Ruling, autumn

"Goddess of Luck has two fruits, one is sweet and plump, a dream fruit of good luck, and the other is a rotten fruit of bad luck, full of poisonous juice. Lady Luck will give the fruit of dreams to human beings, so that They are paralyzed, immersed in the sweetness of dreams coming true, and then they are handed the fruit of bad luck, greedy humans will swallow it without hesitation, and then the body and soul will be tortured forever, this is the trick of the goddess of luck .”

——Jin Ruling "Snow Blowing Into Spring"

The spring breeze in April is brewing a secret dream of sweet intoxication, and Jin Ruling has passed his 30th birthday.

It was in a high-end hotel, an extremely luxurious private banquet hall, with pink scented candles, a huge champagne tower, and radiant crystal lights.

Well-dressed waiters carrying exquisite and expensive snacks walked around among a group of people in gorgeous costumes and elegant manners.

Jin Ruling was wearing a chest-length purple dress, her hair was elegantly coiled, revealing a beautiful collarbone and a beautifully curved neck. She was wearing exquisite makeup and had a decent smile on her face. I don't know who was talking to her. The son of that group, his eyes were always floating around her body, when the music played, he stretched out his hand to ask her to dance, Jin Ruling smiled slightly, did not refuse, and put his hand on his.

Like a pair of bisexual couples, the two of them twirled in the middle of the dance floor. The man occasionally bowed his head and said something in Jin Ruling's ear. harmonious.

Su Xiaoqiu was standing not far from the two of them, holding a glass of champagne in her hand. Time added charm to Jin Ruling. She had everything, realized her dreams, and lived an extraordinary life. Accessories, like a small toy given after eating fast food, no one will refuse, but no one will really take her to heart.

Su Xiaoqiu felt chills all over her body. She suddenly remembered that a few weeks ago, the director of the company asked her to go abroad for further study. It seemed to be a school in the United States. Her English was good, but she felt that she was too old to go abroad. Going to study seems a bit ridiculous, but the company has recruited batch after batch of newcomers. Many of the young children have gone abroad for gold plating. During meetings, they always speak some terms that Su Xiaoqiu can’t understand. Slowly getting out of touch, she couldn't grasp many things in her life, just like Jin Ruling dancing with a man in front of her.

She is no longer the struggling girl who just skipped classes, but she is still the little mouse in her first novel.

If I'm not mature enough, I'm still not good enough for her, right?Su Xiaoqiu thought, she sighed slowly.

At the end of the song, Jin Ruling leisurely walked up to Su Xiaoqiu, raised his hand and shook it, and said, "Xiaoqiu, why are you in a daze?" Su Xiaoqiu came back to her senses and smiled.Jin Ruling pinched her cheek and sighed, "You don't have makeup on? Ah... I'm really envious. People in their twenties have really good skin..." "You're not bad..." Su Xiaoqiu She pinched her face and said vaguely.Jin Ruling's eyes dimmed a bit, she smiled, took Su Xiaoqiu's hand, and said, "I heard that the flowers at night are more fragrant than those in the daytime, Xiaoqiu, let's go and smell them~!" Before Su Xiaoqiu could answer, Jin Ruling dragged her out of the hall.

An annoying whisper came from around: "Hey, tell me, this Jin Ruling and Su Xiaoqiu, don't you..." "I don't know, this Su Xiaoqiu, Jin Ruling always takes her with him wherever he goes." , the relationship is definitely not simple." "Eh... so disgusting..."

Su Xiaoqiu lowered her head, she found that Jin Ruling's hand holding her was getting colder and colder, she was afraid, Su Xiaoqiu knew it.

There were people coming and going outside the hotel, and many passers-by turned their heads and looked sideways, looking in surprise at the two beautiful women who were holding hands and dressed in fancy dress. After walking for some time, Jin Ruling stopped by a flower bed, took off her high heels, Lighted a cigarette.

"Didn't you ask me to smell the flowers? Turns out you asked me to inhale your second-hand smoke?" Su Xiaoqiu laughed.

Jin Ruling puffed out the clouds and mist, did not speak, her eyes were hazy in the smog, she was indeed no longer young, those eyes no longer carried a flying smile, she seemed to be inadvertently, in the still Under the glamorous appearance, there is a wasted soul.

Su Xiaoqiu coughed, and tentatively said, "Ruling, our minister asked me to go to the United States for further study, and I... plan to go." Jin Ruling was stunned, she didn't speak, and the cigarette in her hand trembled slightly.

"I thought, if I don't study anymore, I will lose touch with society, and you are so good, you do what you want to do, and I... want to do what I want to do too." Su Xiaoqiu said in a low voice. Head, and finish speaking in one brain.

"Go." It was Jin Ruling's voice.Su Xiaoqiu suddenly raised her head, staring at Jin Ruling in a daze.

"I told you to go! What does it matter? This is your life, what right do I have to interfere." Jin Ruling's voice raised an octave, and she got angry.

