Who allowed me to live like a dream

Gu Jiachen looked at the bright yellow sunlight pouring in from the window, the waxed solid wood table shone with golden light, and merged with the brilliance of the plate to form a speck of light.Ren Xiaoxu's eyelashes fluttered in the halo, like tiny butterflies.

The dishes have been served, and everyone avoids them.Ren Xiaoxu put one hand on Gu Jiachen's thigh, stroking it back and forth gently, and held the chopsticks in the other hand, but did not pick up the food.

He is thinking.Ren Xiaoxu would show such an expression every time he had something on his mind.From time to time, Gu Jiachen would feed him something, and he would come to take it. When he was not fed, he would not move.It doesn't look like coming to eat at all.Gu Jiachen watched him concentrating so hard that he forgot to eat, and suddenly felt that it was a sin for him to be able to eat and sleep.

"Retainer." Ren Xiaoxu suddenly called his name.

Gu Jiachen was taken aback, put away his chopsticks, and asked him what's wrong.

"Or, you should resign." Ren Xiaoxu said lightly.

Gu Jiachen smiled, put a piece of cake into his bowl, and said, "Are you kidding me?"

"Have you ever seen me play any jokes on you like this?" Ren Xiaoxu put down his chopsticks and rested his chin with one hand.

"You really know how to tell jokes. Why should I resign so well?"

"Your job has no future, you might as well quit. You jump out, I will help you find a teacher, and I promise to help you find the best lawyer in the entire Southwest to take you."

"You want me to be a lawyer?"

"It's okay to be inappropriate. If you don't like to be idle, I'll help you find a teacher, and you can still do your old job. If you don't want to do things, then you can just play around..."

Gu Jiachen didn't react until he heard this, and said a little nervously: "You...your situation is so serious?"

Ren Xiaoxu reluctantly smiled and stroked his cheek with his hand, saying: "Serious...it's actually not too serious. But, in this case, I always have a plan. Just leave you alone, your thread It's so obvious that anyone can figure it out. Now my brother has attacked me, and he doesn't know who he has under his command. I can't put you in the public and let them... harm you."

He leaned over and gently kissed Gu Jiachen's earlobe.

"I...what's wrong with this job now?" Gu Jiachen was puzzled, he felt that at present, in his country, the safest and most reliable job is a civil servant.

"...Let me tell you this. Power is hard to talk about. In 30 years in Hedong and 30 years in Hexi, someone lost power and someone gained power. And the people in the political circle are best at playing with the wind. We have always been out Money, they contribute. Now, the funder has changed, and many of the lines I buried before may not be usable. The key is that I haven’t figured out which lines can still be used and which lines have been broken. You check You already know Chang's attitude... He almost pushed you into the sea. I can't take this risk."

Ren Xiaoxu hugged him and explained patiently.

For an ordinary family, it is very unacceptable for a child to resign from a public office.Gu's retainers will definitely hesitate and argue hard.But now I can't allow him to talk about "being down-to-earth", and I can't let him say "being filial".As his lover, it's time for Gu Jiachen to learn to face reality.

But the reality is that Ren Xiaoxu was put together by his brother.They are all well versed in the means in the money and power field. One person can never be successful, and the interests of a group of people can only form power and containment.First suppress his arrogance, and then slowly soften the attitude of the old ministers around him.Not many of these old ministers are really loyal. Most of them chose to support Ren Changhua because of his face and Ren Xiaoxu's management for so many years.Now that there is a new situation in the family, the emotions of the veterans are also very unstable...

Ren Xiaoxu frowned and pinched the bridge of his nose.There is still a lot to do.And the first thing he had to solve was the safety of Gu's retainers.How to make a person living in this world worse than death?The most common method is to cut off his hands and feet, cut off his ears, pull out his tongue, gouge out his eyes and nose, and make a human stick.The same is true for a person's power.First remove his limbs, then remove his eyes and ears, and then he will have no room to resist, let you do whatever you want.

However, there is the simplest and most direct method, that is, to break his heart.

th.If a person's heart is dead, he is no longer a threat to others, he is just a lost dog.

So, you can't have an accident.Ren Xiaoxu looked at the person in his arms.He was too naive, with worry written all over his small face, afraid that he would disappoint his family by quitting his job.But he had no idea of ​​the danger he was facing.If you are facing an abyss, if you are walking on thin ice, if you don't pay attention, you may be smashed to pieces in the next second.

