【Xiyao】Fake prudence

Lan Xichen stayed up all night, reviewing all the things he and Jin Guangyao had in the past few years.

He didn't understand why he gave Jin Guangyao everything, but in the end Jin Guangyao still left him.

Because he is cool?

But he has treated Jin Guangyao very well for more than ten years, so good that even his own younger brother complained.

Why doesn't he want to be with me?

This question first appeared in Lan Xichen's mind.

He has rejected countless people, and the only time he was rejected miserably was by someone he had loved for 20 years.

Why can't he get a perfect relationship?

Lan Xichen was confused.

Sitting like this until the end of the night, Lan Xichen was still stuck in a difficult puzzle, and Lan Qiren walked up to him without realizing it.

Lan Qiren waited for a while, Lan Xichen's gaze was distracted, still wandering, Lan Qiren hesitantly stretched out his hand, and patted his nephew's shoulder.

Lan Xichen just woke up like a dream, with a soft cry in his throat, he raised his head, and it took him a while to see the face of the visitor clearly in the morning light, he got up exhausted, and asked, "Uncle, what's the matter?"

There was some panic and helplessness in his eyes.

Lan Xichen's heart is not very magnanimous, when he accidentally heard gossip about his mother when he was young, he would always look at his uncle with such eyes, and his uncle would come out and use family rules to punish those who slandered his mother.

By doing this, my uncle has completely replaced my father's duties.

Lan Xichen was an adult, so strong that he overwhelmed the elders who watched him grow up, but when he showed such a dazed expression, what Lan Qiren saw in his eyes was still the child who was hurt by gossip.

"I have nothing to do, so I can't come to see you?" Even though he expressed concern, Lan Qiren's expression was almost mean and serious, "I heard that you haven't been in bed for a few days, so being the suzerain doesn't mean you don't have to abide by the house rules? "

It was not easy for Jin Guangyao to fall asleep, Lan Xichen was afraid of disturbing him, so he gestured to Lan Qiren to wait a moment, turned around and tucked the red brocade quilt for Jin Guangyao, and kissed his cold forehead lightly , and went out of the cold room with Lan Qiren.

At the end of summer and early autumn, the drizzle was lingering, dripping on the bluestone steps, washing away the remaining bloody smell, the two uncles and nephews looked side by side at the rippling rain curtain, Lan Xichen raised his eyes, staring at the flying The corner of the eaves looks preoccupied.

The leeks and scallions planted by Jin Guangyao outside the railing are growing gratifyingly, green and green, with strings of crystal clear water droplets hanging on the green leaves, showing some elegant and elegant charm, which makes Lan Qiren dumbfounded: "He is crazy, you Crazy with him too?"

"Uncle." Lan Xichen pursed his lips into a straight line, and his eyes fell to the bottom of the steps, looking at Qingjue's reflection in the water, "Why do I treat him so well and he likes me, but he refuses to be with me?" Entanglement?"

After pondering for a long time, Lan Qiren asked, "Do you think your mother loves your father?"

Lan Xichen remained silent, embarrassed.

The mother was forced to marry the father, not her own will, so how can love be talked about?From beginning to end, it was a one-man show by my father alone.

As a son, even if he is clear in his heart, he cannot expose this embarrassing situation.

"Before she died, she said that she loved your father." Perhaps seeing Lan Xichen's embarrassment, after a while, Lan Qiren said the old things in a relieved way.

The corners of Lan Xichen's lips curled up, giving him a perfunctory smile.

"It's true." Lan Qiren said solemnly, "I never lie."

"Father and mother have been dead for many years, love or not love is meaningless to them and me." Lan Xichen has always been reluctant to think about the grievances between his parents, let alone mention them.

He is not connected with his parents, and always feels that those troublesome things have nothing to do with him.Parents are parents, children are children, this point, he can distinguish clearly than Wangji, and he lives with ease.

If he doesn't mention it, the clan elders won't mention it, and the rest of the younger generation won't mention it. As time goes by, everyone will forget it.

Things that disappear from everyone's memory are equivalent to non-existence.

This is the true meaning of life that Lan Xichen has figured out. He thought about teaching it to Jin Guangyao, but Jin Guangyao has a deep affection for his birth mother, and it is difficult to erase the memory of the entire world of cultivating immortals. Lan Xichen was even more distressed and sympathetic, and he couldn't be more happy if Jin Guangyao became the immortal governor.

"Your mother loves your father. Although I don't understand love, she will dress up carefully and smile happily when your father visits her. I have forgotten her face, but I still remember that she gave birth to two Lidi, only when you laugh." Lan Qiren ignored Lan Xichen's resistance, and stubbornly continued this topic, "She and her husband are in love, but they are still unhappy, why do you think?"

