lion hunting

It would be a lie to say no regrets.

Rui An regretted it at the beginning, he still couldn't figure out why he picked that person home.

Rhubarb should probably be that kind of person, the kind of person who is worse than never to meet.He broke into your life unexpectedly, twisted your track into his world, and then left quietly, leaving those specious things and unexplained question marks.

If this is the so-called passerby, then he would rather just be a stranger.

Surprisingly, Rui An was very calm, so calm that he immediately started his new life, no, started his original life, two points and one line, following the rules.

He readily accepted the fact that Da Huang had left, and waved away all the doubts in his heart, just thinking that he had a dream with no beginning and no end.

Going to work, eating, sleeping, and living alone were originally what he was best at.

Once the life gets easier, it will pass quickly, spring and autumn come, and then the New Year, Rui An greeted his 29th year in peace on the streets that he has patrolled countless times.

After getting off work on the morning of the first day of the new year, Rui An simply cleaned the house, because he didn't have time to clean up because of the continuous overtime work, and he used it to sleep whenever he had time, and now he had to catch the car before noon to see Auntie , so I simply cleaned it up.

Rui An is not afraid of heat, and there is a heater in winter, so he never wiped the air conditioner that was already covered with a thick layer of dust. This time, he still regarded it as a decoration, ignored it, and received the same treatment. The big lion doll of the same height that he pressed under the bed.

Without thinking about why she deliberately avoided it, Rui An took the supplements she would buy every year, changed into her clothes and went out.

This year's winter was unexpectedly cold, Rui An wore a thick cotton coat and burned paper on the grave, he still brought Hai Xun's favorite Daqu, and still chatted about some things, those words were chased by the wind, fragmented Falling on the boundless wheat field.

On the way back, Auntie gave Rui some pickles she pickled herself, and an envelope.

After getting on the bus, Rui An felt a little drowsy. He tilted his head and leaned against the window, and faintly smelled the faint smell of pickles from the cloth pocket. Then he remembered that there was another letter.

The old-fashioned cowhide envelope was covered with the smell of pickles, Rui An smelled it, and his heart couldn't be described as warm.

Opening the envelope, besides a letter, there is also a passport.

A bad premonition rose in his heart, Rui An swallowed and spit and opened the letter, there were not beautiful but neat words on it.

'Children, uncles and aunts all know that you have been sending us money all these years.We didn't mention it, but you are suffering from thinking about your child.However, uncle and aunt are old, and there is nothing lacking at home. You see, you are not too young, so save the money to beg for a wife and buy a house...'

"Xiao An, your uncle and I are both rough people, and we don't know how to express anything, but we know that your life is not easy. After so many years, we old couple are thinking about it. You, don't blame yourself. If you don't dislike it, we will treat you as a son so that we can take care of us in the future, right? '

'If Ah Xun is still alive, he will definitely be happy to have such a good brother like you. '

'My child...'

……

'Click, click! '

Dou Da's tears dripped on the letter paper, soaking the handwriting in an instant. Rui An firmly held the pen in his hand, bit his lip, leaned his head on the backrest in front, and looked at the letter paper through blurred vision. The two words of the inscription, the voice tremblingly called out: "Mother..."

For many years, he thought he was strong enough, he thought he would never cry for anything again.

It turned out that the old man knew everything. It turned out that he was the only one who couldn't let go of the guilt and lived in deep guilt.

Hearts were tightly squeezed together, Rui An suppressed his crying, the veins on his forehead were protesting, but how could he ignore the guilt in his heart?He had mixed this brotherly love with 'dirty' things.

He should be lucky, fortunately he didn't make it clear at the beginning, otherwise what face would he have to speak to the old man?

It was him who failed the old man's trust in him, and it was he who made Hai Xun sacrifice in vain.

Eight years later, Rui An recalled this feeling of inferiority again. It turned out that it had never disappeared, but was hidden in Rui An's flesh and blood.

But the difference is that from now on, he will have more excuses to visit the old man, and next time he will call 'Daddy and Mother' instead, and when he faces Haixun again, he may also say '' Brother', maybe.

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We are alive, arguing endlessly over some trivial matters, and we are willing to let go of those things that have to be let go after we have tasted the bitterness. But some people refuse to let go, they are obsessed with the ending, and There are two endings, tragedy or comedy.

Obviously, Miao Zheng was the lucky one.

When summer is approaching, Miao Zheng tells Rui An that he and Fang Hong have finally achieved a positive result.

That day, when the three of them had dinner outside, Rui An thought that Miao Zheng was so motivating because he was going to marry Fang Hong, but she didn't expect that Fang Hong just agreed to date him.

Rui An sneered, what is this called cultivation success.

But having said that, the past three years have really been hard for Miao Zheng.

The three of them chose a Sichuan restaurant. The spicy smell on the table made the three of them greasy, especially Miao Zheng, who piled up the tissues for wiping his nose until the waiter couldn't bear to look at it.

"As expected." Fang Hong looked at the extremely embarrassed person and sighed.

Rui An asked very interestedly: "How do you say?"

Fang Hong took a sip of her drink and said, "It is said that love is a process of discovering each other's strengths at the beginning. Why did I skip to the second half and start to discover his weaknesses?"

"Puha..." Rui An snorted, and tapped Miao Zheng's forehead, "Did you hear that, if this continues, your relationship will come to an end."

The person who was working hard raised his head and asked with a puzzled look: "What are you doing? Why!"

Fang Hong pinned the tissue to Miao Zheng's face with a look of disgust, "You eat what you eat, it's none of your business."

"Oh." As soon as he heard it was all right, Miao Zheng went desperately with the spicy duck head in his hand.

Sighing again, Fang Hong moved the chair towards Rui An and asked, "Brother Rui, let's talk."