Ren Xiaoxu suddenly felt a little regretful.He shouldn't have brought it up like this, and he shouldn't have explained anything to him.Maybe, he should just lock up the Gu family minister, help him quit his job with a big wave of his hand, and then tell him: "Either you follow me, or I will abolish your family."

This method may be simpler.Why did he drag him into the vortex of this fight?He knows that he loves this person, but love is sometimes a kind of possession, isn't it?As long as you can keep him by your side, no matter what means you use, even if there are mountains of swords and seas of fire waiting in front of you, what if your heart is fried?

"What do you think?" Gu Jiachen was still a little undecided, Ren Xiaoxu's words "I can't take this risk", already melted his heart.If he is thinking for himself, in fact, why not?It's just that things can't be done as they want, how can it be so simple.

"But in my job, it is stipulated that I have to work for three years before I can resign!" Gu Jiachen said while pulling Ren Xiaoxu's clothes on his chest.

"That's okay. Say hello to them, and the job over there will be suspended. You will follow Lawyer Su first and be his assistant. It's fine if you don't have to meet for a while in the past two years."

"Then...then I don't need to tell my family. I'll go directly. Anyway, I don't need to resign right away, right? After three years, when I am capable of becoming a lawyer, I will discuss it with my family."

Ren Xiaoxu's attitude was not tough either, he nodded and said, "That's fine too. In case your family members make a fuss, it's a big or small disturbance."

As long as you're within my control it's fine.Ren Xiaoxu thought to himself.I didn't want to see that kind of thing happen when I was negligent and got you beaten.

At that time, Secretary Zhao took him to Ren Changhua's room, and the situation was like this.He saw his brother whispering in his father's ear, and his father's expression was serious.He stood at the door and didn't go in until Ren Changhua saw him.After they finished talking, Ren Xiaohuai went out from him. He waited for his father to ask him something, but his father bowed his head in thought for a long time, waved to him, and said, "Forget it, you go back first."

Ren Xiaoxu smiled wryly.His father didn't even give him a chance to explain.

At night, he took Gu Jiachen back to his dormitory.He asked Gu Jiachen to take a bath first.Secretary Han's phone was ringing off the hook, so he had to deal with some urgent matters, but he didn't dare to say more.don't know what to say.He has always been unable to guess what his father thinks.Not only him, there are so many people in the Ren family, no one dares to say that he can guess what the boss is thinking.

Only Secretary Zhao knows a thing or two.And it is absolutely impossible for him to tell others, otherwise how can he be Ren Changhua's confidant?

He closed his eyes, half lying on the bed, and felt overwhelmed for the first time.Unlike the previous small fights, this time it was a real fight, and the brothers finally tore their faces and started to get serious.

He saw Gu Jiachen looking at him with a worried expression.The smooth and soft skin was glowing with water, the hair was wet, and the bathrobe was hanging loosely on the body, revealing a trace of white chest, which made the mouth dry and the blood boil.

The restlessness and desire in Ren Xiaoxu's heart burned into one, so he attacked the city all night and all night, seeking physical comfort from this person.

For the first time, he really felt the fear of loss.

Although he knew a long time ago that these riches and honors would leave him one day, either they would drift away like floating clouds, or he would perish like dust falling to the ground.But that feeling is always ignorant, separated by a halo, like a dream.When he fell asleep, he dreamed that he had nothing, but when he woke up, he found that he was still sitting on the prosperity, so the feeling of loss was as light as stepping on a cloud.

Seeing Gu Jiachen injured last time, in fact, he was also very heartbroken.But he knew that person would not die, so the heartache was just heartache.

Now he really doesn't know where his fate will go.After all, he is still too young, full of calculations, and he is not yet 24 years old.In today's society, this age is really just a child.

Gu Jiachen was half a year older than him.Probably because he often compromises, his maturity is manifested as a kind of cowardice and a kind of compromise.As long as his own basic interests can be guaranteed, he is willing to make maximum concessions within the scope of the conditions you set out. He has a kind of generosity like "I don't go to hell, whoever goes to hell." "Teachings.And people like Ren Xiaoxu know that most of the teachings are just psychological comfort.

"Teacher Su you mentioned means..."

"Suri."

"Su... Suli? Are you sure? The Suli from University R?"

"correct."

"You...he, what is his relationship with you?"

