Ruling, autumn

Jin Ruling turned his head and saw Su Xiaoqiu who was drenched all over, with his coat slumped on his shoulders and his wet hair sticking to his face, "It's really embarrassing." Jin Ruling laughed at her.Su Xiaoqiu looked at her like this, without makeup, her eyelashes were wet from the rain, and drooped softly.

Who told her that people who want to commit suicide usually don't wear makeup, they will dress neatly, in the most natural state, like a newborn.

Su Xiaoqiu swallowed, and her tears came out before the words. She choked up for a long time, and finally said suddenly: "I have learned to draw circles with my left hand and squares with my right..." Jin Ruling laughed, or She was crying, she just looked at Su Xiaoqiu like this, and said in a trembling voice: "You have been studying for almost ten years, you are so stupid." "Yeah, yes..." Su Xiaoqiu nodded vigorously, she stretched He stretched out his hands and kept scribbling in the air. Jin Ruling looked at it and really cried.

Su Xiaoqiu bent down, gasping for breath, like a fish dying of thirst, Jin Ruling looked at the overcast clouds in the sky, and sighed slowly, she stood up and walked in front of Su Xiaoqiu.

She hugged her gently, very slowly, as if she were some fragile object.

The wind in the river was cold, and Jin Ruling kissed Su Xiaoqiu's trembling lips. While tossing and turning, Su Xiaoqiu heard the sound of rain in her ears.

Back at the villa, Su Xiaoqiu sneezed several times in a row, Jin Ruling handed her a pink bath towel with a smile, and said, "How can you be so stupid?" Su Xiaoqiu wiped her hair, and then It turned out that the bath towel was a drape she had given her.

"Don't you want to be a writer? For those who study science, the drapes are gray, and those who study literature are pink. I bought one for you and gave it to you."

Su Xiaoqiu was stunned, and said, "You still keep it?" "It doesn't take up space anyway, so just keep it." Jin Ruling lit a cigarette and said nonchalantly.

"Jin Ruling, quit smoking." Su Xiaoqiu said.

Jin Ruling exhaled the smoke, pondered for a while, then took a deep breath, and said, "Okay, Xiaoqiu, I think I'm old, I can't write anything, I've become a mediocre person, let's leave, I will accompany you to America."

Su Xiaoqiu looked at Jin Ruling, speechless in a daze, Jin Ruling put down his cigarette, and his eyebrows stretched out with a smile: "You said that we have been together for so many years, and we can't be separated like this in the end, what is it, There has to be a beginning and an end." Su Xiaoqiu staggered into her arms without saying a word, Jin Ruling picked up the pink hanging cloth, and wiped her wet hair time after time, with unsure eyes. Where are you looking.

Sometimes life gives you a sweet fruit, and you don't know it, maybe it hides rotten and poisonous pulp.

When she woke up this day, Su Xiaoqiu felt uncomfortable all over. Jin Ruling went out for a morning run. She had this perseverance every day. She woke up early, ran down the mountain, and brought breakfast when she came back.

Su Xiaoqiu stretched her waist and dragged her tired body. After washing, her head still felt dizzy. She went back to bed and turned on her mobile phone. The headlines made her feel as if she had been struck by lightning.

"Jin Ruling, a popular writer, is secretly in love with a gay lover?! Kissing at the beach, even in the rain, the sweetness is not diminished."

The whole news used sharp and mocking words, Su Xiaoqiu slid the screen with trembling fingers, there were two photos on it, Jin Ruling hugged her soaking wet, and the kiss that smelled like rain.

Su Xiaoqiu climbed out of bed in a panic, ignoring to put on her coat, and rushed out of the house.

She dialed Jin Ruling's mobile phone, but the other party was not in the service area. She ran down the mountain barefoot, with blisters on the soles of her feet. She looked at the people who were busy going to work in the morning. Cell phone, suddenly feeling extremely hopeless.

Why, is she always looking for her?Why is it no longer the same as before, two people squeezed together in a small apartment, and the beloved is within reach. At that time, Jin Ruling had a happy and contented smile.The sound of her typing on the keyboard can be heard in the room every day, which was once Su Xiaoqiu's lullaby.

