that love, that youth

In the letter, I told Xiaoshi that people who change classrooms these days are panicked. Maybe this kind of panic can't expand the coverage, it just refers to the movement in my heart.Talk about two pages, written sparsely.I absolutely believe that my heart is full of emotions like a waterfall of water, and it is as simple as a fool to say and write.

By the time I received Xiaoshi's reply, it was already another Monday.Every Monday is the day when the school's communication room is open to receive letters.On this day, the table in the reception room on the first floor was full of various letters, because the small space is always crowded, so I always take the letter with the least enthusiasm, and often wait for me to get it. , the letter is running out.

This time, because I was expecting a reply early, I also went to get a reply early.By the time I got there, the reception room was crowded into knots.

I can only stand in the shapeless line behind the crowd.

When I finally got the letter and squeezed it out profusely, I bumped my head against Zeng Xiaowu, who also had the letter in his hand, as if he was not as depressed as I was to get the letter after all the hard work.

He said, it's the first time I've seen you so actively come to get the letter.I was afraid that something like grabbing the note would happen again, so I just perfunctorily said that I had something to do in the afternoon, so I came to get it in the morning.

He followed me all the way back to the classroom.Walking behind me seemed to be staring at me for any changes to this letter. I didn’t dare to be fast or slow like a thief. I took the letter and walked back step by step until I entered the teaching building. He quickened his pace and went up to the second floor and returned to the classroom.

As soon as I returned to the classroom, I carefully opened the letter. The white envelope had my class and name on it, and the letter paper was light blue with plain flowers on the top and bottom headers.

Xiaoshi has always been good at choosing, all the stationery is so delicate and elegant.He wrote to say that he had also been divided into classes—the key class of science, and the key class of science, which made me envious.He said that class division is the most common thing in high school, and he asked me to learn not to be surprised.It is necessary for me to adapt to the new learning content and learning rhythm as soon as possible, and strive to lay a good foundation for the college entrance examination.

cliché.Here's my take on him.Although I don't have a brother, only a younger sister, but I don't think I have lost my brother's control at all, and he is the one who plays this role.

The letter was stuffed directly into the table hole, which immediately reduced my enthusiasm for getting the letter on Monday.

Zooming in on the weekend on Friday, I went home.

When the family was having dinner together, my dad used his endless nagging skills because my mother fried one of the dishes and made it salty.

The two of them were old sesame seeds and rotten millet, and they quarreled as soon as they came and went.My dad lost his temper and threw pots and bowls of soup, soup and vegetables all over the floor, not caring that the child who came back from school was still hungry.

I am angry.

Have you ever considered the feelings of your children in your life, quarreling every three days and five days, hitting and scolding, childhood is not childhood, adolescence is not puberty, dare not even say a word at home, raising children is still It's not as good as raising pigs to take care of them. What's the use of parents like you.

Then I was slapped on the door frame by my dad and ran out.Xiaoshi's bicycle jingled just in front of my house, and I rushed out, got on his bicycle and walked outside the community.

"You were beaten again? Your face turned red from the beating"

"They started arguing again, and I don't understand. They've been arguing for a lifetime, and it's endless. They don't let people say a word, and they just type it up."

"Then you just hide, don't you want to fight with them at that time?"

"It's better to kill me to save worry, I can't stay any longer anyway."

"Tiantian, don't be childish. Have you forgotten what you said? You can only be freed if you are admitted to a university. Only when you are admitted to Peking University, which you most yearn for, will you be the biggest winner and you will be able to prove that you are the most Great, so you have to be strong"

"Well, I must be admitted, Peking University, I must work hard. By the way, why did you come to me?"

"The last time you talked about class division, I was going to visit you, but I didn't expect to encounter such a thing"

"Hey, with the current mood, it doesn't matter if you are divided into classes. How come there is no smooth sailing in life? Tell me"

"Where are you now? There must be some ups and downs in life, otherwise you will blame God for letting you be at ease."

"You can think about it, why didn't you see that you were a little bit turbulent?"

