please divorce

Cen Ge took a very light breath, then as if he gave up struggling, he said in one breath: "Yes, I actually don't want to be ordinary friends with you at all, and I don't forget the past when you loved me, I don't want to at all. Let go, even if I get sick and die."

She made no secret of the greed, selfishness and madness in her eyes.

"I just want you to come back to me, I just want you to stay with me forever." Cen Ge's eyes slowly turned red, his eyes trembling, "Because I dare to face it now, I actually love you very much fact."

Anxi was taken aback, unable to believe what she heard.

"You asked me before, have you ever loved you, and I will tell you the answer now, not that I have loved you, but that I have always, always loved you." Cen Ge suddenly unbuttoned the two buttons on the neckline of his jacket, and pulled out a necklace from inside .

Untie it and put it on the table.

The pendant of the necklace is a very ordinary wedding ring, Anxi and Cen Ge's previous wedding rings.

"When we first dated each other, I was terrified of one thing. I was afraid that I would love you more than you love me." Cen Ge completely opened up the darkness in his heart.

Her eyes were red, and even the end of her eyes was flushed with patience: "I'm afraid that I will be humble, I'm afraid that I'll give too much, and I will appear inferior. I only hope that you love me, and what you have paid for me is all. , and I just sit back and enjoy it without taking any risks."

Anxi was so shocked that she couldn't speak. Looking at the red-eyed, fragile and paranoid Cen Ge in front of her, she felt strange.This is not at all the haughty young lady in her impression who is calm and breezy and doesn't care about anything.

"I want everything from you, I want you to spend all your enthusiasm on loving me, don't have other hobbies, don't have other friends, don't do other things, just love me." Cen Ge looked at Anxi with red eyes, and said slowly, "It's like what my mother did to my father. I always thought that love to the extreme is like that. Everything is extreme."

"It's selfish, scary, isn't it?" Cen Ge lowered his eyes, "Before my mother passed away, I asked her if you ever regretted loving my father like that, and she answered me..."

Cen Ge paused for several seconds, his drooping eyelashes trembling again and again.

"She said that she was just not reconciled." Cen Ge smiled wryly, "You refused to agree to the divorce later, is it just... not reconciled?"

"Actually, you don't love me as much as you did at first."

Anxi didn't refute.

Maybe she still loves Cen Ge, maybe she doesn't.It was true that she was not reconciled back then, it was true that she couldn't let go of Cen Ge, it was also true that she was still in love with Cen Ge despite her obsession.

Emotional matters are too complicated, and the parties themselves may not be able to figure it out clearly.

Cen Ge continued: "You said that I haven't looked for you since the divorce, but I have actually looked for you. It's just that when I found you, I saw you...with someone else, I..."

She paused for two seconds, as if brewing courage.

"I feel angry. I divorced you because I felt that you didn't love me as much as before. I thought that after divorce, you would cherish me even more after losing you, but I never thought that you would also be hurt and disappointed. I will also... choose to leave."

Cen Ge closed his eyes that were about to burst into tears, and his red lips, which were stretched to the limit, couldn't help trembling.

"Later, when you went abroad and didn't want to come back for a few years, I was angry with you all the time. I don't understand why you couldn't do what you said to love me for the rest of your life and only for the rest of your life. I think , if you don't come back, then forget it, I don't want to go to you. Even... I actually miss you very much."

Cen Ge firmly grasped the ring on the tea table in his hand.

"Later, I knew that you had returned to China. I was very happy. I thought you were coming back to me. On the day your plane landed, I was at the airport and saw you, Qu Zheng, and Qu Simian with my own eyes. , a family-like sweet scene."

"I came to you on the day of the finale of your first play. I thought that as long as I asked you for peace, you would definitely agree. We have all been like this before, not to mention that I was more sincere than ever before. .But you turned me down, again and again."

"Xiaoxi." Cen Ge let go of his fingers, untied the necklace, took off the pair of rings, and placed them staggered in front of Anxi, "I really know that I was wrong about the past, and it was completely wrong. I don't ask for it." You forgive me and don't ask you to love me like before, I just hope that you can give me another chance."

Her eyelids trembled, but she still cried. As soon as the tears slipped out of her eyes, she wiped them away immediately.

She raised her head, forced back the remaining tears, and then asked calmly, "Is it okay?"

