The No.15 Years of Loving the Actor

He ruthlessly shook off Ms. Liu's hand, "I, Qin Yin, don't owe anyone any affection, and if I do, I only owe him one person. Please see clearly who you are."

Ashamed and angry, Ms. Liu slapped Qin Yin hard and rushed out the door.

Zhao Yiran watched the whole process, saying that he was not shocked would be a lie, every word Qin Yin said beat on his heart like a drum, disturbing his mind.

Seeing Ms. Liu leave, the ward finally quieted down.Qin Yin poured a large glass of water, smiled at Zhao Yiran, with a sense of relief in his smile, "Yiran, I won't be engaged to her, you will be very happy when you wake up."

Zhao Yiran hugged his knees and looked at the obvious palm prints on his face complicatedly, unable to speak.

Even without Liu Tian, ​​would they still be able to go back in time?Can Qin Yin really let go of Aunt Xia's death?Can the five years lost between them really be redeemed?

Zhao Yiran felt flustered, he really wanted to go to Aunt Fang's grave, and tell her his panic, his hesitation, his uneasiness and throbbing.

Qin Yin didn't go back to the apartment that night, he sat by the hospital bed and quietly watched Zhao Yiran who was lying on the bed.

Sitting on the balcony, Zhao Yiran was bathed in the moonlight, stretched out his hand to see the silver light passing through his palm, feeling a little flustered.He was afraid that he would never return to his body, and could only be a ghost who knew everything but could do nothing.

He crossed his legs and looked back at Qin Yin, sighed, and slowly rested his chin on his knees.

One day after a month, Qin Yin went to the cemetery.The weather was very cloudy that day, and the dark clouds were rolling in and the air was stuffy.Qin Yin came to Fang Zhen's tomb with a large bouquet of flowers in his hands, but knelt down on the ground respectfully and kowtowed three times to his mother.

He looked up at the photo on the tombstone and said, "Mom, I'm sorry."

Zhao Yiran also knelt beside him and said sorry.

Qin Yin said calmly: "Mom, I still can't let Zhao Yiran go."

"If you have been watching in the sky, you should know that he has been living very hard. Recently, because of my serious illness, I am still staying in the hospital and cannot wake up. If all this is punishment, he has really It took a lot."

"I really love him, Mom, I've always loved him. It's just that I have been suppressing this love because of my guilt for you. But now he is like this, lying unconscious on the bed every day, possibly forever I can't even wake up. He died once, since he died, then can I love him. "

Qin Yin's eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse: "Mom, I know I'm not a thing, and I hurt your heart. But please, can you forgive the child's unfilial piety, I really don't want to make him sad again."

"Do you know? Every time I see Yiran lying there silently, I always think why I treated him like that before. He is the person I love deeply, how can I be so cruel to him?"

"Life is only a few dozen years, and I have passed a quarter of it without a trace. I don't want to procrastinate and waste the rest of my life. I love Zhao Yiran, and I want to be with him."

Zhao Yiran stared blankly at Qin Yin, looking at this handsome face that he had seen countless times.He felt his chest heat up, and tender tears began to flow.

Time to wake up and face reality.

……

Zhao Yiran slowly opened his eyes, and for a moment he felt like he didn't know what was going on.He tilted his head subconsciously, and his body as stiff as iron made him frown instead.

He is waking up?

Zhao Yiran, who had been a wandering soul for more than three months, found that he had finally returned to his body. He wanted to express his joy with a smile, but unfortunately his muscles were too stiff and he could only twitch the corner of his mouth.

He lay on the bed for half an hour to calm down, trying to turn his head to look at the sunlight outside, when he heard footsteps coming from far and near, and then the nurse's surprised voice: "Mr. Zhao, you're awake!"

Zhao Yiran turned his head with difficulty and was about to speak, when he saw the nurse running out in a hurry, and brought a large group of people in within a minute.

Finally, when all the inspections were over, he sighed quite tiredly, closed his eyes and prepared to rest his mind.

There were a lot of things hidden in his mind, and he had a headache because of the crowding, and he couldn't think of anything for a while, so he simply smashed the cans and smashed them, thinking about nothing.Not long after I closed my eyes, I heard familiar footsteps.

Zhao Yiran closed his eyes, and his fingers hidden under the quilt moved violently.

The familiar breath was getting closer and closer to him, but he still closed his eyes and remained motionless.Until the cool hand gently pressed his forehead, he couldn't hold on, and slowly opened his eyes.

What came into view was Qin Yin's excited face.Zhao Yiran subconsciously froze.

Qin Yin has always been serious and calm, and it is rare to show his emotions like this. Zhao Yiran looked at his thin and slightly out-of-shape face, pursed his lips and did not speak.

To be honest, he doesn't know how he should face Qin Yin now.Is it hate or love?To reject or to forgive?He couldn't figure it out.

He admits that Qin Yin has been really kind to him these past few months, but in reality, the relationship has been missing for five years, can they really be as good as before?After all, they have changed a lot in five years.

