddled in my place, and the quilt might be completely lifted by him at some point.

God, find a hole for me to drill!This situation...

I immediately pretended to just wake up and let out a light "um", thank God, he finally didn't make any further moves.Only after I breathed a sigh of relief, my heart began to beat irregularly again - our eyes met.

Plop, plop... The strong and powerful beating of the heart in the chest cavity can be heard clearly in the ear, it is so full of vitality, as if it is about to break through the skin and jump out of the package.The blood in my veins was so hot that I ached, and I could feel them flowing faster and faster throughout my body.My face, ears, neck, and chest must have turned red from all this boiling blood!Isn't that ugly?It's like clearly doing something wrong.However, I did do something wrong—pretending to be sleepy, pretending to be confused, and leaving all the problems to him to deal with alone, while I hid in my shell like a tortoise and dared not come out.

"You... woke up so early." After looking at the boss for a while, I opened my mouth in embarrassment. I can't keep looking like this.The voice was a little weird, and it didn't sound like it came from his own throat at all.

Shao Hui opened his mouth, but did not speak.

I think I must be looking stupid now, and he may have already noticed something.

That crappy acting skill would have been unnecessary if he had known it earlier. At worst, he would look down on him, and it would be better than dying of embarrassment like he is now.

"What's wrong with you? You're sweating a lot."

What the hell to say that!Obviously he was sweating a lot, but he still asked him.But I feel uncomfortable without saying anything, and I can only speak more when facing a speechless person.

Shao Hui still looked at me without any reaction.

What year and month will it take to be so stiff before there will be a result?I decided to show him everything with actions.

I pretended to sit up with some difficulty, hoping he could see some clues.Unexpectedly, it really touched the sore spot, an unspeakable sharp pain was transmitted directly to the brain from the back, and I almost couldn't sit still.The thin quilt slid down, and the moment before it slid down my belly button, I lifted it up to my chest, keeping in mind the fact that I wasn't wearing it underneath.

Shao Hui looked as if he saw something he shouldn't see, and his eyes kept dodging left and right.

Fortunately, he was not indifferent.

"I...seem...can't move..." This is the truth, but I express it in a more painful way.

"What's wrong? Is there something uncomfortable?" He hurried to my side, reached out and touched my forehead, looking very nervous, and then touched his own.

well!This idiot!Why are you touching your head? I don't have a fever.

"It's not hot, it shouldn't be burned." He answered frankly, and I almost fainted.It is not hot if it is not burned!

Does he really not understand that he is pretending?

I angrily told him that I wanted to drink water, but he clumsily knocked the water over me.Fortunately, it's not hot, or I really call it myself.Asking him to help me to sit on the sofa, he was so stunned that he didn't even know to put a cushion on it. God knows how painful it was when I sat down, like being pricked by a needle.I really don't know what to say to this big boy who looks shrewd and steady on weekdays.

"Yesterday, I drank too much to do... that kind of excessive thing. You can punish me however you want."

He finally brought up the subject, and when he opened his mouth, it was the last thing I wanted to hear.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with making love between comrades, it's quite normal, isn't it?Isn't that why he went to the disco to catch men?Even if he told me that it was just a one-night stand and nothing else, why bother to talk about "excessive things" and "punishment", as if there should be no relationship at all between us.

It hurt more than anything else, he blew my expectations away.

I know this is because he has a person in his heart so he will say that, just like I have him in my heart and want to be loyal to him.

"You... regret it?" Although she was asking him, the result was already in front of her eyes.

But I still wonder what he thinks, is there no point in what I'm doing?

"I'm sorry, that's what I did when I was unconscious. I know that doing so will hurt you a lot. But, but..."

"That's enough, stop talking, I understand...it's all my fault for being too self-righteous." I interrupted him loudly.

I can't bear to see his embarrassment, and I can't listen to it.

Looking at him, I just feel so sad in my heart, I don't know how long the so-called strong mask can last.

I think I'm going to cry.

"Let's go, I'm emotionally unstable right now, and I feel uncomfortable just looking at you." I stood up forcefully, refused his help, and walked into the bedroom without looking back at him.

At least let me have some dignity, I don't want him to see my beaten side.I'm a mature and stable man, aren't I?

I am 26 this year, and if I cry, I will be laughed at.

After closing the door, I stared fiercely at the messy bed sheet, as if I had a deep hatred for it.In fact, I just don't want to let the tears flow down easily.