Anxi couldn't answer.

She stared at the pair of rings on the table, and subconsciously pinched her left ring finger until it turned blue.

She suddenly realized that after so many years, she never let go.

She couldn't ignore Cen Ge, couldn't be calm in front of Cen Ge, and couldn't forget all the past between her and Cen Ge.

Does she really not love at all?

Anxi couldn't give an absolutely definite answer.

Maybe she will never change her habit of being cheap in front of Cen Ge, just like this gesture of pinching the wedding ring, even though they have been divorced for eight years.

"Didn't I already give you a chance?" Anxi slowly let go of her fingers, "I promised you that I will come and eat with you when you need it."

Cen Ge said: "But you know, what I want is not just food."

Anxi smiled: "But I can't give you more. Mr. Cen, I'm not a saint. It's my limit to be able to pity your illness. What else do you want from me?"

Cen Ge lowered her head, and after a long time, she pretended to smile casually, and held the pair of rings in her palm: "Yes, it is already my luck that you can accompany me like this."

Anxi didn't answer.

Cen Ge stood up and looked out the window.

I don't know when, the sky has become as dark as night, and in the dark clouds, lightning flashes from time to time, and the heavy rain is majestic, hitting the ground hard.

It's just that the castle is soundproof, and there is no sound of thunder and rain.

"The weather is really bad. Would you like to take a rest and have dinner later? I'll call you." Her words didn't make sense.

Anxi cooperated and said, "Okay."

Cen Ge clutched the ring: "Then I'll go upstairs first."

Anxi: "Okay."

Cen Ge took a deep look at her, then turned and went upstairs.

She walked quickly, quickly hid in the bedroom, and slammed the door shut.

There was no light in the bedroom, and it was dark outside the window, and the gloomy storm swallowed up all the light in the sky.

Cen Ge gently leaned against the door panel, slowly raised his chin in the dim light, and then pulled out a low smile that seemed to be mocking and bitter, but also a little proud and arrogant.

An Xi said that when she was lying to her, Cen Ge thought he had been found out about his fake stomach cancer.

So in a panic, she broke the jar, exposing/exposing her dark heart.During the conversation, Cen Ge guessed from Anxi's reaction that she didn't seem to have found evidence of her stomach cancer lie with certainty.

The phrase "You're lying to me" may be defrauding her, or it may refer to other aspects.

On the one hand, Cen Ge felt at ease, while adapting to the situation, he poured out all his thoughts and emotions in his heart, and used them as a bumper against Anxi's defenses.

She saw the shaken emotions in Anxi's eyes as she wished, so she was sure that Anxi was not as hard-hearted as she usually showed.

As long as Cen Ge continues to attack and defend for a long time, sooner or later, Anxi's heart will be opened by her again.

After all, since Anxi was seven years old, he and Cen Ge have known each other for 24 years. Half of their lives have been intertwined. How could they be separated?

downstairs.

After Cen Ge left, An Xi hugged the pillow and leaned back against the wall.

It was raining like a waterfall outside the window.The sea breeze changed direction, blowing dense rain lines onto the glass wall, quickly blurring the clean and transparent glass wall.

An Xi stared back at what Cen Ge said just now, no matter how many times he thought about it, he still couldn't believe that it was what Cen Ge said.

Anxi closed her eyes, lowered her head and buried herself in the pillow, her heart was in a mess.

After a long time, she suddenly remembered that she forgot to ask Cen Ge if the stomach cancer also lied to her.

But after thinking about it, I don't think so.

Who would use their own body to make such a joke?

Moreover, Cen Ge's status is unusual. If she suffers from a terminal illness, it will not only affect her personal life trajectory, but also her company, and even the entire Cen family's stable status in Longyue Group.

Forget it, Anxi thought, since the past is said, let it go, then don't worry about it.

Anyway, from now on it's just a few meals with Cen Ge.

Anxi figured it out, went back to the guest room, took a shower, and lay down to take an afternoon nap.

The guest rooms are also soundproof, and the room is very quiet, so quiet that Anxi cannot sleep.

She got up and opened the sliding door of the balcony a crack, intending to let in a little rain, but the howling wind swept the rain, and immediately poured in through the gap, making Anxi thump, and hastily closed the window again.