"Because she is a prisoner." Lan Xichen smiled wryly.

Under his uncle's stern gaze, he felt ashamed of his father's behavior.

Lan Qiren lowered his eyebrows and said earnestly: "Without freedom, a person has no dignity. Love without dignity is like the moon covered by dark clouds, making people unable to see the light. Without light, there is no hope. Disappointment accumulates over time and will change. Despair. It's not captivity that really kills, it's despair."

Lan Xichen realized something, but he didn't know anything: "I didn't want to imprison him. Once he confessed his mistake to me, I let him out."

Lan Qiren asked: "Besides being imprisoned or surrendering to you, does he have a third choice?"

Lan Xichen avoided Lan Qiren's gaze, and his eyes were clouded: "I have sacrificed a lot for him. At that time, he deceived me, used me, and even abandoned me. This is a humiliation to me. I want to Teach him a lesson."

Lan Qiren looked at his nephew who was trapped in obsession: "If he can live, but the price is that you never see him again, would you like it?"

Lan Xichen was stunned.

After a long silence, Lan Qiren's voice sounded again, with deep regret: "Why do you like him? It's simply because he can understand you, enlighten you, and add color to your boring and depressed life. Have you ever thought about it? Why does he like you?"

Lan Xichen thought about it seriously, and said, "Because I drank that cup of tea and never discriminated against him. I give him whatever he likes - am I not good enough for him?"

"You are very good to him, but you are not his god, he does not exist because of you, even if one day you don't love him anymore, he will still be him." Lan Qiren shook his head slightly, sighed: "Xi Minister, you always emphasize your own feelings, and the emotions of others cannot be conveyed into your heart. This can prevent you from being hurt, but it can't make you have a long-lasting relationship. He loves you, but he can't cover up his involuntary feelings. fact."

When Lan Xichen returned to the inner room, Jin Guangyao had already woken up. He was sitting on the jade bed rubbing his sleepy eyes. His hair was disheveled and his feet were shaking, but he didn't know how to put on his clothes. Giggling at Lan Xichen: "Brother, you smell so good."

Lan Xichen was heartbroken for a while. He used to put on Jin Guangyao's clothes, and then knelt down to put his socks on for him, but Jin Guangyao was not honest. Ah Ceng, said with a silly smile: "I want to fly, fly, fly..."

He was talking nonsense, with his arms spread out, flapping up and down, making the movement of spreading his wings and soaring, Jin Guangyao seemed to have learned to dance, his posture was so light and free, like a swan shaking its feathers, and his dark and lifeless eyes were also very bright. Pure and innocent.

Lan Xichen grabbed his ankle and said softly, "Put on your shoes and socks first, and I'll let you fly."

Jin Guangyao suddenly calmed down, and faced Lan Xichen quietly. Lan Xichen didn't know what was wrong with him, and wanted to ask, but Jin Guangyao suddenly jumped up like a bird catching a rabbit, and twitched his both hands hard and accurately. lip.

Before he could react, Jin Guangyao returned to his original position, looked around and pretended nothing happened, with an unstoppable smug smile on his face, like a child secretly delighted at stealing a candy.

Lan Xichen touched his lips and asked, "You can't see it, how could you find it?"

"If I don't tell you, if I tell you, you'll be prepared, and I won't be able to kiss you." Jin Guangyao pursed his lips, swinging his legs dishonestly.

Lan Xichen laughed and said, "I have never been able to stop your sneak attack."

After finally coaxing Jin Guangyao to put on his clothes and drink the medicinal porridge, Lan Xichen took him out of the cold room to let the wind out. Jin Guangyao heard the crisp ringing of the canopy bell, stretched his hands and stood on tiptoe to reach it, but the canopy bell hung It was too high, and he couldn't reach it. He jumped a bit, but still couldn't reach it, and flattened his mouth a little bit disappointed.

Lan Xichen picked up Jin Guangyao, and now Jin Guangyao had enough. He rang the cornice bell contentedly, and laughed to the sound of the jingle bells, playing childish games with endless joy. Already completely insane, only living in his own little world, and because of his blindness, he is unaware of the strange eyes around him.

Fortunately, Lan Xichen was also cut off from the outside world, so he waited patiently until Jin Guangyao had had enough fun before letting him go.

Jin Guangyao had a day of happiness, and he also had the virtue of thinking about the source when drinking water. He fumbled and turned around, and gave Lan Xichen a straight bow: "Brother, thank you for playing with me."

