Who allowed me to live like a dream

The sunshine in the winter afternoon is warm and elegant, coating Ren Xiaoxu's delicate side with a layer of light.The sunlight made people feel a little dazed, and Gu Jiachen only felt that there was a portrait of Jehovah hanging in a medieval church in front of him.The stained glass of the church divided the sunlight, and before him stood his god.

He is the Creator of the world, eternal, holy and just and omnipotent God.

"What do you want me to do?" Gu Jiachen's legs were a little weak, he lay in Ren Xiaoxu's arms, his fingers stroked the smooth skin of his neck, he felt that their skin was sticking together like scalded skin.

"I hope you, admit your own identity, learn what you should learn as your identity, and master the method of protecting yourself."

Gu Jiachen smiled wryly.

"I'm such a powerless person... What do you want me to do? I'm going to learn Taekwondo, Karate, Wing Chun or something, is it still useful?"

Ren Xiaoxu smiled and replied: "Of course...it's useless. It's useful for strengthening your body. It's basically useless for protecting yourself. If I were your opponent, I would punish you. Do you think I What will you do?"

Gu Jiachen raised his head and looked at him with a smile: "It's not easy for you to clean up me? Just say something casually."

"Just say something, and then? You know how the whole program starts?"

"That depends on what you think of me... what do you want to do with me?"

"If I were your enemy, I would separate you and your lover. What do you think?"

"That...it's very simple. You can find someone to kill me. Or find someone to kill my lover...or find a mistress to destroy our relationship..."

"If you find a mistress, what can you do to destroy our relationship?"

"I...I don't know."

Ren Xiaoxu pinched his face and forced him to look at him.You can't escape anymore... Retainer, you can't escape anymore.

Gu Jiachen was forced to raise his head.His eyes were shining with moist luster, he seemed to be wronged, biting his lower lip, as if desperately trying to hold back something.

Ren Xiaoxu saw his own face appearing in the bottom of his eyes, and the blue sky and white clouds were reflected in his eyes, with it as the background, his figure floated in it.Maybe it was because the sun was a little dazzling, Gu Jiachen's eyes glistened with tears.

Where the gaze is fixed, the gaze is lingering, like water and milk blending together.

Those eyes are so clear, like dewdrops dripping on the grass leaves in the morning.There is a kind of weak longing and possessiveness between the brows and eyes, which is silent but touching.

Is there anyone who can still be as clear as water after going through the wind and frost?What kind of fate will be entangled endlessly from life to life?

Ren Xiaoxu lowered his head and kissed his lips.Those lips were moist.Moist, soft, warm.Sweeping the tip of the tongue, you can taste the fishy and salty taste.It seemed that he was biting hard.And the breath of blood did not stop the desire to possess, but instead added fuel to the fire, burning his body even more violently.

Minute groans came out of his mouth, Ren Xiaoxu chased the dodging tiny tongue, repeatedly catching, teasing, sucking, without knowing how to eat.

I want him, I want to keep him, I want to keep him in my heart like a bird, and I will never let him go.The cage of confinement is made of flesh and blood, and the rope of bondage is weaved with love. Their lives will be connected together, they will live and die together, inseparable, bloody and bloody.

Before losing his mind, Ren Xiaoxu heard Gu Jiachen whispering in his ear:

"What do you want me to do...what else can I do..."

He entered his body amidst the murmurs, ruffled his hair amidst his moans.The window was open, the sun shone on his fair and soft skin, the cold outside and the heat inside merged around them, the sky and the earth were desolate and alive.The whole city is a forest of concrete, occasionally the roar of engines can be heard.And they are birds in a cage.

He could feel Gu Jiachen holding him tightly.For so many years, this person has never fully expressed his attachment.Gu Jiachen is like a pet waiting for its owner to return, cautious, trembling, keeping his own place, and worrying about gains and losses.

There has never been a strong love.

"Do you love me?" Ren Xiaoxu straightened his waist, hugged Gu Jiachen up by his waist, and asked in his ear.

The weight of the body made the joint even more oppressive, and Gu Jiachen couldn't help but hum.He knelt on the sofa in front of the dining table, tried to stabilize his body, and suddenly realized why Ren Xiaoxu chose such a seat.

Indeed... very convenient.

He just asked him a question... what was it?Confused, emotionally overwhelmed, Gu Jiachen couldn't hear clearly.All he could feel was his hot breath.

He tried his best to feel the strength of this man's doting, every intrusion he made was so domineering, leaving no gaps.However pampering, yet gentle.

Suddenly the strength became a little unreasonable, Gu Jiachen hissed in pain and begged.

"Don't be like this... Slow down, let me slow down..."

Ren Xiaoxu turned him over and pressed against his ear, but really slowed down.The slow grind is even more frustrating.

The length is always unbearable, but Gu's retainers would rather him be more wild and have a quick fight.Ren Xiaoxu is a little bit off today, seems to be particularly moody, but also very gentle.Gu Jiachen felt that his heart was going back and forth between stagnation and beating wildly, almost in shock.

Fortunately, I have a strong heart.Gu Jiachen thought to himself.The tempering of life did not bring him any other wealth, but at least he got a strong heart.Even if he suffers a major blow, he can stand up from the ruins and rebuild his world.