In the end, she failed to take a nap and wanted to use her mobile phone, but the strong wind and rain cut off the signal, the network connection was unstable, and the information page could not be refreshed for a long time. Not to mention that she couldn't pass the time, and her mood was even worse.

Really unable to sleep, Anxi got out of bed to watch the rain.

The torrential rain had subsided, but the wind was still strong. The trees in the yard were blown to the side, and the branches were stretched straight like upside-down hair.

Anxi watched the wind and rain all afternoon.

In the evening, the wind stopped and the sea returned to calm.

If he wanted to leave, Anxi could still leave now.

But she suddenly didn't want to move, didn't want to rush to the airport, and then hurried back to a city without a sense of belonging.

There is not much difference between here and the so-called home.

--

Dinner was eaten in silence.

The conversation in the afternoon seemed to embarrass Cen Ge, and she didn't speak much during the meal.

Anxi remembered that it was the same when the two had dinner together, if Anxi didn't speak, then they would be silent.Because Cen Ge never took the initiative to talk.

And the lively chat during the lunch at noon suddenly lost its sense of reality like a hallucination.Even though it's only been happening for a few hours.

Holding the water glass, Anxi suddenly felt that everything was nothingness.Even what happened a few hours ago is as unreal as a dream, so what is really real and meaningful.

This feeling flashed through her heart.

Anxi took two sips of water, put down the glass: "I'm done eating."

Cen Ge also stopped eating, hesitated to speak for a long time, and finally said: "Well, then you should have a good rest tonight."

An Xi said: "You too."

At night, the wind and rain subsided, and the phone signal was restored.

Anxi made a video call to Mianmian, and after a while, Mianmian was urged by Qu's mother to do her homework.Mianmian stuck out her tongue at Mother Qu, waved goodnight to Anxi, and obediently hung up the video to do her homework.

Holding the phone, Anxi sat cross-legged on the bed, staring at the dark sea outside the window, falling into the familiar boredom and emptiness again.

She was stunned for a while, and decided to turn on the TV to watch a movie.

The TV signal is still in a state of interruption, and I can only choose from the dozen or so movies in the local cache.

Anxi reluctantly selected a commercial film, and just after pressing play, a dazzling lightning suddenly lit up outside the window, and followed the window glass violently.

A huge thunder exploded.

The lights in the room flickered and then went out suddenly.

power cut.

Darkness as thick as ink surged in all directions, swallowing the outlines of all the furniture in the house.

Anxi couldn't see anything.

It was pitch black outside the window, without moonlight or starlight, only pale lightning that occasionally lit up.And the white light that suddenly lit up scared people's hearts.

Anxi tensed up in fear, and groped towards the big bed.

Her phone is on the bed...

The field of vision is pitch black, and you can't see at all.

The Anxi blind man groped for several steps, and finally kicked the stool at the end of the bed. He was overjoyed, and was about to climb onto the bed when the door suddenly knocked.

Someone is knocking on the door.

Anxi's heart stopped beating in fright, and she knelt down on the bed.

"Xiaoxi, are you okay?" A flickering flashlight lit up in the crack of the door, and Cen Ge said from outside the door, "The castle's generator suddenly broke down, so the power was cut off."

Anxi randomly fumbled for the phone, and immediately turned it on. The light gave her a sense of security, and her frightened heartbeat gradually calmed down.

"I am fine."

Anxi opened the door, and flashlights flooded in, illuminating half of the room and Cen Ge's worried face.

The flashlight is white, and Cen Ge's face is also very pale when it shines, which looks very strange.

An Xi looked at her face deformed by the flashlight, and for some reason, suddenly laughed.

The fear caused by the power outage dissipated a lot, and my heart immediately relaxed.

Cen Ge didn't understand, so he asked, "What's wrong?"

Anxi shook her head: "How are you? Are you scared?"

Cen Ge shook his head, and said in a calm voice, "The servants have gone to look for the spare flashlight, and I'm the only one for now."

She glanced into the room and said politely: "Do you mind if I go in and wait with you for the flashlight?"

Anxi was hesitant. She imagined that she was sitting in a strange and dark room holding her mobile phone, and her sense of fear immediately overflowed.

This castle is also strangely big, and the sound insulation is good, there is no sound at all.It was horrible being alone.

Anxi nodded and gave up her seat: "Come in."