Fall in love with special forces

In the evening, I went to the gay bar as promised.

The so-called gay bar is a bar that specializes in gay business.The facade is small, and there are no big billboards.During the day, a rolling gate is opened, and at night, the rolling gate is opened, revealing only a narrow glass door.It's dimly lit inside and the music isn't too loud.

Of course, I heard that some well-known gay bars in big cities will also be very ostentatious, with singing and dancing inside, and a very stylish appearance.But those occasions are rare, and most gay bars are just like the one I described.

And when a few of us pushed open the glass door to enter, and went up a short staircase to the lobby, the few guests in the lobby all looked back at us.

The light was really dim, and flickered slightly, making it hard to see the faces clearly.But there were two girls with us who were always instantly recognizable, so everyone in the lobby seemed taken aback.A waiter came up to greet him and said in a low voice, "Several... We don't accept female customers here!"

"We know!" Wang Tong said generously, "Don't worry, the four of them are comrades, and we are their good friends, just come and see them together!"

"That's it!"

The waiter was visibly relieved and ushered us to a table to sit down.Several people passed the menu to each other, ordered a few bottles of beer, and a few plates of snacks.

I glanced around quietly, and the guests were all quiet, most of them occupied a table with one or two people, and their eyes were looking around.There were only four boys at our table, plus two girls.

I saw a lot of people looking at us.Firstly, it may be because we have two girls here, and secondly, Gao Tianlong and Zhu Junhao are tall and mighty, and the third one cannot be found in the bar.In comparison, Su Yuguo and I are not ugly, but they are not so attractive.

Later, two boys at a table got up and went down to dance in the arena. Wang Tong and Zhang Xiaoru immediately encouraged us to dance too.It doesn't matter to Zhu Junhao, if he pulls Su Yuguo, he will end.Wang Tong simply pushed Gao Tianlong, and Gao Tianlong said: "Mountain people don't know how to dance!"

"No, you dare not?"

Zhang Xiaoru resorted to aggressive tactics, but Gao Tianlong ignored it.

To be honest, I also think it's weird for two men to dance together, but if Gao Tianlong is willing to dance with me, that's another matter.

It's a pity that he refused to dance, and I didn't dare to ask for it, so I could only turn around and watch Zhu Junhao dance with Su Yuguo.

"Xiao Le, do you want to dance?" Zhang Xiaoru didn't know what to think, "Look, someone over there has been paying attention to you for a long time. Since Gao Kushuai refuses to dance with you, you can find someone else to dance with!"

I was startled, and I didn't dare to see if someone was really paying attention to me, so I shook my head quickly.

"No, I can't dance, and I don't want to!"

"You two are so boring!" Wang Tong pretended to be a resentful woman, "It's been a whole day, and you don't look like a couple at all!"

couple?

If Gao Tianlong can treat me as a couple, I would be willing to sacrifice my life.But it's a pity, not to mention lovers, even he barely recognizes "boyfriend".

"Gao Kushuai, in this world... Is there anything you really care about?" Zhang Xiaoru suddenly asked.

Gao Tianlong still ignored this sentence.And I, in front of the two girls, felt a sense of melancholy and frustration slowly flowing through my heart.

"Actually, Xiao Le," Zhang Xiaoru immediately saw my frustration again, "Don't be discouraged! Once a person like him cares, he is the kind of person who will never let go. So you work harder, I will Good on you!"

I smiled, it was a wry smile.Although I have been with Gao Tianlong for more than ten days, I can't understand him at all. Correspondingly, at least in front of him, I can't be optimistic about myself.

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The two girls didn't stay with us very late at the bar. At about ten o'clock, Wang Tong's cell phone rang. I don't know if it was her family or her boyfriend urging her to go back. The two girls got up and said goodbye.Gao Tianlong showed a gentlemanly demeanor at this time, and asked if he wanted to see them off. The two girls said no, they would fight when they went out, so Gao Tianlong didn't force it.

As soon as the two girls left, several young boys approached our table.A few even asked Gao Tianlong and Zhu Junhao for a call in front of me and Su Yuguo.Gao Tianlong didn't give them their phone number, but only left the phone number of the most handsome one among them.

And what about Zhu Junhao?Almost everyone is welcome!As long as you ask him for a phone call, he will give it to you.

On the contrary, Su Yuguo and I hardly paid any attention to anyone.I can still justify being ignored, because none of the boys who showed courteousness to Gao Tianlong and Zhu Junhao were no worse than me.But Su Yuguo also lacks interest, so I feel a little wronged.Because at least in my opinion, there are many handsome guys in the bar, but the most beautiful one is still none other than Su Yuguo.

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It wasn't until many years later that I came into contact with more and more "same" people that I suddenly realized.The cold reception Su Yuguo and I suffered that night was the most miserable thing for most homosexuals.

Of course, homosexuals have a lot of suffering, for example, not being understood and accepted by the world; for example, because we are not understood and accepted by the world, we dare not expose our truest side to the sun, sometimes knowing that there are other people around us. Homosexuals, we dare not take the initiative to speak out, let alone express our love to each other.As a result, many homosexuals may not find a lover throughout their lives, and may not even have the opportunity to really contact a "same" kind.

For example, Teacher Li, he must have already guessed that Gao Tianlong is gay, and Gao Tianlong also knew that he was a long time ago.However, until now, neither of them dared to pierce the window paper.

But this is not the most painful thing for homosexuals.Take the relationship between men and women as an example, a man is a man, and a woman is a woman.But for homosexuals, they are a minority group, and they have to be divided into "offensive" and "shou", and by no means all homosexuals can do "offensive" and "shou".

This is the most important thing!

That day Zhu Junhao told Zhang Xiaoru that in real life there are much more "shou" than "gong", and most "gong" can be "shou", but most "shou" cannot be "gong".He's right, because gay men are gay because they have a man's body and a feminine mind - only more or less a feminine mind!As far as the vast majority of gay men are concerned, femininity is very heavy, and they all want to be possessed and protected-this is the so-called "suffering", and basically it is "pure receiving" that cannot be "offensive". ".And the other small part, even if they can do "attack" physically, psychologically speaking, when they encounter another more powerful "attack", they would rather be "shou".Therefore, in real life, the situation of "compatibility between offense and suffering" is rare. The most common situation in real life is that two homosexuals finally meet, but they are "suffering" and have a blind date.

This is the real reason why no one paid any attention to Su Yuguo and I that night, but Gao Tianlong and Zhu Junhao were like stars.Because there are more "responses" and less "attacks", especially "pure attacks" like the two of them are even rarer!

Homosexuality has many sufferings, but this is the worst of them all.