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Shanshan is an intern nurse. She graduated this year and was assigned to the psychiatric department.

She was broken at first.Every day before going to work, I was always frightened and my hands and feet were cold.Because I don't know what will happen to which patient, whether it is within her control.

In the psychiatric department, countless weird things and stories happen every day, and there have been many strange things that gave her a headache recently.One of them was about a patient named Li Xiangming.

Li Xiangming, male, 29 years old, schizophrenia, depression and anxiety.His situation is more serious, as far as Shanshan knows, there are more than five personalities.

Shanshan began to pay attention to Li Xiangming because at the beginning Shanshan felt that Li Xiangming seemed to be a normal person. He held a copy of "Haizi's Poems" every day, excerpted the next paragraph, and copied it on paper. Like body printing.His hands are also very dexterous, he likes origami, he is good at folding many things, even roses.He likes to collect ropes and plastic wrap, and he carries a "Travel Diary" with him every day, which he said was given to him by his boyfriend.Everyone in the inpatient department knew that Shi Hui was the darker part of Li Xiangming's personality and had suffered more damage.However, this personality seems to have a complicated relationship with Li Xiangming. In Shanshan's words, it means that she has a very close relationship with herself.

"Take it yourself." Ling Lang, Shanshan's best friend and colleague, said quietly.

"Please respect the patient."

"Boss Shan is right."

"I'm Boss Shan, what are you, Mrs. Yazhai?"

"Hee hee, that's right." Linglang fell on Shanshan's body, half pushing and half letting go.

As for why Shanshan and Linglang like to make jokes about Li Xiangming, it is completely a remnant of a high school girl in their bodies.Li Xiangming is tall and handsome, and has a good temperament. It is said that he used to be a designer and is quite famous. If he is not sick, fuck, he is a good boyfriend candidate.

Shanshan met Li Xiangming in the corridor that day, and he was transcribing a poem by the window:

you come to the world

you have to look at the sun

and your sweetheart

walking down the street together

"Your handwriting is so beautiful." Shanshan realized that she was in a nympho after saying this.

"Really, thank you." Li Xiangming pulled out a just right smile, looking sunny and healthy.

After Li Xiangming finished transcribing, he picked up the book and left. He said goodbye to Shanshan in a gentlemanly manner.

Shanshan looked at Li Xiangming's back and suddenly remembered the "Prince of Basketball" she had a crush on in high school. Yes, that was the nickname of Mary Sue at that time.

Li Xiangming is tall and thin. He walks with a limp. It is said that he was injured when he was a child.Shanshan suddenly feels a little bit emotional about this person, who should have had a better life.She remembered that it was written in Li Xiangming's file that he was sexually abused by his stepfather when he was young, what a fucking beast.Shanshan cursed secretly, then turned her head and saw that the spring was just outside, and she made an appointment to go to the playground with Linglong on the weekend, and she couldn't help but start to look forward to it.

Life in the psychiatry department is very new and has many challenges, but after a long time, there are actually not many new things. Recently, Li Xiangming is taking medication. It is said that his different personalities have begun to fight each other. He still has psychological appointments every other time. I hope we can compare them. The positive personality is preserved, or the personality that can coexist harmoniously is preserved.

Shihui this personality is the first to kill.But they failed.The situation became uncontrollable for a time, and the hospital decided to erase a memory of Li Xiangming.

Li Xiangming was pushed into the operating room at noon on June 6, and the operation began at 23:14. Until 27:6 on June 25, Li Xiangming's memory was successfully erased. He is now 16 years old in his own memory. The identity is the occupation of one of the personalities: policeman.

"Handsome Li will be discharged from the hospital next month."

"Have you recovered yet?"

"Handsome Li's operation has ended for more than half a year, and his condition is almost the same. He probably needs to go home for recuperation."

Linglang's internship ended early due to some things, and the two occasionally communicated and gossiped on WeChat.

"There is another piece of explosive news!!!"

Shanshan used three exclamation points in this sentence, she is not usually an excited person, so Linglang was at home at home with Ge Youtan playing the TV as background music, swiping her pad and Shanshan’s WeChat, when she saw this sentence, she immediately sat up straight Just wait for the next hop WeChat.

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"Our inpatient department really transferred a doctor named Shihui! And this person is really similar to the person in Li Xiangming's previous records, damn it! I was so scared, you know! It feels like the wall of dimension has been knocked down It's so scary!" Shanshan spoke excitedly, 23 seconds.

"!!!" Linglang was so frightened that the pad almost fell to the ground, halfway through her wechat, only a loud "ah!"

"Hey, on the first day that doctor named Shihui came, everyone stared at him hahaha, he looked confused, you know, hahaha, I laughed so hard."

That day, it was time to go back to work on the first day after graduating from Ph.D.

His experience on the first day of employment was not good, because he felt that the atmosphere around him was particularly strange.

Everyone looked at him very differently, like, looking at a... a different kind?

He checked his clothes 11 times that day and found that there was no problem. It was strange, why is the doctor weirder than the patient?

So when No. 12 saw himself in the mirror, he said, "Fuck, is it because I am so handsome?" He looked at himself in the mirror and was discouraged. I have received a lot of praise for my appearance since I was a child, but it is not like this, which is really strange.

Then he decided to forget it, leave it alone, and he would be fine if he had no problems.

He came out relaxed, intending to say hello to other colleagues, in order to ease the tense and weird atmosphere.He was wandering in the corridor when a figure suddenly came into his sight.

That person was thin and tall, but there was an inexplicable sense of familiarity.

Where have you seen it?acquaintance?Shi Hui quickly collected the information in his brain, and the search results showed: No such person was found.

strangeness.Shi Hui decided to walk over, the man turned his head when he heard the sound, and he looked at him, frowning slightly.There was a small scar under the corner of the man's left eye, but it wasn't very conspicuous, so he looked more handsome and comfortable.

It is now certain that he has never seen this person before, his memory is not bad, and he is quite sensitive to the memory of faces.

But Shi Hui could clearly feel the strangeness of his emotions, and there seemed to be a trace of inexplicable excitement and anticipation in his heart, like reunion after a long absence.

Shi Hui is very wary of this kind of feeling. He clearly knows that it should be related to his past experience. People inexplicably like someone is the same as hating someone. In fact, in many cases, the subconscious is combined with past information to reprocess and shape emotions. .

But at that moment, he let go of this feeling, and he didn't want to think too much about the beautiful parts of his life.

So he just looked at the person opposite, and he found that the person was also looking at him.

Shi Hui felt that their previous atmosphere seemed a bit strange, so he spoke first: Hello, my name is Shi Hui.

Then, he heard the man look at him, smiled as if he was a little sorry for being so rude, and said: Hello, my name is Li Xiangming.

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