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When he entered the company this morning, Xianbi did not arrive for a long time, and when he came, he looked panic-stricken.Seeing Xian Bi's expression uncomfortable, Na Ying also guessed a little bit in her heart. "Has Sheng Shu visited you?"

Xian Pi nodded, but walked back to the office without the expected questioning from Na Young.Naying didn't think too much, and buried her head in the design sketch.

The atmosphere after returning home was a little different from before. Xianzi still drank the soup quietly, but the expression on his face was too calm, which seemed to be a harbinger of the imminent rain.

"Hyunja, what's wrong?" She asked intuitively.

Xianzi scooped up the soup, put it on his lips, and then put it back into the bowl pretending to be natural. "I've thought about it for a long time, and I think it's better for Eun Biao and I to move out."

"Why are you bringing this up again?" Naying put down her chopsticks angrily.Hasn't their relationship improved a lot, why did they start talking about the same problem again?

Hyunja didn't raise her head, she retracted her hands under the table at some point. This scene was like the two strangers who were wary of each other when they met for the first time. "Enbiao and I are just your troubles, and Enbiao has no blood relationship with you, and you shouldn't raise him, let alone I'm just an outsider..."

"Enough!" Naying stroked her forehead with one hand and patted the other on the table, and said loudly at the same time: "I have said many times, I don't treat you as an outsider, why do you always think like this every time?"

Xianzi's words didn't stop. "In this day and age, no one will be a widow anymore, and you don't have to help the Han family support Enbiao anymore. Enbiao and I will be on our own..."

"I've said enough!" Naying stopped angrily, her hands on the table were clenched into fists, and the words hidden in her heart poured out uncontrollably: "If you think I'll do it to you If you don’t get enough, then you leave this house, and I won’t stop you again!”

The person who was yelled at lowered his head and didn't say anything, just got up silently.

"Hyunja, I need you."

I don't know why, she said such words rashly in the panic of losing, never thought that her tone would sound so pitiful.She thought that Xianzi would laugh at her, but when she looked up, she saw Xianzi's tears beating on her heart drop by drop like broken pearls.

Xianzi stood in front of her and wept bitterly, and she shed tears too.

"Why bring this up again?" Naying calmed down, and sat in the living room, waiting for Hyunja to give her an answer.

Seeing Hyunja wiping her tears with the back of her hand and standing like a little daughter-in-law, Naying felt angry and raised her head a little higher, letting out a long breath.

"Hyun-pil went to look for you, right? What did he tell you? Did he tell you to move?" With a flash of thought, Naying sat up straight and made a gesture to pick up the phone to call Nam Hyun-pil. The state hastily stopped.

"It's not President Nan." Seeing Naying's eyes turned back to her, Hyunja clasped his hands and lowered his head. "Miss Zheng came to see me."

"You mean Shengshu?" Naying's mood at the moment can be described as anger.She knew that Shengshu had always spoken in a very unreasonable and unforgiving manner, she must have said something, which caused this thought that had been stifled long ago to emerge from Xianzi's mind again. "What did she say to you?"

Hyunja slightly turned his head away.Na Ying thought: Very good, really like Xian Zi's personality, always protecting outsiders.

"She told you to move out, right? She told you not to drag me down, saying that Hyun-bi is still pursuing me, and don't let me delay my life's happiness for you and the Han family!" Shout out, and consciously soften his tone. "What I want to pursue, I know very well. Although Shengshu is my friend, what she said does not represent my thoughts."

Xianzi pursed her lips tightly, with a serious expression on her face, and it took a long time before she heard her soft voice. "Miss Zheng said, you are a very proud person."

Naying was not in a hurry to ask.Now that she was willing to speak, she said that there was more to come, and she also wanted to know Xianzi's real thoughts.

"Your pride does not allow you to share a love with other people. But why...you have to compromise so much for me?" Xianzi's right hand tightly clenched his left hand, exerting force to the whitened knuckles, showing And now she's asking an extremely difficult question.

Naying stared at Hyunja, the corner of her mouth curled up slightly. "Maybe it's because I like Han Sang Jin so much."