He left, and I heard his leaving footsteps.

The door was closed softly, as if I were the weight in his heart.

I spent the whole night sorting out my mood, drank several large glasses of ice water, because I am a man, I must be strong, because I am a man, I must be calm.Watching the sun rise over the tall buildings in the distance, I thought I'd be fine.

When I arrived at the unit, everyone could see that I had something on my mind.He always said, Xiao Fang, don’t worry about anything, just take a few sips and vomit bitterness to your buddies and you’ll be fine.

But this bitterness cannot be vomited to others, it can only be kept in my heart.

For Shao Hui, I decided to wait for him.Although there is no agreement with him and I don't know how long it will take, a year or a lifetime, but I am willing to wait blindly like this.Wait until he no longer has that person in his heart, wait until he can accommodate me in his heart.

It's silly to do that, but so what?I do not care.It was clear to me that all I wanted was him.

Shao Hui didn't contact me again, it was taken for granted.Who would waste time on someone who has no feelings for them?I didn't contact him either, although I could find out the phone number on his desk after just asking, but I held back.What if I know?I have absolutely no idea what to say.

I am still the same, working hard and living a regular life.Occasionally, when people from their bureau came to the courtyard to deliver things, they would always pay attention unconsciously.Afterwards, I always feel stupid.

"Xiao Fang, what are you thinking, so serious?"

"Nothing, I think it's going to rain today."

"Yeah, the clouds are coming here. We're going to be off work in two hours. Don't get down until you get back. I didn't bring a raincoat. Did you?"

"I have a spare umbrella in my desk."

"You kid is thoughtful in everything you do, and even this is more careful than us."

"It is okay."

"Hey, I said you're a pretty good guy, and you're so handsome. Why don't you have a girlfriend yet? Are you picky? Let me tell you, this youth is gone forever, so hurry up.- ---Hey! Where are you going? I haven't finished talking yet."

"I remembered something to do, I'll talk about it later."

I ran out of Corey quickly and hurried down the stairs as if I was in a real hurry.

What annoys people the most is telling me these things. The enthusiasm of these well-meaning people has always been the last thing I can deal with. All I can do is escape.

Shao Hui!

When he looked up, he saw him walking towards him, with a thick stack of folders under his arm.

Seeing me, he was obviously taken aback.

I wanted to say something to him, but I couldn't find any words at this time, and I couldn't even open my mouth to make a sound.

I felt very embarrassed in such a situation, after all, I hurried past him without saying a word, not even saying hello.

He walked all the way to the parking lot behind the compound, and after making sure that there was no one around, he found a wall and leaned against it.

Damn it!How did you become dumb just now?Wanted to see him for a long time, didn't you?Where has the guts gone?

I really have no species!

He must think that I have neither grace nor manners!

Fucking sex!

Suddenly there was a "rumbling" thunder in my ears, and when I came back to my senses, the sky was already dark, and it looked like it might rain at any time.

I raised my wrist and saw that it was past six o'clock, and I stood here stupidly for more than two hours!It's past time to get off work.

What the hell!I finally met him once, and I didn't say anything to him. Will he go back?

I hurried into the office building and went straight to the reconnaissance department.

There was still a light on in there.

Nervously, I leaned over with light steps and peeked out the window.

He is still there.

My heart suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

The rain began to pour down with a thunderous "wow", with great momentum.

I rushed back to the office and hurriedly opened the drawer to take out the umbrella, and then ran back.I was afraid that he would go back first in the rain.

He was still there, with his head down, sorting out the materials.

Through the window, I watched him for a long time.He looks really good, and he looks serious about his work. At this time, he is a conscientious and responsible public security officer, and he is no longer the cute big boy who is like an octopus pestering me for kisses.

It feels like he's grown up a bit.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the surrounding air also fell down. I stood at the corner of the first floor with my umbrella tightly in my arms.Shao Hui didn't come down from upstairs until around eight o'clock.

I watched him frowning and passing in front of me, standing at the door looking at the dark brown sky in a daze.

He must be worried about the heavy rain, but my mood at the moment is as good as a big sun hanging outside.

Taking a deep breath, I plucked up the courage to shout in my heart: Come on, Fang Qicong, he is right in front of your eyes, talk to him, like a friend, you should be able to do it, there is nothing to be afraid of.

"I have an umbrella, let's hold it together." I stood in front of him, trying to be as natural as possible.

