not to die

But Lin Mu's life was delayed.

Everything was blamed on him, so even if Lin Mu and Shen Fu thought he was a male/dog in heat, what did it matter?

He likes men, which is already a sin.

Shen Qu didn't drive, he silently walked down the road at the entrance of the hospital.

Meng Andong was in trouble at home. He had just hung up the old man's call to invite him to the engagement scene tomorrow, when Meng Gengyu sent a text message.

[Eight o'clock tonight. 】

Really impatient, he fell on his back on the sofa and looked at the dusty chandelier.

This is not the case at Xiaobai's house, Meng Andong smiled wryly. After returning to China, he often went to Zheng Bai's place, and several times he ran into their house cleaning.

"No way, my daughter-in-law has a cleanliness."

He was obviously an extremely sloppy guy, but he changed for another person.How nice, there was a little warmth in Meng Andong's eyes, and it disappeared in a blink of an eye.

He thought of Shen Qu's home, at least the former home.It is poor and simple, but it becomes like a home because of the presence of teenagers in the house.

It doesn't matter whether it is shelter from the wind or rain, as long as there is you, this home is a home.

Meng Andong sighed, as if he had drawn out all the years of depression, and couldn't control his grief for a while.

He never had another chance like this, and he could only watch his teenager walk into the church on the arm of another man.

That home can only exist in that wet night when I was young.

Shen Qu will have a good life, Meng Andong thinks this way, this will probably become his only consolation in this life.

Meng Andong stood up, the suit was still on the table, he thought he didn't need it anymore.

Zheng Bai and Meng Andong went to have a big drink tonight, and Gao Yan didn't say anything when they came back, probably Zheng Bai let her through before.The soft and sticky little girl didn't dislike Meng Andong out of face, she rubbed in his arms for a while before letting Gao Yan carry her away.

Hearing the sound of the door closing, Meng Andong lazily leaned on the sofa, turned his head and looked out of the window, his voice became hoarse for a moment: "You are so happy, boy."

Zheng Bai drank less than Meng Andong. He knew why Meng Andong was depressed, so when Meng Andong came to look for him in the afternoon, he simply took people to the food stall.The two men in suits and leather shoes insisted on ordering a large plate of skewers at the side of the road. At first they ordered a beer, but Meng Andong couldn't stop drinking it.Zheng Bai was reluctant to stop him, he felt that people like Meng Andong live too soberly, and sometimes they are more comfortable when they are drunk.

Gao Yan put the little guy on the bed, hugged the quilt and came out, quietly brewed a cup of sober tea and put it on the coffee table, then closed the door and went in to coax the little girl.Seeing Meng Andong like this, Zheng Bai felt sad for a while.

"I said Young Master Meng, when was the last time you were drunk?"

Meng Andong blinked, but didn't answer.

He grabbed the quilt and hid inside, his face happened to be illuminated by a piece of moonlight coming in.

Zheng Bai just turned around to bring him sober tea, but was startled when he turned around.

Meng Andong was like a child who had lost his toy, crying unbelievably.

"Three years ago... three years ago... I said I loved him..."

"But he doesn't know...you can't let him know..."

"Come on," Zheng Bai grabbed a few pieces of paper and threw them on Meng Andong's face, feeling very uncomfortable. This is his elder brother who has been with him for more than ten years, how could he cry like this in front of him, "Where is the end of the world? Fangcao, right? Shen Qu can't see you..."

Meng Andong's tears stuck the paper to his face, Zheng Bai looked ridiculous, and tore off the paper towel again.

"I can never be with him again."

This sentence was said very neatly, with an indescribable feeling.Zheng Bai was stunned when he heard that, he sighed, helped Meng Andong to lie down again, and asked: "You two... To be honest, it's not really impossible to be together, how did you get into this situation?"

Meng Andong stopped crying and closed his eyes.

Zheng Bai thought he was asleep, stared at him for a long while, and was about to move when he was startled again.

"I want him to live a better life. I thought he would live a better life in the Zhang family."

"But you think...it's just you think..."

Meng Andong opened his eyes suddenly, and he stared blankly at the void.

It was very quiet in the room.

Suddenly there was the sound of the mobile phone vibrating, Zheng Bai looked at the door, and said as he walked, "Is that your mobile phone? Who can make a call now..."

"Hey……"

"Meng Andong, Shen Qu is gone... Please, tell me where he went..." It was Lin Mu, she was crying in despair.

Zheng Bai's hand holding the phone froze, and immediately turned to Meng Andong, regardless of whether he would wake up his little ancestor, he yelled at that time.

"Meng Andong, Shen Qu has escaped!"