"He is our Ren's long-term legal adviser, what's wrong?"

Gu Jiachen stuck out his tongue, not knowing how to express his feelings.He was indeed a little excited. After all, Su Li, a name that would only appear in the recommended documents of the teacher's teaching PPT, suddenly changed from an unreal paper to a real person.He had a trancelike vision of something high-tech like cloning babies.

"Then when will I...you also arrange for me to meet with the teacher?"

"No rush. It's the Chinese New Year these few days, and everyone is busy. Let's wait for a while. Why, are you still afraid that he won't want you?" Ren Xiaoxu blew ambiguously in his ear.

"I... I'm not. I... I'm just... I'm afraid I'll embarrass you." Gu's servant was frightened and stuttered smoothly because of his long-standing reputation.

"I let him take you because I think highly of him. It's time for you to change this habit. Don't be so unconfident and timid. In this way, others will underestimate you and bully you. You know?"

"Anyway, I've been bullied since childhood..." Gu Jiachen smiled self-deprecatingly.

"Gu Jiachen!" Ren Xiaoxu suddenly called his name loudly, making the person in his arms tremble.

"What's wrong?" He blinked his big bright eyes and looked at Ren Xiaoxu.

"It's time for you to accept who you are!"

"When did I not accept who I am?"

"Then tell me, who are you?" Ren Xiaoxu raised his face and asked.

"I'm Gu Jiachen..." Gu Jiachen was puzzled.

Ren Xiaoxu sighed, and said: "No...you are not. You are my——Ren Xiaoxu's lover."

Gu Jiachen was stunned for an instant, and his movements froze, as if petrified.That sentence echoed in my ears.

You are me—Ren Xiaoxu's lover.

Say something.

After hesitating for a while, I still feel that I should make a statement.

That's right, Xiaocha is an internet author.That's right, there are a lot of web authors out there these days.That's right, the forest is big and there are all kinds of birds.We have to learn to be calm and bear with many things.

This remark is not aimed at any author, nor is it aimed at any article.It may be just a momentary impulse, or it may just be the emotion of the past year since debut.

I don't think I'm so noble either.We are all human, and many ideas are common.Where can anyone be nobler than whom?I can also swear, and I can also be biased.It's just that sometimes, when I calm down and think about it alone, I still feel that I should correct my attitude.

To be honest, who doesn't have such an idea about H?Is a normal development of people have.I'm not saying that if there are too many Hs, you shouldn't write or something.I also write H articles myself, and some of them are very explicit and specific.There's nothing wrong with that.

I just can't stand some authors.In their hearts, they feel that H itself is dirty, and then they write about it.And after he wrote it, he didn't feel that something was wrong with him. He felt that readers liked to read it, so he had to write it for his life or the so-called "writer's dream".Then he began to accuse the readers of being impure in their minds, being obscene and vulgar, and being too dirty, which made me, the author, have to write these dirty things in order to cater to you...

About this situation, I want to say.

First of all, H is not dirty.This is an innate human desire.Food sex also.If you think H is dirty, well, eating can be dirty too, don't eat.

Second, even if you, as a writer, have to write content that caters to readers, maybe you yourself feel that is not what you want to write.However, please remember that if you come to a website to write an article and you sign a contract, then you have to be worthy of the job you got.Please have your own professional ethics, and don't distort your noble thinking just because you cater to readers, and scold readers indiscriminately.To put it nicely, people are your parents.To put it bluntly, why does a bitch scold clients?Take what you need.

Furthermore, relying on H to make a living is a side job. If I can’t write it myself, or it is harmonized, or the readers are not satisfied, or they don’t buy it, please don’t complain, okay?Poor writing is due to incompetence, or lack of hard work, or bad luck, and so on.It's a long road, and only those who can endure the torment of loneliness and the long wait can make a difference.And, on a side note, the law itself does not protect your interests.Please don't be a whore and set up a chastity arch.

Finally, when it comes to writing essays, everyone may be driven by interests or vanity at the beginning, and interests and vanity themselves are understandable.

And Xiaocha always believes that the communication between the author and the reader is a heart-to-heart communication, and only when you give your heart will you reap warm rewards.Only respect yourself, respect your own text, respect the text itself, respect readers, respect your website, respect the network, respect your circle, respect your environment, only in this way, your text, your website, your The reader, the text itself and yourself, will be respected.

Not much to say, just do it yourself.