Grass and Bamboo Horse

Ten years later, at the beginning of summer, it was raining lightly, and the quiet village was shrouded in peace.

Han Xuan stood abruptly in the village's crop field holding an umbrella. He looked at the vast land in front of him. It was drizzling and the sky was gray.

After leaving his hometown for two years and returning here again, Han Xuan's heart felt empty and silent.

Two years ago, he had just finished the college entrance examination, and before the scores came down, his grandmother who had always loved him passed away. At that time, after a long time of grief, he finally packed his bags and left here to start a long working life.

The past happened just like yesterday. Han Xuan looked at the village for the last time. It seemed that he could never go back to his childhood. When he grew up, he was no longer the one who hopped out with a vegetable basket to deliver food to neighbors. Fat silly boy, everything is in the past, the past that he can never go back to.

Back home in the town, my father was not there, and my mother was eating melon seeds in the living room while watching TV. Seeing Han Xuan, my mother put down the melon seeds in her hand, and asked with a smile, "Where did you go for a walk in this rainy day?"

"Just go out and take a walk." Han Xuan put away the umbrella, raised his hand to wipe off the water droplets on his face, walked into the bathroom, found a clean towel and wiped it off.

After wiping, Han Xuan went back to the room, changed into clean clothes, and packed up. At this time, the door was pushed open and his mother walked in.

Han Xuan didn't look up when he was packing his things, "Why did you pack up your things just after you came back, and watch TV when you come out? Mom has something to tell you," Ye Hong said as he went up and trimmed Han Xuan's collar affectionately.

"I'll pack up a little stuff in a while," Han Xuan said, looking up at his mother, "I'll be back in city A in a while, the train at 08:30 in the evening,"

Ye Hong was taken aback, "It's not like I just came back yesterday, why should I leave?"

"Get to work early."

Ye Hong got a little annoyed and reached out to grab the clothes that Han Xuan was packing up, "It doesn't matter if you don't make it to that class, I know it's not a good thing for you to hang out with that Xu Yuanhang."

Han Xuan didn't speak, but lowered his head and continued to tidy up. Ye Hong knew that he was a bit rushed, so he said softly, "Xiao Xuan, listen to Mom, go and quit your job in the bar, and Mom will find you around here. A place to learn a craft, okay?"

Han Xuan zipped up the packed bag, "Mom, City A is pretty good, I don't want to come back to work yet."

Ye Hong pulled up a chair and sat down, "Xiaoxuan, but mom wants you to come back, and mom doesn't worry about you being outside alone. She is saying that you are 20 years old and you can find someone. Today, the next door is Director Zhang. Come here and say that when you came back yesterday, she saw her and insisted on introducing someone to you. I heard that she is nice, do you want to meet?" Ye Hong asked tentatively, then raised her hand to answer Han Xuan's words. Clothes, "I really didn't expect our Xiaoxuan to become so handsome when he grew up," Ye Hong seemed a little proud when she said that, yes, who would have thought that the stupid and fat boy at the beginning would lose weight now.

Han Xuan unzipped the bag again, reached out and took out an envelope from the bag and handed it to Ye Hong, "I didn't bring you anything when I came back, but there is 5000 yuan in it, for you and my dad, if you like Use this money to buy anything.”

Ye Hong was taken aback, and looked up at Han Xuan. This child came back for the first time since he ran out to work two years ago. Before Han Xuan was in the country, she never worried, because she knew that as long as she wanted a child, she would always Going back to see him, but after Han Xuan went out to work, she really missed Han Xuan in the past two years. Her heart was like a heart, and she was looking forward to his return every day. Now that the child is back, her heart is at ease again. But Han Xuan's actions made him feel relieved and sad. He was relieved that the child was filial to her, but sad that he had abandoned him.

In fact, Ye Hong also knew that Han Xuan had complaints about her and Han Wenhua in his heart, but everything in the past had already happened and there was no way to turn around. If you have your own opinion, you don't need them anymore.

Seeing the envelope handed over by Han Xuan, Ye Hong didn't reach out to take it, "Your father and I are not short of money, you can keep it for yourself," Ye Hong had tears in his eyes, "Xiaoxuan is really sensible," Ye Hong said with a smile. He walked out of the room in tears.

The light rain outside the house pattered on the window sill, and the sky gradually darkened. Han Xuan checked the time, and it was almost five o'clock. He put the envelope on the desk, and walked out of the room with his bag.

At this time, Ye Hong was sitting on the sofa in the living room, holding a tissue in his hand and lowering his head to wipe the corners of his eyes, "Mom, I'm leaving," Han Xuan said, then picked up the umbrella by the door and walked out.

"Xiaoxuan, it's still raining outside, so we can't leave in a few days," Ye Hong seemed anxious.

"No, you and Dad take care of your health," Han Xuan said, opened the umbrella and walked out.

Ye Hong rushed to the door anxiously, "Your brother's school is on summer vacation, and he will be back tomorrow."

"I'll call him," Han Xuan said before disappearing into the gray rain curtain.

Ye Hong looked at Han Xuan's back, and sighed deeply.

Han Xuan was carrying a bag in one hand and an umbrella in the other. He was walking on the road in the town in the light rain. When the bus ahead came, Han Xuan put his bag on his shoulder and waved to the bus.