Su Xiaoqiu was very tired, she knelt down, when the phone rang, it was Jin Ruling.

Su Xiaoqiu answered the phone in a hurry, and said loudly: "Hello, Ruling?!" Make the father's voice.

"Well, I am, hello Uncle..." Su Xiaoqiu said in a low voice, wondering if they had seen the news, would they be furious?

"Ruling's mother is sick and is in the hospital. Ruling... come and see her." Jin Ruling's father sighed, and Su Xiaoqiu's heart skipped a beat. After hurriedly asking which hospital it was, she desperately rush to the place.

Running into the hospital, the pungent formalin smell made Su Xiaoqiu want to vomit. She didn't take the elevator, and when she ran to the fourth floor, she saw Jin Ruling kneeling in front of the ward.

That slender figure hurt Su Xiaoqiu's heart.

Jin Ruling's hair is disheveled and her eyes are downcast. She shouldn't be like this, she should always be heartless, always live selfishly, be happy, and don't care about other people's opinions.

But at this time, such a slumped Jin Ruling made Su Xiaoqiu want to cry, she walked to her side without saying a word.

Jin Ruling's father pondered for a while, and said, "Ruling's mother saw...that news, she cried for a long time, don't mind, her heart has always been bad..." Su Xiaoqiu felt her ears buzzing, Not knowing what he said, she knelt beside Jin Ruling and looked at Ruling's mother, who was pale and wearing a respirator in the ward, opened her mouth but couldn't say a word.

Then Jin Ruling didn't say a word, from the beginning to the end.

After returning to the villa that day, Jin Ruling suddenly hugged Su Xiaoqiu very hard, the strength seemed to crush all the bones in Xiaoqiu's body.

Su Xiaoqiu wanted to turn on the light, but Jin Ruling stopped him in a panic: "Don't, don't turn on the light..." Su Xiaoqiu stopped and didn't struggle anymore. Crying, she gritted her teeth with astonishing strength, and the sound of her molars rubbing against each other made Su Xiaoqiu's scalp tingle.

She waited for her to say something, but she didn't say anything until Su Xiaoqiu fell asleep.

In the early hours of the morning, the hospital sent a notice that Jin Ruling's mother did not make it through.

Jin Ruling was sitting on the balcony smoking a cigarette, Su Xiaoqiu was lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, she looked out the window with bloodshot eyes, it was still two hours before dawn, but it was still so dark.

Yes, there is only a moment of dawn, and before that, what a long night to endure.

Jin Ruling breathed out the smoke, closed her eyes, and the salty liquid flowed out from the corners of her eyes, she suddenly heard the sound of blood flowing in her body.

"If birth is a disaster, I'm glad to have you suffer with me..."

"No one should belong where, traffic flow, crowd, when you leave the rules of the world, you will be abandoned by the whole world, there is no freedom and no price..."

These are all the snow blown into the spring, Jin Ruling thought of the words in it over and over again.

Suddenly, she opened her eyes, and the color of her eyes was suddenly very clear, as if it was the sky after the rain, all the dust was washed away, and even her breathing became cool.

She extinguished the cigarette in her hand, smiled from the bottom of her heart, and the sky finally ushered in the first light of dawn.

When Su Xiaoqiu woke up, Jin Ruling was scrambling eggs in the kitchen. He hadn't cooked for a long time, and with a shake of his hand, he put too much oil, and Jin Ruling cursed.Su Xiaoqiu walked to the door of the kitchen and stared at her blankly. Jin Ruling turned his head and showed her a bright smile: "Are you awake? Get ready to eat."

Her smile is distant and familiar, Su Xiaoqiu seems to have returned to the moment when they first met.She murmured, "I saw a lot of cigarette butts in the room, are you smoking again?" Jin Ruling stretched out his hand and swore, "I promise, I will quit when I go to America."

"You... want to accompany me to the United States?" Su Xiaoqiu's voice could not hide the joy.

Leaning against the door frame, Jin Ruling said with a half-smile, "Why don't you plan to take me with you?" With her like that, maybe she really got better.