"Okay." Rui An put down his chopsticks and confessed, "If it's about Miao Zheng, then I can only tell you that although he looks unreliable, he really likes you."

The person who gnawed on the duck head seemed to hear his name, and winked at Rui An.

Fang Hong waved her hand, and asked with a 'forget it' expression on her face, "Seriously, how is the person who lives with you now?"

"Who?"

"Brother Rui, don't tell me that you have been with Miao Zheng for a long time, and your head has become stupid."

Rui An laughed dryly, and said slowly, "Let's go."

"Gone? When?"

"Gone a year ago."

Fang Hong frowned, with some complaints in her eyes, but she was different from Miao Zheng, so she definitely wouldn't make a fuss, even if she was surprised, she just hid it in her heart, and after a long time she said again: "Brother Rui, you drove him away, Or did he go by himself?"

Fang Hong got the point right away, Rui An laughed helplessly, and said, "He himself."

Fang Hong was silent again, she took out her phone and looked through it, then put it in front of Rui An, and said in a low voice, "Brother Rui, do you still remember this photo?"

This was what Rui An sent to Fang Hong back then, the photo of rhubarb that he secretly took, the moment he saw that face, Rui An felt a sudden pain in his heart, and he pressed the back button, not wanting to look at it again.

"Brother Rui, when you asked me to check, I really couldn't find anything." Fang Hong lowered her voice and approached, "A while ago I saw a photo of a person similar to this person in the criminal police team, but I'm not sure if it's the same person .”

Rui An was taken aback, and his hands on his lap tightened instantly. He looked at Fang Hong and asked, "Interpol brigade?"

"Yes." Fang Hong nodded, but said uncertainly, "But it's just a glance, I'm not sure, that's why I asked you how that person is doing now."

"..." Rui An was in a daze, why did he see a picture of Da Huang in the criminal police team?

"If Brother Rui wants to know something, you'd better ask Team Meng. I saw that photo on his desk."

"...I don't want to know anything."

Seeing Rui An who answered like this, Fang Hong didn't say anything, took a sip of her drink, and then said calmly: "Brother Rui, are you afraid?"

Rui An smiled, "Why should I be afraid? What am I afraid of?"

Playing with her better nails, Fang Hong said, "Brother Rui, how many years do you think you two have known each other?"

"It's been...nine years?"

"You also know about nine years, so what do you think I don't know?"

Women are always sharp, especially smart ones.Sometimes Rui An is quite afraid of Fang Hong. He always feels that in front of Fang Hong, even his well-hidden emotions can be easily seen through.

Speaking of which, I was able to know Fang Hong because of Haixun's visit. Haixun was very popular at that time, and he was popular everywhere, especially the girls in the team, who almost became Haixun's god-sisters. When Rui An met Fang Hong for the first time, the two almost quarreled over some trivial matter, but in the end it was Hai Xun who intervened in the middle. Unexpectedly, Rui An and Fang Hong became better friends later on.Fang Hong's character is very straightforward, a bit of a manly man, Rui An likes this kind of girl who is not delicate and artificial, and later he and Fang Hong got closer, and they chatted with each other. It was also at that time that Rui An knew that Fang Hong actually had a A very powerful dad, so she was able to work in the archives department at a young age, but his dad didn't agree with her being a criminal police officer, so she chose to go to the command center later.

And the first person who found out that Rui An liked Hai Xun was Fang Hong.When Fang Hong asked him, he panicked. He thought he was hiding something deep.Unexpectedly, Fang Hong told him that her eyes had been opened.Rui An knew she was joking, so she just thought Fang Hong was smarter than ordinary girls.

Surprisingly, Fang Hong didn't laugh at Rui An afterwards, nor did she show any abnormal behavior. Since then, the two of them have gotten better.

"To be honest, Brother Rui, you have changed a lot before. I thought you were in love." Fang Hong's voice was helpless, "But this year, you have changed back again."

"Don't tell me I'm as crazy as you are? I'm a chameleon?"

"..." Fang Hong looked at Rui An fixedly, with an undoubted seriousness on her face.

"Well, I'm really afraid of you." Rui An smiled, smiled, and the smile disappeared. He didn't know whether he had changed or not, but he always felt that something was missing.

"Brother Rui."

"Ah."

"He has been gone for eight years, that's enough, almost you don't need to be alone anymore, you will be lonely..."

"..."

"Look at me, I can accept even Miao Zheng, what else do you have to worry about? Let the past go, people can't live in memories forever, it's too tiring."

"..."

"To be honest, Brother Rui, no matter whether the photos I saw in Team Meng are real or who he is, I am very grateful to him, because he let me see Brother Rui many years ago." Fang Rushing her cheeks with one hand, she tilted her head to look at the silent person, and said with a smile, "Last year, your eyes were alive."

"..."

"What the hell? What are you two whispering, why didn't you tell me!" The person who finished eating the duck's head gestured with two oily hands, unwilling.

"Look at you, don't shake it around, okay, wipe your hands clean for me." Fang Hong hurriedly sat over and wiped someone's hands with a tissue, just like a mother who is worried about her son.

With a smile on his lips, Rui An remained silent, looking at the two people who were fighting opposite him like watching a farce.As for Fang Hong, he wanted to say, 'Don't worry about it, as long as you are well', he really felt that nothing mattered now.

But at this moment, Rui An didn't know that apart from being relieved, there was also a little envy in his eyes when he looked at the two, and he didn't care about anything, except that nothing was right.

Wrong time, wrong person, wrong silence.

He didn't even know that his silence was unwillingness.

He was not reconciled to those lies of Rhubarb.

Not reconciled, Rhubarb's intimacy with him.

What's even more dissatisfying is that since he decided to leave, why did he insist on provoking him.