Fall in love with special forces

To be honest, I didn't like the feeling in the bar that night.It's not because many boys and even grown men are staring at Gao Tianlong and Zhu Junhao, but no one pays attention to me and Su Yuguo.It's because of the dark, seemingly dark atmosphere in the bar, which makes me feel very depressed.In addition, those boys who are not inferior to me in appearance, I don’t know if it’s because the bar is too dark, I always feel that most of them have a kind of masculinity and femininity.Even Su Yuguo is the same.I didn't think he was "sissy" after playing outside for a day, but since Wang Tong and Zhang Xiaoru left, even he has shown a little bit of awkwardness.

Perhaps that is the feminine side of homosexuals, who dare not reveal it in broad daylight, and can only be completely released in this narrow space exclusively for homosexuals.

It is undeniable that I also have a feminine psychology, and I even thought about being Gao Tianlong's wife.Occasionally I would be coy, for example, when I blushed, Gao Tianlong would call me a "sissy" and say that I deliberately seduced people.But that's who I am.I knew I was a boy, and I never felt abnormal.But when I come here, looking at those boys who are coy and even raised their orchid fingers, thinking that I am one of them, I will feel that I, or homosexuals, are indeed abnormal.

So I don't like it here.

Gao Tianlong didn't seem to like it either.After barely sitting for a while, he called Zhu Junhao and Su Yuguo to leave the bar together.

Back to the hotel by taxi, Gao Tianlong was still in the room with me that night, while Zhu Junhao was with Su Yuguo.

Lying in Gao Tianlong's arms, I couldn't fall asleep for a while, so I called softly: "Tianlong!"

"What?" he replied invariably.

"Actually... homosexuality is nothing serious, right? Just look at the two girls, they treat us so well and say they will support us firmly!"

"What do you mean?" Gao Tianlong asked back.

"I think... maybe we take things too seriously!"

"You know what a fart!" He said disdainfully, "They firmly support us, which speaks for itself. If everyone thinks this is a normal thing, why should they support it? Let alone people like them There are too few people, and when you are a few years older, you will understand how much pressure the three words homosexuality will bring to you!"

I am speechless.I don't really understand what he said. I didn't dare to reveal the fact that I like men to anyone before.But I naively thought that the reason why Gao Tianlong refused to have feelings for boys, and even forbade me to have feelings for him, was probably because he knew that "homosexuality is too difficult". There is hope in the girl with a positive view. Even if he can't immediately upgrade me to his "couple", at least he is willing to try to accept my feelings.

But that can only be my naive wish.Gao Tianlong is nearly ten years older than me, and his understanding of this world is far beyond my reach.I'm a newborn calf and I'm not afraid of tigers, but he can't do anything for love like me!

Because life is not only about love, love is also inseparable from the world of mortals.But the world of mortals is far from being as tolerant and compassionate as I imagined.

I haven't understood this yet, but Gao Tianlong has already understood.

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The next day we went to a park in the city, but the two girls did not come with us again.Gao Tianlong and I were much more relaxed, but Zhu Junhao and Su Yuguo were not as lively as the day before.

Nothing special happened throughout the day, but Su Yuguo has been chasing Gao Tianlong since the morning.And Zhu Junhao coaxed me.But he has always been more considerate to me than Gao Tianlong, so I don't think there is anything wrong.

When he returned to the hotel at night, Xu was sweating during the day, and Gao Tianlong went into the bathroom to take a shower as soon as he came back.When he comes out, I will go in and wash too.But when I came out of the shower, there was no sign of Gao Tianlong in the room, and Zhu Junhao was watching TV instead, obviously he had already taken a shower.

"Where's Tianlong?" I asked him.

"You come first!"

I didn't know what he was doing mysteriously, so I ignored him.We booked a standard room with two beds, but Gao Tianlong and I slept on one bed for two nights, and the other bed was always empty, so I sat down on that empty bed.

Zhu Junhao looked at me with a smile and didn't speak.After a while, Gao Tianlong still didn't come back, so I couldn't help asking him again.

"Why did Tianlong go? You don't sleep, what are you doing here?"

