Grass and Bamboo Horse

In the afternoon, Han Xuan went to a nearby vegetable market to buy vegetables. When Han Xuan bought the vegetables and returned home, Xu Yuanhang had already gotten up and was standing in front of the bathroom mirror brushing his teeth. Seeing Han Xuan coming back, he ignored the toothpaste foam in his mouth and repeatedly pointed at Han Xuan He smiled and said, "It's been hard work, it's been hard work."

"Brush your teeth and get you," Han Xuan said while putting the dishes in the refrigerator.

In the evening, after Xu Yuanhang ate to his heart's content, he got a haircut, changed his shoes, and went to work. Han Xuan cleaned the house, watched TV in the living room, and went to sleep.

At about one o'clock in the middle of the night, Han Xuan woke up from the nightmare. He turned on the light in the room and looked at the ceiling with empty eyes. In the nightmare just now, he dreamed that he was alone and helpless on the streets of this city. Don't know who you are?I don't know where I'm going?That kind of hesitation, fear, and loneliness are vividly tormenting his heart, and everything seems to be happening for real.

After a long time, he got up and walked out of the room, and found that Xu Yuanhang's room was pitch-black. He turned on the light and looked, but Xu Yuanhang hadn't come back from get off work yet.

Walking into the living room, Han Xuan curled up on the sofa in the living room. What happened more than a year ago came to his mind like a tide. He didn't know how he survived those days of loneliness and fear.

He buried his head between his knees, and the only sound in the dark living room was the ticking of the wall clock on the wall.

I don't know how long it took until Xu Yuanhang came home from get off work and turned on the light in the living room. Han Xuan raised his head and stared at Xu Yuanhang without blinking, "Why is it a little late today?" Han Xuan asked in a low voice.

"I went to have some barbecue with Xiaowei and the others after get off work, why haven't you slept yet?" Xu Yuanhang put down his bag and sat down on the sofa.

"It's nothing, I can't sleep, I think of some past things.".

Only then did Xu Yuanhang realize that Han Xuan seemed to have something on his mind, "What's wrong? Did something happen?"

Han Xuan lowered his head and said nothing for a long time, "Brother Yuanhang, do I want to change jobs?"

"Did someone bully you in the bar?"

"No, no," Han Xuan quickly explained, "I want to work in a bar and it's not a long-term solution, so I want to change jobs."

"Then have you decided on a job?" Xu Yuanhang said, lighting a cigarette.

"Not yet, I plan to go out and have a look in a few days."

"After taking these few days of annual leave, I'm making plans, and I'm not in a hurry to find a job,"

"Well, Brother Yuanhang, it's getting late, you wash up and go to bed early, I'm going to bed." Han Xuan stood up and walked towards the room.

Watching Han Xuan walk into the room, Xu Yuanhang didn't go to take a shower, he took a glass of boiling water and walked onto the balcony.

In the dead of night, Xu Yuanhang stood quietly on the balcony alone, wondering what he was thinking.

I don't know how long it has passed, but there was a morning breeze blowing on the balcony at night, causing Xu Yuanhang to shudder, which brought him back to his thoughts. He raised the cup in his hand, took a sip of boiling water, turned around and walked to the bathroom After the 5-day annual leave, Han Xuan went back to the bar and quit his job. Xu Yuanhang sent him out of the bar, told him to be careful on the way back, and then turned back to work in the bar.

Han Xuan was walking home alone. Without a job, he suddenly felt that a burden on his body was gone, as if he didn't even have a place in his heart. What job would he do next, and how should he plan his life?He didn't know, he was very confused, Han Xuan looked at the feasting lights on both sides of the road, what should he do with his life.

Downstairs in the community where Han Xuan lives, there is a commercial street. Every night, it is very lively. After Han Xuan came out of the bar, he did not go home. He walked slowly on this commercial street by himself.

At the end of the commercial street is a large supermarket. At this time, it was already dark, and the billboard outside the supermarket was huge and shiny. On the billboard was an old woman with white hair and a slightly stooped back. Holding a vegetable basket in his hand, standing on the aisle of the vegetable field in the supermarket, it seems that he is carefully selecting.

Han Xuan stood under the billboard, staring at the billboard for a long time. He thought of his grandma, his hometown, and his childhood playmates. If he could turn back time, he really wanted to Back when he was a child, when grandma was still alive, he could act like a baby with grandma, and he could go to and from school with Brother Wu Yong every day. That happy and beautiful childhood will never go back.

Han Xuan raised his hand and touched the wooden fish hanging on his chest. The word Wu Yong had obvious grooves on the wooden fish. Han Xuan had never taken off this wooden fish since he put it on when he was ten years old.

A colleague who used to work in a bar accidentally saw the wooden fish hanging around his neck and laughed at him for a long time, "It's not a child, who still hangs this thing now."

Han Xuan didn't pay attention to it, he wore his, and others laughed at other people's.