The time when Jin Guangyao was not making trouble was very rare, and Lan Xichen cherished the opportunity to have a good talk with him, so he asked honestly, "Is there no one to play with you?"

"No one." Jin Guangyao lowered his head, played with his fingers, and said in a muffled voice, "Ayao has no friends, and even if she is blind, she has no friends."

Lan Xichen thought of taking advantage of others' danger, rubbed his head, and asked insincerely, "Brother is willing to be your friend, and from now on you are willing to stay here forever. Brother will support you for the rest of your life, okay?"

Jin Guangyao felt that he was hit by a big pie, he raised his head suddenly, gave Lan Xichen a big smile, and said loudly, "Okay!"

Lan Xichen also had a day of happiness.

The next moment, his happiness was taken away.

Because Jin Guangyao repented.

Not long after Jin Guangyao agreed, he changed his words with a sad face: "I still don't want it, I have my own home, I'll go home after playing for a few days, mother will be anxious if she can't find me."

"Why?" Lan Xichen hated hearing the word "no" from Jin Guangyao's mouth the most, as soon as Jin Guangyao said it, he was terrified.

He forgot that Jin Guangyao was not clear-headed, and became more serious: "I will bring your mother here."

"That won't work either." Jin Guangyao refused more simply this time, he seemed to have regained consciousness a bit, rubbing his temples and said, "This is a good place, but it's not where we should live."

"I love you." Lan Xichen whispered softly, "Don't you love me?"

There are very few people in the world who can stand his tricks. Jin Guangyao is not in the ranks of those few people whether he is crazy or not. He was dizzy and confused by Lan Xichen's teasing, but he still said with difficulty: " You are fine, and I love you very much. But...Qi Dafei, I really can't afford to be high. What if you dislike me in the future, and I can't make a living by myself, what should I do?"

His spirit seemed to be put in chains, even if he was crazy, he couldn't run freely, let alone daydream.

Lan Xichen could no longer whitewash the peace, he asked: "Since you love me, why do you tell me not to remember you in the next life? I want to be with you forever, but you refuse."

"What kind of afterlife is there for a person like me?" Jin Guangyao opened his eyes wide, and his voice was calm, "Jun Zewu, I am a person who is going to hell, even if I am reincarnated, there will be nothing wrong." Decent background. It is enough to drag you down for a lifetime, how can you drag you down in the next life? I hope that in the next life you will forget about me, find someone who is truly worthy of your love, and live a happy life with her."

Lan Xichen didn't answer any more, just stared at Jin Guangyao steadfastly. Although Jin Guangyao couldn't see him, he knew that Lan Xichen was looking at him. He was a little scared, so he didn't dare to speak.

The late summer wind blew by, the eaves bells were tinkling, and like a tide of light rain drifted into the corridor, soaking their clothes, Jin Guangyao shuddered, slowly stretched out his hand, touched Lan Xichen's face, and stretched his sleeves for him. Wipe the water droplets on the eyebrows and eyelashes gently, with a little flattery: "Mr. Zewu, this season is warm and cold, don't stand in the wind, be careful of catching cold. I don't want to fly, let's go home. "

Lan Xichen refused to move, so Jin Guangyao had no choice but to pull his sleeves with both hands, but fortunately he pulled them, and Lan Xichen shook his hands instead, leading him into the cold room.

As soon as he stepped into the threshold of the inner room, he stepped on a soft object. Lan Xichen looked down and saw that one of his feet was just on top of a white badger's head, so he quickly retracted his foot.

Lan Xichen had once counted on Doctor Bai to be able to save Jin Guangyao after he became an Earth Immortal, but life, old age, sickness and death are the laws of heaven, and even if Doctor Bai became a Daluo Jinxian, his own lifespan is limited, and it is not easy to interfere with the laws of heaven.

The flesh and bones of the living dead are always just illusory legends.

After a few polite words, Doctor Bai pushed a piece of yellow paper in front of Lan Xichen: "Mr. Zewu, I am very sorry, I have found a prescription for Lianfangzun's illness long ago, but this prescription has a huge impact. Risky, let Lianfang Zun try this prescription rashly, it may detoxify, or it may cause death."

Lan Xichen's dead heart glowed with hope: "Then why didn't you take it out earlier?"

Doctor Bai said apologetically: "No matter what the outcome is, it will be a complete end, so I can't continue to stay in Yunshen to avoid the thunder disaster. For selfishness, I only use conservative methods to treat Lianfangzun's illness. One day is one day. Thinking about it now, it was not my evil spirit that attracted the thunder, but this selfishness."

"After the thunder tribulation, why didn't you take it out?"

"Because... this method is too risky, and it cannot be used unless it is a last resort."