"I'll tell you when you come here!" He looked at me with a smile, "We've done everything, why are you still so afraid of me?"

My face became hot, and I got up and sat down in front of his bed in anger.

"Now we can talk!"

He smiled, sat up and hugged me from behind me.He was only wearing underwear, and I was only wearing a pair of underwear after taking a shower. When I was hugged by him, I struggled quickly.

"What are you doing? Tianlong will be back in a while, let go!"

"Tianlong used to sleep with Su Yuguo! He's been here for two or three days, and he hasn't touched Su Yuguo yet!" Zhu Junhao hugged me and refused to let go, "Xiao Lele, let me accompany you tonight! In fact, compared with Su Yuguo , I still like you more!"

I was stiff all of a sudden!Although Gao Tianlong told me the day before yesterday that he wanted to "go to" Su Yuguo, he also said that he came to the city to play "this".But now that it really happened, I felt a heart-wrenching pain.

Worried, this is the first time in my life I have such a feeling.And because I was worried, there was a handsome and strong guy who hugged me and kissed me, but I didn't respond at all.

"Xiao Le, what's wrong with you today?" Zhu Junhao had already laid me flat on the bed, but my stiffness and numbness finally made him stop his movements on me, "Are you angry? Because... Tianlong With other boys? Believe me, Tianlong is most afraid of burdens. If you are free and easy, you can maintain a longer relationship with him! If... you care about making him your boyfriend, he Soon I won’t even dare to touch you again!”

I know he's telling the truth, but looking at his handsome face, I'm really not interested at all.So I try to push him away and he obediently rolls away from me and I sit up.

"What are you doing?" he asked me.

"Go to sleep! I'll put on my clothes first." I replied.

"You hate me so much!" He jumped off the bed and stopped me from getting dressed.

"I..." I endured it, and told the truth, "If I hate you, I don't need to wear clothes!"

"Are you afraid that when I want you in the middle of the night, you won't be able to resist?" He raised his eyebrows proudly.I didn't say a word, and he went on to say, "Why don't you sleep in your bed and I sleep in mine. I swear I won't touch you tonight, okay?"

I looked up at him, and saw his bright eyes looking at me, so I still shook my head stubbornly: "Then I have to put on my clothes too!"

"Why do you do this?" Zhu Junhao stretched out his hand to touch my face, "Xiao Le, I like you, and I like you more and more! Since you also said... I'm not ugly, and I don't hate you, why are you twisting like this? Why don't you try So... like me a little more? Maybe, I am more suitable for you than Tianlong!"

His voice was very gentle, so gentle that I almost softened into his temptation again.But when I thought of Gao Tianlong pushing me to other men, and holding another boy in my arms next door, the heart-wrenching feeling made me stiff again.

But this is not the most important reason.A more important reason is that I already know that Gao Tianlong actually doesn't want me to have anything to do with other men.And as long as he doesn't want to, I can't indulge myself a second time.

It's not that I want to be chaste for him, but I want to get some respect from him.

"Zhu Junhao, you are right, Gao Tianlong...maybe really not suitable for me, because he doesn't allow himself to suit anyone at all! But...I saw him first, and before I forget him, there won't be any man ...it suits me!"

I lowered my head, feeling a little sour in my heart and wanted to cry.But I was afraid that if I cried, Zhu Junhao would have more reason to hug me and not lose me, so I endured it and went back.

Zhu Junhao was also obviously a little stiff, staring at me for a long time before saying a word.

"Xiao Le, how old are you? How could you say such a thing? Don't get yourself too deep, it will hurt yourself!"

"I know!" I looked up, pretending to be relaxed, "So... From now on, I'm ready to forget him as much as possible!"

He is silent.After a while, he finally left me.

"You don't need to wear clothes. Yesterday at the bar, a boy left me a call. I didn't want to talk to them at first, but since you won't let me touch them, I'd better go find them!" He got up and put on his clothes, turned around and asked When I went out, I turned around and looked at me again, "It's a pity that I didn't let you see me first!"

He opened the door and went out.I froze for a while, then slowly lay down on the bed.Imagining the situation of Gao Tianlong and Su Yuguo "upside down" next door, the painful feeling slowly gnawed at my heart again.