As time went by, Han Xuan frequently appeared on the university campus recently. After quitting his job, Han Xuan was at a loss for a while. During that period of time, he didn't go out for almost a whole day except to go shopping for vegetables. In the end, he didn't think clearly about himself. In the end, he found a restaurant near the university town to help deliver food.

He is only a part-time worker, and he is only responsible for delivering food every day. His boss pays him 80 yuan a day.

Since the restaurant is located near the university town, most of the people who order meals are college students in the school. Therefore, Han Xuan has to go in and out of the university several times a day. After a period of time, there are several universities nearby. All the guards knew him well.

At around five o'clock in the afternoon on this day, Han Xuan sent a takeaway to S University. S University is the university with the best environment in the nearby university town. Weeping willows are planted on both sides of the road at the school gate. The weeping willow swaying in the wind, and Han Xuan's delivery bicycle is locked under the weeping willow.

Han Xuan had just walked out of the campus after delivering the food, and saw a tall, thin and tall boy standing beside his bicycle not far away. This boy had short hair and a handsome and resolute face. He was holding a cigarette in his hand and was talking on the phone. Han Xuan looked at him in a daze. The boy probably sensed that someone was looking at him. He raised his hand to smoke a cigarette, and turned his head to look at Han Xuan.

Looking at each other, Han Xuan was taken aback for a moment, the boy glanced at Han Xuan, then turned his head and continued to make a phone call, Han Xuan walked over to unlock the bicycle after being slightly taken aback, ready to go back to the restaurant.

On the way back to the restaurant, Han Xuan was riding on his bicycle. His mind kept replaying the look that boy under the weeping willow tree looked at him just now, which was too familiar and deja vu.

When I get home from work in the evening, Xu Yuanhang usually gets off work at one o’clock at night. Han Xuan goes to bed early after taking a shower. The rain in early summer comes as soon as it is said, and suddenly it rains heavily in the middle of the night. The sound of rain wakes up Han Xuan who is still sleeping soundly. Han Xuan wakes up After checking the time at 3:[-] in the morning, he got up from the bed and closed the balcony window.

Back in the living room, I saw the door of Xu Yuanhang's room was wide open, and it was pitch black inside. Han Xuan turned on the light in his room, and the neat bedding in the room was still the same as it was folded by Han Xuan in the morning, and Xu Yuanhang hadn't come back yet.

It's already past the off-duty time, Xu Yuanhang never stays out at night, and he came back at 2 o'clock at the latest. Han Xuan took out his mobile phone and called Xu Yuanhang several times in a row, but the phone was turned off. In the middle of the night, the people who were supposed to go home from work hadn't come back yet. Han Xuan felt a little anxious and uneasy. He went back to his room to change his clothes, took an umbrella and hurried out. The rain outside was heavier than he imagined. Many times, Han Xuan could feel the force of the rain on the umbrella cloth.

On a dark rainy night, under the dim street lights, it is extraordinarily quiet. The rainwater overflowing from the wide road is flowing everywhere, and there is no pedestrian on the road. If you look carefully, you will find that there is only a tall and thin person in the distance on the road. The boy struggled forward in the heavy rain while looking for an umbrella.

Under the rain, Han Xuan walked along his usual way to go to work in the bar. If Xu Yuanhang went to work according to the normal working hours, then he was either in the bar at this time, or he was on the way home, Han Xuan thought so in his heart.

Sure enough, not far from the bar, Han Xuan found Xu Yuanhang under the balcony of a supermarket. He was drunk, smelled of alcohol, lying unconscious under the balcony of the supermarket and fell asleep.

Han Xuan glanced at the pouring rain outside, then at the drunk and unconscious Xu Yuanhang, he patted Xu Yuanhang's face, trying to wake him up, otherwise they would have no way to go back.

Han Xuan patted Xu Yuanhang, Xu Yuanhang may have slept here for a long time, his face was cold, Han Xuan continued to pat a few times, Xu Yuanhang slowly opened his eyes, looked at Han Xuan, "Xiaoxuan "Xu Yuanhang said vaguely.

"Brother Yuanhang, get up, let's go home." Han Xuan raised his hand to help Xu Yuanhang up.

"Go home????" Xu Yuanhang murmured drunkenly, "Xiaoxuan, I don't have a home."

Knowing that he was drunk, Han Xuan ignored him. He helped Xu Yuanhang pick up his umbrella and prepared to walk back.

Xu Yuanhang leaned crookedly on Han Xuan, but his footsteps were motionless. Suddenly, Xu Yuanhang turned around and hugged Han Xuan, "Xiao Xuan, do you know why I liked to fight when I was young? Because no one cared about me, even if I was No one will care if people are killed.”

"Am I so useless that I didn't even get into college..." Xu Yuanhang hugged Han Xuan and chattered, then his voice became smaller and smaller, and finally fell asleep lying on Han Xuan's body.

Han Xuan knew that there was grievance in Xu Yuanhang's heart. He blamed his parents, blamed them for divorce, and blamed them for ignoring him all these years. Han Xuan sighed and looked at the drunk Xu Yuanhang in front of him. Although the surface is open and cheerful, only he knows the loss and lack in his heart.