I hate the world

Not everyone can be so forgetful, such as Xiao Shen.No matter how much alcohol you drink or how much sex you have every night, you can't forget that person in your mind. The more you want to erase it, the deeper it will be imprinted in your mind.It really lives up to its name.

The outside world was completely dark, and the curtains were drawn tightly so that no light could escape.Xiao Shen nestled on the sofa in the living room, with a mess of snacks, cigarettes and alcohol piled up on the table.Black-and-white movies of unknown decades are played on the big screen.He bit his upper lip habitually, without feeling any pain, and then slapped himself hard on the face, carrying out self-abuse for a long time, unable to extricate himself.

By the time the temperature drops sharply in the morning and evening, it is already November.The early winter in Yancheng is not too cold, and a thick coat is enough to survive the whole winter.However, Xiao Shen had already wrapped himself in a turtleneck sweater and a khaki windbreaker, and his hair gradually grew to his ears, which looked messy and beautiful because he hadn't taken care of it.With a handsome appearance, no matter what he wears, he looks like a model who can go to fashion week at any time.

When Xiao Shen entered Yanda in a low-key BMW, there were only two or three students on campus.He walked out of the car door unhurriedly and walked towards Jiaoyi.

At the door, the students rushing from behind rushed forward, not only did not knock down the person in front, but almost fell down by themselves.A hand stretched out from the slanted insertion, and when Tan Sien looked up to see who it was, he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, it was so cold.The person above smiled at him and walked up to the podium.It was only when the friends in the back called him that Tan Sien came back to his senses, and sat with them in the old seat in the last row with a bit of annoyance.

"...I will take your place in Mr. Li's class. My surname is Xiao, and I have only one deep character." Xiao Shen bent the corner of his mouth towards the students who were eager to move, "I will not answer any personal questions. Okay, let's discuss a question first..."

Xiao Shen's lectures are just like his own, random and far-fetched, but every word is reasonable and fits the theme.Even Tan Sien, who hated this kind of public class the most, was unknowingly fascinated by it.He rested his chin in one hand, his eyes reflected his outline.

"The one in the blue sweater in the back row, since you listened so carefully, please answer the five needs Maslow raised." Xiao Shen walked up the stairs, step by step.

Tan Sien, who was named, realized it now, who knew such a basic question, he cursed secretly, under the gaze of that person, he always felt his face was burning, shit, I'm not a woman, what's there to look at.

"Sit down." Xiao Shen glanced at him before saying, "Your physical safety needs have basically been met, I mean relative. Is your social and respect needs lacking? Presumably there are also. Read You at Yanda University have reason to be proud of your wealth, not only materially, but also socially. You are not on the same starting line as ordinary people, because you always have more contacts and resources than them. But, don’t you Are you satisfied with this? Here comes the need for self-actualization..."

After nearly two hours of class, without a break in between, Xiao Shen said that get out of class was over and hurried out of the door, causing a group of students to howl everywhere, and there was no way to strike up a conversation.

"Hey, I heard that Young Master Xiao also graduated from Yan University before, and he was an outstanding student in that class..." The girl in the front row had a loud voice, so loud that even Tan Sien behind could hear it clearly.He pricked his ears high, but his face didn't care at all.

The girl went away with her companion after a few more nympho words. Tan Sien originally wanted to listen to more explosive songs, but she didn't expect it to disappear like this, so she couldn't help but feel a little depressed.

The classmates and roommates who exchanged with Beijing were on their way to the cafeteria. The head of the dormitory suddenly talked about Xiao Shen, and said in secret, "Mr. Xiao, who used to be infatuated, has now become a wanderer."

Tan Sien's eyes lit up immediately, and he asked anxiously, "Why, what happened?"

Then, Tan Sien learned a secret about Yancheng's high society that he would rather never want to know.

When he returned to the dormitory at night, he was still thinking about that sentence in his mind. "Young Master Xiao was messed up by Young Master He, and he still has come out, so all you see now is the blackened him. He was not like this before. Hey, let me show you this picture of him in high school. In the photo..." In the photo, Xiao Shen smiled brightly, standing leisurely on the lawn in front of the teaching building, his eyes were bright like two little suns, and he put one hand on the boy next to him, slightly tilt your head.Tan Sien suddenly remembered a very vulgar saying. At that time, the sun was just right, and the boy in a white shirt was walking towards me gracefully.

"Then, who is standing next to him?"

"Who else is there? Isn't it the young master Xiao who never forgot that he was indirectly killed by young master He, who was so depressed that he couldn't bear the stimulation and committed suicide in the end. His surname is Fu, and his name is Jing Yan, yes, Fu Jingyan."