Su Xiaoqiu looked at her and tried to comfort her: "No, Ruling, you are living the extraordinary life you dreamed of, but I seem to have always been your accessory. Ruling, I just want to prove that I am also Valuable." "Do you think my life is good?! Extraordinary?! I think my life is out of control, you know?! You go, you will abandon me anyway, everything will go away from me , I live in this world, just waiting for a day when I will lose everything..." Jin Ruling threw the cigarette butt on the ground fiercely, she had never been so angry before, her makeup was slightly blurred, and her beautiful face Twisted with rage.

Su Xiaoqiu suddenly felt aggrieved, why should she, she is Jin Ruling, proud, talented, she can not abide by any rules, she can live without rules, she is the most unique part of the world, the most unique part of herself The kind of person she aspires to be but dares not to be, why should she say it's painful? !Why do you moan without illness? !

Su Xiaoqiu's tears burst out. She didn't know what she was yelling, as if she had never spoken in such a loud voice. In her blurry tears, she saw Jin Ruling's eyes getting colder and colder, his face The muscles on her chest trembled because she was suppressing her anger. She cried too much at that time, and she really didn't see the despair and exhaustion hidden in Jin Ruling's eyes. It was a signal for help. If she noticed it, maybe the end of the story will be different.

Suddenly, Jin Ruling raised his hand, Su Xiaoqiu thought she was going to hit her, so she closed her eyes subconsciously, but after a long time there was no movement, and when she opened her eyes, there was no sign of Jin Ruling.

There was a pair of high-heeled shoes and a burning cigarette butt on the ground. Su Xiaoqiu was startled by the desolate feeling.She picked up her high heels, took out her cell phone, and started calling Jin Ruling frantically.

No one answered, turned off the phone, not in the service area... Listening to the cold female voice in the receiver, Su Xiaoqiu's tears flowed out one after another, she choked up, her nose and tears covered her face, I don't know how long it took, Su Xiaoqiu remembered, There was Jin Ruling's phone location in her phone, she forced herself to calm down, pressed a few buttons with trembling hands, and Jin Ruling's location appeared on the phone screen.

Banshan villa, she went home.

I hailed a taxi and almost ran home, but lost the key several times when unlocking the door, and when I opened the door, Su Xiaoqiu was startled by the mess in front of her eyes.

The ground was full of shards of glass, I don't know what Jin Ruling dropped, whether it was a glass cup or a vase, the painting on the wall was torn off, a wine bottle fell on the ground, and the brown liquid flowed all over the floor.

Jin Ruling lay quietly among the debris, her black hair was scattered, and her ankles were covered with debris. She closed her eyes and seemed to be asleep. The Jin Ruling under him also looked like this, sleeping like death.

Su Xiaoqiu was very scared. She seemed to be in the rough sea. She didn't know which wave could break her to pieces. She silently found out the medicine box, walked to Jin Ruling, squatted down, and carefully cleaned her feet. She moved very gently, for fear of waking up Jin Ruling, but she couldn't help crying, tears kept falling, Jin Ruling slowly opened her eyes, she didn't move, there was no trace of pain in her eyes. shine.

There is still one month before Su Xiaoqiu goes to the United States. In this month, Su Xiaoqiu endured everything that Jin Ruling did.

She is moody, she can curse for no reason, or cry loudly, she will sit up in the middle of the night, looking at the sleeping Su Xiaoqiu in a daze, she will be in an empty room, looking at the throbbing blood vessels in her wrist, dumb whispered: "Don't go..."

But she didn't say anything, at the moment Su Xiaoqiu left the villa with her luggage, she just finished smoking a cigarette.

It rained rarely in May, and when it floated above Su Xiaoqiu's head, she felt that the whole city had collapsed.

Taking a taxi to the airport, she took out her mobile phone and was about to turn it off, when she saw a flashing text message from Jin Ruling.

She gritted her teeth, hesitated for a long time, and finally pressed "View".

On the pale phone screen, there was only a line of short words: "Su Xiaoqiu, goodbye, I can't write anything." For some reason, these words caught Su Xiaoqiu's heart, she dropped her luggage, flew Run out of the airport.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, stretching like needles, and Su Xiaoqiu's hair was covered with smiling drops of water. She wiped the rain from her face and located Jin Ruling's cell phone.

She is by the Yangtze River.

Su Xiaoqiu was stunned, boundless fear invaded her, she flew out and stopped a taxi. "Wow, beautiful girl, are you dying?!" The driver uncle slammed on the gas pedal and said in shock, Su Xiaoqiu, who was drenched all over, opened the door and walked in.

"Jiangbian, hurry up." She said in a trembling voice.

Sitting by the river, Jin Ruling looked at the gray sky with her chin resting on her shoulders. She thought, the rainwater spirals down from the clouds, enters the big rivers, evaporates again, and turns into rainwater in the sky. Life is really boring.

Jin Ruling snorted coldly, with a faint smile but not a smile.

A piercing voice sounded behind her: "Jin Ruling!!"