After getting on the bus, there was no one on board. Han Xuan found a seat by the window and sat down. Such a scene and such weather reminded Han Xuan of the scene when he left his hometown two years ago.

On that day, it was also raining lightly in city A. The 18-year-old stood alone at the exit of the train station in city A with his luggage on his back. Only then did he realize that he had nowhere to go. Where should he go in such a huge city?Looking at the heavy traffic on the road, this feeling of no sense of belonging made him a little lonely and helpless.

After an all-night train, Han Xuan finally returned to the city at 5:[-] in the morning. At the exit, Xu Yuanhang had been waiting there for a long time. When he saw Han Xuan, he waved his arms excitedly and shouted; " Xiaoxuan, Xiaoxuan, here, come quickly."

Seeing Xu Yuanhang's exaggerated movements, Han Xuan smiled helplessly and walked over, "Brother Yuanhang."

Xu Yuanhang reached out and brought the bag in Han Xuan's hand, "Why did you come back so early?"

"I'm afraid you will starve to death alone." Han Xuan said with a smile. Xu Yuanhang doesn't know how to cook, and he is also very lazy. If he is hungry at home alone, he can deal with it by eating whatever he wants. Han Xuan has never understood Why was Xu Yuanhang able to indulge himself like this? Until one time, when he was drunk, he was forced to chat with him in the living room after returning home. At that time, he knew that Xu Yuanhang, who was a child, became a man after his parents divorced. A child who has no one to take care of, eats and wears all by himself. Occasionally, his busy father sends him some money when he goes home, so his food and clothes have always been bought with money.

"That's right, Xiaoxuan is still good to me." Xu Yuanhang said happily.

Walking out of the train station, the sky was not bright yet, and it was gray. Han Xuan followed Xu Yuanhang and walked on the train station square. He remembers that when he was 18 years old, he came to this distant city for the first time. On that day, he broke through the rain curtain alone and plucked up the courage to walk out of the train station. At that time, he was full of love for this city. Apart from fear and curiosity, two years have passed in the blink of an eye.

It was past six o'clock when we returned to the rented house. Xu Yuanhang put down his luggage and sat down on the sofa, "I didn't go to bed until [-] o'clock last night, and I woke up at [-] o'clock in the morning. I can't do it anymore. I have to go back to sleep."

"Go to bed after breakfast, I see the bun shop downstairs has opened." Han Xuan said.

At this time, Han Xuan's cell phone rang, and he took out the cell phone in his trouser pocket to take a look, it was his mother calling.

"Well, mom." Han Xuan answered the phone and said, "I'm already here."

Here, Ye Hong is standing in the living room with a mobile phone in his hand, Han Wenhua is sitting on the sofa listening to his wife calling, and there is an envelope on the coffee table in front of him.

"Your father and I both saw the money in the envelope. Your father said that we won't use the money. He will save it for you and return it to you when you get married." Ye Hong tightened her hands said the phone.

Han Wenhua, who was sitting on the sofa, finally couldn't hold it back. He reached out to pick up the envelope on the table, and took out the money in the envelope. Looking at the hundred-yuan bills, Han Wenhua felt a little uncomfortable. He never thought that one day The youngest son would be so filial to him. I still remember the moment he opened the gate of the yard the day before yesterday. The tall, thin and handsome boy standing at the door was actually the stupid and ugly little son back then. That boy called him "Dad" calmly. Let him stand there for a while.

Han Wenhua remembers that when Han Xuan left home at the age of 18, he also weighed about 200 catties. How did he lose so much weight in just two years? What has this child experienced outside?Han Wenhua's brows were tightly knit together, he couldn't imagine how his honest and not smart young son survived in such a realistic society.

Here Han Xuan hung up the phone and stood in the living room in a daze. Xu Yuanhang looked up at Han Xuan, "What did your mother tell you? You are so absent-minded, come, sit down and rest, I will take your luggage Put it back in the room."

"Well, thank you Yuanhang brother," Han Xuan said.

"Are you polite with your brother?"

Han Xuan smiled at him.

After breakfast, Xu Yuanhang went to bed. Han Xuan was also very tired from the overnight train ride. He took a shower and hid in his room to sleep.

I don't know how long I slept, but it was already noon when Han Xuan woke up. He opened the door of the room and walked out. He saw Xu Yuanhang standing on the balcony of the living room, and he didn't know who he was talking on the phone with.

Han Xuan turned around and went into the bathroom to wash his face. When he came out of the bathroom, Xu Yuanhang had already hung up the phone and stood on the balcony in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.

"What are you doing?" Han Xuan asked behind Xu Yuanhang.

Xu Yuanhang, who was still in a trance, turned his head to look behind him when he heard the voice, and pursed his lips, "It's nothing, you woke up, did you get enough sleep?"

"Well," Han Xuan looked at the time, "It's already noon, let's go have some lunch, and I'll go shopping and cook in the evening."

"I'm not hungry yet, you go and eat, I'm still going to bed," Xu Yuanhang said as he picked up his phone and walked towards the room.

Han Xuan looked at Xu Yuanhang's back, and he saw that Xu Yuanhang had something on his mind.