that love, that youth

In the third year of high school, everything is getting more and more tense.I rarely meet Zeng Xiaowu, and when we meet, we will quarrel over many things. The two of us will no longer tolerate each other. As long as Xiaoya or Xiaoshi is mentioned, we will completely lose our minds.

I am a girl who pursues perfection, how can I tolerate him loving another girl like a god?

I feel like I'm crazy and he says I'm incurable.Yeah, it's like taking a drug addict and knowing it's poisonous but not wanting to quit.

He said that my behavior would only create a scar in love, and I felt that apart from bearing the sin of treason against the future, I loved him in every possible way.

My love started to take a turn for the worse.Winter came very early, very suddenly, the sycamore tree became bare overnight, and the leaves piled up all over the ground, and I started to look up at the sky and the sun blankly again.

I think of what was sung in that song: "You look up at the sky, sprinkle a red sun all over your body, maybe you won't feel hurt anymore in your heart."But I can't do anything to change the sad status quo, my grades have been sliding all the way, and my body is also too thin.

Maybe I paid too much attention to love in those days, and didn't pay attention to what the people in the dormitory were doing.

Now he is thin and thin, and always feels uncomfortable, so he is willing to stay in the dormitory to rest.

It was only then that I realized that none of the little girls around me was not ready to move.

Douzi and her boyfriend are as sweet as cooking red bean porridge, Xiuxiu fights with Xiaobo again, her crying eyes are like walnuts.

Only Chong Chong, the most smug, the most handsome school girl who plays basketball, finally complacently catches up with this young lady's school beauty.

Wei Wei is still Wei Wei, more and more ladylike, working harder and harder.

Going home on vacation that big week, I planned to get some warmth.Compared with the ice and snow in the school, I feel that no matter how poor my home is, it is still warm.

As soon as I got home, my dad took out some New Year's cards and put them in front of me, asking me what the letters on them said.

I took a closer look, and it was a New Year's card that I treasured up, many people who were not friends. Those gifts made my heart happy for a long time.

For me, whether it is a friend or not, I am willing to cherish the blessings given to me.

I explained it to him carefully, and the English words on it were just simple greetings like Happy New Year.

But he accused me of having a bad attitude and forced me to tear up the New Year's card. I couldn't bear it, so I refused him abruptly.

Then he took out a few letters. Those letters were written by some junior high school friends for fun. I never paid attention to them, and I never answered them.

He severely criticized me, saying that I don't do business all day long, how can I study hard like this.

My mother added fuel and vinegar to the side, saying that some people said that I had a puppy love in school, and I didn't do anything well, and I did such a shameful thing.

I just cry.

God, look, this world has never given me a habitat.The more my parents talked, the more excited they became, and in the end they should be torn up and burnt.

I hit back fiercely, and I said how you violated my privacy casually, and didn't respect me at all. You have never been qualified parents, and you have never really cared about me. I would rather not have this family, and would rather be by my side. is an outsider.

After I finished speaking, I picked up my schoolbag and wanted to run out, but my father pulled me back and locked me in the house.In his heart, how terrible I should be, how embarrassing, how humiliating, how worthless.

I should be locked in the house for the rest of my life.I quietly squatted on the floor under the bed, thinking of that distant dream, Weiming Lake, only there can get rid of all this, Xiaoshi, I am sorry that I love breaking appointments so much, even my own dreams are hung on others, How shameless it is to expect to be reminded.

When I went back to school, I didn't feel so much pain.I made a plan for myself, how to revive well in the remaining six months, and return to the ranks of top students. The only way I want to take revenge on those two people in my family is to prove that I am not a disgrace, let alone a worthless one.

Get up at 5 o'clock every morning, run in the morning, study by yourself, breakfast, class, lunch, dinner, study by yourself, run in the evening, and sleep.

Everything becomes a table one by one.Take a deep breath, move forward, and strive to become what you want to be. Besides, I am made of steel, and no one can stop me from moving forward.