Zheng Bai was still worried after Meng Andong started the car.

"If you are not allowed to drive, you have to drag this old antique out. If something happens, who will tell your father!"

"You." Meng Andong became more awake amidst the loud roar of the locomotive. He dialed Lin Mu's phone and raised his head towards Zheng Baiyi, "Go to sleep." He said and walked away.

Lin Mu's other end was quickly connected, perhaps because of the earphones, Meng Andong felt that the woman's crying was really disturbing.

"What happened? Aren't you getting engaged tomorrow?"

"I will never let Shen Qu sign any treaties again...never again...I beg you to let him come back..."

treaty?Meng Andong frowned, but now is not the time to pursue this. He sighed and said, "Why did he disappear? When was the last time you saw him?"

"The hospital...it was in the hospital...he ran away because of my anger." Lin Mu's condition was also very bad, and his breathing became more and more rapid. "After I woke up, they all said that Shen Qu ran away..."

If possible, Meng Andong really wanted to grab Lin Mu by the neck and pull her over to ask her.He stopped the car and asked, "What was the last time you saw him?"

"I... I just like him! Why does Shen Qu have to like Meng Andong! I just want him to like me for once, can't I?" Lin Mu was already hysterical, but her physical condition obviously did not allow her to do so , Meng Andong had faintly heard the doctor's stern reprimand, "I just asked him to promise to keep a distance from other men... and your bastard Meng's family. What's wrong with me!"

The worst plan in Meng Andong's heart has gradually formed, he sneered, and cursed: "Fuck you/Mom/B."

He thought he probably knew where Shen Qu had gone.

Meng Andong's eyes were red, and he rushed out like the wind.

Shen Qu, if you f/m have trouble, I'll kill everyone.

There is such a bar street that is neither long nor short in this city. I don’t know when the bars in it have become gay bars.Meng Andong went to look for Shen Qu's shadow.But after visiting once, he was disappointed. He found that there was a person in his heart who could not be replaced.Even if the nose or eyes or mouth are similar, it is not what he wants after all.

He has an intuition that Shen Qu is here, and coming here to humiliate himself is also giving up on himself.So when Meng Andong walked into the first bar, his eyes were red, and the waiter at the door wanted to stop him but didn't dare to stop him, so he let him go.Meng Andong wanted to grab everyone by their collars and ask where Shen Qu was, but after turning around, he didn't find any sign of Shen Qu, but a little boy in low-slung jeans bumped into his arms.

"Sir, are you looking for someone? Who are you looking for? I can ask for you." Seeing that Meng Andong didn't seem to be here for indulgence, he found a new excuse and refused to let him go.

Meng Andong glanced at him, then thought that this bar street is not small, and he would definitely not be able to find Shen Qu for a while, so he asked, "Have you ever been here to a tall, thin, beautiful-eyed... anyway... Just a good-looking man?"

It was only after he said it that Meng Andong realized that in his heart, the definition of Shen Qu for so many years was still good.

"Let me think about it..." The boy's eyeballs rolled around, and he almost sniffed the money on Meng Andong. When Meng Andong threw a red ticket, he smiled, "I listen to Ah Kun from 'BLUE' Having said that, they went to a strange man yesterday, who only drank and didn't talk... But I guess he should be drunk by this time..."

Meng Andong turned around and ran out the door, all the way in.

"BLUE" is quite famous on this street, with high consumption and good service, which is different from those small bars where you can dance disco when you go in.This restaurant is mainly aimed at mid-to-high-end people, and Meng Andong also visited it before.

Just when the pack of wolves was on the move, Meng Andong glanced at the luxury cars parked in front of "BLUE", his eyelids twitched a few times, he straightened his clothes and walked in.

He saw Shen Qu from a distance.

Probably drunk, the suit jacket was hanging on the side, and the button of the shirt had been unbuttoned to his chest. He raised his head and drank a glass, the wine dripped down his lips, and his lips were stained like jelly.His eyes were shining, perhaps because of the light, or perhaps because of tears.The corners of the eyes are slightly red, even a casual glance is very attractive.He didn't know where to stare, and suddenly smiled, tears fell down.

Heartbreaking.

Such a Shen Qu will naturally have many people staring at him, probably many people are waiting for him to get drunk.

Meng Andong didn't give those people a chance, he walked over and stood in front of Shen Qu.

Shen Qu raised his eyebrows and glanced at him, took another sip of wine, and then continued to look up at him.

"You...you're not bad, you fit my eyes." Shen Qu wiped away his tears and raised the corners of his lips, "Are you interested in playing with me... Anyway, I don't care, whoever you love... I don't think I'm (