Fall in love with special forces

There is a saying that "children look forward to the New Year, adults are afraid of the New Year", because during the New Year, children can play to their heart's content, and there are endless good snacks and meals to enjoy.But adults are busy when the Chinese New Year arrives, and they spend money.

But I am busy every year, and I still have to live every year.When the New Year is approaching, all cities in China, big or small, in and out of the mountains, are busy buying new year's goods.So that there are people everywhere, and the car is crowded when going out.

Only I don't want to buy anything this year.Thinking back to last year when Guan Shijie drove a car to accompany me shopping for the New Year, I was filled with joy and sweetness.But this year, I am alone, with no sweetness, no joy, and only hesitation and helplessness.

I am really helpless, because Guan Shijie hasn't called me for more than half a month!After that annoying phone call, he seemed to disappear suddenly. Even I couldn't help but call him back, but no one answered, or the phone was turned off.

Dong Tiezhu often contacted me. I knew from his mouth that during this period of time, his calls to Guan Shijie were also unable to get through, but he comforted me and said: "Xiao Le, you believe me, Ajie loves you more than everyone else, Including his parents! If he doesn't call now, he probably got into trouble with his parents. Wait for a while, and he will definitely come back to you!"

I believe what he said, and I also believe that Guan Shijie loves me more than anyone else, but will he really come back to me?

I really can't believe this!

I counted my fingers to pass the new year, and went to the supermarket to buy some things, imagining that Guan Shijie would still be able to come back to spend the new year with me before New Year's Eve.

But he didn't come back, and still didn't even make a phone call.On New Year's Eve, I was lying on the bed alone, and I didn't even want to have the reunion dinner at noon, because no one came to reunite with me.I was lying down alone and it was almost eleven o'clock when the phone rang suddenly, and I grabbed it with one hand, but when I saw the screen of the phone, my heart sank, because it was not Guan Shijie, but Gao Tianlong.

But at this moment, I hope it is Guan Shijie's call!

"Hi!" I called out to my phone.

"Lele, I can't get through to Ajie's cell phone, so... I want to ask you, is he back?"

His voice was very plain, but it was this plain voice that made me start to cry quietly.

I guess Guan Shijie still has taboos towards Gao Tianlong, so he didn't entrust me and the company to Gao Tianlong to take care of him.Maybe he said in front of Gao Tianlong that he would hand me over to Dong Tiezhu to take care of me, so after he left, I often received calls from Dong Tiezhu to greet me, but I never received a call from Gao Tianlong.

Until today, Gao Tianlong finally broke the taboo and called me during the joyful New Year's day.I knew it must be because he couldn't get through to Guan Shijie's phone number, so I guessed that Guan Shijie hadn't come back. He made this call because he still cared about me and worried about me.

But I didn't want him to care, let alone worry him, so I took a breath quietly and tried to calm myself down so that he wouldn't know that I was crying.

"He didn't come back, but... I believe he will come back!" In fact, I didn't have any confidence in my heart, but my answer was full of confidence.

"I hope!" He sighed over there, "My wife and I brought our son to her parents' place, and besides... Tianhu didn't go back to his hometown this year, and took his wife over for the New Year, so at the beginning Three days later, we will go to Hainan Island to play together, take care of yourself these few days, don't think about it, if you have something... just call me!"

"I will, I'm fine!" I said, with tears in my eyes, but stubbornly made myself laugh, "You and your wife and son have a good New Year's Eve!"

In fact, it doesn't need him to say, I also know that he must be with his wife and son now, because today belongs to all the family members and partners who are on a blind date and love each other.And I am not his family, let alone his partner, to him, I am an outsider.

So I, at least today, don't want him to care, let alone worry about him.If you have bitterness and tears, just swallow it yourself, and don't disturb other people's homes to celebrate the New Year happily.

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After Gao Tianlong's phone call, Dong Tiezhu also called and asked if he would pick me up to celebrate the New Year with them.

He Yongliang, whom he loves so much, has rushed back to his hometown to spend the New Year with his son on the eve of the Spring Festival. Of course he is with that "Uncle Tao" now, so I refused without thinking.Not because I'm afraid of seeing "Uncle Tao", but because today, I don't want to disturb anyone and I shouldn't.

After hanging up Dong Tiezhu's phone, I lay on the bed for a while, and couldn't resist calling my sister again.On this day of family reunion, I miss my parents so much, even if I hear them scolding me on the phone, I just want to hear their voices, and I just want to know that they are still alive.

But my sister still didn't answer my phone!

I called Wu Kang again and wanted him to visit my house, but when the call was connected, before I could speak, Wu Kang spoke first!

"Xiao Le, my daughter-in-law is going to give birth in a few days. We are in the town hospital now. I'm really going to be a father soon!"