"I've been through a lot of strong winds and waves, yours are nothing to me"

"Haha, bragging"

On the street full of poplar trees on both sides, there was a hot wind with a hint of cool wind, after listening to Xiaoshi's words, I was confused but strong.Youth is painful. For me, it did not give me a minute of pleasure, nor a moment of peace, nor the strength to pursue it, and even deprived me of the right to speak freely.I remembered the cartoon I watched when I was a child, and there was a line in it: Give me strength, Ciri.

I really want to find Ciri and let her empower me.

Back to school, the learning cycle repeats itself.There is only a little difference, the teacher does not bring the morning self-study and evening self-study completely by self-consciousness.

Zeng Xiaowu also saw this.He began to wait downstairs in my dormitory, insisting on having breakfast with me.In addition to breakfast, he insisted on eating lunch and dinner together.

I don't even know how to refuse, because it seems that there is one more person besides Wei Wei eating together, which makes Wei Wei very distressed, she said Tian Tian, ​​why don't I eat with Xiuxiu, although I didn't allow it, but later, she actually had dinner with Xiuxiu.

Later, Zeng Xiaowu directly transferred the self-study to our class.I don't know what reason he used to persuade my classmates to change classrooms with him for self-study, but I only know that the teacher will not allow it.

Because of a rainy day, I was under the fan for too long and caught a cold.Zeng Xiaowu assumed the responsibility of taking care of me, and also covered the two fans on top of my head by the way. No one could easily change the speed of the fans except my heating and cooling, and he still occupied them long after I got better from the cold.Several boys in the backseat of mine came to beg me, saying He Tiantian, please, tell Boss Zeng to turn on the fan faster, we are going crazy from the heat.

In fact, those days were really happy, we were inseparable, from breakfast to dinner, chatting from yesterday to tomorrow.He often said that he has the responsibility to hurt me, so taking care of me is a kind of thing without words.Like many girls in love, I slowly get lost in the sweet talk and feel complacent in the meticulous care.

Gradually, he walked by my side more and more, either front or back, left or right, or wandering, or walking slowly, slowly walking from a stranger to a confidant.

Our topics are becoming more and more full, novels and poems, music stars, celebrity anecdotes, jokes and slang.

I suddenly opened up a paradise in a dark and lonely world. We sang, danced, and chatted, as if two unlovable souls collided with rainbow-like brilliance, and we did not want to leave for a long time.

Love is beautiful, it makes me no longer tired of the world, no longer troubled, no longer remember the noisy home, forget all the contempt given by this world, forget that I am alone in this world, forget fear, forget the future .

Yes, I'm in love, I'm sure of that.

But because of this, I have a heavy guilt, and that guilt torments me every night.Even in the sleepy dream, I clearly know that this is not just a puppy love, this is betrayal, which means self-destruction.

But love is here, it makes me feel a little warmth under the dark sky of adolescence, like a ray of light suddenly projected from the cloudy sky directly to the bottom of my heart, it makes me fully enjoy the sense of security, makes me happy, makes me happy I have power, maybe that's Ciri.

The taste of first love is not like apples and lemons, but a tacit understanding that complements each other. Zeng Xiaowu and I are like a pair of old friends, laughing and playing together, studying together, reading and chatting, eating, and shopping. It will suddenly stop in the long river of time, and can be so meticulous and innocent forever.

During the winter vacation, we secretly chatted on the phone about our feelings for the whole day. We were both worried and excited as if we were a thieves. We spent the long winter vacation tremblingly, anticipating and missing.That was the most beautiful winter vacation I had ever spent. I was always full of hope and persistent, so I couldn't hear the noise of the world, including the sound of quarrels and reprimands.The one that haunts my ears the most is I miss you, and so do I.

Back to school again, goodbye Zeng Xiaowu.In an instant, I felt that that was my Prince Charming. I should have been looking forward to three lives and three generations, so that I met in this place, at this moment, so beautifully.

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Don't hide away during the holidays, the more articles continue.I'm a little nervous