G soldier diary

Xiaoyu gritted his teeth on the side face.

Two months ago, you were also on the whistle.

We said we wanted to be together, and we were as happy as anything.

You're all on my mind, just as I am now.It's just that those happiness can't continue, and my trust in your eyes has already been torn apart.

Meng Zhe was at the opposite post, very quiet.

These three words are not difficult to type or use the phone.

But facing the person standing in front, it was so difficult to say.

"I love you. 』

I turn around.

"Hello, Xiaofei." Meng Zhe called me.

Damn, I cried so ugly.

My face was wrinkled together, it was full of tears, and my mouth was salty.

Even if Xiaoyu turns around, I don't want to be seen.

Man, it can be so uncomfortable.

But it's just a lovelorn, my chest can be so stuffy, I can hardly make a sound.He couldn't breathe, and his entire brain was starved of oxygen.

I walked into our secret base, this unused bathroom, and I leaned against the wall trying to use up my bad feelings.

I love you so much, I love you so much, I love you so much, I love you so much.

But it keeps hurting you.

forget it.

What are we if we love vigorously, without friends we know, without the blessings of our family members, and without the expectations of society?

We can't get married, we can't have children, we can't adopt children together, and our parents don't want to know about us.

Who are you showing love to?

In the end, it was just handjobs, we were just enjoying ourselves.

Forget it... calm down.

The end in front will be like this from the beginning.We just run out of feelings and get back to our respective lives.

It's good to be alive... right?

I wiped away my tears and splashed water on my face in front of the faucet, just like two months ago.

After lunch, Qin Tian came to look for me, packed the blankets in the car and was about to leave.

"I'm sorry, I can't control it." Before getting on the truck, Qin Tian looked downcast.

I just smiled and didn't want to answer anything.Only then did I realize that a good part of myself had become Xiaoyu.It seems that if you smile and smile, you will be fine.

And on Qin Tian's forehead, there are a few scratches from my struggle last night.

Tonight is a holiday for several people, including Xiaoyu.

Abstinence games, day seven.

Xiaoyu and a few schoolmates sorted out their holiday bags at the same time.Everyone talked about the abstinence game, because there was no winner or loser at all, the rest of the players and the commentator ranked first, go home and clear the guns and stop torturing each other.

All day long, Xiaoyu ignored everyone's questions and didn't say a few words.

Several juniors and Xiaoyu walked out of the dormitory in casual clothes without looking at me.

I don't know why, but I noticed one thing.

No one will ever kiss me again and tell me it's time to stand guard.

No one will say strange passwords when passwords are handed over.

No one will run to get an ice pillow when I get hurt anymore.

There is no longer a custom called kissing before parting.

In front of so many people, I have lost the reason to chase after him.

I opened the drawer, but saw a stack of white letters.

It was the six letters I wrote to Xiaoyu, each of which was opened, and I opened one of them.

Yuyu Bibi:

Haha I’m back in the camp, I’ve been thinking about what to do after I get out of the army, how hard I have to work hard to catch up with you.

To prove my determination to be with you, not only to love you well, but also to be busy with my career.Just like gems themselves have to be valuable in order to be inlaid on a sword to become a Shangfang sword, fit alone is not enough.I will try my best to make myself worthy of you, and no matter what difficulties I encounter in the future, I will solve them together.

Also, I used to feel like giving up when my relationship couldn't get better. If I said something depressing, just ignore me!Recently……

Before I read the first letter, I felt like an asshole.

I got up and ran out of the dormitory. They were on holiday at the sentry post and walked out of the gate. The senior was about to close the gate.

"Wait a moment!open the door! 』I yelled into the distance and tripped over a ditch.

"Fuck you!" The mafia senior walked away, deliberately closing the door more securely.

I look at the cloth just torn from the knee of my camouflage pants.

Down the stairs is a small ditch, who designed it.

"It's time to call! !Tell Bo Yu to wait a minute! ! ’I got up and limped and yelled.

"Little Mei Chongsha? Are you going to burn it dry?" Shan, the underworld senior, smiled. He walked to the post and looked outside the door. "They have already boarded Uncle's car."

How many times has this scene happened in my life?

What is going on with this ominous premonition?

"Okay, they're leaving." The underworld senior was on the whistle, deliberately waving to the distance.

Indeed, every holiday, everyone is eager to return home, and always hails an Arbor taxi in advance.But I couldn't accept it, and I still ran to the gate.

"What are you rushing for!" The senior wanted to block me.

"Yeah, are they gone? 』I was facing the junior student who was standing next to me and kept silent.

"Well, I'm about to." The junior looked outside.

I rushed to the door and pushed the door open by myself.

"Why are you deserting!" The underworld senior couldn't stop me.

And I watched Arbor's silver white taxi taillights go away.

Boyu, I really miss your hug.

I lowered my head to confirm the wound on my knee, walked to the security officer's desk, signed and opened the medicine box.Rolling up the trousers, using the advantages to disinfect the bloody skin like a child.The pain at this time is actually a bit refreshing.

The distraction caused by the pain of flesh and blood diverted my mind from thinking about Xiaoyu, even if it was only a tenth of it, it brought me back to reality.

Everyone was waiting for the company commander in the Zhongshan room while cooking.And I, out of my mind.

"Dean, what did Boyu tell you? 』I walked directly to the head counselor.

"Hey, he just left a note on my desk yesterday saying that he wanted to chat. But today I asked him with the deputy company, and he didn't say anything, just said it's okay." The instructor shrugged.

"He didn't say anything? 』

"Explosive sleepwalking is the same. It feels very serious. They all said it's okay, but fortunately he can have a rest." The head counselor shook his head. .”

"What dream..." I didn't intend to answer the dean.

The sense of security that surrounded me suddenly disappeared.

It feels like something has been severely hollowed out, an ominous premonition, but I don't even have the freedom to look at my phone.

I went into the bathroom and opened Facebook.

Originally in Xiaoyu's Facebook sentiment column, there is nothing in that column.

The dynamics in the stable communication also disappeared, leaving some interesting sharing links.

The button to add friends is always there on the page.In order to avoid suspicion, we didn't add each other's friends from the beginning to the end.What we have left in the end is not as good as those friends who press likes.

Everything is like nothing happened.