Su Xiaoqiu also smiled heartily, watching until the clouds opened to see the moon, the rebirth after the storm was actually so brisk.

She hastily kissed her on the cheek, and said excitedly: "You eat first, I'll go buy a ticket and see when the fastest flight is, you can pack your things at home first, or you can buy them when you arrive in the United States, Let's get out of this place quickly."

Jin Ruling leisurely held the scrambled eggs, sat down and said, "Are you in such a hurry, so eager to study? Well, for the sake of your studiousness, I will drive you to the airport." "No, I will Just take a taxi." Su Xiaoqiu grabbed her bag, her little face flushed with excitement, she pushed open the door and ran out, behind her, Jin Ruling kept watching her, she had never been so focused After looking at her, it seemed that she wanted to remember every gesture of her. If she turned her head, she would find Jin Ruling's unusual eyes. Unfortunately, Su Xiaoqiu only saw the sunshine in front of her eyes.

"Morning rush hour, be careful getting stuck on the road!" Jin Ruling shouted from behind.

Su Xiaoqiu hadn't been this happy for a long time. She flew to the airport in a taxi, humming the Divine Comedy that was popular this year, and even the driver uncle couldn't help but move to the music.

Xiao ran into the airport and bought the ticket for tomorrow morning with a smile. That kind-hearted look was better than the attitude of the flight attendant, and he almost hugged the staff who sold the tickets in circles.

Walking out of the airport, the sun was still shining brightly.

At the hottest time, I don’t know what the weather is like in the United States. Do you want to bring some bikinis?They have all gone abroad, and they must go to the beach for a while. Their Jin Ruling has such a good figure, and he definitely has an unstoppable yearning for the sea...

Sitting in the taxi and thinking about it, on the way back he really answered Jin Ruling's crow's mouth and got stuck in traffic.

Su Xiaoqiu rolled down the car window, listened to the sharp horn, and said with a smile: "It smells so good! What kind of flower is it, is it apricot blossom?" The uncle driver laughed a few times and said, "You are really beautiful, beautiful!" I would be joking, where are the apricot blossoms at this time, the apricot blossoms are fragrant in April, of course the apricot blossoms bloom in spring."

Oh... so it is like this, April, it happens to be Jin Ruling's birthday, I must tell her when I go back, Su Xiaoqiu said silently in her heart.

"The story is over," said the woman.

"Huh?" Kelly's eyes widened, and the blue pupils were full of surprise.

The woman was sitting on a rocking chair with a burgundy coat on her knees. She tilted her head and smiled, her slightly curly long hair glowing a light wheat color in the sun.

"You should go back, Jack is coming back," the woman said.

Kelly curled her lips in pity, stood up and said, "Luna, every time your story has no end, but I think, if there is an end, the end of the story, like Ling and Qiu will definitely walk in the streets of New York, in the Every April when the apricot blossoms."

She left the room with a high blond ponytail, a big smile, and the sound of the door closing was like a slight sigh, and the woman smiled.

Is it the end?For example, when Su Xiaoqiu returned to the villa and saw the blood in the bathtub, Jin Ruling's wet hair was like a flame extinguished in warm water. For example, she didn't wear shoes, but she was wearing a wine-red coat, which belonged to Su Xiaoqiu. coat.

For example, she closed her eyes serenely, just like she fell asleep under the apricot blossoms that year, and the corners of her lips even slightly curled up. In her world, is there only the brightest galaxy in midsummer left, and the two of them dressed Slippers and yukata together watching fireworks on the balcony.

She was wearing her coat with even strands of her hair on the collar, and she carried her scent and gave her an eternal hug.

This, is the end of the story.

In a lonely room, a woman holds the coat tightly in her arms.

Her story never ends, and perhaps, she would rather her story never begin.

Perhaps, in the classroom where the two met for the first time, Jin Ruling lent Su Xiaoqiu his pen and gave her a polite smile.

Then the two parted ways, and their lives never intersected.

Perhaps, this is the real end of the story.

The woman stood up, turned off the light, and fled into the house at dusk, lying quietly on the chair in the wine red coat.

It was never stained with anyone's hair.