Zeng Xiaowu would also visit me occasionally, but from a distance, at that time I would still feel heartbroken, even gnashing my teeth, Xiao Lang, how could he be a passerby, or an enemy to relieve his anger.

I heard that Xiao Fei walked to Zhao Ya's school one night, sat on the road outside the school all night, and then spent two hours walking back.My heart was in a mess at that moment, and I finally understood that my love was just a past.

His feelings for Xiaoya have already become towering, so why should I beg myself so hard?What is swearing, not thinking about it, at that moment I understood every pore very thoroughly.

On my birthday that year, Zeng Xiaowu gave me a large bouquet of roses, invited me to dinner, bought a cake, and was as happy as if nothing had happened.

He said wish me happiness when I made a wish.I told him that you really have to lend me an eraser, otherwise your name will not be erased from my heart.

You taught me a lot, but you forgot to tell me how to forget you. You quietly left a trace in my heart, which has already become a meaningful poem and an unforgettable memory.

He said that I can scold him and beat him, please don't torture him anymore, as long as I can feel better, he is willing to bear everything.He said that no matter what I do, he will not lose me, even if we break up, he will still love me as always.

But I can't be more clear, this love has withered, no matter how good it is, it will still fall into mud and dust, like a rain of flowers, so beautiful but so decisive.

And he was about to walk out of this story, but I could only stay where I was and wait quietly, admitting that a person like He Tiantian would risk his life for being broken in love.

How I wish that there really is a No. [-] pawn shop in this world.

I want to pawn love and exchange it for gold, silver and jewelry, because some people say that if there is no love, there must be a lot of money; I also want to pawn memories and exchange them for love that can never be used up.

I will be kind and loving to everyone, but I will never remember their names, never fall in love with anyone, have any memories, those days of laughing because of sweetness and worrying about pain, I don’t want them all .

As winter deepened, the campus was suddenly desolate.

My rose is dying in the greenhouse, remembering the moment when I blow out the birthday candles I wish all my relatives and friends happiness and peace, when the rose petals are hanging with crystal water droplets, warmth and love are easy to spoil people, roses No matter how beautiful the flowers are.

What I can't have, I hope never can.

I hid myself in a corner, carefully counted the remaining things in my luggage, and never wanted to use high-sounding reasons to blackmail me. No matter what the future looks like, I must stay strong and pull up up.

I wrote a letter to Xiaoshi.I said, brother, after I have walked this bumpy road for a long time, I began to clearly understand the goal I am pursuing.Thinking clearly like this, it seems that the dream is approaching all of a sudden, I am not flustered, but very calm, even if it just flickers in front of my eyes and then floats past, I am not sad, because I will go straight to it, Rain or shine.

I said, I am the willful one among your friends, and I am also the one that makes you helpless.But you are always a ray of sunshine or a warm wind in my spring. In this cold spring day, you make my life much brighter.

Brother, there is no shortage of love in this world, and friendship is more precious.I still say that, let's be friends for life, okay?must work hard!May we be successful dream catchers!

The letter was sent out, and I buried the last concern. He has been with me for too long, and even the voice calling my name is familiar and irreplaceable.

I know that companionship is the longest confession of love, I know that giving is the most affectionate love, but I also know that love and friendship are not the same, I don't want to sacrifice the most extravagant waiting in the world, in exchange for one that can't last forever love.

I hope that no matter how much time passes, Xiaoshi will still be my inseparable friend like an iron wall, accompany me up and down, and know my joys and sorrows.Even in the end, I am really the only one left to go, and I have no regrets that I had such a friend in this passionate youth, standing shoulder to shoulder with me at the head of the storm, despite the ups and downs of life.

By the way, I started from this stop, no longer exile my footsteps, just want to walk resolutely to the right at this fork in the road where he turned left.

Fortunately, he is finally loved by someone, so he no longer needs to feel sad for my heartlessness.