He heard Ren Xiaoxu's heavy breathing, which turned into traces of scorching heat in his ears, like a flame scorching, like a scorching sun in the sky.He heard his dreamlike whisper, the Lord who stands on the top of all living beings is asking his believers:

"Do you love me?"

This time Gu Jiachen heard it clearly.

He tried his best to turn around, as if he wanted to turn around, and looked at Ren Xiaoxu.Ren Xiaoxu turned him over, and his hand touched Ren Xiaoxu's face.

Her eyes were blurred with tears, and she was covered in fine sweat.Gu Jiachen looked at the flushed cheeks of the man in front of him, and his soft hair was soaked in sweat and became wet.The burning of lust resisted all the cold, not to mention the indoor wall warmth greatly helped.It was a wall heater imported from Germany, and it was really powerful.

A drop of sweat slipped from the tip of his hair and landed on Gu Jiachen's collarbone.Like the erosion of sulfuric acid, a scorched black hole was instantly burned on his skin.That kind of corrosion hurts the bone marrow, and that kind of trace can never be erased.

If you love, please love deeply.If you can't be together, then let that kind of love be transformed into an unforgettable pain, leaving scars that will never disappear.Between heaven and earth, it will be proof that we loved.A scarred heart is not terrible. It is the same as a veteran with outstanding achievements on the battlefield. The scars on the heart are our pride.

We fought bloody battles and survived.Momentary pain is the eternal life of scars.

Ren Xiaoxu stopped his movements, his eyes were piercing, as if he was waiting for his answer.

Gu Jiachen looked into his eyes, which were as black as obsidian and as bright as stars.He felt like he was going to be drunk.The feeling of being loved is so dizzy and full of unreality.

do i love himGu Jiachen analyzed with the remaining rationality.He nodded first, then shook his head.

Ren Xiaoxu moved violently.Dissatisfied eyes.

Is it love or not? !

Gu Jiachen held back his moans, and inserted his fingers into his wet hair.

"I love you. But love...I don't think it's enough...you say I'm your lover, but, I think...you should be my belief."

Gu Jiachen breathed hard and tried his best to say this sentence.This sentence has been thought of countless times in his heart.

What kind of existence is Ren Xiaoxu to him?Every starry night when they hug each other and sleep, he will think about it countless times in his heart.

A lover who calls the wind and rain?

Childhood sweetheart?

Overbearing tyrant?

Nostalgia that cannot be tolerated in the world?

Until one day, he saw the indifferent, contented and indestructible expression on the faces of the pilgrims.Only then did he realize that in his heart, Ren Xiaoxu had always been an existence of faith.

He had grown up looking up to this man.He lives in this world with an uneasy mood, and welcomes the ups and downs of this world with open arms that are not strong. He used to think that everyone is weak, precarious, at a loss in the world, and not worth mentioning.He feels that there is no so-called greatness, or dependence, or the other side in the world.We are born, we are made alive, and then we are made to die.Nothing will develop exactly according to human consciousness.

But when he looked at Ren Xiaoxu, he suddenly felt that this person gave him a reason to live, gave him the courage to live.Because of this person, he saw happiness in an uneasy life, saw persistence in weakness and delay, and felt the meaning of hard work in fierce wind and rain.

Because this person never gives up.Be it a thing or a person.

He never gave up on him.Even if he accidentally dropped him somewhere, he would go back to find him.

Once he asked his grandma, why do you want to believe in Buddhism?

Grandma thought for a while, and told him, one must have something to think about in one's life, right?Otherwise, what's the point of living.Living is so hard.

Buddhism is grandma's thoughts and beliefs.Ren Xiaoxu is Gu's thoughts and beliefs.

"I'm not your lover..." Gu Jiachen held up his last bit of strength and whispered in his ear, "I'm your believer——"

No matter how difficult the road ahead will be, I am grateful to Creation for allowing me to meet you.It was you who let me know that a person's weakness can also be a kind of strength, and unnecessary persistence is also a kind of perseverance.It was you who let me know that there is no distinction between families and mansions in this world, and princes and generals have a kind of evil.It is you who let me know that no matter what kind of affection you have, as long as you persevere, even in the ice and snow, beautiful flowers can bloom.

When Ren Xiaoxu opened a door from behind a screen in the box, revealing a set of complete bathing facilities inside, Gu Jiachen lamented that this place is really a must-have for cheating.

Tell me, who would install a bathroom in the dining room?And with a bath!

He wasn't sure if Ren Xiaoxu heard clearly.At that time, both of them had a gradual orgasm, and the words were followed by heavy breathing and uncontrollable moans.And Ren Xiaoxu didn't say anything afterward, just carried him to take a bath as usual.

The water in the bath was too hot, and Gu Jiachen was sweating all over, his whole skin was red, pink like rouge.He lay on Ren Xiaoxu's chest and waited for a long time, only to realize that he had said such a nasty thing.

This is the end, Gu Jiachen thought to himself.In fact, he said something more disgusting, he said something more disgusting.Ren Xiaoxu would sometimes force him to say some even obscene words.The feeling of saying those words is simply like eating slugs, creamy and disgusting.But only today, when he said that sentence, he felt his whole body steamed up.There was a tremor on the back, and even the muscles tensed.When he said it, he was almost as nervous as if he was about to go to war, but after he said it, he felt that he had completed his mission and returned with honor.

Let you know my thoughts, life is complete.You are what my heart desires to belong to.