"...then trouble you."

He was surprised by my appearance, and glanced behind me, as if confirming something.Then he bowed his head and was silent for a few seconds without knowing what he was thinking. When I raised my head, I saw the smile in his eyes. His nose was a little stuffy and he gave me an expected answer.

***

I never thought that a spare old umbrella would bring us together on a rainy night.

Originally, I just hoped to have a few words with him, and then send him home; originally, I didn't think about anything else.

Love, sometimes comes too suddenly.Even I didn't expect it to suddenly fall from the sky.

It was so sudden that everything that should have happened and should not have happened; everything that had been imagined and that had never been imagined all happened on that rainy night.

Looking at him sleeping soundly beside me, I feel the wonder and impermanence of fate.

At that time, even though it was unintentional, I still couldn't help myself to seduce him like a demon, and he was as cute as a boy.That night was sweet and crazy, and I will never forget it for the rest of my life.

"Ding Ding ~ Ding Ding Ding Didi ~ Ding" a burst of beautiful chorus sounded from the bedside table, which made me jump.

hell!It's so late, whoever is so bored and still sends a short message, I have to teach him a lesson tomorrow.I am also really, how did I forget to turn it off.Hui hates being woken up while sleeping.

I quickly picked up the phone and decided to remove the battery.This way there will be no sound.

The name displayed on the screen stunned me for a second, how could it be Huifa's?Didn't he just sleep right next to him?

Entering the text message bar, a picture popped up that was dragged to death: baby, why are you still awake?Missing an old lover in the middle of the night?hey-hey.

ah!I turned around and lifted his quilt. Hui was hiding under the quilt, pretending to be asleep, with his mobile phone still in his hand.

"You naughty thing, you still make trouble in the middle of the night, why are you awake?"

I used to hug him tightly from behind.Hui said he liked me hugging him like this, it felt very safe and heartwarming.Over time, this action becomes a habit.How old is it?three years?Or four years?

"Why don't you go to bed? It's three o'clock and you're still so energetic. It's hard to forget your old lover?"

Hui stuffed the phone under the pillow and rubbed my chin with the top of his head.

"Oh! So you speak so meanly. I only found out today after we have known each other for so many years."

"Fang Qicong, stop interrupting me, you miss your old lover, don't you? If you think I'm mean, go to him, don't be sympathetic here." Hui's tone was very severe, but he hugged my arm back, his whole body They all started to move into my arms.

"No, I swear! My lover is only you, and I'm thinking of you!" I whispered in his ear.

"Miss me? I have something to think about, isn't it right next to me? Only ghosts will believe you!"

"Really, I was wondering why you fell in love with me that rainy night? We hadn't contacted each other before, and I always thought you didn't mean anything to me, and I was just a self-important fool. Hui, you and I Have you ever regretted being together?"

"I found that you are really not an ordinary fool. If you don't like you, how could you be with you... that! However, I was really impulsive that day, and I still regret it a little..."

"What? Regret! Really? What do you regret? Did I treat you badly? Tell me, why do you regret it?"

how come?I got a little nervous.Living with him all these years, I can't see that he regrets it!

"Oh, take it easy, your ears are almost deafened by you."

"Then tell me quickly, if there is something I didn't do well, I will definitely change it!"

"Hey, look at your nervousness. I was thinking, thinking of you, such a handsome and considerate man, why didn't I take good care of it at the beginning? I always feel very regretful that I lost a few months with you. Cong , we will live forever, right?"

"...Of course, we have to live on forever and make up for the time we missed before."

"Well, I think so too."

"Hui," I couldn't help but hug him tighter, "I love you."

"Take it easy, your bones are about to break. I understand what you mean. Now that you love me, go to sleep. I'm going to take pictures tomorrow. It's so ugly to have two dark circles under your eyes. I'm afraid it will be a bear."

"Take a photo? What kind of photo? Why don't I know?"

"Of course you don't know, I just decided. Get up early tomorrow, put on our best clothes, and I plan to take more photos with you. And then enlarge the best one, um... like a 28-inch It’s as big as a color TV. Then let’s hang it on the bedside, what do you think?”

"..."

"Hey, why don't you talk? Don't you want to? Asleep?"

"No, no, I am willing, of course I am willing. Hui, I love you."

"Nonsense, I love you too. Take that as our wedding photo."

"Ah."

——End of extra episode——