This time Xianzi answered quickly. "It's been seven years since you said you loved him."

"What exactly do you want to ask?"

Just such a sentence forced Xianzi into silence again.

Naying considers herself a very patient person, but she always feels that every time she has a serious conversation with Hyunja, this person will always have a way to provoke her most vulnerable and irritable nerve.Ever since I met Xianzi, it seems that my joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys have followed this person, but the person in front of me is always in an infuriating silence.

"Go to class, I'm going to be late for Chinese class soon." Xianzi turned to leave, but was grabbed by Naying, Naying felt a very slight chill coming from Xianzi's body.

"You are afraid of me." Naying said not a question but an affirmative sentence.

Hyunja lowered his head with his back to her, covered his face with his hands, and could tell from the twitch of his shoulders that he was crying.

"The joy you had in the amusement park that day was not real." She always thought that she would never see Hyunja's tears again, and now she burst into tears in front of her again, and Naying's heart was instantly enveloped in a heavy sense of frustration , the hand loosened unconsciously.

What was unexpected at the next moment was that Xianzi grabbed her hand and wanted to say something with her tightly closed lips, but only tears kept rolling down her cheeks.

Even though they felt the trembling in their hearts, no one let go.

Naying sat in the coffee shop, raising and lowering her right hand, and her fingers tapping on the table lost rhythm.

Why can't all of this be like tailoring a suit, as long as the ruler and measuring line can be cut neatly, she doesn't understand how she got to where she is today?What is the relationship between them? When Xianzi looked at her, she didn't know how to answer.

"What? Didn't we just meet yesterday, and you're in such a hurry to ask me out today?" Sheng Shu came with her purse Shanshan, and asked questions before she sat down.

"Did you go to Miss Xianzi this morning?" Naying recovered from her thoughts, her eyes were cold.

Sheng Shu smiled contemptuously. "She complained to you so soon?"

Na Ying frowned, and asked with an emphatic tone, "What exactly did you tell her?"

"I told her to leave you and live her own life." Shengshu raised her chin and spoke loudly. "Xu Xianzi is from the Han family and has nothing to do with you. Why do you help her raise Enbiao? Don't use the excuse that Enbiao is Han Sangzhen's son. You send Enbiao back, and the old lady will take care of him Great, but why did you have to bring them to England?"

Holding the coffee cup in her hand, Naying was silent for a long time before speaking. "I hope Enbiao gets a good education."

"That's the only reason? Naying, don't you think your excuse is too weak?" A sarcasm flashed across Shengshu's face. "You know? I thought you were taking revenge on Seo Hyun-ja, so I tied her to your side so that she couldn't move anything but rely on you. I've always wondered why you tolerated being with another woman Divide Han Sang-jin evenly──”

Seeing Naying's silent expression, Shengshu simply shook out all the words. "That's right, I made an appointment with Seo Hyun-ja yesterday. She is indeed a kind woman as you said. But what about being kind? Could it be that you gave Han Sang-jin to her because of her kindness? Naying is not like You, you have always asked for a pure love, your pride is more important than love."

"Find Han Sang-jin... No, since you met Seo Hyun-ja, I can't see the principled Kim Na-young before. If you want you to be selfish and hold on to Sang-jin, you won't listen; you'd rather be stuck in a whirlpool with others If you share the love equally, that's fine. Now that you take care of Xu Xianzi so benevolently, what is this?"

"Is Miss Xianzi at fault? She pulled Shang Zhen back from hell..."

"Don't use Han Sang-jin as an excuse!" Sheng Shu blocked Naying's words. "I'm talking about Seo Hyun Ja!"

Seeing Shengshu's unrelenting momentum, Naying's expression became serious. "Then let me tell you, Xianzi is my family, and there is no reason to take care of her family."

"Family? Are you accepting someone who robs your husband as your family? Naying, would you be too ridiculous?" Shengshu's sharp tone also made the people sitting next to her look back frequently.

"Shengshu, you won't understand." Naying got up calmly, and picked up the coat that was draped over the back of the seat.