Qin Yin stared at him without blinking, not hiding the surprise in his eyes.He stretched out his hand and gently smoothed the few pieces of hair on Zhao Yiran's forehead, "Is it still uncomfortable?"

Zhao Yiran hummed a little bluntly, as if the voice was forced out of his throat.

Qin Yin still had a calm expression on his face, as if nothing bad had happened between them. He sat on the side of the bed, reached into the quilt and held his hand.

Zhao Yiran shuddered violently, and his body stiffened instantly.He can't be as frank as Qin Yin, this kind of behavior is very intimate, Qin Yin hasn't done anything to himself for a long time, it's hard for him to adapt.

He admitted that during the three months he was wandering for the "wandering soul", he had witnessed Qin Yin's "hands-on" actions to him many times, but the simple look and the real feeling are different,

He hasn't been in contact like this for several years, and Qin Yin's strong yet gentle actions make him unable to deal with it naturally.After all, judging from the actual situation, the real situation between them is not as gentle as it is at the moment.

Qin Yin glanced at him, let go of his hand with interest, he put his hand in his pocket, and stopped talking.

The two were silent for a long time, Qin Yin looked at him and said, "I'm sorry."

Zhao Yiran didn't speak or look at him, his eyes drooped, and his eyes fell on the snow-white quilt.

"Yi Ran, I'm sorry." Qin Yin continued.

Zhao Yiran clenched his hands hidden under the quilt into fists, and without looking at Qin Yin, said hoarsely: "Stop talking, I'm a little dizzy..."

Qin Yin looked at him fixedly, and said softly after a moment of silence: "I was too anxious."

Zhao Yiran didn't speak any more, and quickly closed his eyes.Although he couldn't see it, he could still feel Qin Yin's gaze lingering on his face.

This feeling was not good, maybe Qin Yin felt his discomfort, and finally walked out quietly.

Zhao Yiran secretly opened his eyes and saw Qin Yin's clothes, which disappeared at the door of the ward in an instant.He sighed faintly, full of confusion in his heart.

Frankly speaking, he still loves Qin Yin, and Qin Yin can treat him like this now, which is simply a luxury for him before.But when he lost his heart once and experienced life and death again, he suddenly didn't dare to love Qin Yin desperately anymore.The most important thing is that he doesn't know whether Qin Yin loves him or feels guilty for him.

There were too many question marks in his heart, so Zhao Yiran covered his head under the quilt and simply became an ostrich.Not long after, there were footsteps, and Chu Cheng's voice said, "He's awake?"

The nurse said softly: "Well, Mr. Zhao woke up this morning."

Zhao Yiran quickly poked his head out of the quilt, and saw several people standing in the ward.There was Chu Cheng Du Xiao, Shen Yan Qi Yu, and finally Qin Yin.

Seeing him, Chu Cheng immediately excitedly said: "You kid finally woke up, you scared me to death."

Zhao Yiran sat up with difficulty and smiled at him.

Shen Yan walked to his side and said happily: "How is it, is your body still uncomfortable?"

Zhao Yiran said: "It's much better." He glanced at Du Xiao who was helping Chu Cheng with his coat, and whispered to Chu Cheng, "Reconciled?"

Chu Cheng had a smug face, and the sweetness at the corner of his mouth couldn't be stopped, "Look at his performance."

Zhao Yiran was talking with friends beside the hospital bed, while Qin Yin sat quietly on the sofa and peeled apples.Chu Cheng glanced at Qin Yin and snorted coldly, then whispered to Zhao Yiran: "Don't be stupid again, the water in your mind must be poured out quickly."

Zhao Yiran made him laugh, "Fuck you, your brain is full of water."

Qin Yin cut the peeled apples into small pieces, put them on a plate, inserted a fork and put them on the table next to Zhao Yiran.

No one spoke, and the atmosphere was a little strange.It was still Shen Yan who smiled and said, "It just so happens that our movie is about to finish shooting, Brother Qin will have more time to take care of you."

Zhao Yiran didn't speak, but Qin Yin glanced at Shen Yan with admiration in his eyes.

Seeing this situation, Qi Yu suddenly said: "Zhao Yiran just woke up, let's not disturb him, let's go." After speaking, he nodded to Qin Yin, then walked out with his arms around Shen Yan's waist.

Chu Cheng still wanted to speak, but was dragged away by Du Xiao.There were only the two of them left in the ward.

Zhao Yiran lowered his head without looking at Qin Yin, "Aren't you going back?"

Qin Yin didn't answer, he inserted an apple from the plate and handed it to him, "Do you want to eat?"

Zhao Yiran shook his head and said, "I want to sleep."

Qin Yin ate the apple by himself, looked at Zhao Yiran who kept bowing his head, and said, "Well, go to sleep."

Zhao Yiran fell on the bed without saying a word, covered his head with a quilt.In the pitch-dark environment, he could clearly feel that Qin Yin was helping him patiently tuck the quilt, which made his heart completely flustered.