Tan Sien couldn't tell what he felt in his heart for a while, for Xiao Shen, for He Jialun, and for himself.He took a quick shower, went to bed and covered himself with the quilt, closed his eyes and forced himself not to think about these things that had nothing to do with him.However, he secretly took out the cell phone that was thrown under the pillow just now, pressed the unlock button, clicked on the address book, slid his hand on it a few times hesitantly, and landed on the name "Xiao Neuropathy".Tan Sien unconsciously pursed his lips, cursed bitterly, turned off the phone and went to sleep.

It is not surprising that there are many times at night.He was the only one in Xiao Shen's house as always, except for an accident three years ago that brought someone here, he tried his best to avoid it at other times.It seems that there is a scruple in my heart, even if it hurts, I hope it will be done by myself, not by others.Yes, I just admit that I still care a little about what happened to him.But relatively, he will never forgive him, and the best way to torture him is to not see him.

It was already three o'clock in the morning when he received the call. Xiao Shen was still asleep at that time, and he was playing with a saber in his hand. He accidentally hurt his hand when he answered the phone, and the saber hit the floor with a "boom" , A nervous voice came from the phone, "What's the matter, Ah Shen? Don't touch that knife." Xiao Shen's hand that bent down to pick it up stopped, and after a while, he picked it up.

"Baby's birthday is tomorrow, I think." In another brightly lit villa, only one room was dark, Qi Yu's eyes slid over the sleeping baby on the other side, and gently begged that person.

After a period of silence, Xiao Shen seemed to hear himself sighing, and he said, "Come to my place tomorrow." After the other party hung up the phone, Xiao Shen realized what he had said belatedly. He couldn't help cursing "shit", and sat on the sofa for another 10 minutes before taking off his clothes and going into the bedroom, wanting to catch up on sleep.

The sun shone through the window, warming his quilt without waking him up.But a child's laughter and teasing whispers woke him up.Xiao Shen tried to open his eyes, and what he saw were two faces that were not similar, but equally delicate and full of popularity.He couldn't help snorting, and was immediately startled by his own voice, "Hello, what time is it?"

The man replied in a halo, "It's past twelve o'clock, I made some dishes, you should get up." There was brightness in his eyes, which burned him straight like this.

"Xiao Yan, come here." Under the gentle push of that person, Xiao Yan moved onto the bed with his short legs, and Xiao Shen hugged him up, making him and his own eyes wide open.

His eyebrows and eyes are very similar to Xiao Shen's. After all, he is his own child. If he doesn't look like himself, who would he look like?Three years ago, when He Jialun took his own sperm and went to the United States to find a surrogate, Jing Yan was almost healed, but it was the last operation, the arrival of this little life gave Ah Yan a fatal blow, Ah Yan His condition worsened, he doubted and cried all day long, and needed Xiao Shen's hug, tirelessly.In the end, he could no longer receive treatment, and died in Xiao Shen's arms a month later.

On the bed in their home, Xiao Shen kept his arms around him, looking into his eyes, from day to night, and from night to day, until he was called 120 and sent to the hospital.

"Dad, Dad..." Xiao Yan's voice was small and soft, as if he had been stabbed.

Xiao Shen covered his eyes with his hands, the eyelashes fluttering nervously under his palm, "What gift do you want." Xiao Shen put his hands down and let him sit on the bed.

Xiao Yan turned back, looked at the people over there, and after getting a smile, he said timidly, "I want Dad to hug me and kiss me. And Uncle Qi,"

"Such a small request." Xiao Shen bent the corner of his mouth, and beckoned the person who had been standing at the door to come over, "Fatty, come here." Exclusively for one person.

After the three of them finished eating, Qi Yu was washing dishes in the kitchen, while Xiao Shen and his son nestled on the sofa and watched TV.One wanted to watch Ultraman, the other wanted to watch a movie, and Xiao Shen won in the end, so Baby Xiao Yan had to fall into his arms and fell asleep silently.Qi Yu, who poked his head out from time to time, laughed uncontrollably, and the movements of his hands became a little more nimble.

After the baby was put on the bed by Qi Yu, Xiao Shen on the sofa watched him walk into his sight, and naturally pressed him under him. There was desire in Xiao Shen's eyes, but he was indifferent With fire light, Qi Yu put his arms around his neck, God knows how long he has been waiting for this day. "Miss me? How much? Thinking that your back is wet, huh?"

Qi Yu has been by his side for three years, from a top student in the Department of Physics of Tsinghua University to the youngest movie star. In just three years, it seems like 30 years. He doesn't want this to be a dream.He held him firmly, even though he was abandoned so many times, but didn't he come back again and again.Qi Yu gently kissed his lips, the bomb exploded in the bottom of her heart, the pain was deep and deep.