As she walked out the door, Naying heard a roar behind her.

"Yeah, I don't understand. Kim Na Young, do you know what you're doing?"

Naying didn't look back and walked out without hesitation.

If feelings can be cut like a suit, you can tell which piece is love, which piece is pity, and which piece is hatred, everything will be very simple.

The distance between them is like a net of mist, the red thread tied around the wrist, vaguely not knowing where to go.

Raising her wrist and looking at the watch, the hour hand was ruthlessly pointing to eleven o'clock, and even the stars were too tired to fall asleep in the dark night, only she was left standing blankly at the door of the house, leaning on the doorpost and counting the spikes on the wall.

She began to be afraid of entering the house, Naying closed her eyes tiredly, she knew in her heart that this was not a good sign.Her wish in this life is obviously to have a stable home, but there are thousands of reasons why she doesn't want to go home.

Minzhu once said that she saw her stop at the door of the house, sprint out for a while, and then came back with heavy steps.At that time, she was afraid to go home, afraid to face her mother-in-law's apologetic expression, afraid to face Minzhu's understanding eyes, and also afraid that she would be left alone eating cold leftovers in the empty night.

And what is she afraid of now?It’s the fear of the dizzy yellow lights that will be guarded in the living room no matter how late, the cup of hot drink specially made for her, the lips that always have a thousand words but choose silence, and the tenderness that presses the heart everywhere.

From the moment she brought Xu Xianzi on the plane, she knew that she was sick, no, maybe earlier, when she brought up the symptoms when they went to the UK together.Or, as Seong-sook said, from the moment she met Seo Hyun-ja, she was not like the previous Kim Na-young.

Is the repeated forbearance and repeated concessions really because of the tenderness and kindness of the other party?If she lost this reason that even she herself believed to be true, then what attitude would she use to face the person inside the door?

Naying raised her head, found the most comfortable position to lean on, and let her eyes remain dim.

But at this moment, the door opened.

Naying's eyes were on Xianja who came out of the door, and the other person also had a shocked expression, the bag hanging on his arm was still shaking because of the movement of opening the door just now, but he was even more speechless and quiet.

"Is Eun Biao asleep?" Naying knew she didn't need to ask this question, but she couldn't find a better beginning.

Hyunja nodded, still standing awkwardly at the door, after a while she realized that Naying was still outside, and hurriedly stepped aside.

"It's so late, where are we going?" Xianzi rarely went out on weekdays, let alone in the middle of the night.

Hyunja's arm gripped the purse uncomfortably. "Your phone is off, I'm a little worried..."

"So you want to find me?"

"Eun Biao has already fallen asleep, I want to say that I will be back soon..."

"It's so late now, there are no taxis on the road, and the company is some distance away, are you going to walk there?"

"I used to go to the bus stop and wait..."

"This is not Korea." Naying cut off Hyunja's words a little impatiently. "What if Enbiao wakes up and finds no one at home? It's so late, it's dangerous for you to go out alone in the middle of the night."

As soon as the words fell, she also felt that the scolding was a bit too fierce. After all, Xianzi was going out to find herself, and now she has caused people to bow their heads and be full of grievances. "I'm sorry, my mood is a little unstable today, don't take what I said just now to your heart."

"Actually, I'm very happy to see you come out to find me." Until now, Na Ying showed a sincere smile.

After entering the door, a cup of hot cocoa was stuffed in his hand.She doesn't like sweet drinks, but she can't drink coffee, at least when Hyunja is in charge of the kitchen, she will definitely do this.

Stirring with a spoon, watching the protruding wrinkles round after round, Naying suddenly understood that Xianzi is like water, which may cause ripples when a stone is thrown into the heart by accident, but it will return to calm after a while .The water looks clear and transparent, but it is impossible to measure how deep it is.

"Don't you want to drink?" Hyun Ja sat beside her and asked softly.

"If you want to move, I won't stop you." In the silence, she heard her own words flow out.

Without looking at the shocked or surprised expression, she grabbed Hyunja's hands and buried her face in his open palms. "But I need you. Hyunja, I need you."