Fall in love with special forces

When you live day by day in your thoughts, you will feel that time passes very slowly.But after a period of time, when you look back, you will find that the years really fly, and the time really flies, as if another year has passed in the blink of an eye.

Gao Tianlong once told me something like this: "Just relying on your stickiness, let Da Zhu take a break from the middle, and when I go to the army, you won't feel too uncomfortable!"

I think he is right.After all, in such a short period of time, I have experienced another man who is not inferior to him, so I really miss him this year, and I miss him all the time, but I don't think about it very hard.At least there is no such worrying and heart-wrenching as written in the novel.

Sometimes I think, if I held back and didn't have anything to do with Zhu Junhao that night, or if I went to sleep with Wu Kang after Zhu Junhao went to bed, would Gao Tianlong's attitude towards me be the same as now different?Will he be a little concerned about me, a little missing?

I have no idea.The fact is that I didn't go to sleep with Wu Kang, and I couldn't resist not having anything to do with Zhu Junhao.From a psychological point of view, Gao Tianlong was relieved of a lot of burdens.

So I think about Gao Tianlong every day, but I dare not assume that he will miss me too.

After a whole year passed, around eleventh, I began to look forward to it.Although he was very decisive towards me at the moment of separation, but I just need to be able to look at him again from a distance.

But after November, there was no news of him.Until the May Day holiday in the second year, I was about to graduate from high school, when suddenly one day, he appeared in front of my eyes.

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It was another weekend, but because it was a graduating class, we only had one day off on Sunday—the reason why we had another day off was actually to let us poor kids have time to go home to pay for meals.My parents already knew I was taking time off to care for an elderly person without special support, but they didn't say anything wrong.So that Sunday, I went down the mountain to the town as soon as I had lunch. When I got to grandma's house, I went to fetch water for grandma, but found that the water tank was full.The floor was swept, and even the bed sheets were cleaned.

"Tianlong is back. He came here yesterday and took all my sheets home to wash!" Grandma told me.

I was stunned, and I had an urge to run to find him, but for what reason did I go, saying that I missed him?When he left last time, he was already so indifferent to me, and what he was most afraid of was getting entangled with boys. If I took the initiative to go to his house, I would definitely be beaten by him like that "Zhou guy". Push it further without mercy!

So I just thought about it for a while, and finally just sat at grandma's house, talking with grandma.Until the sky gradually darkened, and it was time for self-study last night, I thought he would not come today, so I stood up and prepared to go back to school.

I couldn't catch up with the first evening self-study, but apart from school, I had no other place to rest.

So I pushed open grandma's door, and as soon as I walked out, I saw a person standing outside the door.

At this time, it was completely dark, and the place where grandma lived was remote, and there were no street lights.I couldn't see the man's face, but that tall and strong posture still made my heart "thump".

"Heaven... Tianlong, when did you come?" I blurted out.

"Why don't you go to school?" He didn't answer me, but asked me back.The voice is thick and magnetic, exactly what I want.

"I..." I wanted to lie, but knowing that I couldn't fool him, I still told the truth, "I want... to wait for you!"

"Wait for me? You knew I would definitely come?"

"I don't know, but... I dare not go to your house to find you!"

He looked at me, and although the light was dim, I lowered my head to his gaze.

"Xiao Le, is Tianlong coming?"

"It's me!" Gao Tianlong replied loudly, "Grandma, watch your TV, I'll have a word with Lele!"

Grandma answered inside.Gao Tianlong looked at me again, for a long time, and sighed slightly.

"Let's go!"

"Where are you going?" I was overjoyed, thinking he was going to take me back to his house.

"Send you back to school!" His answer disappointed me. "At this point, the first evening self-study will definitely not be able to catch up. You should catch up with the second class!"

"Anyway... I missed one class, and the second class... I don't want to attend either!"

"You don't want to go to class, what do you want to do?" He turned his face and glared at me again, "You still want to live in my house? My parents are not stupid, if you go again, do you think they won't notice anything?"

"I don't want to live at your house, I just... want to talk to you for a while!"

He didn't say anything more, walked forward quietly for a while, and sat down on a stone step by the side of the road, and I sat down next to him.

"Ms. Li... committed suicide!"

I actually don't want to bring up this topic, but after being silent for so long, I don't know what to say for a while.

"I know!" he replied. "He... wrote me a letter, and when I called back he had..."

His voice was very flat. Originally, Teacher Li's death was not his fault.But I think his heart must be far less plain than he appears on the surface.After all, Mr. Li is his very good friend, and he wrote him a letter before committing suicide, so one can imagine how much he thinks of him.

"Teacher Li told me, tell me to be sure...don't let anyone know...I'm gay too!"

As soon as I said a word, I suddenly felt sad, buried my face in my knees, and began to cry.

He didn't hug me to comfort me, and after I cried for a while, he became impatient instead.

"He's a good buddy of mine. I didn't cry. Why are you crying? Besides, I told you a long time ago... Homosexuality is too difficult. I told you not to fix it too early. Do you regret it now?"

"No, I..." I sniffed to stop myself from crying, "It's useless to regret, I knew that I like men since I was a child, but... I saw you in the Yantang that day, so I dared to confirm it !"

"So... or did I harm you?" He said coldly.

"That's not what I mean. Even without you, there will always be other men, then I... I'd rather be you!"

He was silent again for a while, then turned to look at me.

"You told Da Zhu...before you forget me, there won't be any man who is suitable for you, so now...have you forgotten me?"

I want to say yes, but I can't say it.It is obvious that I skipped class today and waited for him.So I shook my head and slowly lowered my head again.

"How can... forget? I miss you so much every day!"

Tears fell down my eyes again, but instead of pitying me, he stood up.

"Then I'd better stay away from you as soon as possible!"

Seeing that he was really about to walk, I panicked and hugged his leg.

"No, Tianlong!"

"What are you doing?" He looked at me from top to bottom, "I told you again and again that I would not be responsible for you, and you also promised that you would not pester me!"

"I didn't dare to pester you, I just... I just wanted to talk to you!" I looked at him pleadingly, completely forgetting my self-esteem, "Yes, I was thinking of you, so what This year... I haven't looked for anyone to inquire about you, I miss you, that's my business, and I haven't blamed you! And... I've thought about it many times since Mr. Li committed suicide I think what you said is right. You don’t let me get emotionally involved, and you don’t let yourself get emotionally involved. In fact... you are afraid of harming others and yourself! So, if you really don’t want to talk to me, I won’t I will pester you, I will...should get married in the future too!"

He looked at me for a long time, and still said a word coldly: "That sounds nice, then why did you hug my leg and not lose it?"

I froze.He can always be so direct, so hurtful.If I pester him again, it will only make him despise him even more!So I slowly let go of my hand.

"Okay then, it's fine!"

I looked up and smiled at him, turned my head and rested my chin on my lap.With all my might, I swallowed my tears, my shame, and my heartbreak.