There was excitement in his tone that couldn't be concealed, but there was also a little anxiety and worry about being a father.Of course I couldn't bother him with my affairs anymore, so I quickly changed my words to wish him a few words, and when I hung up the phone, I felt more and more lonely and lonely.

Loneliness is a matter of one person.But loneliness is a kind of contrast with the people and things around.Especially in these days of family reunion, the contrast is even more intense.

Because other people's families are reuniting and laughing, only me, a lonely individual, no one needs me, no one even misses me.

My parents don't recognize me anymore, the two men I love, one stays with my wife and son, and the other disappears as soon as they leave.

I have been lying on the bed. Firecrackers were originally prohibited in Guangzhou, but when the family had a reunion dinner, there were still firecrackers one after another. This is a Chinese custom for thousands of years. Fully implement.

I didn't have a reunion, so I lay on the bed, feeling that I had no strength at all, so I barely got up, ordered some noodles and ate casually, and then I dialed Guan Shijie's cell phone number again.

The phone rang for a while, and someone picked it up!

"Ajie!" I opened my mouth and called, at the same time, tears of grievance came out, "Why haven't you called for so long?"

"Because he was locked up by his father!" said a woman's voice inside, the voice was soft but as cold as ice.

"Ah?" I was taken aback, and quickly adjusted my tone, "You...are you...Auntie?"

"I'm a mother!" she replied, refusing to call her auntie.

"So, can you...let me say a few words to Ajie?"

"No!" She said simply, "You are that Xiao Le, right? He told us... Let us send him abroad with you, so that it won't affect me and his dad! He's right, really Sending you secretly abroad can indeed minimize the impact, but...he forgot that he is the son we raised little by little, how could he not even want his parents for a boy? So... ...Don't make this call again, his father has already said that since he can leave his parents behind, we would rather not have this son than send him abroad to engage in homosexuality!"

My heart is cold and cold.The person talking to me now is a leading lady who doesn't know how old she is. I should have been in awe, and I am indeed in awe!But when I heard her last sentence "It is absolutely impossible to send him abroad for homosexuality", I couldn't help calling her!

"Auntie, although... I am not qualified to call you auntie, but I don't know what else to call you! You are such a great leader, I would like to ask you a word, is homosexuality... a crime?"

She didn't answer right away, I didn't dare to rush her, so I just waited quietly, after a long time, I finally heard her cold voice again.

"For you, no! For him, yes! Since he was born into such a family, he has his due responsibilities and obligations!"

"But..." I quickly added another sentence, "Since you admit that homosexuality is not a crime, then... born into a family like yours, wouldn't he be able to have his own life?"

"He can have it! But...he promised his dad before, leave him alone before the age of 30, let him enjoy his life to the fullest, and after the age of 30, he will obey his dad's arrangement! We let him live We knew that he was living with a boy and ignored him, but now, he should also fulfill his promise! What's more..." She stopped, and after a long time, she said again, "I The son is not completely gay, he and Wen Jun obviously like each other, but it's just to get angry with our parents, I don't believe he really loves you more!"

She hung up the phone.Her tone was cold, but her voice remained calm until she said the last sentence "my son is not completely gay", and finally showed some resentment, as if I seduced his son Becoming gay.

But I can't say that she is too much, but I feel that she is kind enough, at least she didn't directly say that homosexuality is a crime.And what she said earlier is also true, what kind of family you are born in, you must take what kind of responsibility.What's more, Guan Shijie personally promised his parents, and once he made a promise, he should keep his word.

It's just like what Gao Tianlong once said, a man, especially a man, can spend his days and nights, and act on every occasion, but he must bear the responsibilities that should be borne!

What's more, Guan Shijie is not a pure homosexual. Reasonably, he should obey his parents and shoulder his responsibilities as a son.

But what should I do?

I knew that he was a bisexual, and I knew that he came from a high-ranking family. Gao Tianlong even warned me to hold back, but I still let myself fall into his affection.

And him?He thought that with his parents' love for him, he could do whatever he wanted. He even thought that he could use the name of "love" to force his parents to send him to go abroad with me—maybe the previous agreement of "don't leave him until the age of 30" , That's how it came about!

However, his father said: "I would rather not have this son, and it is absolutely impossible to send him abroad to be gay!" - because homosexuality is not a crime for me, but it is for him!

And his mother said: "He and Wenjun obviously like each other, but it's just to get angry with our parents. I don't believe that he really loves you more!"

I don't know if he is angry with his parents, I just know that he is really attracted to Chu Wenjun.Although so far, I believe that he still loves me the most, but there is pressure on one side and matchmaking on the other, it will be hard to say in time.

But I have no way out, I can only continue to wait helplessly until one day he comes back and tells me that he doesn't want me, maybe I can let him go.